NOW I AM LIKE YOU, JUST LIKE YOU

Now we are all alike

Non caring, non loving, non fighting

A.H'S

Now we say,"hello, how are you ?"

And the other person says,"Hello, how are you ?"

'Fine." We say

'Fine." the other person says

Now we are all fine

"Isn't that fine?"

"Its fine."

"Everything is fine."

I wish it would have been like this long time ago

I wish I learned

I wish I was as distanced as all of them,  A.H'S

I cried and craweled

I begged and wept

I fought and fought and fought

'Lets be loving>"

I begged

'Lets be together."

I said

"Lets be not so selfish."

I said

'lets take care of the property."

'lets not sell our land."

Lets not sell our ancestor's house."

I said

Y"You are a trouble maker."

They said

"You are nothing but trouble."

They said

"Whenever you are around there is fighting."

They said

"When ever you are around there is no peace."

They said

They went ahaed

They sold it all

Their birth place for pennies

I wonder what they bought with those few pennies

They never wanted me to have a place there

Thats what they were after

They were vicious

They were really vicious....

They were nasty to me

Really nasty to me....

I didsdn't understand

So stupid

So naive

So innocent

So childlike in my love of them

So childlike in my loneliness.....

In a foreign land

So alone

Like a bird with no wings at all

Helpless

Sorrowful

Wandering around

Not knowing what to do

Never knowing what to do

With all the ambition and dreams

The immobility set in

Desire to do

To move 

To achieve

To accomplish

Was there

But no movement...no movement...no movement.......

Movement was paralysed

Didn't know that it was Paralyzed

Didn't know that it was paralyzed

Didn't know that it was paralyzed

Kept looking back

For some kind of fondness

Some kind of affection

Some kind of togetherness

Some kind of love........

Instead of moving along

Moving ahead withthe times

Moving on

Kept looking back

Kept looking back

Kept looking back

There was no body there....

No house....

No parents.....

No neighbors....

No brothers and sisters.....

No friends.....

No body.....

No, there was no body there

They have disappeared long time ago....

Long time ago.......

A long time ago.......

A long long time ago........

I haven't noticed

I was blind

I didn't notice

I couldn't have noticed

I was blind by my fondness for them

Blind by my love for them

Blind by my affection for them

Blind by my blood bond for them.....

But I should have cut all ties with them

They were not worth it

There were too many sad events

There were too many complications

I should have cut all blood bonds with them

They were not worth my time, my energy, my emotions, my life.....

I should have cut all blood bonds with them.....

But I didn't

I didn't because I didn't know that I could have....

I didn't know that I could have become like them

Cold, calculating, selfish, greedy, non caring, non loving, non being....

I didn't know that I could have been like them

Totally distanced

Totally indifferent

Totally self loving

Totally self absorbed.....

I didn't know that I could become just like them...........

People don't see their blood relation for long time

They cut the cord...once and for all

They become like them.....

They don't care...

They become like them.....

They don't care.....

They just don't care...................

Just like them.....

Just like you.......

Now I am just like you

I wish I became just like you a decade ago

I wish that I became just like you two decades ago

I wish I became like you three decades ago

I wish I became just like you at my birth

Then there will be no problems between us

Then there will be no complaints between us

Then there will be no hurt on any side...........

But you weren't hurt? 

Were you ?

I am tasking you....

You weren't hurt

You were born differnt

Tough, calculating, non caring, non loving, selfish..............

You never loved me.....

None of you.................

You never loved me...........

None of you..........

Never,,,,,,,,,

My humiliation is that I loved you so much

I only loved you...........

I didn't move with the time

I stood still and loved you..............

And the time kept passing..........

The decades kept passing..............

I stood still and loved you.................

But now I don't love you

Now I am like you........

Just like you..........

Now I am like you

Like all of you............

Just like you..........

NOW IAM LIKE YOU, JUST LIKE YOU