WASTE

WASTE

Wasn't wasteland written by T.'S. ELIOT?

WHAT A WASTEFUL DAY, WHAT A WASTEFUL NIGHT!

WHAT A WASTEFUL DAY, WHAT A WASTEFUL NIGHT!

Every day I say,

I will do this

I will do that

Every day I do the same, nothingness

Next day I say,

I will do this

I will do that

Every day I do the same, nothingness

then the next day I say,

I will do this

I will do that

Tomorrow I will do this

Tomorrow I will do that

Then tomorrow comes

and then...

Then every tomorrow I do the same, nothingness

Then the next day I say,

Tomorrow I will do this

Tomorrow I will do that

Then every tomorrow I do the same, nothingness.............

I wonder what's wrong with me?

I for sure don't know what's wrong with me...

But for sure something is wrong with me

Something hugely important

Something of immense immense importance is wrong with me

Time, the most valuable thing in life

I waste

I waste

I waste

So sad that I can't stop wasting time...

Time which will never come back...

From where ever its been gone

Time, which will never come back...
f the fact that
I waste that time

I wish I will stop

Stop wasting my cherished time

My valuable property

My most important thing in this life

In only one life...

I keep wasting...

I am aware of the fact that I am wasting my time...

But I can't stop...

Oh! how I wish that I would stop

Wasting my time...

But I can't...

It's become an addiction

Like people on their phones

Like people on social media

like people on Instagram

Like the addiction of drugs

Like the addiction of alcohol

I have none of that...

But still waste my time

I don't know how?

But I know I waste a hell of my time

Then I say,

Tomorrow I will do this

Tomorrow I will do that

But then tomorrow I do the same

Nothingness.........

One day I realized that while I was with a very successful business man, a friend...

I realized that I while I was lamenting about the demise of the world, the wars, the persecution,

of innocent people, killings, murders, corruption, political turmoils, climate change, sex trafficing,

hunger in the third world, persecution of Muslims in Kashmir, China, Afghanistan, Western world,

Arab world, poverty, floods, lack of respect for the artist,  every other problem in the world,

HE KEPT COUNTING BUNDLE OF HIS MONEY...JUST NODDING HIS HEAD ONCE IN A

WHILE AS IF HE WAS PAYING ATTENTION TO WAHT I WAS SAYING BUT HE WAS

COMPLETELY OBLIVIOUS ABOUT WHAT I WAS SAYING....

AND I REALIZED HOW I WAS WASTING MY TIME

HOW I HAVE WASTED MY VALUABLE TIME

TIME WHICH WILL NEVER COME BACK

AND HOW I MUST STOP WASTING MY TIME ON PEOPLE LIKE HIM WITH SO MUCH

MONEY...MONEY WHICH COMES EVERY DAY UNLIKE TIME, WHICH NEVER COMES

BACK....MONEY FOR BUSINESS ALWAYS COMING BACK....BUT TALKING TO MONEY

PEOPLE WHOSE CONCERN IS NOTHING BUT MONEY, THAT TIME, TALKING TO THEM

THE MONEY PEOPLE WHO HAVE NO OTHER CONCERN THAN MONEY....

THAT WASTEFUL TIME, THAT PARTICULAR TIME...WHAT A WASTE OF THAT

CHERISHED TIME OF MINE...

THERAPY OF A DREAM PLAY

THERAPY OF A DREAM PLAY

PLACE:  NYC

A BUILDING IN THE EAST VILLAGE

SYBIL JOHNSON:  A PLAYWRIGHT

PAUL:  A NEIGBOR OF SYBIL

TIME:  PRESENT

SET:

A WRITING TABLE ANDA CHAIR CENTER STAGE

A LOVE SEAT UPSTAGE LEFT

LOTS OF BOOKS ON THE FLOOR

A HUGE BAG FULL OF SCRIPTS ON THE FLOOR NEXT TO THE BOOKS

SOME SCRIPTS ON THE TABLE.

A FEW BOKS ON THE TABLE, ONE OF THEM IS BY ALBERT CAMUS

DIRECTIONS:

LIGHTS COME UP

SYBIL WALKS IN...

SEARCHING FROM THE HUGE BAG ON THE FLOOR

THEN GOES TO THE TABLE AND LOOKS AT SOME SCRIPTS

PICK UP CAMUS BOOK AND STARTS TO READ FROM IT.

THERAPY OF A DREAM PLay

THERAPY OF A DEAM PLAY

NOTE BOOK 5

NOTE BOOK 5

"I MUST REJOICE BEYOND THE BOUNDS OF TIME,
THOUGH THE WORLD MAY SHUDDER AT MY JOY,
AND ITS COARSENESS, KNOW NOT WHAT I MEAN"        Jan Van Ruysbroeck

PETRONIUS

'SHREWED OSERVER
MARVELOUS PAINER
DISPASSIONATELY, WITH AN ENTIRE LACK OF PREJUDICE OR ANIMOSITY,
HE DESCRIBES THE EVERY DAY LIFE OF ROME, RECORDING THE MANNERS AND MORALS IN THE LIVELY LITTLE  CHAPTERS OF SATYRICON."      Huysmans

'TALK TO NO ONE
SEE NO ONE
INDULGE NO ONE
THINK OF YOUR PRECIOUS TIME BEFORE MAKING ANY COMMITMENTS WITH ANY ONE
WRITE REVIEWS

PLAYS SEEN IN DUBLIN
GLASS MENAGRIE
2417
OVER RIDE
LAUGH
COTTON FINGERS

USE YOUR TIME WELL
LEARN TECH
BUY SMART PHONE

SINCE NO OTHER PAST ADVICE BY ME FOR ME HAS WORKED SO FAR...

THE BRAND NEW ADVICE BY ME FOR MYSELF

"DO ONLY WHAT YOU LIKE TO DO...NOT WHAT YOU SHOULD DO

RIGHT NOW I LIKE TO SIT HERE AND READ INSTEAD OF GOING TO THE MUSEUM

SO DO NOT WORRY ABOUT IT, JUST SIT HERE AT SHELLBOURNE AND READ

MUSEUM CAN WAIT...MUSEUM WILL ALWAYS BE THERE...

YES, BT I WON'T BE HERE IN DUBLIN AND THE MUSEUM I THOUGHT I WOULD LIKE

TO GO TO IS HERE IN DUBLIN...

THEN GO TO THE MUSEUM...

BUT I DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING RIGHT NOW...I FEEL LIKE READING THIS INTERESTING

BOOK..AGAINST NATURE ALSO CALLED THE YELLOW BOOK BY OSCAR WILDE IN HIS
BOOK, PICTURE OF DORIAN GRAY."

THEN JUST READ THE BOOK AND DON'T FEEL BAD ABOUT GOING OR NOT GOING TO

THE MUSEUM...I JUST TOLD YOU EARLIER THAT YOU SHOULD DO WHAT YOU FEEL

LIKE DOING AND NOT DO WHAT YOU SHOULD BE DOING...

ENJOYING YOUR SELF SHOULDN'T BE A DUTY...

RELAX AND ENJOY YOUR TIME THE WAY YOU WANT, THE WAY YOU LIKE...

PUT NO CONDITIONS ON YOUR SELF...

EIHER GET UP AND GO TO THE MUSEUM OR JUST READ YOUR BOOK AND ENJOY

YOURSELF.  I REMEMBER YOU ALWAYS HAVING DIFFICULTY MAKING CHOICES

SINCE SN EARLY AGE...IT REFLECTS SOME KIND OF GUILT..DO YOU HAVE GUILT?

I MUST, SINCE YOU SAY SO AND YOU ARE MY LIFE LONG THERAPIST AND

OBVIOUSLY

NOT A VERY GOOD ONE SINCE I AM THE SAME AND HAVE EXACTLY THE SAME

DIFFICULTIES SINCE MY CHILDHOOD...WHY AM I PAYING YOU?

BUT THATS A JOKE...BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT PAYING ME, YOU HAVE NEVER PAID

ME...ITS LIKE WORKING IN NON PROFIT THEATER...NO PAY...NEVER ANY PAY...WE

ARE NON PROFIT...SO WHY THE FUCK YOU DON'T CLOSE YOUR NON PROFIT

THEATERS?  BECAUSE  WE DO MAKE PROFIT FOR OURSELF, WHAT WE MEAN BY

PROFIT IS THAT WE JUST PAY OURSELVES AND SINCE WE ARE NON PROIT WE CAN'T

PAY ANY ONE ELSE...THATS WHY WE CAN'T CLOSE, WE HAVE A REGULAR CHECK COMING EVERY WEEK...ITS OUR LIVELY HOOD...AND ME?  WHAT ABOUT ME?

WHAT ABOUT YOU?

WHAT ABOUT MY CHECK?

WHO TOLD YOU THAT YOU ARE GOING TO GET A CHECK?

OH! I THOUGHT...

YOU THOUGHT WRONG...WE TOLD YOU, "WE ARE NON -PROFIT, THAT MEANT THAT

YOU WON'T GET A CHECK...ONLY WE WILL GET A CHECK...DO YOU UNDERSTAND?

"OH1 EVERYTHING IS SO CONFUSING HERE IN AMERICA...

"NOTHING IS CONFUSING.  EVERYTHING IS CRYSTAL CLEAR..."PROFIT IS ONLY FOR

AMERICA AND ITS INSTITUTIONS  EVEN IF THEY ARE NON=PROFIT..

"WHY SHOULD YOU CALL IT NON-PROFIT WHEN YOU ARE GETTING PROFIT??

"YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND BECAUSE YOU ARE AN OUTSIDER, YOU ARE NOT AN

AMERICAN...THIS IS HOW IT WORKS HERE, TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT...

I THINK AS YOUR LIFE LONG THERAPIST, YOU SHOULD LEAVE IT...GO SOME PLACE

WHERE YOU GET THE CHECK...

WHERE?

BE IN-CHARGE OF A NON -PROFIT THEATER...

THATS A GOOD ADVICE...BUT I AM OUTSIDER AND ONLY AN AMERICAN CAN BE

IN-CHARGE OF A NON-PROFIT THEATER...

OH! PLEASE, GET OUT OF THIS BULL SHIT THEATER BULL SHIT...

SIT DOWN AND READ YOUR BOOK, THE ONE YOU WEE READING BEFORE YOU

ASKED FOR MY ADVICE...

I NEVER ASKED FOR YOUR ADVICE, YOU JUST KEEP GIVING IT TO ME...YOU ARE THE

MONKEY ON MY BACK...

"I AM A SMART MONKEY, LISTEN TO ME AND YOU WON'T FAIL...

"TOO LATE...

"NEVER TOO LATE IF YOU LISTEN TO ME...

"LET ME REPEAT MYSELF

TALK TO NO ONE

SEE NO ONE

INDULGE NO ONE

THINK OF YOUR PRECIOUS TIME BEFORE YOU MAKE ANY COMMITMENT TO ANY

ONE OR ANYTHING...

"DO WHAT YOU LIKE TO DO AND NOT WHAT YOU SHOULD DO AND I TELL YOU DO

NO THEATER..JUST GO AND GET A CHECK SOMEHOW...

"THEATER IS OUT...CHECK IS IN...AND IF THE CHECK IS NOT IN...THEATER IS STILL

OUT...NOW WHAT WERE WE TALKING ABOUT?"

"I DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING"

"THEN DO NOTHING...ABSOLUTELY NOTHING...IF YOU DO, THE CHECK DOESN'T COME AND IF YOU DON'T DO THE CHECK DOESN'T COME...SO WHAT THE FUCK...DO NOTHING. LISTEN TO YOUR FEELING...YOUR FEELING IS THE ONLY THING WHICH MATTER ESPECIALLY RIGHT NOW AND NOW I AM GOING TO SAY GOOD NIGHT...I NEED REST MYSELF...THERAPISTS NEED SOME SLEEP AS WELL...SEE YOU TOMORROW...REST, GO TO BED...SLEEP IS THE ONLY BALM TO THE CONFUSED...

END OF THERAPY SESSION

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BINA SHARIF'S NOTE BOOKS CONTINUES

SYBIL GOES TO A THERAPIST TO TAKE CARE OF HER DESPAIR.

ADVICE OF A THERAPIST:

THERAPIST:

LIFE IS NOT JUST AN ISOLATED EVENT

IT HAS ITS ELEMENTS

LIFE'S VICTORIES AND DEFEATS, AILMENTS,

HEALTH, SICKNESS,, ACHIEVEMENTS, HEARTACHES,

 DEATH EVEN...

UNPREDICTABLY OF THE NEXT MOMENT...

ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN.

YOU CAN'T CONTROL YOUR LIFE FULLY

NOTHING CAN BE AVOIDED...

IT WILL HAPPEN IF ITS SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN

DOESN'T MEAN THAT ONE CAN'T BE OPTIMISTIC

OPTIMISTIC AT LEAST SOME TIME...

YES, POSITIVE THINKING IS GOOD

POSITIVE THINKING IS A PLUS FOR SURE...

BUT EVERY MOMENT IS NOT IN THE THINKING

ITS IN ITS ACTION...

MOMENT IS MOBILE

ITS NOT STILL

ITS NOT SITTING AND THINKING

ITS NOT AN INTELLECTUAL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THE

MEANINGLESS LIFE...

ITS ACTION BASED

AND ITS ACTION IS A SECRET.

SECRET FROM ALL OF US.

NO ONE KNOWS WHERE THE NEXT MOMENT WILL LEAD US...

WE, OF COURSE WANT IT TO LEAD US TO VICTORIES,

WEALTH, PERFECT HEALTH, FAME, ENTERTAINMENT, FORTUNE

BUT HOW CAN IT BE SO PERFECT, THE MOMENT i MEAN?
THIS WORLD'S
HOW CAN ONE PREDICT THAT ALMOST PERFECT MOMENT

WON'T LEAD US TO A HOSPITAL BECAUSE OF AN UN-FORTUNATE ACCIDENT?

SUDDEN ILLNESS, A CRASH, FAILURE, DISAPPOINTMENTS?

THE WHOLE LIFE CAN CHANGE IN THT FUTURISTIC MOMENT...

ONE NEVER WISHES FOR THAT MISFORTUNE...

ONE EXPECTS TO BE SAFE, HAPPY, SUCCESSFUL.

BUT WE ARE LINKED TO THE FATE OF THE UNIVERSE. LIKE CAMUS SAID...

ALBERT CAMUS, THE GREAT PHILOSOPHER AND WRITER SAID,

"KNOWING THAT THERE ARE NO VICTORIOUS CAUSES,

I HAVE A LIKING FOR LOST CAUSES.

THEY REQUIRE AN UN-CONTAMINATED SOUL EQUAL

TO ITS DEFEAT AND ITS TEMPORARY VICTORIES.

THIS WORLD'S CLASH OF CIVILIZATION HAS

SOMETHING AGONIZING ABOUT IT.

I HAVE MADE THAT ANGUISH MINE."     Camus

SO ACCORDING TO CAMUS, WE ARE ALL LINKED TO THE WORLD

AND THE WORLD HAS MANY ILLS IN IT...

WARS, TORTURE, POVERTY, INJUSTICE, DISEASE

KILLINGS, BRUTALITY, CLASH OF CIVILIZATION AND THATS HOW

THE UN-PREDICTABILITY OF THE MOMENT IS LINKED TO ALL THE THINGS

HAPPENING IN THE WORLD.

WHEN ONE TRIPS ON AN UNEVEN FOOTPATH, THE OBSTACLES OF URBAN LIVING.

THAT TRIPPING IS LINKED TO THE FATE OF THE WORLD.

THE LEADER OF THE WORLD WHERE ONE TRIPPED HAS NOT FIXED THE FOOTPATH

FOOTPATH OF THE CITY AND THE COUNTRY HE RULES.

HE LEAVES IT UPTO YOU TO BE CAREFUL.

HOW CAREFUL ONE CAN BE WHEN THE PATHS WHERE YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO WALK

TO GO HOME SAFE IS FULL OF CRACKS, HOLES, ROUGH EDGES, ALL CAUSES OF

TRIPPING...UNEVEN EDGES WHICH ARE THERE BUT CAN'T BE SEEN...

UNTILL YOU HAVE TRIPPED. FALLEN, BROKEN SOME BONES, AND TAKEN TO

THE HOSPITAL...

YOUR FATE IS NOW LINKED TO THE UN-EVEN, ROTTEN, UNFIXED, NEGLECTED

SIDEWALK WHICH NEEDED URGENT REPAIRS BUT THE LEADER OF THE CITY

NEVER BOTHERED TO FIX IT....

DID YOU WANT TO FALL?

DID YOU WANT TO BREAK YOUR BONES?

WAS IT IN YOUR CONTROL TO FALL OR NOT TO FALL?

YES, OR NO?

DID YOU NOT KEEP YOUR EYES GLUED TO THE GROUND FOR EVERY UN-EVEN,

BROKEN SECTION OF THE FOOTPATH OR YOU KEPT LOOKING UP ALL ALONG?

ITS YOUR FAULT IF YOU DIDN'T COUNT ALL THE RAISED EDGES WHILE WALKING

ITS YOUR FAULT FOR LOOKING UP AT THE TREES AND NOT AT THE GROUND

WHILE WALKING...

BUT IF YOU NEVER LOOKED UP AND CONCENTRATED ON THE HOLES IN THE

FOOTPATH YOU MIGHT HAVE BEEN HIT BY THE MAN HOLDING HIS iPHONE

WHO NEVER LOOKED UP FROM HIS SCREEN....

HE SURE WILL BUMP INTO YOU AND POKE HIS ELBOW IN YOUR EYE

AND YOU WOULD HAVE TO BE TAKEN TO THE HOSPITAL WHERE THE DOCTOR

AFTER TAKING YOUR CO-PAY IN CASE YOU ARE INSURED WILL CLODLY DECLARE

THAT YOU HAVE LOST YOUR EYE...AND ITS YOUR FAULT BECAUSE YOU WERE

NOT CAREFUL...

BUT THE AMAZING THING IS THAT THE MAN GLUED TO THE SCREEN OF HIS iPHONE

UN-AWARE OF THER'S EXISTENCE IS ALSO PART OF THE FATE OF THE WORLD.

THE WORLD WHICH HAS RUTHLESS, GREEDY, SELFISH LEADERS, SELF ABSORBED

SELF LOVING PEOPLE WALKING AROUND OBLIVIOUS OF ANY CURTSEY, AND THE

BROKEN DOWN CIVILIZATION,  HORROR OF RACISM, RELIGIOUS WARS,

BROKEN DOWN ROADS ON TOP OF THAT, THE ROADS WHICH ARE SUPPOSED TO TAKE

YOU SAFELY TO YOUR VERY UN-SAFE APTS.

HOW CAN ONE LIVE IN THE WORLD AND NOT BE CONNECTED TO IT?

SO YOUR ANGUISH,, YOUR DESPAIR, YOUR DEPRESSION, YOUR SORROW, YOUR

SADNESS, YOUR SENSE OF LOSS OF CONTROL OVER YOUR LIFE IS NOT  YOUR FAULT

ITS ACTUALLY THE FAULT OF THE WORLD, THE WORLD WHICH HAS FAILED YOU

AT EVERY MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE.

SO YOUR ANGUISH, YOUR DISAPPOINTMENTS,  YOUR DESPAIR CAN NOT BE TREATED

BECAUSE ITS NT YOURS ALONE...ITS THE DESPAIR OF THE WORLD, ITS THE DESPAIR

CAUSED BY THE EVIL WORLD AND YOU DON'T HAVE ENOUGH DOLLARS TO PAY ME

TO CURE THE CURE THE ILLNESS CAUSED BY THE CHAOS, ANGUISH AND DESPAIR

OF  THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD.

AND FOR THAT KIND OF HUGE TREATMENT THE BILL WILL BE HUGE AS WELL.

SO WHEN YOU HAVE SOME ACESS TO A BILLION DOLLARS AND YOU ARE STILL

ALIE, COME BACK AND SEE ME SOMETIME...

THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD

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BINA SHARIF'S NOTEBOOKS CONTINUES

"DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT
A
PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF

3RD AND THE LAST PART OF DREAM TRILOGY PLAYS.

THE FIRST ONE WAS:

1 :PARANOIA OF A DREAM:  PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC 2016

2: "DREAM WITHIN A DREAM"  PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC 2018

3:  "DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT" TO BE PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC IN DECEMBER 2019

EXERCISES AND EXPERIMENTS TO ERITE THE CURRENT PLAY,

"DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT"

"YOU HAVE BEEN TAKING INTEREST IN THE MOST INSIGNIFICANT OF THINGS." ?

"LONGING TO SEE NO MORE PICTURES OF THE HUMAN FORM TOILING IN PARIS

BETWEEN FOUR WALLS OR ROAMING THE STREETS IN SEARCH OF MONEY-HAS

TAKEN AN INCREASING TOLL ON HIM."  Husysmans

"ONCE HE CUT HIMSELF OFF FROM CONTEMPORARY  LIFE, HE HAD RESOLVED TO

ALLOW NOTHING TO ENTER HIS HERMITAGE WHICH MIGHT BREED REPUGNANCE

 OR REGRET."   Husymans  from his novel, AGAINST NATURE.

"DIVORCED FROM MODERN TIMES AND MODERN SOCIETY."   Husymans

"LASCIVIOUS DNCE, CRY OF LUST AND LECHERY."      Husymans

"GUSTAVE MOREAU, THE ARTIS OF, "THE PICTURE OF SALOME."

"SHAKE UP YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM BY MEANS OF ERUDITE FANCIES."   Husymans

"BASILICA BUILT IN BOTH MOSLEM AND THE BYZANTINE STYLE."   Husymans

"ALL KINDS OF FAME ARE EPHERAL, ESPECIALLY ACTORS."   Camus

"INDIFFERENCE IS PROFOUND VIOBILITY."   Camus

"NOTHING INTERESTS A MAN THAN HIMSELF."    Camus

"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?

HOW COME YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED IN YOURSELF?"  BS

"MODERN SUCCESS IS ABOUT TAKING, NOT GIVING. "   BS

PROLOGUE:  DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT

NO ONE IS FREE.

NO ONE IS 100% FREE.

O MAN, NO WOMAN IS TOTALL FREE

THEY ARE ALONE BUT NOT FREE."

NO ONE IS GOING ANYWHERE...

THEY ARE ALL GOING HOME TO DO THE SAME MUNDANE CHORES.

"OH! JUST FORGET IT...THEY JUST PROMOTE THEIR GROUP."

"SO OK, THEY BECOME RICH AND FAMOUS AND THEN WHAT?"
THE FACE OF DEATH
"THEN WHAT?"

THAT'S THYOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE?E ONLY SOLID QUESTION."

THE BEST WAY TO BE IS NOT TO TALK MUCH AT ALL, NOT TO TALK

ABOUT SUCCESS, A STALE SUBJECT.  NOT TO TALK ABOUT FAILURE EITHER...

EVERYONE HAS FAILED IN THE FACE OF DEATH....OH! YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE?

HOW WONDERFUL.  I FORGOT, PARDON ME...I FORGOT FOR A WHILE HOW

INCREDIBLY SUCCESSFUL GOOD FOR YOU. YOU ARE...YOU SEEM REALLY STABLE

COMPARED TO THE OTHER ONE.  GOOD FOR YOU.  DEATH WON'T DARE APPROACH

YOU.

HE WILL WRITE A BOOKTO BE NOTHING." 

HE WILL GIVE READINGS

HE WILL DELIVER SPEECHES

HE WILL BE INVITED BY THE ACADEMY

HE WILL MAKE MILLIONS

HE WILL HAVE FAME AND FORTUNE

AND THEN WAHT?

AND THEN WHAT?

"ALL HUMAN BEINGS TRAVEL THE DEAD--END---PATH."  Camus

"IN THE MODERN WORLD, I APPLIED MYSELF WHOLE HEARTEDLY TO BE NOTHING." Camus

"NARROWER THE LIMIT YOU TO SUBMIT TO."S ALLOTTED HIM, THE MORE

NECESSARY HIS TALENT." Camus

'CAN'T GIVE UP.

CAN'T BE BEATEN DOWN BY THE OTHER...THE OTHER OTHER...

"A WRITER HAS SOME HOPE EVEN WHEN HE IS NOT APPRECIATED."   Camus

"NOT FEWER THAN FOUR MADMEN.

ONE BY TRADE

ANOTHER BY INTENTION

AND THE LAST TWO BY SUFFERING."   Camus

"IMMOBILITY ITSELF BECOMES SPECTACULAR."  BS

"I NEED TO BE SILENT FOR A WHILE.

(Silence during the play)

"SILENCES MUST MAKE THEMSELVES HEARD."  Camus

(Silence during the play)

"THAT ABSURD CONTRADICTION OF THE INDIVIDUAL WHO WANTS TO ACHIEVE

EVERYTHING AND LIVE EVERYTHING, THAT USELESS ATTEMPT, THAT INEFFECTUAL

PERSISTENCE."    Camus

"CLASH OF CIVILIZATION HAS SOMETHING AGONIZING ABOUT IT...

I HAVE MADE THAT ANGUISH MINE."   Camus

Silence

MY WRITING TEACHER TOLD ME TO READ CAMUS BESIDE MANY OTHER WRITERS

BUT FOR SURE CAMUS BECAUSE HE WILL HELP YOU TO LEARN, "NOT TO PERSIST TO

GET WHAT IS IN OTHER PEOPLE'S CONTROL..OTHER PEOPLE WHO WILL NEVER GIVE

IT TO YOU FOR WHATEVER REASON...PERSIST TO GET AND ACHIEVE WHAT'S IN

YOUR OWN CONTROL." Camus

Silence

CAN'T SUBMIT TO WHAT THE OTHER WANTS OF YOU...ANY OTHER...ALL OTHERS.

Silence

NO ONE WANTS YOU TO WRITE ANOTHER PLAY

BUT YOU MUST IGNORE ALL OTHERS...

AND WRITE YOUR PLAY

YOU ARE A PLAYWRIGHT

RIGHT?

RIGHT...

THEN WRITE THE PLAY...

I AM WRITING...

NO, YOU ARE ONLY TALKING ABOUT CAMUS...

THAT'S THE INSPIRATION...MY WRITING TEACHER TOLD ME TO READ HIM

BUT NOW YOU HAVE TO WRITE

WRITE WAHT?

YOUR PLAY

I AM DREAMING ABOUT WRITING ONE

YOUR DREAM IS LASTING TOO LONG

NOT LONG AT ALL...THE PLAY HAS TO BE AT LEAST 75 MINUTES LONG AND IT'S 

15 MINUTES INTO THE PLAY...SO FAR..

BUT THERE IS NO PLAY YET...

LEAVE ME ALONE...YOU ARE ALWAYS BOTHERING ME...

THE TITLE OF THE PLAY IS, "DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT."

AND DREAMS ARE JUST DREAMS...IF NOTHING COMES OUT OF IT

I CAN ALWAYS SAY, "IT WAS JUST A DREAM."

AUDIENCE WON'T LIKE THAT...

THERE IS HARDLY ANY AUDIENCE AT MY PLAYS, HAT USED TO BE MYTHATS A PLUS, I DON'T HAVE
BTBT
TO WORRY ABOUT THE AUDIENCE ANY MORE...
 PLAYS
YOU SEE IN THE OLDER DAYS I ALWAYS THOUGHT OF THE AUDIENCE...

EVERY TIME I WENT OUT TO SEE A PLAY WRITTEN BY LGBT PEOPLE I WAS ALWHE PLAYSAYS SO IMPRESSED BECAUSE THEY HAD FULL HOUSES, FULL, FULL HOUSES, THEIR FANS CAME TO SEE THEIR PLAYS AGAIN AND AGAIN AND I ALWAYS WANTED A FULL HOUSE...THAT WAS MY DREAM THEN BUT NO ONLY THREE OR FOUR PEOPLE  AT THE MOST FROM LGBT GROUP CAME TO SEE MY PLAYS  AND I BECAME SO DEPRESSED THAT I STOPPED WRITING THE PLAYS AND THEN MY WRITING TEACHER,
(BY THE WAY, I NEVER TOOK WRITING CLASSES BUT IN MY DESPERATION I IMAGINED A TEACHER AND SOUGHT HER ADVICE HOW TO GET A FULL HOUSE LIKE THE LGBT PLAYWRIGHTS AND SHE SAID, " FORGET ABOUT THEM.  THEY ARE NOT COMING TO FILL YOUR HOUSE, YOU ARE NOT GAY...YOU HAVE TO BE GAY AND YOUR SUBJECT MATTER HAS TO BE GAY AS WELL FOR YOU TO FILL YOUR HOUSE...JUST FORGET ABOUT THE AUDIENCE OF ANY KIND AND WRITE YOUR PLAYS AND PERFORM THEM IN THE INTIMACY OF SILENCE...AND WHO WILL INSPIRE YOU ABOUT THAT WILL BE CAMUS....
AND I SAID, "OH! CAMUS, ALBERT CAMUS WHO WROTE THE BOOK, THE "STRANGER" AND SHE SAID, "YES, EXACTLY...AND I SAID, " I LOVE THAT BOOK, THE STRANGER
BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS FELT LIKE A STRANGER AFTER LIVING HERE FOR 38 SOME YEARS...AND SHE SAID, THATS YOUR TEACHER FROM NOW ON AND I BET YOU AFTER READING HIM YOU WILL HAVE A PLAY WRITTEN FOR SURE, AUDIENCE OR NO AUDIENCE...AND SINCE THEN I HAVE WRITTEN EVERYTHING HE EVER WROTE
AND HE IS SO IMMENSE THAT EVERY TIME I SIT DOWN TO WRITE MY PLAY AFTER READING HIM I FEEL, HOW DARE I MATCH MY WORDS WITH HIS...AND MY TEACHER
SAID, THATS EXACTLY WHAT HE IS TEACHING YOU, NEVER TO MATCH YOUR WORDS OR YOUR LIFE OR YOUR PASSIONS OR YOUR CREATIVITY TO ANY ONE BUT WHATEVER COMES OACTORY...UT OF YOU AFTER YOU HAVE BEEN INSPIRED BY THEM IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL, THE MOST CHERISHED,  THE MOST HUMBLE AND YOUR OWN...THAT IS THE ONLY ACHIEVEMENT...FORGET ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE...
YOU KNOW SOMETHING..I HAVE BEEN NOTICING ABOUT YOU FOR A WHILE...
YOU ATTACH TOO MUCH IMPORTANCE TO OTHER PEOPLE...WHO ARE THESE OTHER
PEOPLE?  WHAT HAPPENED IN YOUR CHILDHOOD?  WAS YOUR PARENT'S COURTYARD ALWAYS FULL OF OTHER PEOPLE?

AS A MATTER OF FACT YES.  THERE WERE ALWAYS MANY, MANY PEOPLE DOING MANY THINGS...OUR COURT YARD WAS FULL OF PEOPLE...SERVANTS, BEGGARS, POOR PEOPLE, SPICES, FRUITS, VEGETABLES, NUTS, COOKING, SUNSHINE, COOKING,
LAUGHTERS...I ALWAYS LOVED PEOPLE IN THE COURTYARD AND ALL THAT ACTIVITY AND NOW MY LIFE DEPENDS ON THE MERCY OF LGBTQ COMMUNITY...

IF YOU MENTION THE LGBTQ ONE MORE TIME, I WILL SLAP YOU...STOP IT...F CAMUS
THINK OF CAMUS, HUSYMANS, BOUDELAIRE, FLAUBERT, BALZAC, DUMAS,EDGAR ALLEN POE...YES, THINK OF EDGAR ALLEN POE...YOU KNOW HOW HARD HIS LIFE WAS?

HE STILL WROTE, HATHEY ARE AND SHOULD BE YOUR ONLYD NOT A DOLLAR IN HIS POCKET AND NO AUDIENEC AND HE WAS IN HIS OWN COUNTRY...AT LEAST YOU HAVE THE SATISFACTION OF BEING A
STRANGER HERE...HE WAS BRN HERE, DAMN IT...JUST THINK OF TE DEAD WRITERS...
THEY ARE AND THEY SHOULD BE YOUR ONLY INSPIRATION, YOUR ONLY AUDIENCE...
NOW WRITE YOUR DREAM PLAY...

IST MONOLOGUE OF THE DREAM PLAY


LIFE IS NOT JUST AN ISOLATED EVENT.

IT HAS ITS ELEMENTS,

ITS BODY PARTS,

ITS VICTORIES AND DEFEATS

AILMENTS,

HEALTH,

SICKNESS

THE NEXT MOMENT ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN

ACHIEVEMENTS

HEARTACHES

UN-PREDICTABLE EVENTS

DEATH...








NOW LETS SEE IF WE CAN DREAM OF WRITING THE DREAM PLAY?

'CAN'T SUBMIT TO WHAT THEY WANT

MANY OTHERS...













PLAYWRIGHT."

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BINA SHARIF'S NOTEBOOKS CONTINUE
NOTE BOOK NO 5

DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT
A
NEW PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF

LAST PART OF A DREAM TRILOGY PLAYS

copyright:binasharif 2015----2019

TO BE INCLUDED:

1:  FUN PLAY

2" SYBIL'S DESPAIR

3: PREDICTION

4: LEAK:  THE REAL LEAK'S COLOR IS RED

5: INVOICE

6: RESPONSE

7: THE SALE

8::DECLUTTER

9: 1-800 JUNK

10: CLUTTER STORAGE: $7 PER MONTH

11: GOOD RIDENS

12: TRAVEL: PORTUGAL, IRELAND, SPAIN, TURKEY, MOROCCO , CHINA

13:  READINGS:  CAFE'S, BOOK STORES, GALLERIES, TEA PARTIES, GARDENS, SALONS

NO MATER WHERE YOU GO FIND A PLACE TO READ AN EXCERPT FROM BINA

SHARIF'S WRITING...

PROMISE?

YES.

PROMISE.................

SYBIL CONTINUES

SYBIL:

THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME
THIS MORNING WHEN I WOKE UP, I REALIZED
THAT I WAS GOING THROUGH SOME KIND OF DESPAIR
ACTUALLY IT HAPPENS EVERY MORNING
THE DESPAIR, I MEAN
CONTINUES
EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE UP...

NOEL:

YES, I SAW IT.  I SAW YOUR DESPAIR

SYBIL:

YOU SAW MY DESPAIR?

NOEL:

YES EXACTLY.  I SAW IT IN YOUR HUGE BAG, YOUR HUGE PURSE YOU CALL IT.

FIRST OF ALL ITS NOT A PURSE.  ITS A BAG, A HUGE BAG AND ITS FULL OF YOUR

DESPAIR.  YOUR SO CALLED PURSE IS YOUR DESPAIR.  I SAW YOU WERE CARRYING

IT AND I KNOW YOU WERE IN A BAD MOOD BECAUSE OF THE BAGGAGE YOU WERE

CARRYING AND YOU WERE GOING TO TAKE IT  OUT ON ME EVENTUALLY...

SYBIL:

EVENTUALLY?

NOEL:

YES, EVENTUALLY

SYBIL;

NO, NOT EVENTUALLY NOEL, I AM GOING TO TAKE CARE OF IT RIGHT NOW...

RIGHT NOW MY DEAR, RIGHT NOW.  I AM GOING TO TAKE CARE OF MY DESPAIR

RIGHT NOW ...EVERYTHING WHIH IS PART OF MY DESPAIR IS GOING TO BE TAKEN

CARE OF RIGHT NOW.

LIKE THAT FUCKING TEACHER WHO KICKED ME OUT OF HER CLASS ROOM

I AM GOING TO FUCKING KICK YOU OUT OF MY LIFE, SO WHY DON'T YOU GO FUCK

YOURSELF...

NOEL:

I AM LEAVING AND THIS TIME I AM LEAVING FOR GOOD

(Noel leaves)

SYBIL:

OH! FUCK...

(SHE GOES TOWARDS THE DOOR, TRIP AND FALL. ALL HER STUFF FROM THE HUGE BAG SCATTERS ON THE FLOOR...LOTS OF PAPERS...PLAIN PAPERS, PAPERS FULL OF WRITING , ALL SCATTERED ALL OVER...SHE IS NOW FULL OF DESPAIR AND STARTS TO SHOUT AT THE WRITTEN PAGES...)

SYBIL:

(SCREAMS ST HER WRITTEN PAGEES)

FUCK YOU TOO...FUCK YOU...FUCK YOU TOO...FUCK YOU...

(Starts to sob uncontrollably)

END OF PLAY

WRITE A PLAY

WRITE A PLAY

PLAYWRITING IS ABOUT TWO CHARACTERS

WHATEVER YOU SEE-WHATEVER YOU HEAR WRITE ABOUT IT

YOU DON'T HAVE TO SUFER TO WRITE.  IT'S A JOYFUL THING

WRITING IS PUTTING OUT OF YOUR BODY

ACTING IS PUTTING IT IN YOUR BODY

SOMETHING HUMAN ALWAYS GET A LAUGH

"SYBILS DESPAIR"

A SHORT PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF

copyright:binasharif 2019

DYBIL IS GOING THROUGH LOTS OF DESPAIR ABOUT LOTS OF THINGS

HER EMOTIONS

HER WORK

HER HEALTH

HER WORK

HER DISSATISFACTION OVER LOTS OF THINGS...

SYBIL: A WRITER

I AM NOT A GROUP PERSON
THE GROUPS FOR ME IS TO SOCIALIZE
WRITING IS NOT SOCIALIZING
WRITING IS A SOLITARY EXPERIENCE
WRITING IS WORK
AND FOR THAT I HAVE TO BE ALONE...

I CAN'T WRITE WHEN SOME ONE TELLS ME, "OK, NOW BEGIN WRITING."

I FEEL FORCED
AND WHEN I FEEL FORCED
I CAN'T COME OUT WITH ANY KIND OF IMPULSE
ESPECIALLY A CREATIVE IMPULE
AND FOR ME ONLY THAT IMPULSE CARRIES ME THROUGH

WHEN I HAVE TO WRITE IN A WRITING WORKSHOP

I FEEL MY WRITING IS SUPERFICIAL
JUST WORDS ON THE PAPER WITHOUT MEANING, WITHOUT DEPTH
JUST WORDS TO FILL THE PAGE
TO PLEASE THE TEACHER....

IT'S NOT TE REAL EMOTION WHICH SUSTAINS ME...
AND IF I FIND MY OWN WRITING SHALLOW-EVERYONE ELSE SHALL FIND IT SO AS WELL

I NEED REAL PRIVACY TO WRITE
THAT'S WHY I AM NOT GOOD IN A CLASS ROOM
I HAVE NEVER TAKEN A WRITING CLASS

(TO THE TEACHER)
DO NOT TAKE IT PERSONALLY

TEACHER:

AND WHY NOT?

SYBIL:

ITS NOT ABOUT YOU, ITS ABOUT ME

TEACHER:  (offended)

OF COURSE ITS ABOUT ME

SYBIL

NO, NO.  ITS NOT ABOUT YOU

TEACHER:

YOU ARRE IMPLYING THAT I AM NO GOOD AS A TEACHER

SYBIL:
NO.  I AM CLEARLY IMPLYING THAT I AM NO GOOD IN A CLASS ROOM.  IN ANY CLAS ROOM, NOT ONLY YOUR CLASS ROOM...

TEACHER;

YOU ARE DISMISSED

SYBIL:

DISMISSED?

TEACHER:

YES, YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE IN MY CLASS

SYBIL:

ITS NOT YOUR CLASS ONLY...I WAS TALKING ABOUT ANY CLASS..I CAN'T WRITE
IN A CLASS ROOM...

TEACHER:

GET OUT...

SYBIL:

SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING

"DEAD"
A
PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
copyright:binasharif 2019

THE WEATHER
THE ROADS
THE SUBWAY
THE CROWDS
THE NOISE
THE PEOPLE
THEIR DOGS
MONEY, TALK OF MONEY, OVERHEARING TALK OF MONEY
REAL ESTATE
LEAKS
NEIGHBORS
THEATER
BAD THEATER
BAD, BAD THEATER
PUBLICITY
RACISM
ISLAMOPHOBIA
HATRED OF MUSLIMS ALL OVER
WOMEN STRUGGLING
LAUNDRY
DISHES
COOKING
BUYING
FOOD
COFFEE
MEEYINGS
FRIENDS
WHO HAS FRIENDS?
FAKE NEWS, FAKE FRIENDS
INTERNET
EBAY
AMAZON
BOOK STORES
BAD BOKSTORES
BAD BOOKS
BAD BOOKS SELL
FAVORTISIM
POLOTICS
POLITICIANS
CORRUPTION
CHEATING
CHEATING LAWYERS
CRIME
INTENTIONAL CRIMES
LAWYERS DEFENDING THE CRIMINALS
LAWYERS NEED LOTS OF CRIME SO THEY CAN KEEP MAKING MONEY
LRADERS
CORRUPT LEADERS
PATRIOTISM
FIRST WORLD
THIRD WORLD
SECOND ORLD?
NO SECOND WORLD
JUST THE FIRST WORLD
JUST THE THIRD WORLD
YOU ARE FROM THE FIRST WORLD
OR THE THIRD WORLD
NO OTHER CHOICE
YOU HAVE O CHOICE
ARE YOU POOR?
IF IT'S A YES, THEN YOU HAVE NO POWER
POWERLESS
YES, YOU ARE POWERLESS
ABSOLUTELY POWERLESS
VICTIM
A HATEFUL WORD
EVERY ONE USES IT
EVERY ONE LIKES TO CALL YOU A VICTIM
IT GIVES THEM POWER
LOTS OF POWER
EVERY ONE WANTS POWER
EVERYONE WANTS TO CALL THE OTHER, "A VICTIM."
A HATEFUL WORD, "THE VICTIM"
POWERFUL LOVE THE WORD, "VICTIM"
THEY OFTEN CALL THE POOR, "VICTIMS"
POVERTY
MOST UNFORTUNATE DEFINITION OF UN-FORTUNATE MILLIONS
KEEP THEM POOR
MAKE YOUR SELF RICH AT THEIR EXPENSE
BE RICH
VERY RICH
VERY VERY RICH
LIKE EPSTEIN
COMMIT CRIMES
NEVER GET CHARGED
THEN DISAPPEAR
THAT IS SUCCESS
SUCCESS VERY ESSENTIAL HERE
HERE IN THE FIRST WORLD
NO MATTER HOW YOU GET IT
GET IT.
STEAL
CHEAT
KILL
STEAL
CHEAT
GET RICH
VERY RICH
VERY VERY RICH
LIKE EPSTEIN
GO TO JAIL
WHAT A JOKE
GET OUT OF JAIL FOR SIX DAYS
LET A LIMO COME PICK YOU UP FROM JAIL
FROM YOUR JAIL CELL TO YOUR MANSION
TO HAVE SEX
SEX VERY ESSENTIAL
HOW CAN YOU LIVE WITHOUT SEX?
ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU ARE VERY RICH
VERY VERY RICH
COMMIT CRIMES
INVITE POLITICIANS, DIPLOMATS, SEXY WOMEN, LEADERS OF THE WORLD
OTHER BILLIONS
HAVE BOATS
HAVE YACHTS
HAVE PRIVATE PLANS
MANSIONS
ART
COCAIN
DIAMONDS
GIRLS
SEX
SEX
SEX
SEX
AND CRIME
AND MONEY
BECAUSE OF THE CRIME
HAVE PARTIES
AT YOUR MANSIONS
HAVE CONNECTIONS
"OH! HE IS CONNECTED."  "YOU CAN'T TOUCH HIM:
WHEN THE LAW SAYS, "OH! HE IS CONNECTED" "OH! SHE IS CONNECTED" YOU CAN'T TOUCH HIM" "YOU CAN'T TOUCH HER.'
THATS WHEN YOU MADE IT
THATS WHEN YOU HAVE REALLY MADE IT
THATS WHEN YOU ARE A SUCCESS
A REALL SUCCESS
A BIG SUCCESS
OTHERWISE
YOU ARE A VICTIM
A VICTIM
A VICTIM
THREE TIMES YOU RAE A VICTIM
HAVE YOU EVERR HEARD OF SOME ONE SAYING, "OH! I AM GOING TO A FANTASTIC PARTY...THE PART GIVER IS A VICTIM, REALLY POWERFUL VICTIM?
WHEN YOU ARE POOR
YOU ARE A VICTIM
BECAUSE YOU COMPLAIN OF POVERTY
POOR VICTIMS COMPLAIN OF POVERTY ALL THE TIME
WHO WANTS TO LISTEN TO THE COMPLAINTS OF A POOR VICTIM?
A VICTIM STAYS AS A VICTIM
OVERTY STRICKEN VITIM STAYS POOR, POWERLESS, CONTACTLESS VICTIM
ALL HIS/HER LIFE
AND THEN?
AND THEN?
ND THEN?
DIES
DEAD
DEAD
DEAD AS A DOOR NOB ...
DEAD
DEA
DEAD
THE VICTIM IS DEAD
STAYED A VICTIM ALL HIS LIFE
AND NOW/
AND NOW/
AND NOW?
IS DEAD........................

END OF PLAY