TO MY MEMORY A LETTER SENT CONTINUES

TO MY MEMORY A LETTER SENT

Up at 9

Tea

Cereal

A piece of toast with cheese

Looked at the London Guardian

An article about Kevin Spacey

Twenty complaints against him at the Old Vic's web site

Al-Franken is another sexual harasser in the news

What a liberated bunch

Their party is also liberated and is their P for Penis
their
Their P can't stay hidden

They should have metal and chains around it to keep it inside ther pants

They are all for women rights

Amazing

They wear METOO buttons at the award ceremones

Maybe their METOO means, "I am also a sexual harrasser?

Then I walked a bit inside the apt

Took the devilish medicine

I have been sick

sick...

For a while

Very sick actually

Yes, I have been sick

Or I must be sick these days

Otherwise who takes devilish medicines?

I don't really remeber

My memory is at fault now

Thats why I write a letter to my memory

Its not actually a letter

Its just what I did during the day while I am confined

I send it to my memory in case the memory has forgotten what I did every day

For so many days of confinement

Or in case I forget what I did during the day every day

While I was sick

Very sick

When no one visited...

Not really true

Two nice ladies visited and brought some fruit

That was nice

But I am still sick

But no one visits now

New York is a busy place

And people who live in NY are also very busy

What month is it?

August?
No, Sept?

No, Oct?

No, November?

No, December

I remember people celebrating Christmas

Christmas is in December, right?

I think so

And then comes the new year

What did I do on new year eve/

I think I was in the hospital

I don't really remember but food was very very bad so it must be the hospital..

After th move
 medicine I went downstairs and took a shower

So I must not be very ill at that time when I could take a shower by myself

Serious sickness must have come after that

Because I remember...

 that I was eventually bed ridden and couldn't move

So couldn't have taken a shower by myself

Actually I remember that I couldn't even stand...

I ask my memory all kinds of questions

But it also doesn't remeber much...

Thats why we have to w

rite everything down before we forget to post it...

 and post it in the mail to an address

If we remember the address or even remember

But no one posts any letter these days

Only emails...

Sad

Isn't it?

Letter one can read eventually

But the emails are all deleted

Its like our memory which gets deleted

Just like the emails...

Can't find anything any more

Neither the emails, the letters never written nor the remembrance of time past...

 But I digress

I was just recounting the events of the day

Wasn't I?

I was talking about taking a shower

Took a long time getting dressed

No proper clothes for the weather

There are so many clothes lying around

But no right clothes for the season

TO MY MEMORY A LETTER SENT CONTINUES

 TO MY MEMORY A LETTER SENT

:What you see or seem

Is nothing but a dream

Within a dream....Edgar Allen Poe

:Who are you waiting for?"

"No one, just sitting"

"You are always sitting"

"And why not?"

"You will get fat"

"I am already fat"

"You will get fatter"

estioned by you. "So what?  I love fat.  Its so comfortable.  So is sitting. I love sitting.  I am always going to sit.

Just sit and sit and sit and bother you.  No matter what I do you are always bothered by it.

Why don't you just disappear?  Go away and never come back.  I do not want to see you ever

I don't want to be questioned by you.  Its not a court, I am not a criminal and you are not a prosecutor.

Go away...

Always questioning me...

You are toxic and I am going to get rid of all toxic elements and toxic people.  You especially."

I am cleaning up...Doctors recently told me that toxic is far too toxic for me.

2018 is going to be my healthy year."

TO MY MEMORY A LETTER SENT

TO MY MEMORY A LETTER SENT

While I am asleep

While I am awake

Someone sends a letter to my memory

I have no Idea who that person is....

I do want to know

But I am always sleeping

I am sleeping while I am awake also

I am always dreaming

Dreaming while I am awake

Dreaming while I am awake...

I think its my dreams which sends messages

to my memory

My memory gathers so many messages

I don't have a moment to gothrough them

Because I am always asleep...

While awake

My head is asleep...

Head has given up

Too many memories

Far too many

Head hurts

Head complains all the time

"I hurt"

The head says

'You are hurting me."

The head complains

'Stop thinking"

'Stop dreaming"

"Stop sleeping"

"Stop remembering"

'Just stop"