PRIVATE WORLD

PRIVATE WORLD.

Don't let others come into your private world. 

Not even for a moment...

Just don't.

I am telling you this for your own good.

Answer me this...

Would you allow any one in your bathroom when you

are naked in your bath tub?

It's private right?

So is your happiness, your pain, your disappointments,

Your hope, your loss, your anxiety, your powerlessness

To change certian things no matter how much you would

Wish to change the events...

Just don't discuss it with any body...

Your memories, your pain is yours

No one will understand any way...

Don't hurt yourself more than needed...

Arn't you hurt?

You want to hurt more ?

You have that kind of strength?

Just sustain it within yourself,

In your soul, in your heart...

It's your project...

Must not discuss it with any one

It will dissipate

It will disinegrate...

It need to be accomplished by yourself alone

In your own private sphere...in your own loneliness...

THAT'S THE TITLE,THAT'S THE PROJECT, THAT'S THE PLAY

THAT'S THE TITLE, THAT'S THE PROJECT, THAT'S THE PLAY.

Pour it into writing.

All, everything

Silly, un-important, shallow, solid, good, great

Everything into writing

Call it, "A scrible." Nothing of importance, Meaningless, blah, blah, blah...

But put it down into words...

Words which make no sense...words which people despise

Words which are ancient, politically incorrect,

Everyone will hate you

But that's wonderful

People are waking up for hatred

Say more annoying things

Get them upset

Tell them that actually you are helping them from

 the comatose condition, they have put themselves into

by being  constantly on social media...

It's not social  media, it's social poison...

They are drinking it day and night...

Very soon the damage will be obvious...

It already is...

They don't look into the eyes of any human being...

The small and big screens are hurting their eyes and ears

And their souls which has dried up...

Use some strong, powerful abnoxious words 

Let them hate you, yell at you ,

so their attention can be diverted towards you,

So, they will have a better purpose in their empty lives

Let your words fill them with hatred towards you...

What a great gift to have!

Hate, Love this word, HATE...

Aren't you blessed that very quickly like a virus, 

their hatred will spread towards you because of your,

Words, your wonderfully bold, mesmerizingly poisonous words...

But where are those words sweetheart? 

Where are those words which will wake humanity? 

Wake them up, not for love, just for hate...

How many people love to be hated?

Not many...actually no one...

See you are so special...so very special...

All of a sudden the comatozed humanity woke up...

And are shouting in the streets...hating you...

"SHE CAN'T REPLACE US."

" SHE CAN'T REPLACE US."

HER WORDS CAN'T MAKE US SLEEP ANY MORE."

HER WORDS CAN NOT MAKE US SLEEP ANY MORE."

' WE ARE AWAKE NOW, FULLY AWAKE AND FULLY CONSUMED WITH HATE."

"WE WILL BE MARCHING IN THE STREETS...HATING YOU"

APPOLOGIZE FOR YOUR WORDS"

APPOLOGIZE FOR YOUR WORDS."

APPOLGIZE FOR YOUR WORDS."

"WORDS WHICH RUINED OUR BLISSFUL COMA."

ANGUISH

 ANGUISH

Stop pouring your anguish over any conversation with any one.

First of all , stop having conversation with every one.

Just hello, hello, how are you?

Weather is awful

How is your family?

How was your weekend?

How was Thanksgiving?

How was Christmas?

And then move on....

And you can add another sentence such as,

"Give my love to everyone."

But move on you must and pretty quickly

No hastle, no complaints,  no arguments, no opinions.

Keep quiet...

No use  and no need to pour your anguish over to them...

Family, the same goes for family. for sure.

Include one more person

And that's a secret.

But that will save your day and night.

Don't try to understand or analyze any confusion,

sadness, angst, disappointment, or hurt.

No one will ever understand your feelings

No one will ever try to understand any of your afflictions

It's better that you never mention any.

Just put them on a piece of paper...

A piece of paper is extremely importan and precious possession of yours.

Own lots of paper, beautiful, fragile, flowing,

 hand made papers of many colors...

Paper is an ancient object

Ancient and cultural.

The birth of paper took place in old, old, old, ancient lands

Such as Baghdad and China...

It came all the way from those precious places for you...

For your thoughts of anguish to be scattered 

on them.

 For you and for you only.

Your exclusive property.

Own it...

Go ahead, don't be shy, don't hesitate, it's yours, claim it.

Claim it with pride.

No matter what you do, whatever you have...

Be proud of that.

Always be proud.

Exclusively your property.

Make a painting of words on those colorful papers.

Say, Alhumdo-llilah and be proud.

Proud even of your sadness, your sorrow, your pain, your loss.

Be thankful to your god for giving you feelings

 and emotions to go through all that is precious.

Pain about the loss of a loved one is very precious.

Don't be afraid of your pain...

Many people are so un-fortunate that they can't feel anything...

Imagine their emptiness, their inability of feeling nothing...

Actually you of all people just can't imagine that.

Your heart and soul pulsate with pearls of pain,

Diamonds of loss, petals of roses falling down...

Trees deprived of water...

Deserts of sand

Occupies some people's heart.

Their inside is so dry, so thirsty,

How can they absorb your anguish?

They can't

They can't swallow...

Their throats are parched, their hearts are parched,

Their soul is parched.

Nothing can quench their thirst.

They are not even conscious of their dryness...

They don't even know that they are desperate,

 to deny any deep contact

with another human...

They just have an excuse for everything. 

"So busy, just so busy, you can't imagine, how busy."

I can imagine, of course I can...

But honey, I am busy too...

I just lost a very precious blood relaion...

I am busy with a huge sense of loss, of sadness, of emptiness,

Of sorrow, of pain, of lack of laughter, 

of the deep joy which came with his voice, with his presence,

with his conversation, with his humor, 

with his intelligence, with his ability, 

with his character, with his sensitivity, 

with his taste, with his character.

You are so un-fortunate and it gives me sadness to say so...

That you loved no one like I lovd him....

But I am proud of that love,

 the love which makes me cry day and night.

Yes, I am busy

Exremely busy

More busy than any banker

Any hedge fund financier...

Busy with te eternal loss...

Can't see any one

Can't talk to any one...

No one in this busy world understand...

The word, Pain, very hard to swalow...

Don't want to disturb the friends...

I friends I don't have...

Friends, I never had...

A foreigner, always answering questions about her whereabouts...

'Where do you come from?"

" From East Village."

"No, I mean where do you come from originally? which country?"

"No counry. God didn't assign any country to my name."

'I am a vagabond...a wanderer, a rambler."

I only have words...

I have no country.

"I only have words."

'Can I recite a poem for you?"run?"

'Oh! you have to run?"

"Oh! please do that. Run...

"I always read my poems to myself."

"So sorry for offering to share it with you."

"The poem is not a happy poem."

" I am sure you wouldn't have liked it,

but in any case, you are busy, you have to run...?

'I sometime forget that I do live in a city of finance and not of poems."

WORKOUT

WORKOUT WHILE STANDING

1:marchig in place2

 2:Squats with a chair

3:  WALL PUSH UPS

4: HANDS GO BEHID EARS, TOUCH KNEES WITH ELBOWS, ARMS FOLDED

5: WIDER FEET SQUATS

6: WALL PUSH, LEFT FOOT INFROT, RT BEHIND, PRESS BACK KNEE TO THE GROUND

7: CHAIR PUSH UPS

8: fOREARMS AGAINST WALL, PULL FEET UP, PLANKS

9: JUMPING JACKS. HANDS UP, JUMP

10:LEGS AGAINST WALL, ARMS FOLDED

11: WALL PUSH UPS

Jordan Peterson says

 Jordan Peterson says: Words of wisdom.

"We have to become creators of our own values."

"One peace in chaos, one foot in peaceful order,

It's upto us."

"Get your own house in order."

"Things will go wrong more than they will go right.

So try for things to not go so wrong."

" Keeping up is to keep up, by thinking, 

talking, reasoning and serious dispute which might 

offend people but it's better than not talking, better than death."

"Yo are screwed both ways. We don't have great solutions,

only arbitary."

"I don't believe in political correctness."

'People who don't allow expression, stay away from them."

"Igor and Frankenstein phenomenon, "Yes master."

Stay away... from that as well."

"Read and write every day. It will improve your thinking and power of speech and reasoning."

"Don't drink too much."

"Read great books." "Struggle with all your soul to benefit the dead."

"Exercise"

"Routine, most important obligation which gets rewarded."

"Schedule, routine, if not, things degenerate."

"It's your moral obligation to find something meaningful."

"Challange yourself."

'Be awake, sharp, educate yourself"

'Through education, learn how to think,how to speak."

"Life s a tragedy, Malovent tragedy. Despite this fact, still thrive, develop capacity

to transcend."

"

CONSCIOUS DECISION

 CONSCIOUS DECISION:

I MADE THE CONSCIOUS DECISION TO SURVIVE

TO BE ALIVE

TO BE WELL.

I MADE THAT DECISION TODAY

JUST NOW ACTUALLY...

TO FEEL PRETTY AGAIN

TO WEAR GLITTER AGAIN

TO LOVE MYSELF AGAIN

TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR

AND RECOGNIZE THE PERSON I SEE

THATS WHAT THEY STOLE FROM ME

THE PERSON I WAS

HAPPY

FUNNY

HUMEROUS

JOYFUL

KIND

LOVING

SINCERE

NOW, IN THE RECENT PAST

IF I LOOK IN THE MIRROR

I SAW A BITTER PERSON

AN ANGRY PERSON

AN UGLY PERSON

AN ISOLATED PERSON

A PERSON I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE

A PERSON I NEVER MET BEFORE

WHY IS THIS PERSON STARING AT ME

IN MY OWN MIRROR

WHO IS THIS PERSON?

HOW DID THIS STRANGER GOT INTO MY

 DRESSING TABLE'S BEAUTIFUL MIRROR?

WHO TOOK AWAY MY WAY OF BEING?

WHO STOLE MY JOVIAL NATURE?

I USED TO LIKE MY WAY OF BEING

OF LOVING AND OF FEELING

DEMEANOR...

IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME

I HAVEN'T RECOGNIZED MYSELF

I LOOK IN THE MIRROR BUT SEE A STRANGER

IT'S BEEN A WHILE

A LONG WHILE

BUT TODAY i MADE A CONSCIOUS DECISION

TO SEE MYSELF

THE REAL MYSELF

THE SAME PERSON THAT i WAS

THE SAME PERSON THAT I WAS BORN

A FUN PERSON

A JOVIAL PERSON

A HAPPY PERSON

A PROGTRESSIVE PERSON

A KIND PERSON

AN EMPATHETIC PERSON

A PERSON WHO CAMORROWON EXTEND A HELPING HAND

I AM GOING TO LOTTO AND TOMORROW I AM GOING TO RECOGNISE MYSELF.

AS I WAS BEFORE...

BEFORE SOMEONE STOLE MY HAPPINESS FROM ME

I AM  LOOKING FORWARD TOTOMORROW...

MY CONSCIOUS DECISION HAS BEEN MADE

GOD FOR MY ACCOMPLISHMENTSTO LIKE MYSELF

TO LOVE MYSELF

TO ADMIRE MYSELF

TO THANK GOD FOR MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS

TO THANK GOD FOR BEING ALIVE

TO BE HUMBLE

TO BE KIND

TO BE GENEROUS

TO BE LOVING

TO BE GRACIOUS

TO BE A FEELING PERSON.

LOOKING FORWARD TO TOMORROW.

SOME ANNONYMOUS SAYINGS

 SOME ANNONYMOUS SAYINGS

LIBER...FREE

LIBERALS...WHAT A JOKE!

PROGRESSIVE... TO PROGRESS, IS TO MERELY GO FORWARD AND YOU CAN ALSO GO

 FORWARD INTO A PIT?

PROTECTING FREEDOM OF SPEECH INVOLVES PROTECTING THE VOICES OF PEOPLE

WITH WHOM YOU  MAY VIOLENTLY DISAGREE

DISAGREE.

TIME, SPACE AND ATTENTION IS ALL LIMITED

"TELL IT LIKE IT IS." ?

"DIFENSIVE, DISTRUSTING, DULLER, UNFASHIONABLE FOIL." ?

"TRY TO SEE OPPORTUNITY AND EXCITEMENT IN EVERYTHING. TRY." ?

"OPENNESS AND DYNAMISM VERSES CLOSED IN AND SECURE.: ?

SCATTERED PIECES OF PAPER WITH NOTES OF UN-WRITTEN PLAYS

 SCATTERED PIECES OF PAPER WITH NOTES FOR UN-WRITTEN PLAYS

 HAPPY PEOPLE'S PARTY

BY

BINA SHARIF

CHARACTERS:

HUSBAND: WHITE MAN : BUSINESS MAN

WIFE; SCHOOL TEACHER

WHITE WOMAN

DAUGHTER (DEMOCRATE, LESBIAN)

SON (REPUBLICAN)

DAUGHTER'S FIANCE ( DEMOCRATE LADY)

FAMILY FRIEND ( DEMOCRATE, WIFE'S FRIEND)

NEIGHBOR: ( INDIAN MUSLIM WOMAN, CONSERVATIVE, IN A SARI)

HER BOYFRIEND: (A GAY REPUBLICAN)

8 PEOPLE IN TOTAL.

FORGET IT...

WHO S GOING TO FUND THIS?

WHO KNOWS?

WRITE IT ANY WAY, NOT EVERYTHING HAS TO BE PRODUCED.

OK...

SET:  A LONG DINING TABLE COVERED WITH WHITE TABLE CLOTH

FLOWERS AND BOWL OF FRUITE ON THE TABLE, DRINKS AS WELL.

TIME: LATE AFTERNOON

SCENE TWO: EVENING

THEY ALL EAT. EMPTY PLATES, KNIVES, FORKS, DIRTY NAPKINS ON THE TABLE.

BIG FIGHT

ISSUES OF FIGHT

1: RACISM TOWARDS THE NEIGHBOR

2: RACISM TOWARDS GAY AND LESIANS

3: RACISM TOWARDS REPUBLICANS

4: RACISM TOWARDS DEMOCRATS

5:RACISM TOWARDS MIDDLE EAST

6: RACISM TOWARDS REFUGEES

7: RACISM TOWARDS IMMIGRATION

8: RAISM TOWARDS RUSSIA

9: RACISM TOWARDS CHINA

10: RACISM TOWARDS IRAN

11: BIG FIGHT ABOUT ELECTIONS

12: BIG FIGHT ABOUT IDEAOLOGY

13: BIG FIGHT ABOUT CULTURAL CHANGES

14: BIG FIGHT ABOUT MILLITARY SPENDING

15: BIG FIGHT ABOUT DIPLOMATES

16: CRUCIAL SENSE OF ENTERING ANOTHER REALM

17: ENTERINHG ANOTHER WORLD NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT

18: BEIRUT

19: BAGHDAD

20: SANA

21: DAMASCUS

22: CAIRO

23: TEHRAN

24:AFGHANISTAN

25: PAKISTAN

DIALOGUE

HATRED

DISCORDTHE NIGHT

DESTABLIZING THE REGIONS

BIG FIGHT AND BIG DISAGREEMENT  ABOUT ALL OF THE ABOVE.

LATE INTO THE NIGHT:

EXHAUSTION AFTER FIGHTING, DRINKING, EATING, FIGHTING AGAIN...

   

                                                          END OF PLAY

"ANOTHER KIND OF MECCA

"ANOTHER KIND OF MECCA"

She is at it again.

No need to pay attention as usual

She is used to it by now...

Her new show like many of her previous ones,

monologues, performance pieces, poetry

one acts, readings, full lengths,

will open and then close.

Another one will open 

and then close...

No need to notice...

Notice her.

She herself has admitted that sometime

she doesn't think that she exists.

For some,

For most,

She definately doesn't exist.

Too out spoken, too unafraid, too honest.

That kind of things do not exist

and if they do, they are destroyed.

"Who gives a shit>"

She finally said to herself

and decided that no one will be able to destroy her

and she will exist

for sure, she will.

She will exist for herself and her monologues will

exist for her...

So she decided to become a monologue.

A long, dramatic, passionate, humerous, anxious, successful,

a long passage of time, time which can not be destroyed, like some holy

monuments, some holy, sacred sites like MECCA..

.holy, precious, undestroyable, ANOTHER KIND OF MECCA."

EVERYTHING CONTINUES

EVERYTHING GOES 

"Purpose is not the munzel

It's the journey...

Time which you give to someone un-necessary

never come back...don't waste it. Give it to yourself.

'Avoid some people, preserve your good nature.

Your good nature can be destroyed by the one's with

eveil intentions."

"Egotistic person creates self doubt for others."

Ego is self obsession and aggression.

Don't lack self management, it causes illness of the mind and the body.

"Money or the lack of it is not success."

'Ego can be toxic. Toxic presence has toxic past.

You can't change anyone's past."

"False assumption about yourself is ego."

"Don't try to change any one."

'Make peace with your circumstances."

"Give freedom to some one, he/she will do what they want, not what you want."

'Give money to the needy with no need to be returned."

'While eating, offer first to the other to begin."

"Unfair criticism should not be tolerated."

"Time will tell."

'Avoid lazy people. People who don't want to do anything

but want to hang on to you."

'Manipulators are not friends."

'avoid envious people, envious friends, they spoil

your anbition. Also avoid narcissits, liars, corrupt people."

"Forgive others, you will be forgiven."

'Include others in your happiness."

'distribute most of your possessions."

'learn something new every day."

"Truth is a lion.

It will set itself free.

Don't defend it,

It will defend itself." ?

"Leave negative criticism alone.

Being open minded means, tolerance of people." ?

"Water teaches you humility.

Be humble...

Water flows below." ?

"Composure: Don't fight with obstacles,

Find a way...

Make your problems your friends, water teaches openness." ?

Openness, don't argue, don't fight, be strong, be busy." ?

"Be easy going. What you want from others, expect to give the same yourself." ?"

"No malice for others. Thank the person who did something good for you." ?

"Don't talk if you How are you?ve nothing positive to say." ?

'Turn negative into positive." ?

"What doesn't concern you, leave that alone." ?

"Don't indulge in gossip with others. Keep your privacy intact. Talk softly." ?

'Don't be angry, control anger."

'Do not oppress others." 

'Leave people alone."

Try to read, "Complete poems of Cavafy before time could change them."

'AAcquaint yourselves with social-political-geographic-historical

and philosophical context in which the author lived, worked in a scholarly fashion." ?

"The only way not to be unhappy is to shut yourself in art."  Flaubert

"New ambassadors, blurring bounderies." ?

"She conceived of life as primarily an opportunity of unlimited self expansion,

and of literature as an opportunity for unrestricted self expression. " ?

" Precision of observation and cutting accuracy of expression."

"WORK, GOD WILLS IT." ?

"Main subject matter is trauma and conflict."

"Any insignificant object can distract you from the

main subject matter which is trauma."

"Euphemism and allegory"

"Memories evoke an underlying sense of disquiet."

"Paintings are engaged in never-ending conversations."

"I have learnt that the power of invisibility

is much more powerful than the power of visibilty." Sami

"Exstasis, a disciple lined"?

"Stepping outside of the self in a sensitive

but informed identification with another...

an intellectual process that enables your mind

and heart for something that seemed initially alien." ???

"You live as if without history, as if you throw no shadowbehind you." Tom Stoppard

" You can't change things by agonizing." Tom Stoppard

"I don't take things very hard- death for example.

People die,and I sidestep the moment in some way." Tom Stoppard

" Carand Ache, fountain pen with six-sided barrel. 

 Tom Stoppard write with that kind of pen."

"Sir, I have read your letter, and I see that

to the brazed everything is brass.

Your obedient servant, Oscar Wilde."

" The only qualities essential for real success in journalism

are ratlike cunning, a plausible manner, and a little literry ability."  N.Tomalin.

"Human consciousness and the question

whether people can be genuinly good." ????

"Displacement, bereavementm and finally sanctuary."?

"Polyaxed?

'Blind observers."

'Play it safe in public

Be ruthlessly truthful in private." ?

"Most wars are the result of history distorted

and harnessed to the cause of some individual

or groups ambition. greed or pride."  Simon Jenkins

"Geography is a fact, ruly the queen of sciences." ?

VIENNA:  CITY OF KLIMT,

MAHLER,

FREUD

EVERYTHING GOES

 EVERYTHING GOES

"Memories hidden in the brain cells that are waiting for a trigger.

So whenever the trigger is available, the image comes." Mohammad Sami

"Rife with ambivlance mimicking the unreliability of memory." Sami.

James Joyce's protective life struggles.

SILENCE

EXILE

CUNNING... (Titally lacking. Develop some cunning honey)