MUSHKIL HEE CHALEY HEY GHULSHAN KA
KAROBAR

(THE GARDEN IS NOT FUNCTIONING WELL
OR
THE GARDEN IS FULL OF WEEDS
OR
THE BUSINESS IS DOWN)

"I am so hurt."

"Why?"

"I don't know."

"I don't really know."

"But I feel my heart is broken into tiny little pieces."

"Why?"

"I don't know...I don't really know."

"French speaks French"
Latinos speak speak Spanish"
Latin speaks latin"
English speak English"
We als speak English"
But we are not English"
'We don't know who we are"
'We lost our language"
'We don't know who we are"
'We lost our selves."

SENSE OF SORROW

Sense of sorrow has a big part in my life
I wonder why?
But perhaps it has to do with the first death in my family....
The death of my young sister at the age 25
While I was 18..........

Since then-I have never recovered.....

Then deaths continued...........
Father
Another sister
Mother
And now a brother.................

FATALITY

A fatality led him on,(Oscar Wilde)
He could not or would not withdraw himself from it. ?

"My heart is utterly broken."  Oscar Wilde

BORING PEOPLE

For the sake of your vitality and excitement
you have to avoid all boring people who brings tons of boredom
and monotony with them into your vitality which is your future
and if the prospects of future becomes boring then you won't strife for it.
See how damaging boredom and boring people are...

Develop some motivating force which reinvigorate

Become manipulator of destiny

Don't accept the destiny the way it seems...
Manipulate it.             BS

'You see there are two worlds-one exists and is never talked about.
Its called the real world and there is no need to talk about it in order
to see it. The other is the world of art-one must talk about that-because otherwise it would not exist."
Oscar Wilde


Why should I pay taxes?"

Oscar Wilde asked the tax man

"Its your house-isn't it?
You live here-you sleep here"

Answers the tax man

"But then-you see I sleep so badly."
Oscar Wilde

MOUNTAINS

Mountains never move
Mountains never shift
Mountains never shake
Mountains stay Un-moved
Mountains are majestic
Majestic mountains have no doubt

Mountains stay silent
Mountains are still
Mountains are still in their stillness
In their stillness is their majesty
In their silence is their power
Can't disturb a mountain
Can you?
Can't shake a mountain
Can you?
Can't instill doubt in a mountain
Can you?
Mountains don't cry
Mountains stand still
Can't disturb a mountain
Can you?
Be one.......
Be a mountain............

"Happy children should try not to be artists-you have to be born with broken heart
and a sense of loneliness inside."    Stella Adler

'Something in the way of American life defeats them, (the artist) They are after the next best seller
and if they fail they give up."   Stella Adler

"We have very few good playwrights because society's attitude is passive."   Stella Adler

'You don't have to be intelligent, Shakespeare is a giant- he carries you if you speak precisely
and have good teeth."  Stella Adler

'The only excuse for not coming to a class or performance is death."  Stella Adler

"I would rather act than go to the bank."   Stella Adler

"In our world we don't really know or care about  quality. Its all about money and publicity.
Its a sickness."   Stella Adler

'Life is boring.  We are too little in life.  Thats why we come to the theater because its not boring here." Stell Adler

"When the artist escapes he doesn't go to religion, he goes to the play to understand
life, The play gives him enough."  Stella Adler

CONTROL FREAKS

When you are with control freaks you mutilate your creativity.
Its up-to you to be free and let your talent flow.
With control, the imagination, sensitivity and creativity is absolutely
suffocated to the extent that it gets escaped from your soul with the evil
permission of the control freaks and thas exactly what they want.

They want to damage and diminish your creativity because they don't have
it themselves and they absolutely don't want you have it either.

But some of them do have money in the bank, yes in their banks not in your pocket
but they still want to control you because they have tons of stolen money in their banks
without you ever benefiting from it but they still want to control you because they have the money in the bank....
Stay away from them..........

REALITY

One should only live to escape reality.
Reality is painful, remorseful, a reminder of dreams lost and vanished
Its a brave thing to escape reality and live in another world in another another moment
or moments which are completely different from your own reality and must give you joy.

People say, "She/he is into escapism."  'She/he must face reality."  As if escapism is a criminal activity.
Only criminal activity is the committing of a crime and fancy flight of imagination is far far away from
any thing illegal.

Enjoying your imaginary world different from your mundane reality is not a crime and as long as its not
a crime one can live it, breath it, enjoy it.

Escape from NY one more time, escape from your  Un-mopped reality and go to Copenhagan and watch the swans on the lakes and walk ALONG SIDE THE LAKES THINKING OF DAYS GONE BY and take pictures and walk some more and go to elegant cafe's and have cafe late and write and read and draw and come to an elegant apartment and have dinner in a nice dining room with tall candles lit and nice wine and conversation and then move to the living room for coffee and chocolates and then go on to your bed room and read great literature all night and then sleep late and then wake up and take a nice shower in a new bathroom and get dressed and have breakfast with some nice Danish yogurt and fresh fruits and then wear some comfortable shoes and walk out and lock the door behind you, go downstairs and then walk towards the lakes, along side the lakes and watch the swans dance and take pictures and then go to a fabulous cafe and have steaming hot cafe late and read and write and draw.....

And why must I not escape into this incredible escapism instead of worrying about not being employed
in NY, not having any vaccum cleaner, not being able to throw everything out from the dusty,unpainted apartment and why must I face that dirty, dusty, cluttered reality every day, day after day.............

SETTLEMENTS

THE WAY TO HAVE A GLORIOUS LIFE IN THE FUTURE IS TO BUILT SOME KIND OF SETTLEMENTS OR ACQUIRE SOME KIND OF SETTLEMENTS  AND PUT YOUR NAME PLATE ON IT AND OWN IT AND THEN ACQUIRE MORE SETTLEMENTS AND PUT YOUR NAME PLATE ON IT AND THEN OWN IT.

EVERY DAY'S CRISIS

Yesterday was the crisis of computer not working
Day before yesterday was the crisis of phone not working
Three days before was the crisis of stove not working
Last week's crisis was the lock not working
And every day's crisis is my brain not working
Encounter crisis after crisis every day, every day, every day of the month...
Depression is it?

NOTEBOOKS OF A WRITER

"The point of my keeping a notebook has never been nor is it now
to have an accurate factual record of what I have been doing or thinking."
                                                                                                Didion

"My approach to daily life ranges from the grossly negligent to the merely
absent."               Didion

'Keepers of notebooks are different breed altogether."  Didion

'The impulse to write things down is peculiarly compulsive one
inexplicable to those who do not share it."   Didion

'We are brought up in the ethic that others, any others, all otghers
are by definition more interesting than ourselves."   Didion.

BLEAK FEELING

This bleek feeling of nothingness and emptiness creeps in my soul
the moment I land at Kennedy airport or any airport bringing me to NYC.
I have tried and tried very hard to find out what it is?
But have never been able to find a clue.
This is where I live
This is where I have lived for so long
What is it?
I have no idea...

Is it the apt?
Is it lack of employment?
Is it the sense of waste of no accomplishment?
Is it the feeling where I came when I left for good?
Without knowing that I was leaving my home for good?
Here I instantly become depressed and sad
Here I can't sleep
Here I feel disappointed
Here I feel no future
Here I feel I am nothing
Here I feel I have no purpose in life
Here I feel like I made all wrong moves
Here I have no friends

Evenings come with a load of heaviness in my heart
Here I feel like crying
Here I have no conversations with any one
Every one is working...
Or everyone is busy doing some thing
Cleaning or cooking or laundry
or theater or opera or performance art...

My evenings feel empty
My mornings feel empty
My afternoons feel empty

But only here in NY
 I feel this way
But I live here
Every where else I am on holiday
I feel this way only here
Maybe I should say I am here on a holiday
Maybe I should  not take Manhattan so seriously
Maybe I should not take myself so seriously either
Maybe I should not feel the permanence of my stay here
Maybe I should feel its all temporary
Like a holiday ends
This holiday should be temporary
So ONe enjoys the temporary holidays by going to the museum or a gallery or statue of liberty
May be I should go to statue of liberty every day to remind myself that I am free
and be happy every day for the sake of that liberty which the statue promises...
Maybe I should feel that I do not live here
Maybe I should feel that I don't need work
Maybe I should feel that I will go away soon
Soon, somewhere where I will live with the sense of belonging....................

PLAYS
BY
BINA SHARIF

COSMO GIRL
IN BETWEEN
DREAMLAND
WATCHMAN
FIRE, (EMPTY YOUR CLOSETS IF YOU WANT NO FIRE)
KILL
MY ANCESTOR'S HOUSE
ONE THOUSAND HOURS OF LOVE
HARVARD YARD
BOB LOVES BONNIE
PERFECT MEAT LOAF
LOVE IS A STRANGER IN A WINDOWLESS ROOM
SPICE OF BENGAL
MORE THAN MURDER
SEX INDUSTRY
RATS IN THE TUNNEL
ACCUSATION
SLEEPING WITH HORSES
PARK LANE HOISRY
AFGHAN WOMAN
DEMOCRACY IN ISLAM
MUSLIM GLITTER
WHY?
REPUBLIC OF IQRA
THINK OF BEN BRANTLEY AND WRITE A HAPPY PLAY
A MONTH IN THE CAFE
HERE COMES THE CHANGE
COLONY OF ARTISTS
HELP ME JUMP OVER THE SNOW
COME HOME FOR LUNCH
LOVER
LOVE IS A TRAMP
LOVE IN A HOTEL ROOM
LOVE MAKING
WHERE IS THE GOD DAMNED PLAY?
THE MISSING SCENES

STAY AWAY

Just be polite
Just be indifferent
Say nothing
Just say nothing much of importance
Just hi, hi...
Just be polite
And
Avoid
Yes avoid
Avoid them
Avoid them all
Stay away
Stay away
Stay away..............

BLESSED

You should be blessed and accepting
At lease feel blessed
and
accept the fact that you are blessed.

AFRAID

Afraid to go to sleep and afraid to get up...
What can that be?

Keepers of notebooks are different breed altogether.
                                                                 Didion

COMPLEMENT

Its not such a compliment
The feeling of being hurt always by others.
It reveals vulnerability in a negative way, the way of being
ignorant.
Cut it out.
Do it your way,
The hurt I mean...
Be strong, determined, decisive.

THE GIFTS

The gifts wasted through meaningless carelessness
and meaningless idiotic people.

ACTORS

All other actors sing this line

"Where am I going?"
And
"Why am I taking this malady with me?"

All actors say it
All actors sing it
All actors dance it

After the dance
all actors fight.

MALADY

Imagine what would you be without your malady?

A normal person

I don't want to be a normal person.

SELF RESPECT

People who have self respect stay out of trouble.

"Self respect is a private reconciliation."  ?

'People with self respect exhibit a certain toughness."  ?
They display moral nerve and character."?

CHARACTER

"The willingness to take responsibility for one's own life is the source
from which self respect springs."  ?

"One lives by doing things one doesn't particularly
want to do." ?

'By putting fears and doubts on one side." ?

REMEMBER

"Remember who and what you are."  ?

"Intrinsic worth which constitute self respect."

SELF RESPECT

"The ability to discriminate

The ability to love

The ability to remain indifferent. ?

CONTEMPT

"At the mercy of those we hold in contempt,
we play roles doomed to failure before they begun...
each defeat generating fresh despair."   Didion

'To free us from the expectation of others
to give us back to ourselves...
there lies the great, the singular power of self respect."  Didion

TWO WEEKS OF JUNE
A
NEW PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF