"THE ONLY WORDS FOR ME WHEN THE CHIPS ARE DOWN IS

THAT I AM AN ARTIST."

James Baldwin

"THE LANGUAGE AT ITS BEST CONVEYS FEELINGS

AND AT ITS WORST, ATROPHY OF FEELING MANIFESTING

ITSELF IN AND TRIVIALIZING OR DENYING BEING."

James Baldwin

'ART SERVES NO ONE BUT ITSELF?"

'SALVATION WILL NEVER COME, NOR WILL SELF KNOWLEDGE.

WHATEVER ONE UNDERTAKES ONE MUST FAIL, AND ONE'S ONLY

RECOURSE IS TO FAIL AGAIN IF BETTER THE NEXT TIME."

Beckett

'LIFE IS A CATASTROPHE FROM BIRTH, ISOLATION IS A NECESSARY

ELEMENT IN THE HUMAN CONDITION AND SALVATION THOUGH PROMISED WILL NEVER COME."

Beckett

'YOU HAVE MISSED EVERYTHING

Go to central park and see the leaves changing colors.

But the leaves have already changed colors and now they have

fallen on the ground.

And not only fallen but the leaves have been cleaned from the

ground already.

You are one week too late, or maybe two weeks too late.

The leaves have fallen and removed.

You missed it like all other things which have been missed by you.

You are too late.

You have missed a lot."

BS

"I SUFFER, HENCE I AM."

Descartes

"NOT ONLY THE ANSWERS ARE UN-KNOWABLE,

BUT THE MOST FUNDAMENTAL QUESTIONS ABOUT BIRTH

AND DEATH ARE NOT SUSCEPTIBLE TO NEAT CLARIFICATION."

Descartes

MOLLY MALONE, A NOVEL BY Beckett

TERSE ONE PERSON FICTIONS LONG MONOLOGUES

LEAPING FITFULLY FROM TOPIC TO TOPIC SHIFTING

CHRONOLOGY SPENDING GLOOMY TIME OVER UN-IMPORTANT

INCONVIENIENCES

PINTER ABOUT BECKETT

"HE IS THE MOST COURAGEOUS REMORSELESS

WRITER GOING AND THE MORE HE GRINDS MY

NOSE IN THE SHIT THE MORE I AM GRATEFUL TO HIM."

Pinter

"The further he goes,) Beckett) the more good it does me."

Pinter

"PINTER FOUND WELL APPOINTED LIVING ROOM SUFFICENTLY THREATENING?"

"BECKETT HAD LIFE ITSELF THE ENEMY?"

"PINTER FINDS POLITICAL AND SOCIAL SYSTEM HATEFUL.

"PINTERS CHARACTERS CONVERT INNOCUOUS CONVERSATIONS

INTO CONFRONTATIONS RIFE WITH DEEP LYING AND FRIGHTENING

HOSTILITY." Annonymous

'PINTER'S VIOLENCE MAY BE VERBAL BUT ITS NOT LESS

VIOLENT FOR THAT." Annonymous

'Anxious orderliness is a disease, a neurosis." ?

IS HE THE ONE?

A short sketch

by

BS

'Is he the one?"

'Who?"

'He?"

"Who?"

"Him"

"What about him?"

"What?"

"Is he the one?"

'"Who?"

"He"

"Who?"

"Him"

"What about him?"

"Is he the one?"

"Who?"

'"Him"

"What about him?"

"Is he the artist?"

"I don't know, cant recognise him"

"He has changed."

"He looks tired."

"He looks very tired."

"He has changed"

"Who?"

"The artist, he has changed. He looks sad."

"Who?"

"The artist"

    END

"HUMANS ARE THROWN INTO THE WORLD TO MAKE

THEIR OWN WAY ON THEIR OWN."

Sartre

"THE WORLD MADE FOR FUTILITY, FOR MISCOMMUNICATION

AND ENDLESS DISAPPOINTMENT." ??????

"INDIVIDUAL IS CONDEMEND TO BE FREE=

FREE, IN THAT HE MAKES HIMSELF THE AUTHOR

OF HIS OWN BEING.

CONDEMEND IN THAT.  THIS FREEDOM ENTAILS THE

WEIGHTIEST RESPONSIBILITY."

Sartre

"THE MASS CULTURE PUSHES THE INDIVIDUAL BELOW

THE LINE INTO THE LOWEST COMMON DENOMINATOR." ????

"PUBLIC ATTENTION BECAME A PLAGUE FOR HIM." About Oscar Wilde ????

"Bosie, Lord Douglas, Oscar Wilde's lover..... 

DEMANDING

QUARRELSOME

VICIOUS

UTTERLY SELF ABSORBED

CAPRICIOUS

UN-SCRUPULOUS ABOUT CADGING MONEY

OSCAR WILDE,  PAID AND PAID, EMOTIONALLY AND FINANCIALLY.

BECAME FROM LIONIZED PLAYWRIGHT TO STIGMATIZED CRIMINAL.

LONG AND FAR FROM LOVELY SUICIDE." ?

UNMISTAKABLE STAGE TALK" About Pinter, Anonymous

PHILOSOPHIC RUMINATIONS CONTINUE......Page 3

Dr. Johnson was plagued by the,"Black dog" of

Melancholia,

Anxiety,

Loneliness,

Financial difficulties,

Self doubt.

He found his voice in the written word." ?

"Who do you think you are?

If Dr. Johnson could have all of the qualities of the,"Black dog"

who do you think you are?

You think God would spare you ?

He didn't spare Dr. Johnson of the melancholia, self doubt, anxiety, loneliness, financial difficulties,

Who do you think you are ?

You don't even have correct gramer and you want to be rid of the, "Black dog?" BS

PHILOSOPHIC RUMINATIONS CONTINUE.............Page 2

"I still belong to the bohemian class though its not a note of success."?

VIOLENCE IN Karachi

Etheinicity

Sectarianism

Insecurity

Gang war

Mafia and Politics

Parties clash of interests

WRITING STYLE OF AN IMMIGRANT

'You don't like my writing

because you have cultural anxiety about my work.

You have some issues of superiority vs inferiority issues.

You don't like my strong political opinions

You don't consider my intelligence intelligence,

you rather call it,"Conspiracy theory"

You put me in a narrow vision of yours

But its you who has that narrow vision

I can't always be an immigrant,

That's how you see me

That's what you expect me to write about

I can't talk about your country

The country which is now my country also

The country you also admits has flaws

But when I talk about those flaws,

you say,"Oh! come on...Oh! come on....

You want me to talk about the country I left behind

You want me to only talk about the flaws of the country left behind

You want me to actually double the flaws of the country I left behind

You feel safer that way.

Am I that threatening to you?

Me ?

With no power of my own

Just a pen and a paper...not even a laptop,

Just a pen and a paper...

LONELY ARTIST

Live inside of your own creative world,

like a castle of your poems and stories.

"You are what you are." Pinter

"Spooner is an optimist. So there will be other jobs." Pinter

'Do not spend a fraction of a second on any one,

Just create something yourself just for yourself"

"People are not free to see you. 

 They are making money.

You should also be not free to see people.

 Make stories, make poems, make sentences out of words.

 String words together and make a garland of colorful poems." BS

PHILOSOPHICAL RUMINATIONS

A COLLECTION OF PROSE POEMS AND DRAMATIC DIALOGUE

BY

BINA SHARIF

"The dark side of Dr. Johnson's Philosophy is said to have come from a

dread of of the,"Vacuity" of life.

He analyzes most human activity as a kind of running away from the

horrified awareness of inner Vacum, a need to fill the vacancies of attention

and lessen the tediousness of time with novelty and diversion." ?

"There is deep thoughtfulness in your prose...Keep doing what you are doing...

Keep writing and stop seeking approval from all the experts and non experts." ?

"I need nothing

I feel nothing

I desire nothing. Wole-Soyinka

"The Rambler,

The Adventurer,

The Idler,

Be all three of them." BS

"Sharp swing between enthusiasm

and disappointment." ?

INTERESTS

Drama

Politics

Poetry

Painting

Manners

Psychology

Strong opinions...

Two of these things are already of no interest

Politics

Strong Opinions

Personal strong Opinions stays...BS

"Above all else, he valued what he called,"Gusto"

"Energy of will"

"Red bloodedness"...Hazlitt

'Stress the feeling of art and life in your writing,

Importance of feelling is the most Important."...................BS

"In the past I wanted to confront friends and foe

with their ignorance and prejudices.

My feelings never seemed settled, but no more...

People and their Ignorance and Prejudices lost meaning,

and I lost interest in all of them 

and my feeling for such a 

"Fake" 'Freedom and Democracy."

BS

"A writer should have dialogue with the reader

 and conversational rapport.

Prose should be pulsing, energetic, alive." ?

'MY IRRITABLENESS."

The rambler

PROUD

Be proud indeed,

even if your victories seem small and of

no consequence to the aggressor who is actually

jealous of you...

and doesn't want you to be victorious

even in a tiny way.

But be proud of your accomplishments,

even if they don't seem accomplishments at all to any one.

MUSALMAN

Now a days, no Musalman come to the aid of

another Musalman.

PLOTS

People who plot against you

deep down are cowards and are fearful of

your strengths...........

Plots, plots, plots, always plots.

You should be so proud

you have never plotted against any one

See there are so many reasons to be proud

But you are just bogged down by petty stuff

Such petty stuff

And you are so worried

So, so worried

So afraid...

Afraid of what?

So helpless, 

so frightened

Of Petty stuff...

What's the matter with you?

Don't be so inclined to

 let yourself be so mollified....

What's the matter with you?

Whose daughter are you?

Don't forget your ancestors

and their honest  and pure 

ways of dealing with life.

ACTION MUST BE TAKEN

You can't just be procrastinating

You have to take an action.

 right there and than at the momet of

Procrastination

And shut every one up 

The one's who disturb your balance

whoever they are...

shut them up.

Instead of having sleepless 

Nights over their petty insults

Impetuous energy is required?

Instill fresh courage and confidence?

Re-organize in masterly fashion?

ON THE ROAD

On the road,

in  the search of truth

In the quest of truth

there is incredible loneliness.

FAITH

You suffer from incredible 

terror sometimes

because you lack faith.

THE DEAD MAN ON THE ROAD SIDE

Left the dead man alone on the road side?

How your mind is poisoned with impure

Thoughts of selfishness, uncaring, deceitful

lacking any kind of empathy...

You let the dead man alone on the road side?

FLEE ?

"Gave way and began to flee"?

Don't give way

Don't flee

No matter what happens...

A LOW LIFE

A person who is a low life

Will eventually reveal it without even trying

And it won't even take such time as the, 

Enormously weighty word, "Eventually"

The low life is in the details

which a sophisticated person

 Sitting across the low life

By some misfortunate choice 

of judgement never follows.

LIONESS

Live like a lioness

Dash like a lioness

Dash right into the center of the plot.

Tear it apart

Can't retreat

Can't

You are a lioness

A born lioness

Live like one

Live like a lioness

Tear everything apart with

 Your thunder and your teeth.

YOU ON TO JESUS

You on to Jesus

I on to Mohammad...

ILLNESS

Mental illness and fear...

Mental illness or fear is a snake

Around

The neck

Mental illness or

The shadow of fear is a snake

Many snakes shadow is

Just a shadow

Nothing clear

Nothing defined.

DEMAND

Don't demand useless efforts

From yourself and your

loved ones.

Don't demand exertion from

your companions

Don't demand too much from

Any one

Don't demand anything from

Anyone.

Don't demand

have reverence.

IDIOTS

Stop

Stop

Stop

Stop thinking of the idiots

Wake up

You are under the eyes of the enemy

Be swift

Be measured

Prove that you are in a fine state of health

The eye of the enemy looking on

Don't think of the idiots all day

You are under the eye of the enemy

Think of the enemy

Be strong

Be honest

Be lawful

Be clean

Don;t be afraid

THAT'S THE PROBLEM

FEAR...

THAT'S THE PROBLEM

FEAR OF UNSEEN THINGS

FEAR OF FEARFUL IMAGINATION

FEAR OF FEAR ITSELF.

You are safe

Don't panic

You are safe

The enemy has left

The enemy has gone home...

Looking so pathetic still ?

Fearful of what?

Shame on you

Shame on you

Shame on you

Don't look defeated

Because you are not, "Defeated"

Mental well being surpassing

Even the bodily health.

Its all in the head

All in your head.

Cure your imagination.

Don't make your imagination your enemy.

Write a sell out script with your imagination

That's the way of the modern world

But you are not modern

That's the problem

Isn't it?

There is no enemy

There is no fear

There is no terror.

Oh! yes, there is...

There is Islamic terror...

"Islamist's have taken over."

British parlimentarian said the other day.

PRETTY YOUNG CHATTER

SARAH: I can accept that.

Like everyone else play your fucking drums.

MIMI: Come on. "System of the down."

I like that

The drummer is not feeling your body

NAOMI: He is too fast to play rock

And not fast enough to play anything else.

MARY: HA, HA, HA, HA. He has to practice that.

BARBRA: Ha,ha,ha,ha,ha...

MABEL: Its like, its like, its like ha,ha,ha,ha.

LIZZI: Its like bullshit, yeh, yeh, yeh, yeh....

MARGO: What time you have to go some where?

SOPHIA: We should burst them up.

KARISSA: Yeh, call the zone, find out what's going on?

BETH: Oh! you guys... Is it ok?

ALISA: Why is it not ok?

PINKY: Ha, ha, ha, ha. I have a bad fucking habit

Of asking,"Can I come along?"

ROSEMARY: Of course you can. Why do you ask?

MOIRA: Ha, ha, ha, ha. I have this bad habbit.

CHRISTIN: She gives us plenty of money but I don't like her,

or her work.

LOUISA: Did you pay?

MARY: He paid...

 LOUISA: Oh! I thought you paid.

MELLISA: He didn't pay. Schmuck.

CATILIN: Are you coming? You might hate it.

ELIZBETH: Schmuck

REBBECA: I have got to go to the bathroom.

MONICA: She is wearing studs like the guy in the poster.

SUZANE: He is not country, the guy on the poster.

He is rock. He is like my dad.

SUSAN: Your dad is a rock star?

MELINDA: Wants to be.

ALINA: Ha, ha, ha, ha. I have to go to the bathroom.

BOOBBOO: That bitch is in there for so long. What's she

doing inside?

FRANCINE: Masturbating. Its got to be.

FRANCHESCA: What? Masturbation? Its never pretty in

Public bathrooms.

CARA: Thats where it's prettiest.

CARMEN: Ha, ha, ha, ha. Really, surely she is fucked up.

BRENDA: I am glad I am not rich. She is unhappy.

CLAIRE: Do I want to be unhappy?

MITTCHELL: Making money is very easy. Go corporate, go business.

SUZI: I would never do either. What we are doing is hustling.

MARY BETH: Working for a living is not hustling.

CARRY: Its not but we are working for money.

JANE: Thats not hustle. We are not running around trying to sell

something which is not healthy for them.

JANET: That's the real hustle. 

 Hustle within a hustle. Business hustle,

Prostitution....Called, " ESCORT." 

 Corporate hustle called, "PRETTY THINGS

chattering away, chattering away to the diamond store.

Called, "COMPANIONS

"ESCORTS/COMPANIONS.

CHATTERING AWAY YOUNG PRETTY THINGS, IT'S GOING TO BE THE

END OF PRETTY YOUNG CHATTER SOON, VERY SOON.

THE END.

LOVE MAKING

A

PLAY

BY

BINA SHARIF

CHARACTERS:

PAUL: 

     A HANDSOME WHITE MALE: 30-35

BEATRICE: 

   A GOOD LOOKING WHITE FEMALE: 25-30

PLACE:

AN ELEGANT LIVING ROOM, BEAUTIFULLY FURNISHED WITH A BEAUTIFUL MARBLE FIRE PLACE

IN AN ELEGANT COUNTRY HOME SURROUNDED BY SNOW CLAD TREES.

TIME:

END OF JANUARY.

PAUL: We took this house just for this huge living room. Great place though, (pause)

In the winter just this room...So vast...You couldn't warm this room.

One time we got twenty inches of snow and they, (pause) other lovers couldn't

even enter the place. The snow was up-to their butt. (laughs) It was funny. (laugh louder) It was hysterical. Than the snow froze and became all ice. Ice and ice and ice.

Me ? A city guy in the country. A city bumpkin. We couldn't even get the car out.

We couldn't even get the car out. So we lit a fire and made love and made love and

made love.

We made so much love that we,"EXHAUSTED LOVE." and got out of the,"LOVE

MAKING HABBIT."

BEATRICE: You divorced?

PAUL: No, we were never married. We were together with free,"SEX." with range of

wide and numerous lovers kind of a deal. We were never married. We still stayed

together but we never,"MADE LOVE TO EACH OTHER AGAIN." No, we never

made love with each other...Never.

We blamed the snow and ice outside, we blamed our huge cold house, except this

room with fire place going where we exhausted love and love making.

BEATRICE: But love making can never be exhausted.

PAUL: Yes, you are correct. Don't get me wrong. When I say,"We never made love again"

I mean, we never made love to each other but of course we didn't give up love

making. I mean how can one do that? We made love always and always in this

vast room but with other lovers right in-front of each other.

That was the deal of our romantic life. We were attractive people. Highly

attractive, young, wealthy, upper-class, blue blood, civilized American people.

We were not going to cut each other's heads off for infidelity. We are free, liberal,

educated, individualistic citizens and you know how long it took us to get to this

kind of freedom? All those half naked people running around on the mountain

tops and civil war and all that slaughter.....It took us Centuries to get this kind of

freedom and we are not going to give it up now.

BEATRICE: Of course not and no one is suggesting that we should.

PAUL: (Interrupts her) You are wrong on that sweetheart....wrong. There are lots of

people and nations who are angry at us.

BEATRICE: (Interrupts him) Angry?

PAUL: Yes, angry. Furious actually. So furious about our freedom. Our total incredible

American freedom that they want us to change completely. Follow some stupid

ancient rules and become completely, "DRY." and, "NON-FUNCTIONAL"

They don't want us to have the freedom of,"LOVE MAKING AT ALL"

BEATRICE: As long as we have technology of ,"CONDOM" We can make love a million times

to a million people if we want.

PAUL: Exactly. Its our bodies, our fluids. If we want to exchange our body fluids whose

God dammed business it is to prevent us?

BEATRICE: No one can dare.

PAUL: They dare, baby, they dare. But we are,"LOVE MAKERS" We can't be intimidated.

I mean what's wrong with that? Our living room, our fire place, our own lovers.

BEATRICE: They shouldn't have a problem with that.

PAUL: But they do.

BEATRICE: Why?

PAUL: They want to make love too.

BEATRICE: So they should.

PAUL: How? They neither have an elegantly vast room like this, nor a fire place, nor

plenty of handsome virile lovers.

BEATRICE: That's their problem.

PAUL: Exactly. But they blame us.

BEATRICE: Why?

PAUL: Because we have it and they don't.

BEATRICE: Then they should also have what we have.

PAUL: But they can't

BEATRICE: Why not?

PAUL: They don't have the capability like we do. They don't have our looks. Our

physique. Our wardrobe.

BEATRICE: Who needs a wardrobe when all one wants is to be naked and have love making.

PAUL: I know. But you know what I mean. Before they get to that, "NAKED PART."

They need a wardrobe, a sexy wardrobe to attract lovers. They need the house

in the country, this huge carpeted room and that glorious marble fire place and

snow outside.

BEATRICE: (Interrupts him with a longing) Its so romantic to have all that.

PAUL: Yes exactly. The problem is that they are not,"ROMANTIC.". Not romantic at all.

If they were, they would have figured it all out from the very beginning.

BEATRICE: Right.

PAUL: See, we figured it out. How could they not? I am quite perplexed about that.

BEATRICE: My father helped me figure it out. He also had a country home.

PAUL: Exactly. You said it. Some one have to help you figure it all out especially if you

are such a moron like all of them.

BEATRICE: Thank God we were neither morons nor were we all alone by ourselves shivering

in the cold without fire places.

PAUL: Yes. That kept us warm. And when one is warm one wants to take one's clothes off

and play.

BEATRICE: Thank God we can ,"PLAY."

PAUL: What else is there in life but play and have fun, a lots of fun, lots and lots of,

"FUN."

BEATRICE: OH! OH! I am getting itchy. Where are the rest of our lovers? I mean, we have

stopped making love with each other...I am cool with that. But where are our

lovers?

PAUL: YEH...where are they? Its taking awfully long time for them to arrive.

BEATRICE: Maybe they are stuck in the snow?

PAUL: Gee...I didn't think about that. Thats what it is...its twenty eight inches of snow out there. I wonder how long will it be before they arrive?

BEATRICE: I am far too horny for that...

PAUL: Well! There shouldn't be such hard and strict rules in life especially when,"LOVE"

is concerned.

BEATRICE: But we don't love each other. We only need to,"FUCK." Right?

PAUL: You mean, "LOVE MAKING?"

BEATRICE: Of course I mean that. What else would I mean? We are free. Liberated. Ex

lovers. We can say the word,"FUCK." English language is the best language in

world. The English language has so many different meanings of just a simple word

such as,"FUCK" which actually means tender loving.

PAUL: I know. I still like the word,"LOVE MAKING." Its more aristocratic and don't

forget where we come from?

BEATRICE: Yes, you are right. In my excitement of impatience I forget.

PAUL: Never forget where you come from. Never. Especially when you come from

aristocracy.

BEATRICE: Of course. Of course. I am such a fuck sometimes.

PAUL: Don't worry baby...Don't worry. (Pause) (Very sexily and seductively he comes to

her)

Are you ready baby? Are you ready my pussy?

BEATRICE: (Lustily) I am ready darling. I am ready my sweet. I am ready my sugar. I am

ready my many chocolate layered cake. I am ready my hot melting fudge candy.

I am ready...I am so ready.

(They both do a striptease for each other, classical music plays. They are stark naked,

they leap at each others like ferocious tigers. Lights fade to black. Music keeps playing

during the black out)

CURTAIN

NO CHECK

I represent myself

I have no boss

I have no servant

I have no diamond

I have no car

I have no farm

I have no factory

I have no country

I have no citizenship

They took away everything

from me when I spoke my mind

Now I still speak my mind

Now I only speak my mind

Its up-to you to listen or not to listen

Doesn't matter

Why should it matter?

I lost representation which I never had anyway....

Now I represent myself

Which I always did....

I represented myself always

Always alone, Alone by myself....

I represented myself

I still do.....

Always alone...

Always alone

And representing myself...

Why?

I can never speak my mind if I don't represent myself

I am the only one

Who came from such a far away place

A far away land to speak my mind...

If I don't, who will?

None of the others from my far away land are here...

So I have to speak on their behalf

And the only way I can do it?

Is to represent myself.

Well...Where is the check?

A check?

Yes, a check for your speaking engagements ?

Well! How can I get a check when I do speak my mind?

SELF AND ITS REQUIREMENTS

Avoid all self defeating tendencies

even if they are totally small and insignificant...

Because eventually they will  become huge and un-surmountable.