ITS TIME

ITS TIME TO WRITE A NEW PLAY

AND CLEAN THE APT

AND BUY A NEW DRESS.

Get away from toxic elements

Do not call A

Do not call S

Do not call P

Too many formalities

Too much tension

London ?

Cheaper place

Sunny place

Take a trip to the sunnier and cheaper places.

When see S, tell her about un-reliability of her words

Or don't even give her that kind of importance.

Say nothing

Make better and classier aquaintances.

Trip to P is very tiring

Liberal models---

Those arts which promise to liberate by acquaining us with past models of human greatness ?

'Our faith in humanity is undermined by watching, hearing what's happening in the world."

Bed

Shampoo and conditioner

Coffee

Butter

Toast

Bread

Flowers

Put some clothes away from the rack

Buy European card

Every sunday big cleaning day

Too much of everything

MANHATTAN DAYS

I always wonder why people including me go to the cafe's?

I guess some people go there to escape and some to join in...

Me?

To escape

Escape my loneliness

You have to know how to use luck

THE WORK

The work is not terrible

Its actually excellent.

It is unique

It has unique perspective

Its thought provoking

It seeks the myth, called, "Truth."

It denies the wide spread lies

Its critical of colonialism, wars, plundering the resources of the weak natiions---

Its tender, warm, honest.

It doesn't kiss ass.

It feels, it breaths, it makes you angry, sad, happy.

It creates laughter.

It has enormous humor.

Its wordly

Its disturbing

Its visionary

Its ahead of its time."     Annonymous

LONDON,  OH! LONDON

I would like to go to London actually

Stay in a comfortable place by myself in a nice area near the tube station

See all the plays at National theater, Royal court, Bush theatre, young vic and some other venues

Explore new neighborhoods

Have warm, fashionable, comfortable coat, boots, hand bag,kashmir jumpers

and eat out in fancy places

And during the days go to the museums, British museum, Tate modern etc and take long

walks in the park of course when its not raining which might not be possible...

Actually thats what I want

Can't go anywhere like a faqirni...

So tired of being a Faqirni.....

I also have to bring the lower levells of society, (My literary salon ) back into circulation

A salon for theater, poetry, performance and visual arts.

All artists welcome to drill and develop their craft at the lower levells of society.

Starting after the snow clears.

Does that mean in July ?

"NO MONEY, NO JOB, NO PLAN "

A ONE WOMAN PERFORMANCE PIECE
BY
BINA SHARIF

TODAY'S DIET CHART

Yogurt with raw honey

cammomile tea

few almonds

YESTERDAY

Yogurt

tea

tiny dry toast

an orange

two more tiny little toasts

few nuts

Macciato

And

Pig out again at Lumier

"FRANTIC INTERNAL BUBBLING"

"We all end our lives with deficit, yet, yet

one feels a power seething inside one, one has a task to do, and it must be done."   Van Gogh

What's the real problem in your life?

Money.

Money is the real problem.

Need money to feel relaxed, travel, take care of things which I don't

'God please by some miracle open doors of my financial  situation.

please god help me."

'Power seething inside one."

Portrait of a crisis

leah Heger cohen

"Tender hearted-push-pull by scorching genius and helpless servitude."

"Charity and purity of vision, he submiyyed in full-to the point of madness-to the point

of utter self abnegation ...about Van Gogh

"Image of a man in extremis."

'Trudging through the rain on a defeated march

Drenched, famished, exhausted, freezing, feverish, delirious, attuned to his psychic agony

over a rift with the family, he loves, ge igraphical and spiritual rift riddled with their

judgement, their disappointment."     About Van Gogh

LISTEN.  PLEASE LISTEN.  GOOD FOR YOU TO LISTEN.

FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING ESPECIALLY THE TRAUMA OF THE C

THEY MIGHT BE ASSHOLES, THEY MIGHT BE RACISTS, THEY MIGHT BE ANTI SO

AND SO.  NO MATTER WHAT ITS TOO LATE AND USELESS ENERGY IS BEING SPENT

ON THEM.

BESIDES ALL OF THE ABOVE OR ANY OTHER GOD DAMNED REASON IT DIDN'T

HAPPEN.  THAT THING DIDN'T HAPPEN, THE THING YOU CALL, "SUCCESS."

IN YOUR OWN WAY, WITH YOUR OWN EFFORT, YOU HAVE ACCOMPLISHED A HELL

 OF A LOT.  SO DON'T TALK ABOUT THOSE THINGS TO ANY ONE AND ALSO

FORGET ABOUT THEM THAT A AND THAT A.

FORGET IT ONCE AND FOR ALL.  YOU WANT TO SEE YOUR SIS, GO SEE HER AND

DON'T BRING THE OTHER TOPIC OF HER D INTO THE MEETING.  JUST THINK OF

VISITING HER ONLY AND SHE SHOULD BE THE ONLY ONE WHO SHOULD BE YOUR

CONCERN.  I MEAN ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.  I TRIED AND IF THEY ARE THAT

ADAMANT WHO NEEDS IT.  FORGET IT AND I SAY FORGET IT ONCE AND FOR ALL.

 NO RELATIONSHIP WITH ANY ONE EXCEPT HER.  PERIOD.

YOU WANT TO GO TO LONDON, GO TO F**KING LONDON.  YOU WANT TO GO FOR

LUNCH, GO TO F**KING LUNCH.  YOU WANT TO GO TO THE OTHER CITY IN P, GO

THERE.  YOU WANT TO GO TO THE RESTAURANTS...GO TO THE F**KING

RESTAURANTS.  WHAT DO YOU NEED THEM FOR.  MAKE MONEY AND SPEND IT ON

YOURSELF.CAN'T DO THAT, CAN YOU?  WELL THATS THE PROBLEM  YOU ARE

WILLING TO DO ANYTHING FOR THEM BUT ZERO FOR YOU.  YOU CAN'T DO

ANYTHING NICE FOR YOURSELF...CAN YOU?

ONLY ONE SOLUTION TO YOUR ONLY PROBLEM IS THAT YOU NEED TO BE VERY

NICE TO YOURSELF AND STOPP EXPECTING PEOPLE TO BE NICE TO YOU.

YOU BE NICE TO YOURSELF.  YOU FIRST AND F**K THE REST.

NO YOU CAN'T.  THAT IS THE PROBLEM AND THATS THE PROBLEM YOU NEED

 TO

SOLVE.

 LEARN TO TAKE YOURSELF OUT AND ON A HOLIDAY.

Why don't you do what you always say that you need to do?

Olive oil, honey,eggs,cheese, good bread, fruit, veges...

Don't spend so much time on crap, Huff and  Nyt in the morning

Buy some really fashionable clothes,

A perfect black jacket

Sneakers

Jumpers

Hat

Night clothes

Explore university work

Gym

Museums

Galleries

Readings

Fix snow boots

Fix Italian boots

And if you can't do anything about anything which you often F**king talk about

then do nothing.  Nothing I say, Nothing and be as depressed as you want, as sad as you want, as

lonely as you want.  Go no where...See no one...Just repeat the same depressing sick stories again and

again and waste your life.  Talking  about wasting your life.  You have done that already.  Wasted life,

now move on to the next subject.

16th and 17th Centuries

Divine wrath......annonymous

'Iron in the soul."    ...anonymous

"Rally your troops with the pretext of religion."    Emporer Ferdinand  11 said to his generals.

EXPENSE OF MORAL AND CULTURAL LOSS

He is a non stop money making machine.  Not a hell of a lot but steady money.

STOP

Stop thinking about the ,"Success" and "Non success."  Stop.  Just stop.

Just stop thinking about it.  It makes you depressed and helpless.

These two things are very negative and destructive for you.

MOVE ON......

Think of other ways and possibilities to further your work and money situation.

  Promise me that you won't do anything which goes against you.

And make peace with people you love not for their sake but for your own sake.

You were happier when you loved.  Say sorry and start anew.

PREPARE

AND

BEGIN

PREPARING.

TOPICS FOR PLAYS

STORIES OF FORTUNES MADE AND LOST

POLITICS

FINANCE

RELIGION

WEATHER

WORK

LOYALTY

BETRAYL

GRACE

VANITY

CALLOUSNESS

COMPASSION

COMPLEXITY OF PAST

ALL THE SHADOWS WHICH PASS IN-FRONT OF MY EYES

TOTAL SCARE

A NEW ONE.

People of the past and their joys and struggles....something of ourselves.....Attenberg

YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING

You have to do something

You don't work

You don't socialize

You don't go to the museums

You don't go to the galleries

You sleep late

You get up late

You don't take care of your apt

You don't advance your cause

You are not proud of your work

You are not productive enough

And you are FAT.

PRODUCER

She is a movie producer

Or she works with the movie companies.

She might be from the influential groups.

Money people.

She keeps saying, "My film, my film."

"I produced and directed,"  She just said

She is a producer and a director of movies.

With a very squeeky voice, tights, sweater, skirt not very long and boots she has lots of influence.

People are full of confidence

I do nothing

I am depressed

Deeply depressed

Have been depressed since 2005

In 2OO8 and 2008 something undefined but dreadful happened.

Your wholee life seems affected by F  affairs

You have no life of your own, no will of your own, no planning of your own

No schedule

Always, others, others, others

"What did he say?"

"What did she say?"

"What should I say?"

"What should I do."

"How should I react?"

F**k that shit

Live a life

Your life

What your life?

"No life,"

Bravo

Have a F**king life

Your own life

Everyone else have their own life

What about you?

They hold the strings of happiness, depression, success.

Play the f**king game

Why did you have to take it so seriously?

S was excited...thas all.

You ruined your money and your time with H also.

What an Idiot...What an Idiot...What an Idiot.












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FALL OF THE HOUSE OF KHOKHARS

FALL OF THE HOUSE OF KHOKHARS

AN AUTOBIOGRAPHICAL PLAY IN THREE PARTS

PART ONE:  GRAND PARENTS, MATERNAL AND FRATERNAL

UNCLES AND AUNTS

PART TWO:  BROTHERS AND SISTERS AND THEIR SPOUSES

PART THREE:  NIECES AND NEPHEWS AND THEIR SPOUSES AND THEIR CHILDREN

ITS MY BUSINESS TO KNOW WHAT OTHER PEOPLE DON'T KNOW

"ITS MY BUSINESS TO KNOW WHAT OTHER PEOPLE DON'T KNOW."  Sherlock Holmes

A self made free man travelled awful roads

"Magic lanterns in darkened rooms."

'The past speaks to us through the words of great writers,

if you have read a thousand books, you have lived a thousand lives."  Anonymous

'Theme of opposites."

Light and dark

Young and old

Male and female

Inside and out side"

Uff...Our life is so tragic

No one's life is as tragic as ours.

Its permanent pain

Suffering because of Y M's one action.

'People with comforts

Not hardships

Servants

Slim

Cleaning ladies

Houses

Cars

Snow

And

Subways.

And

Muzdoori"

'Add another commercial

"Once upon a time there was a fool."

I am going to spend the whole check on me

Jumpers, warm, kashmir

Warm tights

Thermals from Uniqlo

Sneakers from Runners

Ankle boots

Hats

Lose weight for the show.  (Show is now over and the weight stays."

Avoid bread and pasta, (JUst ate it last night )

Avoid potatoes and cheese

Eat sa;ads and fruits

And how long have you been saying that ?

'A gift or a curse for perceiving un-happiness."

'For your own mental health you have to ignore every one and when I say every one I mean every

one."

Just Ignore

Don't register

Don't bring their stress into your life

Just try to deal with your own stress

F**k people.

F**K critics

F**k adminstrators

F**k friends

Friends?

What a joke

Try to make some money

Keep busy

Be like Helen

Get addicted with something outside of your head and home and all of them

the ones you waste time thinking about and bull shit like that.

2005 horrible

2008 horrible

2011 horrible

Remember the three horribles

Jesus

I am always with you though I am invisible

Breaking the bread?

Breaking the body of christ?

Why would any one break the body of the son of God?

Jesus loves us as we are.

Jesus always welcomed those who were shunned by the establishment.

God gave us free will.

Its the will to do or not to do

Certain things make certain choices.

Its the fate, kismet--its you you who with the belief of divine make or break it.   Annoymous

Submit yourself to become a character in a story.

Add gossip and backbiting, a speciality of women.

I don't know about revealing the last names before the comedy night scene ?

Bitterly,

Sarcastic caricatures

Deep seated pessimism

Disorder

Alienation

Hypocrisy

Fascination with the madness of the crowds ?

Hell on earth

Masses of people

Need to get rid of A, S and R ?

Too much time wasted.

Need to make acquaintance with T groups.  All of the above are nonsensical

self absorbed, egotistical bull shiters

Its the best of me that disappears under the influence of aggression and un-just authority.

I detest people.

Cynicism?

Scornful

Foul

Hateful

Loathing of false hood

Its the best of me that disappears.......Gide

Music is the enemy of Isolation....Grass

Despair over mankind's ongoing parade of rapine torture and genocide ?

The story telling is episodic, rambling and digressive.....Grass

Never worry about the band playing in the other room because you are the band....Quentin Crisp

Ardor,

Passion.

Stay away from trouble.  Stay away from people, the main source of trouble.

Empty your brain of un-necessary things, un-necessary people.

Empty your brain from their wasteful presence.

Be alone with your work.

Expect no M from no one and take aggression from no one

Me and my H?

Me and my apt

Me and my work

Nothing else

What does the H stand for?

Happiness I guess

Or horror perhaps.....

A person who lives simultaneously in two countries,

Who thrived and failed at the same time

Who escaped his past and didn't.....Annonymous

Such contradictions

Creed of self invention....Annonymous

Origins in any country can't be escaped.  Traumas which has no balm ?

Holes,

Which can not be filled

Cultures

habits

values

family breakdowns

Poverty

Brokenness to his spirit...?

Crippling emotional trauma

A rage of generations

No level of achievements or external intervention can compensate for the lack of family....?

Problems that traced generations can never be solved with welfare every two weeks..?

Problem is dense,

Complex,

Knotted.....?

You see the problem I am having with you is that you always have an excuse

and you want me to absolutely control my humiliation over your lame excuse

and carrying on being a friend as usual.

You can make as many excuses as you want but there is no sense of sincerity

or honesty which is essential to continue friendship.

Your excuses no matter how genuine to yourself are un-acceptable by any reasonable person.

"THE GREATEST SHOW ON EARTH IS THE SHOW OF HUMAN EMOTION,

FOR COMPLEXITY OF CHARACTER, PSYCHOLOGICAL NUANCES

AND DOWNRIGHT DRAMATIC BEHAVIOR AND IT EXISTS ONLY IN

CHEKHOV, TENNESSEE WILLIAMS AND AUGUST WILSON.....John Lahr

'Doubt get you an education."     John Lahr

Temptation to exist by E.M Cioran

Lives of poets by Samuel Johnson

"Style after all is metabolism"  John Lahr


Writing has to have a pulse."  John Lahr

For a writer essential things

Curiosity

Imagination

Style

Psychological nuance......John Lahr

MANHATTAN SPLEEN

WOMEN OF WESTERN CIVILIZATION

A ONE WOMAN PLAY
BY

BINA SHARIF

CONSISTS OF

TALEHEY

KEEREHEY

TWO POEMS FROM DIARY OF A THOUGHT

RAIN POEM

MAID

TV CAREER

KARIMA ULLAHA IST MONOLOGUE

NOTES ON C

Under the dresser

Behind the raek

Big table

Under the sink

Medicine cabinet

Closet

Files under the vanity, under the sink, in the big black bag

Clothes under the sink

Things behind the raek

Hang a rope on two pipes in the long room and clip drawings on them

LOWER LEVELS OF SOCIETY

CONTRIBUTIONS :$10

WINE:$5