ITS TIME

ITS TIME TO WRITE A NEW PLAY

AND CLEAN THE APT

AND BUY A NEW DRESS.

Get away from toxic elements

Do not call A

Do not call S

Do not call P

Too many formalities

Too much tension

London ?

Cheaper place

Sunny place

Take a trip to the sunnier and cheaper places.

When see S, tell her about un-reliability of her words

Or don't even give her that kind of importance.

Say nothing

Make better and classier aquaintances.

Trip to P is very tiring

Liberal models---

Those arts which promise to liberate by acquaining us with past models of human greatness ?

'Our faith in humanity is undermined by watching, hearing what's happening in the world."

Bed

Shampoo and conditioner

Coffee

Butter

Toast

Bread

Flowers

Put some clothes away from the rack

Buy European card

Every sunday big cleaning day

Too much of everything

MANHATTAN DAYS

I always wonder why people including me go to the cafe's?

I guess some people go there to escape and some to join in...

Me?

To escape

Escape my loneliness

You have to know how to use luck

THE WORK

The work is not terrible

Its actually excellent.

It is unique

It has unique perspective

Its thought provoking

It seeks the myth, called, "Truth."

It denies the wide spread lies

Its critical of colonialism, wars, plundering the resources of the weak natiions---

Its tender, warm, honest.

It doesn't kiss ass.

It feels, it breaths, it makes you angry, sad, happy.

It creates laughter.

It has enormous humor.

Its wordly

Its disturbing

Its visionary

Its ahead of its time."     Annonymous

LONDON,  OH! LONDON

I would like to go to London actually

Stay in a comfortable place by myself in a nice area near the tube station

See all the plays at National theater, Royal court, Bush theatre, young vic and some other venues

Explore new neighborhoods

Have warm, fashionable, comfortable coat, boots, hand bag,kashmir jumpers

and eat out in fancy places

And during the days go to the museums, British museum, Tate modern etc and take long

walks in the park of course when its not raining which might not be possible...

Actually thats what I want

Can't go anywhere like a faqirni...

So tired of being a Faqirni.....

I also have to bring the lower levells of society, (My literary salon ) back into circulation

A salon for theater, poetry, performance and visual arts.

All artists welcome to drill and develop their craft at the lower levells of society.

Starting after the snow clears.

Does that mean in July ?

"NO MONEY, NO JOB, NO PLAN "

A ONE WOMAN PERFORMANCE PIECE
BY
BINA SHARIF

TODAY'S DIET CHART

Yogurt with raw honey

cammomile tea

few almonds

YESTERDAY

Yogurt

tea

tiny dry toast

an orange

two more tiny little toasts

few nuts

Macciato

And

Pig out again at Lumier

"FRANTIC INTERNAL BUBBLING"

"We all end our lives with deficit, yet, yet

one feels a power seething inside one, one has a task to do, and it must be done."   Van Gogh

What's the real problem in your life?

Money.

Money is the real problem.

Need money to feel relaxed, travel, take care of things which I don't

'God please by some miracle open doors of my financial  situation.

please god help me."

'Power seething inside one."

Portrait of a crisis

leah Heger cohen

"Tender hearted-push-pull by scorching genius and helpless servitude."

"Charity and purity of vision, he submiyyed in full-to the point of madness-to the point

of utter self abnegation ...about Van Gogh

"Image of a man in extremis."

'Trudging through the rain on a defeated march

Drenched, famished, exhausted, freezing, feverish, delirious, attuned to his psychic agony

over a rift with the family, he loves, ge igraphical and spiritual rift riddled with their

judgement, their disappointment."     About Van Gogh

LISTEN.  PLEASE LISTEN.  GOOD FOR YOU TO LISTEN.

FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING ESPECIALLY THE TRAUMA OF THE C

THEY MIGHT BE ASSHOLES, THEY MIGHT BE RACISTS, THEY MIGHT BE ANTI SO

AND SO.  NO MATTER WHAT ITS TOO LATE AND USELESS ENERGY IS BEING SPENT

ON THEM.

BESIDES ALL OF THE ABOVE OR ANY OTHER GOD DAMNED REASON IT DIDN'T

HAPPEN.  THAT THING DIDN'T HAPPEN, THE THING YOU CALL, "SUCCESS."

IN YOUR OWN WAY, WITH YOUR OWN EFFORT, YOU HAVE ACCOMPLISHED A HELL

 OF A LOT.  SO DON'T TALK ABOUT THOSE THINGS TO ANY ONE AND ALSO

FORGET ABOUT THEM THAT A AND THAT A.

FORGET IT ONCE AND FOR ALL.  YOU WANT TO SEE YOUR SIS, GO SEE HER AND

DON'T BRING THE OTHER TOPIC OF HER D INTO THE MEETING.  JUST THINK OF

VISITING HER ONLY AND SHE SHOULD BE THE ONLY ONE WHO SHOULD BE YOUR

CONCERN.  I MEAN ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.  I TRIED AND IF THEY ARE THAT

ADAMANT WHO NEEDS IT.  FORGET IT AND I SAY FORGET IT ONCE AND FOR ALL.

 NO RELATIONSHIP WITH ANY ONE EXCEPT HER.  PERIOD.

YOU WANT TO GO TO LONDON, GO TO F**KING LONDON.  YOU WANT TO GO FOR

LUNCH, GO TO F**KING LUNCH.  YOU WANT TO GO TO THE OTHER CITY IN P, GO

THERE.  YOU WANT TO GO TO THE RESTAURANTS...GO TO THE F**KING

RESTAURANTS.  WHAT DO YOU NEED THEM FOR.  MAKE MONEY AND SPEND IT ON

YOURSELF.CAN'T DO THAT, CAN YOU?  WELL THATS THE PROBLEM  YOU ARE

WILLING TO DO ANYTHING FOR THEM BUT ZERO FOR YOU.  YOU CAN'T DO

ANYTHING NICE FOR YOURSELF...CAN YOU?

ONLY ONE SOLUTION TO YOUR ONLY PROBLEM IS THAT YOU NEED TO BE VERY

NICE TO YOURSELF AND STOPP EXPECTING PEOPLE TO BE NICE TO YOU.

YOU BE NICE TO YOURSELF.  YOU FIRST AND F**K THE REST.

NO YOU CAN'T.  THAT IS THE PROBLEM AND THATS THE PROBLEM YOU NEED

 TO

SOLVE.

 LEARN TO TAKE YOURSELF OUT AND ON A HOLIDAY.

Why don't you do what you always say that you need to do?

Olive oil, honey,eggs,cheese, good bread, fruit, veges...

Don't spend so much time on crap, Huff and  Nyt in the morning

Buy some really fashionable clothes,

A perfect black jacket

Sneakers

Jumpers

Hat

Night clothes

Explore university work

Gym

Museums

Galleries

Readings

Fix snow boots

Fix Italian boots

And if you can't do anything about anything which you often F**king talk about

then do nothing.  Nothing I say, Nothing and be as depressed as you want, as sad as you want, as

lonely as you want.  Go no where...See no one...Just repeat the same depressing sick stories again and

again and waste your life.  Talking  about wasting your life.  You have done that already.  Wasted life,

now move on to the next subject.

16th and 17th Centuries

Divine wrath......annonymous

'Iron in the soul."    ...anonymous

"Rally your troops with the pretext of religion."    Emporer Ferdinand  11 said to his generals.

EXPENSE OF MORAL AND CULTURAL LOSS

He is a non stop money making machine.  Not a hell of a lot but steady money.

STOP

Stop thinking about the ,"Success" and "Non success."  Stop.  Just stop.

Just stop thinking about it.  It makes you depressed and helpless.

These two things are very negative and destructive for you.

MOVE ON......

Think of other ways and possibilities to further your work and money situation.

  Promise me that you won't do anything which goes against you.

And make peace with people you love not for their sake but for your own sake.

You were happier when you loved.  Say sorry and start anew.

PREPARE

AND

BEGIN

PREPARING.

TOPICS FOR PLAYS

STORIES OF FORTUNES MADE AND LOST

POLITICS

FINANCE

RELIGION

WEATHER

WORK

LOYALTY

BETRAYL

GRACE

VANITY

CALLOUSNESS

COMPASSION

COMPLEXITY OF PAST

ALL THE SHADOWS WHICH PASS IN-FRONT OF MY EYES

TOTAL SCARE

A NEW ONE.

People of the past and their joys and struggles....something of ourselves.....Attenberg

YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING

You have to do something

You don't work

You don't socialize

You don't go to the museums

You don't go to the galleries

You sleep late

You get up late

You don't take care of your apt

You don't advance your cause

You are not proud of your work

You are not productive enough

And you are FAT.

PRODUCER

She is a movie producer

Or she works with the movie companies.

She might be from the influential groups.

Money people.

She keeps saying, "My film, my film."

"I produced and directed,"  She just said

She is a producer and a director of movies.

With a very squeeky voice, tights, sweater, skirt not very long and boots she has lots of influence.

People are full of confidence

I do nothing

I am depressed

Deeply depressed

Have been depressed since 2005

In 2OO8 and 2008 something undefined but dreadful happened.

Your wholee life seems affected by F  affairs

You have no life of your own, no will of your own, no planning of your own

No schedule

Always, others, others, others

"What did he say?"

"What did she say?"

"What should I say?"

"What should I do."

"How should I react?"

F**k that shit

Live a life

Your life

What your life?

"No life,"

Bravo

Have a F**king life

Your own life

Everyone else have their own life

What about you?

They hold the strings of happiness, depression, success.

Play the f**king game

Why did you have to take it so seriously?

S was excited...thas all.

You ruined your money and your time with H also.

What an Idiot...What an Idiot...What an Idiot.












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