MANHATTAN DAYS BY BINA SHARIF

MANHATTAN DAYS

Millions of dollars

Mansions

Awards

Fame

Galas

Dinners

Parties

Celebrities

Holidays

Travels

Five star hotels

Yachts

Boats

Provance

Organic food

No farm fish

Alchohal

Cocaine

Then

Suicide

By

Hanging..........

The End

Mental illness is never cured by all of the above.

It needs to be treated

And

Taken care of

ANTI PSYCHOTIC DRUGS

Anti psychotic drugs are dangerous

The older drugs

Haldol

Newr ones

Abilify

Latitude

They all call cause

Hallucinations

Delusions

Paranoia

Social alienation

Please beware of the prescriptions/

DRAWINGS

Paper

Ink

Pen

Ink wash

Water colors

TO DO LIST

OVER THE TABLE

UNDER THE TABLE

ART CORNER

BEHIND RACK

UNDER DRESSER

SHELF IN THE BED ROOM

CLOSETS

SCRIPTS

DRAWINGS

SALON

Lower levels of society

A performance space

And

An art gallery

Contributions only

BLACK AND WHITE PEOPLE

White people laugh a lot

Black people get shot a lot

ARRANGEMENT FOR THE LOWER LEVELS OF SOCIETY

Readings

Get folding chairs

Or people sit on the carpet

Saturday nights

Tape all readings

Learn the video camera

SUNNER

GO TO THE POOL

GET SOME SUN

AGGRESSIVE

Aggressively

Beligerantly

Putting yourself forward

WHEN YOU ARE DOWN

"When you are down on yourself and when you are hunkering

and pulling back, you are not going to make any better decisions

then when you were aggressively, beligerently putting your self forward."      Annonymus


Containment

Deference

Defeat..........H.C

No risk

No violence

No surprise

No challenge

Impossible to be a loser

Impossible to be a winner

There is hidden terror under the surface of every day life....?

There had to exist zones of violence and chaos...

Dante was exiled from Florence at the hands of Guelphs

"You shall leave everything you love most, this is the arrow that the bow of exile shoots first

in paradise."        Dante

'In a sense you are your culture, customs, language, country, your family, your lovers." ?

"Exile can be the greatests of philosophical gifts.   A blessing in disguise.  In fact

philosophers too should be uprooted." ?

'Everything has become so evident.  You have stopped seeing anything."

Socrates claimed  to be a foreigner in his own city."

ATOPOS:  MEANS, OUT OF PLACE

ALSO MEANS: DISTURBING, PERPLEXING.

Read, 'Apology for being Idle."  by Robert Louis Stevenson and loved it.

Feel less guilty for being Idle all day long.

No matter what I do

No matter where I go

No matter who I meet

No matter where I eat

I feel completely isolated and lonely

I am so isolated that it is scary

There is zero relationship with any one

Mornings are especially hard because K is not around

There are literally no friends

There is literelay no one who cares

If you live or die

No one is concerned

No one is boithered

No home to go to

No other bed to occupy for a night or two other than your own

and thank god for that bed

No chnage in winter

No change in summer

No change in spring

No prospect of future

Only the past

Only the past

Only the past

The happy past

Turned into hnhappy past npw

Turned into miserable past

The uncomfortable past

The pleasant past which was once

Now the agonizing past

Only the past

Only the past

Only the past

No present now

No future now

Only the past

I am only my past

Nothing else

EVERY ONE HAS MADE ME SO SAD

AND SOME OF THEM WERE NOT WORTH A DIME

But the lowest of the low and the highest of the high had a hold on me

Hold of a bad kind

Hold of power, provokation, degradation, criticism

Put downs

And

Pity.....

BUT NEVER OF PRAISE

NEVER OF ENCOURAGEMENT

NEVER OF PRIDE

I am not my future

I am not my present

I am only my past...........

WALK AROUND

Go walk around

Go look around

You will find

You will find

Something..............

Something good

Something bad

Something useful

Something not so useful

Cling to the good

Cling to the good

You found by walking around....

Walk around though

Its good for you just to walk around.................

ONCE UPON A TIME

Once upon a time

There lived in the world a fool

LONELINESS

Loneliness must be me ntioned twice..........













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