Thursday, September 23, 2010

MALADY CONTINUES

Then Karim woke up from never sleeping
His eyes were blood shot without ever drinking
He would like to taste drink
Hard core drink
Whisky
Maybe?
He would like to try everything which makes one forget
Does one ever forget anything?
But that's what he was told....
One forgets all after being high
And whisky must make you high
Otherwise why all the people on this planet talk about it?
Why spend so much money to have something which doesn't have
great effect on you and change your disposition from low to something
Sublime....................

Sublime!
What a sublime word!
Its all words
Isn't it?
Words, words, words
Happy
Sad
Depressed
Grieving
Tragic
Thrilled
Sorrow
Joy
Elation
Mood
Hungry
Love
Hungry for love

That's what it was
Hunger
Enormous hunger
Karim was hungry
Karim was hungry for love
He hasn't eaten love for days
He hasn't eaten love for months
He hasn't eaten love for years
Karim has never eaten love
What does it taste like?
What does love taste like?
Karim wants to taste love
And than eat it
He wants to eat love three times a day
Regularly
He wants to eat regularly like the foreigners do
Like all the tall, good looking, muscular white men with blue eyes
And blond hair
Who came to fight him and men like him, dark, with dark hair, not so muscular
and not so tall
But dark
Very dark
Almost scary
Karim heard they eat three meals
So they can stay healthy
And fight not so muscular, dark, short men oddly dressed
Karim heard that the strength in fighting the enemy was to eat three meals

Karim wants to eat love three times
His three meals to fight his desire to love his enemy
But no.....
Karim doesn't want to fight his desire to love his enemy
To make love with his tall blond, blue eyed enemy
Karim wants the three meals of love regularly to feed his desire to hold the tall
blond, blue eyed snipper holding enemy in his arms and put his dark lips on his
pale lips and lock himself in the embrace of love
Love and love only
He wants to love
Not fight
Love and love only
Embrace of love
The embrace of eternity of love
In the mountains of Pashnunstan
The name of his birth place
The place blond people were fighting for
The place which was horrid and
Hayunting
Haunting since centuries
People always came here to fight
Karim's grand father used to tell him all the stories of
Chenghes Khan
And
Alexander the great
They all came here to fight
Fight for what?
These ominous mountains?
These ravines?
The almond orchards?
The opium?
The minerals in the mountains?
What for?
All this killing
All this blood pouring from the desolate mountains
All the crying and the wailing of all the remining human beings
Crying over the loss of their loved ones
Why?
Why fight?
Karim never understood all the damage and sorrow
Useless
Waste
Death

Karim was only seeking for love and how to make love
The eternal truth
The eternal beauty of life
Love
And only love
Nothing but love
And love with this man who came to kill him

Karim wants to tell the man who came to kill him from so far away
That he wants to love him
But how can he do that?
How can he tell him that?

The tall white man will shoot him a thousand times if Karim ever came near him
So the truth will die with the shooting
The bullets when they pierce the body, they pierce the truth to smithreens
After Karim is dead with the thousand bullets
The truth of his love for the tall,blue eyed man will never be revealed
And if its revealed while Karim is alive
That would be another ferocious killing by his own dark, short, non muscular men
Revenge
They will take revenge for the dishonor to their tribe
How could Karim, a muslim man fighting for his honor and his country tell
The enemy, the kafir with blue eyes and blond hair with a bomb in his hand in Karim's
Own land that he would like to kiss him and hold him and make love with him for the
Rest of his days...............

No one on this planet can imagine this scenario....
This tragic malady
Karim's dangeous, exotic, feverish malady
Karim wants to make love with the enemy
Karim's enemy is Karim's lover
Karim wants to eat his lover with a ferocious appetite and cherish the taste like a ripe plum
From his own gardens
Karim Wants to commit the eternal sin and wants to be punished by love
Love and only love
Love was the nightmare and love was the dream and love was the malady
Karim's malady continues
Karim's malady will continue till his lovers bullets will pierce his virgin body.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

SYBIL'S RULES OF FRIENDSHIP

1: Have no friends at all
2: Never waste your precious time for a small bonus of money
3: Sybil doesn't need money from any one. If Mary who always claims that its God who
gives her money and she doesn't need a human being for it than Sybil must have the same god
who will provide for her too.
4: Now Sybil will have her precious time, her energy, her knowledge and her own money.
Sybil's god is as generous as Mary's. He will provide for Sybil like he provides for Mary.
5: Work is Sybil's friend. Work, work, work, work. Sybil should take her work as seriously as
Mary does. Mary does not spare one minute of her time when she is working. Sybil also
want people to adjust to her timetable and to her own convenience.
6: Sybil should learn all the good things from Mary. Mary's work, Mary's convenience comes
first. Everything else and everyone else comes second. And Like Mary Sybil should not
have any time for any one else but herself and only she must count.
7: Sybil will only do things which involves her immediate needs and interests such as
Writing
Reading
Walking
Drawing
Gym
Typing
Publishing
Performing
Seeing theater
Doing theater
Holidays
Art
Arranging and rearranging the apt
Contacts for work
Contacts for social life
8: No arguments with friends
9: No arguments with any one
10: Quietly walk away
11: Be very private
12: Do not tell a soul about your plans
13: Do not discuss politics with friends
14: Do not discuss politics with any one
15: Dat trips
Hamptons
Brighton beach
Brooklyn
Hudson,N.Y.
16: Hide yourself, disappear
17: Don't talk much with your friends
18: Don't talk to any one
19: Don't talk at all to any one
20: Put a cap on your mouth at all times.
21: Have no friends period
22: Travel
Spain
Beirut
Jordan
Syria
Egypt
Morocco
China
23: To hell with people.






Saturday, September 11, 2010

ILLUMINATION OF A MALADY CONTINUES

HOLIDAY

RUQIA:
"I hope you are having a good holiday."

ZUBEIDA:
"I had a nervous reaction to what you were saying last time we saw each other."

RUQIA:
"I thought you were making fun of my ethics and my political beliefs."

ZUBEIDA:
"Maybe I should have taken it more seriously."

RUQIA:
"Or maybe I shouldn't have taken it so seriously."

RUQIA:
"I snapped."

ZUBEIDA:
"I snapped too

RUQIA:
"Maybe I shouldn't have snapped, maybe I shouldn't have taken it so seriously,
maybe I shouldn't have snapped."

ZUBEIDA:
"All of us can snap sometime"

RUQIA:
"I hope you had a good holiday."

ZUBEIDA:
"I hope you had a good holiday."
ILLUMINATION OF A MALADY CONTINUES

THE END

SULEIMAN:
"Hi, it was nice to see you.
I have made a promise with myself that next time
we meetI don't want to talk about these issues.
It Aggravates me and give me a headache.
We should talk about beautiful things like you said."

SUURIA:
No response
{48 hours pass)

SULEIMAN:
Hi, I was very upset last time when I saw you.
Call me back so we can talk about it.
I do not want to have sour feelings between us.
I felt you were implying that I do not know how to be
with successful (Corrupt) people thus I am a loser.
I also do not like this disappearing act.
Call me so we can talk.

SURRIA:
No response
3 hours pass

SULEIMAN:
You are not picking up.
I am leaving tomorrow and don't want to leave with sour feeling.
As I said before I left your place very upset.
You said that,"You don't give a crap about him..."
But even that didn't bother me.
What upset me the most was when you said,"Me and my husband
don't talk about political issues."
"We have other things to talk about, other things, beautiful things."
That was too much.
That's how I read it.
"Like what I talk about is nonsense."
"Waste of time...Waste of life totally."
"And you and your husband don't waste life."
"You don't waste your precious time on such nonsense."
And that was really disturbing to me.
Its like saying, "You have no life. You talk bullshit ect ect ect."
To that very feeling I responded one more time
I tried to reach out one more time for the sake of a long friendship.
But to you it was a,"So called friendship."
My response was,"If you were not interested in talking about these issues with your husband
why do you always so eagerly talk to me about it? "
Should I take it as provocation?
Since I am very intense, emotional, astute about politics why would you talk to me
as if its such a waste of your time? Or if this talk is just nonsensical and useless to you?
Do I present myself as a political propaganda machine?
Is there a political flag over my head?
Or is it your love of useless gossip that you waste my energy with?
Call me. I don't believe in just total silence when there is some kind of bad feeling between
friends....
Just mere silence and lack of response is not my idea of a great friendship.
Its not my style.
I am trying to reach out one more time. Maybe trying too hard. But If you don't call me back
I won't disturb you again ever.............................

SUURIA:
No response
216 hours pass

The End

Thursday, September 9, 2010

SUBDUE

Subdue the force of an intelligent
Outspoken mind
And shut them up
With a few dollars.....

Terrified with the future of children
Half and half
With the liberal feel
Half and half
Never a full whole
Half and half
With a stronger half
of the name they will carry.....
LOVE IS A SLAVE

Everyone want others to be their slaves in the name of love
Serve them
Say yes
Agree with them always
Cook for them
Clean for them
Give them company
Do their therapy
Entertain them
And also sleep them
Sexual pleasures I mean
These kinds of lovers can't be otherwise together.