Tuesday, February 21, 2023

EVERY DAY'S PLEDGE

EVERY DAY'S PLEDGE

It's becoming a joke

Or perhaps the functioning of the inner souls of a depraved mind

Or at least a very disturbed mind.

Saying something and doing the opposite

Every day making a pledge not to do certain things

Ordinary or special...

And doing that verything against which the pledge was made...

For example:

Promising not to sit at the kitchen tble for hours in the morning doing meaningless things

Sayin: Go out right away after waking up...

But just sitting at the table again and again

day after day

Day after day

MENTAL ILLNESS PERHAPS

NOT PERHAPS, BUT FOR SURE... 

Promising or just making a pledge to write on Word program but doing the blog insted...

Pledge to lose weight but eating fattening stuff

Pledge to go to Lafyette with the computer 5 dys a week

And with a book to St Amroise on the weekend

But doing none of those...

Just making a cup of tea and sitting at the kitchen table

gOING THROUGH YOU TUBE AND WATCHING THE SAME BULL SHIT...

MEGHAN AND HARRY, MEGHAN AND HARRY...

IDAHO MURDER...IDAHO MURDER...

WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?

WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?

WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?

Looking out the window again and again....

What are you looking for?

What are you looking for?

There is nothing out there...

there is nothing out there...

Get up and go out...

To see some faces

Miserable they might be

But they are walking, talking, moving faces

GO OUT....

GET UP, BRUSH YOUR TEETH AND GO OUT

WITH THE FUCKING COMPUTER OR NOT

BUT GET THE HELL OUT OF THE KITCHEN

DON'T SIT AT THE KITCHEN WINDOW

YOU ARE DOING A LOT OF HARM

MAKING A PLEDGE NOT TO DO CERTAIN THINGS FOR YEARS

AND THEN DOING EXACTLY THE SAME SHIT EVERY MORNING FOR HOURS.

WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?

WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU? WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?

DEPRESSION...

SEEK HELP...

NO.

WHY NOT?

DEPRESSION...

SEEK HELP

NO.

WHY NOT?

SEVER DEPRESSION...CAN'T SEEK HELP

THEN DON'T MAKE PLEDGES EVERY DAY

DON'T THINK THAT YOU ARE NORMAL AT THE END OF THE DAY

MAKING ANOTHER PEDGE FOR THE NEXT DAY

YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DO IT...

REMEMBER THAT. 

SIT AT THE WINDOW, LOOK OUT

SEARCH FOR WHATEVER...

DO THAT EVERY DAY

THAT'S THE ANSWER

THAT'S THE ANSWER

THAT'S THE ANSWER

ANSWER IS FOUND

NO PLEDGE, NO PROMISE TO DO THIS AND THAT.

YOUR FUTURE IS TO SIT NEXT TO THE KITCHEN WINDOW AND LOOK OUT

 INTERMITTENLY...

JUST SIT AND ROT

JUST SIT AND ROT

JUST SIT AND ROT...

THE END...THE END...THE END

YOU ARE, FROM THIS MOMENT ON NOT ALLOWED TO MAKE ANY PLEDGE AGAIN EVER.

THE END

THE END OF PLAY

THE CURTAIN HAS COME DOWN.

THE END.

THE AUDIENCE HAS GONE HOME

THE THEATER IS EMPTY

NOW GET UP AND GO HOME

DO YOU HAVE A HOME?

GO HOME...

YOU MUST HAVE A HOME

YOU HAVE A KITCHEN 

YOU HAVE A KITCHEN WINDOW

YOU HAVE A CHAIR NEXT TO TE WINDOW...

GO HOME

AND DO WHAT YOU DO EVERY DAY

DAY AFTER DAY

DAY AFTER DAY

DAY AFTER DAY.

THAT'S THE ANSWER

MAKING PROMISES, FALSE PROMISES IS NOT YOUR ANSWER.

GO GET GLUED TO THE KITCHEN WINDOW

THAT'S WHERE YOU BELONG

THAT'S YOUR FUTURE

HAPPY NOW?

HAPPY NOW/

HAPPY NOW?

SIT AND ROT

SIT AND ROT

SIT AND ROT.

THE END



Wednesday, February 15, 2023

NAPKIN DIARY PART TWO

NAPKIN DIARY PART TWO

Salute yourself darling

Expand into the wider horizons

"Put spirit before matter." ?

'Power to put an end to history." Toynbee.

"Human being's relationship to the other human beings.

Spirtuality over materialism."  ?

Morning has become a real problem

Bring the computer downstairs and make tea and see what happens next

'I have great sympathy with Islam and no sympathy with the Christian denigration of Islam." TOYNBEE

"Habit has us in it's grip."  ?

"History is predomnantly the story of unlearned lessons."  ?

'The large and illiterate massess went along (as they always do). ?

'The weight of past traditions is very great." ?

 the collective"Nostalgia and exceptionalism.  " ?

Xenophobic failure of the collective imagination have undone us." ?

"Deep and lasting shame, unable to lead but determined never to follow."  ?

"We have nothing of note to say but still refuse to listen"  ?

"Humanity is the answer."  ?

"Always abhoreed humility."  ?

" We can not give up on ourselves or others, even and especially if society has made it harder to catch

 up." ?

"Discover and embrace your true talents."

Writing

Performing

Drawing

You can bloom and rebloom, grow and succeed throughout your life."  ?

'Vastness of your productivity, expressive, loosely connected observations, plainspoken, unpretentious

you can bloom and rebloom, grow and succeed through out your life."  ?

DO THE SINGING BIRDS, SAT MAY 11, SUNDAY MAY 12...SO FAR SO GOOD. BINA

Friday: May 10 Physio :10-30

Dentist

"TOMORROW. whatever is not finished today, Finish on Sunday.  Bina

Monday: May 11: accupuncture

Today, Saturday: Look at Afghan Woman, word program

Guest house in Dublin

Wilma theater

Tuesday 7, start preparing for DublinWednesday at 2pm, The play INK

Jing Fong restaurant, 20 Elizabeth St, between Canal and Bayer St. 212-964-5256/7

" Superficial and nonsessential and trivial manifestations are most important."  ?

"Non teachability of human race is universal."

'Magnatism is balanced and nature and unhuman speed of industrialization is sorroful."  ?