NOTE BOOK 5

NOTE BOOK 5

"I MUST REJOICE BEYOND THE BOUNDS OF TIME,
THOUGH THE WORLD MAY SHUDDER AT MY JOY,
AND ITS COARSENESS, KNOW NOT WHAT I MEAN"        Jan Van Ruysbroeck

PETRONIUS

'SHREWED OSERVER
MARVELOUS PAINER
DISPASSIONATELY, WITH AN ENTIRE LACK OF PREJUDICE OR ANIMOSITY,
HE DESCRIBES THE EVERY DAY LIFE OF ROME, RECORDING THE MANNERS AND MORALS IN THE LIVELY LITTLE  CHAPTERS OF SATYRICON."      Huysmans

'TALK TO NO ONE
SEE NO ONE
INDULGE NO ONE
THINK OF YOUR PRECIOUS TIME BEFORE MAKING ANY COMMITMENTS WITH ANY ONE
WRITE REVIEWS

PLAYS SEEN IN DUBLIN
GLASS MENAGRIE
2417
OVER RIDE
LAUGH
COTTON FINGERS

USE YOUR TIME WELL
LEARN TECH
BUY SMART PHONE

SINCE NO OTHER PAST ADVICE BY ME FOR ME HAS WORKED SO FAR...

THE BRAND NEW ADVICE BY ME FOR MYSELF

"DO ONLY WHAT YOU LIKE TO DO...NOT WHAT YOU SHOULD DO

RIGHT NOW I LIKE TO SIT HERE AND READ INSTEAD OF GOING TO THE MUSEUM

SO DO NOT WORRY ABOUT IT, JUST SIT HERE AT SHELLBOURNE AND READ

MUSEUM CAN WAIT...MUSEUM WILL ALWAYS BE THERE...

YES, BT I WON'T BE HERE IN DUBLIN AND THE MUSEUM I THOUGHT I WOULD LIKE

TO GO TO IS HERE IN DUBLIN...

THEN GO TO THE MUSEUM...

BUT I DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING RIGHT NOW...I FEEL LIKE READING THIS INTERESTING

BOOK..AGAINST NATURE ALSO CALLED THE YELLOW BOOK BY OSCAR WILDE IN HIS
BOOK, PICTURE OF DORIAN GRAY."

THEN JUST READ THE BOOK AND DON'T FEEL BAD ABOUT GOING OR NOT GOING TO

THE MUSEUM...I JUST TOLD YOU EARLIER THAT YOU SHOULD DO WHAT YOU FEEL

LIKE DOING AND NOT DO WHAT YOU SHOULD BE DOING...

ENJOYING YOUR SELF SHOULDN'T BE A DUTY...

RELAX AND ENJOY YOUR TIME THE WAY YOU WANT, THE WAY YOU LIKE...

PUT NO CONDITIONS ON YOUR SELF...

EIHER GET UP AND GO TO THE MUSEUM OR JUST READ YOUR BOOK AND ENJOY

YOURSELF.  I REMEMBER YOU ALWAYS HAVING DIFFICULTY MAKING CHOICES

SINCE SN EARLY AGE...IT REFLECTS SOME KIND OF GUILT..DO YOU HAVE GUILT?

I MUST, SINCE YOU SAY SO AND YOU ARE MY LIFE LONG THERAPIST AND

OBVIOUSLY

NOT A VERY GOOD ONE SINCE I AM THE SAME AND HAVE EXACTLY THE SAME

DIFFICULTIES SINCE MY CHILDHOOD...WHY AM I PAYING YOU?

BUT THATS A JOKE...BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT PAYING ME, YOU HAVE NEVER PAID

ME...ITS LIKE WORKING IN NON PROFIT THEATER...NO PAY...NEVER ANY PAY...WE

ARE NON PROFIT...SO WHY THE FUCK YOU DON'T CLOSE YOUR NON PROFIT

THEATERS?  BECAUSE  WE DO MAKE PROFIT FOR OURSELF, WHAT WE MEAN BY

PROFIT IS THAT WE JUST PAY OURSELVES AND SINCE WE ARE NON PROIT WE CAN'T

PAY ANY ONE ELSE...THATS WHY WE CAN'T CLOSE, WE HAVE A REGULAR CHECK COMING EVERY WEEK...ITS OUR LIVELY HOOD...AND ME?  WHAT ABOUT ME?

WHAT ABOUT YOU?

WHAT ABOUT MY CHECK?

WHO TOLD YOU THAT YOU ARE GOING TO GET A CHECK?

OH! I THOUGHT...

YOU THOUGHT WRONG...WE TOLD YOU, "WE ARE NON -PROFIT, THAT MEANT THAT

YOU WON'T GET A CHECK...ONLY WE WILL GET A CHECK...DO YOU UNDERSTAND?

"OH1 EVERYTHING IS SO CONFUSING HERE IN AMERICA...

"NOTHING IS CONFUSING.  EVERYTHING IS CRYSTAL CLEAR..."PROFIT IS ONLY FOR

AMERICA AND ITS INSTITUTIONS  EVEN IF THEY ARE NON=PROFIT..

"WHY SHOULD YOU CALL IT NON-PROFIT WHEN YOU ARE GETTING PROFIT??

"YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND BECAUSE YOU ARE AN OUTSIDER, YOU ARE NOT AN

AMERICAN...THIS IS HOW IT WORKS HERE, TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT...

I THINK AS YOUR LIFE LONG THERAPIST, YOU SHOULD LEAVE IT...GO SOME PLACE

WHERE YOU GET THE CHECK...

WHERE?

BE IN-CHARGE OF A NON -PROFIT THEATER...

THATS A GOOD ADVICE...BUT I AM OUTSIDER AND ONLY AN AMERICAN CAN BE

IN-CHARGE OF A NON-PROFIT THEATER...

OH! PLEASE, GET OUT OF THIS BULL SHIT THEATER BULL SHIT...

SIT DOWN AND READ YOUR BOOK, THE ONE YOU WEE READING BEFORE YOU

ASKED FOR MY ADVICE...

I NEVER ASKED FOR YOUR ADVICE, YOU JUST KEEP GIVING IT TO ME...YOU ARE THE

MONKEY ON MY BACK...

"I AM A SMART MONKEY, LISTEN TO ME AND YOU WON'T FAIL...

"TOO LATE...

"NEVER TOO LATE IF YOU LISTEN TO ME...

"LET ME REPEAT MYSELF

TALK TO NO ONE

SEE NO ONE

INDULGE NO ONE

THINK OF YOUR PRECIOUS TIME BEFORE YOU MAKE ANY COMMITMENT TO ANY

ONE OR ANYTHING...

"DO WHAT YOU LIKE TO DO AND NOT WHAT YOU SHOULD DO AND I TELL YOU DO

NO THEATER..JUST GO AND GET A CHECK SOMEHOW...

"THEATER IS OUT...CHECK IS IN...AND IF THE CHECK IS NOT IN...THEATER IS STILL

OUT...NOW WHAT WERE WE TALKING ABOUT?"

"I DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING"

"THEN DO NOTHING...ABSOLUTELY NOTHING...IF YOU DO, THE CHECK DOESN'T COME AND IF YOU DON'T DO THE CHECK DOESN'T COME...SO WHAT THE FUCK...DO NOTHING. LISTEN TO YOUR FEELING...YOUR FEELING IS THE ONLY THING WHICH MATTER ESPECIALLY RIGHT NOW AND NOW I AM GOING TO SAY GOOD NIGHT...I NEED REST MYSELF...THERAPISTS NEED SOME SLEEP AS WELL...SEE YOU TOMORROW...REST, GO TO BED...SLEEP IS THE ONLY BALM TO THE CONFUSED...

END OF THERAPY SESSION