BINA SHARIF'S NOTEBOOKS CONTINUES
"DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT
A
PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
3RD AND THE LAST PART OF DREAM TRILOGY PLAYS.
THE FIRST ONE WAS:
1 :PARANOIA OF A DREAM: PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC 2016
2: "DREAM WITHIN A DREAM" PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC 2018
3: "DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT" TO BE PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC IN DECEMBER 2019
EXERCISES AND EXPERIMENTS TO ERITE THE CURRENT PLAY,
"DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT"
"YOU HAVE BEEN TAKING INTEREST IN THE MOST INSIGNIFICANT OF THINGS." ?
"LONGING TO SEE NO MORE PICTURES OF THE HUMAN FORM TOILING IN PARIS
BETWEEN FOUR WALLS OR ROAMING THE STREETS IN SEARCH OF MONEY-HAS
TAKEN AN INCREASING TOLL ON HIM." Husysmans
"ONCE HE CUT HIMSELF OFF FROM CONTEMPORARY LIFE, HE HAD RESOLVED TO
ALLOW NOTHING TO ENTER HIS HERMITAGE WHICH MIGHT BREED REPUGNANCE
OR REGRET." Husymans from his novel, AGAINST NATURE.
"DIVORCED FROM MODERN TIMES AND MODERN SOCIETY." Husymans
"LASCIVIOUS DNCE, CRY OF LUST AND LECHERY." Husymans
"GUSTAVE MOREAU, THE ARTIS OF, "THE PICTURE OF SALOME."
"SHAKE UP YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM BY MEANS OF ERUDITE FANCIES." Husymans
"BASILICA BUILT IN BOTH MOSLEM AND THE BYZANTINE STYLE." Husymans
"ALL KINDS OF FAME ARE EPHERAL, ESPECIALLY ACTORS." Camus
"INDIFFERENCE IS PROFOUND VIOBILITY." Camus
"NOTHING INTERESTS A MAN THAN HIMSELF." Camus
"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?
HOW COME YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED IN YOURSELF?" BS
"MODERN SUCCESS IS ABOUT TAKING, NOT GIVING. " BS
PROLOGUE: DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT
NO ONE IS FREE.
NO ONE IS 100% FREE.
O MAN, NO WOMAN IS TOTALL FREE
THEY ARE ALONE BUT NOT FREE."
NO ONE IS GOING ANYWHERE...
THEY ARE ALL GOING HOME TO DO THE SAME MUNDANE CHORES.
"OH! JUST FORGET IT...THEY JUST PROMOTE THEIR GROUP."
"SO OK, THEY BECOME RICH AND FAMOUS AND THEN WHAT?"
THE FACE OF DEATH
"THEN WHAT?"
THAT'S THYOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE?E ONLY SOLID QUESTION."
THE BEST WAY TO BE IS NOT TO TALK MUCH AT ALL, NOT TO TALK
ABOUT SUCCESS, A STALE SUBJECT. NOT TO TALK ABOUT FAILURE EITHER...
EVERYONE HAS FAILED IN THE FACE OF DEATH....OH! YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE?
HOW WONDERFUL. I FORGOT, PARDON ME...I FORGOT FOR A WHILE HOW
INCREDIBLY SUCCESSFUL GOOD FOR YOU. YOU ARE...YOU SEEM REALLY STABLE
COMPARED TO THE OTHER ONE. GOOD FOR YOU. DEATH WON'T DARE APPROACH
YOU.
HE WILL WRITE A BOOKTO BE NOTHING."
HE WILL GIVE READINGS
HE WILL DELIVER SPEECHES
HE WILL BE INVITED BY THE ACADEMY
HE WILL MAKE MILLIONS
HE WILL HAVE FAME AND FORTUNE
AND THEN WAHT?
AND THEN WHAT?
"ALL HUMAN BEINGS TRAVEL THE DEAD--END---PATH." Camus
"IN THE MODERN WORLD, I APPLIED MYSELF WHOLE HEARTEDLY TO BE NOTHING." Camus
"NARROWER THE LIMIT YOU TO SUBMIT TO."S ALLOTTED HIM, THE MORE
NECESSARY HIS TALENT." Camus
'CAN'T GIVE UP.
CAN'T BE BEATEN DOWN BY THE OTHER...THE OTHER OTHER...
"A WRITER HAS SOME HOPE EVEN WHEN HE IS NOT APPRECIATED." Camus
"NOT FEWER THAN FOUR MADMEN.
ONE BY TRADE
ANOTHER BY INTENTION
AND THE LAST TWO BY SUFFERING." Camus
"IMMOBILITY ITSELF BECOMES SPECTACULAR." BS
"I NEED TO BE SILENT FOR A WHILE.
(Silence during the play)
"SILENCES MUST MAKE THEMSELVES HEARD." Camus
(Silence during the play)
"THAT ABSURD CONTRADICTION OF THE INDIVIDUAL WHO WANTS TO ACHIEVE
EVERYTHING AND LIVE EVERYTHING, THAT USELESS ATTEMPT, THAT INEFFECTUAL
PERSISTENCE." Camus
"CLASH OF CIVILIZATION HAS SOMETHING AGONIZING ABOUT IT...
I HAVE MADE THAT ANGUISH MINE." Camus
Silence
MY WRITING TEACHER TOLD ME TO READ CAMUS BESIDE MANY OTHER WRITERS
BUT FOR SURE CAMUS BECAUSE HE WILL HELP YOU TO LEARN, "NOT TO PERSIST TO
GET WHAT IS IN OTHER PEOPLE'S CONTROL..OTHER PEOPLE WHO WILL NEVER GIVE
IT TO YOU FOR WHATEVER REASON...PERSIST TO GET AND ACHIEVE WHAT'S IN
YOUR OWN CONTROL." Camus
Silence
CAN'T SUBMIT TO WHAT THE OTHER WANTS OF YOU...ANY OTHER...ALL OTHERS.
Silence
NO ONE WANTS YOU TO WRITE ANOTHER PLAY
BUT YOU MUST IGNORE ALL OTHERS...
AND WRITE YOUR PLAY
YOU ARE A PLAYWRIGHT
RIGHT?
RIGHT...
THEN WRITE THE PLAY...
I AM WRITING...
NO, YOU ARE ONLY TALKING ABOUT CAMUS...
THAT'S THE INSPIRATION...MY WRITING TEACHER TOLD ME TO READ HIM
BUT NOW YOU HAVE TO WRITE
WRITE WAHT?
YOUR PLAY
I AM DREAMING ABOUT WRITING ONE
YOUR DREAM IS LASTING TOO LONG
NOT LONG AT ALL...THE PLAY HAS TO BE AT LEAST 75 MINUTES LONG AND IT'S
15 MINUTES INTO THE PLAY...SO FAR..
BUT THERE IS NO PLAY YET...
LEAVE ME ALONE...YOU ARE ALWAYS BOTHERING ME...
THE TITLE OF THE PLAY IS, "DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT."
AND DREAMS ARE JUST DREAMS...IF NOTHING COMES OUT OF IT
I CAN ALWAYS SAY, "IT WAS JUST A DREAM."
AUDIENCE WON'T LIKE THAT...
THERE IS HARDLY ANY AUDIENCE AT MY PLAYS, HAT USED TO BE MYTHATS A PLUS, I DON'T HAVE
BTBT
TO WORRY ABOUT THE AUDIENCE ANY MORE...
PLAYS
YOU SEE IN THE OLDER DAYS I ALWAYS THOUGHT OF THE AUDIENCE...
EVERY TIME I WENT OUT TO SEE A PLAY WRITTEN BY LGBT PEOPLE I WAS ALWHE PLAYSAYS SO IMPRESSED BECAUSE THEY HAD FULL HOUSES, FULL, FULL HOUSES, THEIR FANS CAME TO SEE THEIR PLAYS AGAIN AND AGAIN AND I ALWAYS WANTED A FULL HOUSE...THAT WAS MY DREAM THEN BUT NO ONLY THREE OR FOUR PEOPLE AT THE MOST FROM LGBT GROUP CAME TO SEE MY PLAYS AND I BECAME SO DEPRESSED THAT I STOPPED WRITING THE PLAYS AND THEN MY WRITING TEACHER,
(BY THE WAY, I NEVER TOOK WRITING CLASSES BUT IN MY DESPERATION I IMAGINED A TEACHER AND SOUGHT HER ADVICE HOW TO GET A FULL HOUSE LIKE THE LGBT PLAYWRIGHTS AND SHE SAID, " FORGET ABOUT THEM. THEY ARE NOT COMING TO FILL YOUR HOUSE, YOU ARE NOT GAY...YOU HAVE TO BE GAY AND YOUR SUBJECT MATTER HAS TO BE GAY AS WELL FOR YOU TO FILL YOUR HOUSE...JUST FORGET ABOUT THE AUDIENCE OF ANY KIND AND WRITE YOUR PLAYS AND PERFORM THEM IN THE INTIMACY OF SILENCE...AND WHO WILL INSPIRE YOU ABOUT THAT WILL BE CAMUS....
AND I SAID, "OH! CAMUS, ALBERT CAMUS WHO WROTE THE BOOK, THE "STRANGER" AND SHE SAID, "YES, EXACTLY...AND I SAID, " I LOVE THAT BOOK, THE STRANGER
BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS FELT LIKE A STRANGER AFTER LIVING HERE FOR 38 SOME YEARS...AND SHE SAID, THATS YOUR TEACHER FROM NOW ON AND I BET YOU AFTER READING HIM YOU WILL HAVE A PLAY WRITTEN FOR SURE, AUDIENCE OR NO AUDIENCE...AND SINCE THEN I HAVE WRITTEN EVERYTHING HE EVER WROTE
AND HE IS SO IMMENSE THAT EVERY TIME I SIT DOWN TO WRITE MY PLAY AFTER READING HIM I FEEL, HOW DARE I MATCH MY WORDS WITH HIS...AND MY TEACHER
SAID, THATS EXACTLY WHAT HE IS TEACHING YOU, NEVER TO MATCH YOUR WORDS OR YOUR LIFE OR YOUR PASSIONS OR YOUR CREATIVITY TO ANY ONE BUT WHATEVER COMES OACTORY...UT OF YOU AFTER YOU HAVE BEEN INSPIRED BY THEM IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL, THE MOST CHERISHED, THE MOST HUMBLE AND YOUR OWN...THAT IS THE ONLY ACHIEVEMENT...FORGET ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE...
YOU KNOW SOMETHING..I HAVE BEEN NOTICING ABOUT YOU FOR A WHILE...
YOU ATTACH TOO MUCH IMPORTANCE TO OTHER PEOPLE...WHO ARE THESE OTHER
PEOPLE? WHAT HAPPENED IN YOUR CHILDHOOD? WAS YOUR PARENT'S COURTYARD ALWAYS FULL OF OTHER PEOPLE?
AS A MATTER OF FACT YES. THERE WERE ALWAYS MANY, MANY PEOPLE DOING MANY THINGS...OUR COURT YARD WAS FULL OF PEOPLE...SERVANTS, BEGGARS, POOR PEOPLE, SPICES, FRUITS, VEGETABLES, NUTS, COOKING, SUNSHINE, COOKING,
LAUGHTERS...I ALWAYS LOVED PEOPLE IN THE COURTYARD AND ALL THAT ACTIVITY AND NOW MY LIFE DEPENDS ON THE MERCY OF LGBTQ COMMUNITY...
IF YOU MENTION THE LGBTQ ONE MORE TIME, I WILL SLAP YOU...STOP IT...F CAMUS
THINK OF CAMUS, HUSYMANS, BOUDELAIRE, FLAUBERT, BALZAC, DUMAS,EDGAR ALLEN POE...YES, THINK OF EDGAR ALLEN POE...YOU KNOW HOW HARD HIS LIFE WAS?
HE STILL WROTE, HATHEY ARE AND SHOULD BE YOUR ONLYD NOT A DOLLAR IN HIS POCKET AND NO AUDIENEC AND HE WAS IN HIS OWN COUNTRY...AT LEAST YOU HAVE THE SATISFACTION OF BEING A
STRANGER HERE...HE WAS BRN HERE, DAMN IT...JUST THINK OF TE DEAD WRITERS...
THEY ARE AND THEY SHOULD BE YOUR ONLY INSPIRATION, YOUR ONLY AUDIENCE...
NOW WRITE YOUR DREAM PLAY...
IST MONOLOGUE OF THE DREAM PLAY
LIFE IS NOT JUST AN ISOLATED EVENT.
IT HAS ITS ELEMENTS,
ITS BODY PARTS,
ITS VICTORIES AND DEFEATS
AILMENTS,
HEALTH,
SICKNESS
THE NEXT MOMENT ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN
ACHIEVEMENTS
HEARTACHES
UN-PREDICTABLE EVENTS
DEATH...
NOW LETS SEE IF WE CAN DREAM OF WRITING THE DREAM PLAY?
'CAN'T SUBMIT TO WHAT THEY WANT
MANY OTHERS...
PLAYWRIGHT."
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