AND THEN IT WASN'T DONE LIKE ALWAYS

Things were going to happen
I thought
Then the things didn't happen
Like always
With me
Always
Things do not happen
Things which were suppose to happen
Didn't happen
Like always......

When things happen
Or suppose to happen for other people
Things do happen
They say, the other people...
They say, "You make things happen."
They say this a lot...........
"You make things happen."
How ???????????????????????
That is upto me to find out
But how can I /
Things which are suppose to happen
Don't happen in my case
"Because you don't make them happen."
They say....
The other people
Then the depression comes.........
And never leaves..........
Depression is not suppose to happen
But it does happen
And happens often....................
"Because you want it to happen."
They say...
The other people
I don't see the other people now.................
And things don't happen either
The things which were suppose to happen
Don't happen
And the things which were suppose to not happen...
They happen and happen again and again...................
"BECAUSE YOU MAKE THEM HAPPEN."
Thats what they say,
The people..................