POSSIBLE TO DO EVERYDAY DURING COVID-19?

POSSIBLE TO DO EVERY DAY DURING COVID-19

3 HOURS OF WRITING, (First thing in the morning)

2 HOURS OF READING

1 HOUR WALK

2 HOURS COOKING ECT

2 HOURS, WATCHING A MOVIE

2 HOURS WRITING AGAIN?



DIDN'T I SAY THAT BEFORE?

YES, I DID

AND?

NEVER FOLLOWED UP

WHY NOT?

HAVE NO IDEA

HOW COME?

DISCIPLINE, LACK OF IT

LACK OF IT COMPLETELY

WHAT DO YOU DO INSTEAD?

FACE BOOK...READING ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE,  ONLINE SHIT,  READING

THE  NYT,  READING LONDON GUARDIAN, THE SAME THING AGAIN AND AGAIN,

TRUMP, TRUMP, TRUMP...

CORONA UPDATES

WASTE, WASTE, WASTE

WHEN WILL YOU EVER LEARN TO HAVE SOME KIND OF RIGID SCHEDULE?

NEVER, NEVER, NEVER, NEVER,NEVER, NEVER, NEVER.

I GIVE UP.

JUST STOP THINKING ABOUT DOING WHAT YOU WISH TO DO AND KEEP

DOING WHAT YOU DON'T WANT TO DO...

I AM DOING THAT ALREADY, THANKS FOR YOUR ADVICE...

PLEASE CHANGE...

CAN'T

FOR THE SAKE OF CORONA, CHANGE...

TIME NOW IS VERY PRECIOUS...

LEARN TO HAVE A NEW NORMAL

NEW NORMAL IS  TO  DO WHAT YOU WERE UNABLE TO DO BEFORE

LEARN FROM THE SAD DAYS, THE ISOLATED HOURS, THE TIME PASSED

LEARN OR STOP TRYING...

JUST LIVE EVERY DAY AS IT COMES

NO SCHEDULE, JUST LIVE MOMENT TO MOMENT

ENJOY WHATEVER YOU DO

JUST ENJOY WASTING TIME AS WELL BECAUSE THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT YOU

HAVE BEEN DOING ALL YOUR LIFE, CORONA OR NO CORONA...

WHY CHANGE NOW?

HABITS ARE HARD TO MEND

I HOPE THIS WILL BE THE LAST TIME ..

LAST TIME?

YES,  THE LAST TIME I  WILL TELL YOU

TELL ME WHAT?

WHATEVER...YOU KNOW YOU ARE REALLY EXHAUSTING...

OH! I AM?

PLEASE...

DO WHAT EVER...

WASTE YOUR LIFE,  GO AHEAD,  WASTE YOUR LIFE

THAT IS ALREADY WASTED,  TELL ME SOMETHING NEW

AND WHY DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU ANY WAY?

ARN'T YOU THE MONKEY ON MY BACK?

YOU ARE YOUR OWN MONKEY ON YOUR BACK, YOU NEED NO OTHER MONKEY

YES, I AM THE MONKEY AND YOU ARE THE MONKEY AND BOTH OF US MONKEYS

 ARE ON...

MY BACK AND I CAN'T ACHIEVE ANYTHING... AND I THOUGHT THAT CORONA WILL

TEACH ME A LESSON HOW TO BEHAVE BUT HELL NO...THE MONKEY NUMBER 2

IS ALWAYS BOTHERING ME WITH HIS ATTITUDE OF BEING Mr PERFECT AND WON'T

LET ME BREATH...

OK, I AM OFF YOUR BACK,  NOW FOLLOW YOUR NEW PROGRAM OF THE DAY...

SEE, YOU ARE NOT OFF MY BACK, BECAUSE YOU ARE STILL TELLING ME WHAT TO

DO...

YOU ARE ALWAYS ASKING ME WHAT TO DO EVERY DAY?  HOW TO FOLLOW A

SCHEDULE EVERY DAY AND ALL I DO IS HELP YOU BUT YOU ARE AN ABSOLUTE

UN-GRATEFUL BITCH...

I KNEW IT.  I KNEW IT WILL COME TO THIS AND BECAUSE OF THIS SUPERIORITY

OF YOURS WHICH IS FAKE I AM SURE,  I HAVE BEEN UNABLE TO FUNCTION...

I DON'T FEEL FREE TO MAKE CHOICES,  I ALWAYS HAVE TO CONSULT YOU

ASK YOUR ADVICE,  TRY TO BE POLITE...


CAN'T BE POLITE. IN YOUR PROFESSION IT DOESN'T WORK

WHEN YOU ARE THIS WAY YOU COME ACROSS AS AN IDIOT AND WHO GIVES A SHIT

ABOUT IDIOTS?  DOSTOYEVASKY'S NOVEL, "IDIOT" IS ALL ABOUT THAT.

INSTEAD OF ALWAYS SEEKING HELP JUST GET UP AND DO IT.  DO WHATEVER NEED

TO BE DONE...AND IF YOU CAN'T,   DON'T ASK FOR HELP,  YOU SEEM SO NEEDY


SO WHAT IF I AM?  IF I AM NEEDY WHY IS IT SUCH A BIG DEAL?

NEED IS A BAD WORD HERE

HERE? WHERE?

IN THE MODERN WORLD

MODERN WORLD?

YES, THE MODERN WORLD, IT'S 2020

OH! IT'S 2020..I DIDN'T KNOW THAT.  I DIDN'T GRASP THE FACT THAT 2020 IS SO

MODERN,  SO PROGRESSIVE,  SO TECHNOLOGICALLY ADVANCED BUT

 COULDN'T HANDLE COVID-19...COULD THEY?

IT'S NOT THE FAULT OF 2020, THE COVID-19 CAME IN 2019, AND WHY ARE YOU

BLAMING 2020 FOR THAT?

I AM NOT BLAMING 2020 OR YOU,  I AM JUST SAYING THAT THE MODERN,

PROGRESSIVE.............

WORLD HAD BEEN UNABLE TO HANDLE A MODERN DISEASE.  SO HOW MODERN ARE

 THEY?  A PLAGUE HIT THEM AND THEY BECAME COMPLETELY HELPLESS.

THEY SHOULD HAVE LEARNT FROM THE PREVIOUS PLAGUES AND SHOULD HAVE

BEEN READY...

ARE YOU READY?

READY FOR WHAT?

TO DEAL WITH YOUR NEW DAY EVERY DAY?

I AM NOT A CENTURY,  I AM NOT A DECADE,  I AM NOT A GOVERNMENT, I AM JUST A

PERSON...

AT THE MERCY OF OTHERS,  RIGHT?

YES,  RIGHT.  I AM AT THE MERCY OF ALL THE PROGRESSIVE SCIENTIFIC RESEARCH

SO THEY CAN GET ME OUT OF THIS APT...I AM UNABLE TO FUNCTION EVERY DAY...

AS IF YOU WERE ABLE TO FUNCTION BEORE...

YES,  I WENT FOR A WALK,  WENT FOR A COFFEE,  WENT TO THE THEATER,

WENT FOR HAPPY HOUR, WENT SHOPPING...I WAS FUNCTIONING

BUT YOU DIDN'T DO YOUR WORK EVERY DAY,  DID YOU?

WHAT WORK?

THE SHEDULE

WHAT SCHEDULE?

YOUR SCHEDULE...

WHAT SCHEDULE?  I NEVER HAD A SCHEDULE.  MY SCHEDULE WAS TO GO FOR A

COFFEE IN A NICE PLACE AND ENJOY SOME KIND OF CONVERSATION WITH PEOPLE

THERE, THE WAITERS, THE BUS BOYS, THE HOSTESS, THE BOSS, I TALKED TO EVERY

ONE...THAT WAS MY SCHEDULE AND I DID IT EVERY DAY AND THEN I WENT FOR A

WALK...EVERY DAY...AND BOUGHT A BOOK FOR A DOLLAR AT A PARTICULAR STORE

ON BLEECKER STREET AND I LOVED IT...AND THUS I HAVE MANY BOOKS OF

WISDOM ....

AND POETRY NND PHILOSOPHY AND I LEARNED FROM THOSE ONE DOLLAR BOOKS

TO APPRECIATE ART AND LITERATURE...AND THE LESSON WAS THAT ART AND IT'S

APPRECIATION WAS THE REAL GOAL IN LIFE...ALL THE GREAT WRITERS CAME TO

THHE SAME CONCLUSION,  "THAT IT'S THE ART WHICH WILL SAVE HUMAN BEINGS

NOT ANY SCHEDULE OF ROBOTIC NATURE"  TO DO THIS ,THIS HOUR AND DO THAT

AN  OTHER HOUR AND DO IT EVERY DAY,  EVERY DAY." A BAD HABIT IF YOU ASK

ME AND ALL THE GREAT WRITERS I HAVE READ EVEN BEFORE I FOUND THAT ONE

DOLLAR BOOK STORE,  ALWAYS CAME TO THE SAME CONCLUSION...

THE, " EMPAHSISISED ON BREAKING THE HABIT WHICH OPPOSES THE ART AND

FIGHT ...

ONLY FOR THE APPRECIATION OF ART AND NATURE..."

YOU SEE, PROUST, AFTER WRITING HIS LONGEST POSSIBLE NOVEL, "IN SEARCH OF

OLD TIMES"  CAME TO THIS CONCLUSION AFTER SEARCHING FOR HAPPINESS IN

SOCIAL STATUS,  IN LOVE ,  CAME RIGHT TO THE POINT THAT IT WAS ART...WHICH

WILL GIVE YOU SATISFACTION.  ALBERT CAMUS WAS ANOTHER ONE, HIS EMPHASIS

ON NATURE WAS IMMENSE...THE SEA AND THE SWIMMING, TAKING A CHALLANGE

AGAINST THE POWERFUL WAVES AND COMEING OUT OF THE OCCEAN ALIVE, WHAT

CAN BE A BIGGER ACHIEVEMENT THAN THAT?  AND DOSTOYVESKY OF RUSSIA HAD

THE SAME CONCLUSION,  SMELLING THE BLOSSOMS AND  SEEING THE CLOUDS AND

THE ...

TREES, THE  "SEA." HAS AN UTMOST IMPORTANCE IN ALL LITERATURE,  NOT THE

SCHEDULE..."2 HOURS OF THIS AND 2 HOURS OF THAT ." AND IF IT CAN'T BE DONE,

THE PUNISHMENT OF THE SOUL THE REST OF THE DAY FOR NOT DOING THE STUPID

 COOKING AND DISHES AND DOING SOME WRITING WHICH GOES NO WHERE AND

COOPED IN AN ENCLOSED PLACE DEVOID OF ALL KIND OF ART AND NATURE IS THE

DEATH OF THE SOUL...CORONA OR NO CORONA, ONE IS DYING ANY WAY...ART AND

NATURE IS BEING DESTROYED...WHAT DOES THE ART OF TODAY STAND FOR?

SHALLOW,  SUPERFICIAL  MUNDANE,  STUPID JOKES TO ENTERTAIN THE STUPID,

UN-EDUCATED,  UN-INFORMED MASSESS FOR COMMERCIAL GAINS AND TREES

BEING CUT AND GRASSY PLOTS BEING DESTROYED FOR THE SAKE OF BUILDING

NEW CONDOMINIONS WHICH CAN BE RENTED FOR 10 THOUSAND DOLLARS A

MONTH?  THAT IS THE PROGRESS OF THE MODERN WORLD.  ISN'T IT?  ISN'T IT?

WHERE IS THE GARDEN?  WHERE ARE THE ROSES?  WHERE IS THE SEA?

ALL THESE THINGS WERE PAINTED BY THE GREAT ARTISTS WHICH WE ONLY GO TO

THE MUSEUMS TO LOOK AT?  I DON'T SEE ANY CLEAN BLUE WATER OUTSIDE MY

WINDOW...YOU LIVE IN SOHO,  DO YOU SEE ANY TREE THERE?  HOW CAN YOU CALL

YOUR SELF AN ESTHETIC PERSON IF YOU DON'T SEE A SINGLE TREE IN YOUR

NEIGHBORHOOD?  WHERE ARE THE LILLY PONDS WHICH MONET PAINTED SO

BRILLIANTLY?  WHAT IS THERE TO PAINT FOR THE MODERN PAINTER?  GUNS,

BOMBS,

SHOOTINGS, HOMELESS?

THAT MIGHT BE A GOOD SUBJECT AFTER THE WATER LILLIES, THE HOMELESS...

AT LEAST THEY ARE LIVING EVEN HARDLY LIVING BUT STILL BRATHING EVEN AT

THE TIME OF COVID-19.  SINCE THE GOVERMNETS HAVE NEVER DONE ANYTHING

TO PROTECT THEM, GIVE THEM A DECENT LIFE,  NOW IT'S UP TO THE COVID-19 TO

GIVE THEM ETERNAL PEACE AND I GUESS THAT'S WHAT ALL THE GOVERMNETS ALL

OVER THE PLANET WERE WAITING FOR..."PLEASE COVID-19 TAKE CARE OF THE

HOMELESS,  GET THEM OUT OF OUR SIGHT, THEY SMELL AND OVERPOWER THE

SUBTLE SMELL OF OUR EXPENSIVE PERFUMES AND OUR DESIGNER GOWNS GETS

SMELLY WITH THEIR OBNOXIOUS ODOUR WHEN WE COME OUT OF THE THEATER

AND HAVE TO WALK A FEW STEPS TO GET INTO OUR MERCEDES...PLEASE CORONA

VIRUS GET THEM OUT OF OUR SIGHT, WE CAN'T TAKE IT ANY MORE..."

I THINK THAT'S WHY THE COVID-19  IS HERE TO GET RID OF THE HOME LESS,

THE SICK, THE ELDERLY...THEY CAN SAVE A BILLION DOLLARS FROM MEDICARE,

HOMELESS SHELTERS AND MEDICATIONS.  AFTER ALL THE DOLLAR IS GOD AND TO

SAVE THE HOLY SPIRIT OF GOD ONE CAN LET ALL ELDERLY GO,  THE HOMELESS GO

AND THE SICK PEOPLE GO TO HELL OR HEAVEN ACCORDING TO WAHTEVER GOOD

THEY DID OR DIDN'T DO IN LIFE.  THEN THE STREETS OF THE WORLD WILL BE FULL

OF YOUNG, THIN, EXERCISED,  FIT PEOPLE WHO WOULD JUST CRACK SILLY JOKES,

HAVE LOTS OF SEX WITH NEW PEOPLE, TEN OR TWENTY EVERY EVENING FROM

AND

WEAR YOUNG DESIGNERS OUTFITS AND GO TO THE HAMPTONS IF A

SECOND WAVE OF CORONA VIRUS EVER COMES BUT AT LEAST THEY WON'T EVER

HAVE TO COME ACROSS ANY OLDER FELLOW OR A LADY STRUGGLING TO WALK

SLOWLY IN THE STREETS AND IS IN YOUNG PEOPLE'S WAY WHO ARE FAST AND

FURIOUS AND NEED THE WHOLE FOOT PATH FOR THEMSELVES BECAUSE THEY ARE

ALSO ON THEIR PHONES AND CAN'T BE WORRIED ABOUT WOBBLY ELDERLY FOLKS .

AND THEIR ARTISTIC..(.FAKE ARTISTIC SENSIBILITY )CAN'T HANDLE THE ROTTEN

SMELL OF HOMELESS WHO HAVEN'T TAKEN A BATH IN A DECADE...



THAT'S THE WORLD YOU WILL HAVE MY DEAR AFTER THE CORONA IS GONE...

GEORGE ORWELL WROTE ABOUT IT HOW THE ORDERS OF THE GOVERNMENTS

WILL CONTROL THE DESTINY AND THE DEATH OF SOME HUMAN BEINGS.

AND THEN THE CITIES WILL HAVE...

STERLIZED STREETS,  STERLIZED YOUNG PEOPLE WITH THEIR BRAINS FROZEN

FOR ANY WARM AND COMPASSIONATE THOUGHT AND ECONOMY BOOMING...



THAT WAS ALWAYS THE WISH OF MODERNITY,  WASN'T IT?

I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT KIND OF A   MODERN PERSON...I AM MEDIEVAL AND I

LOVE IT AND TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH I HATE ALL SCHEDULES...I AM OT A

NOVELIST WHO HAS TO FINISH A NOVEL WITH THAT SCHEDULE. GOOD LUCK TO THE

 NVELISTS...I DO HAVE GREAT RESPECT FOR THEM FOR THEIR STRONG WILL POWER.

I DON'T HAVE ANY WILL POWER, NOT AN OUNCE OF IT, I AM NOT MODERN...

I AM AN IMPULSIVE HUMAN BEING.  IF MY IMPULSE TELLS  ME TO GO FOR A WALK...I

WILL GO FOR A WALK.  IF MY IMPULSE DICTATES FOR ME TO READ A GREAT BOOK, I

WILL READ THAT BOOK...IF I FEEL LIKE COOKING, I WILL COOK...I WILL WALK

IF I FEEL LIKE WALKING...

BECAUS THAT'S WHAT MY IMPULSE TELLS ME TO DO...I WILL SIT IN A GARDEN FULL

OF JASMINE AND ROSES AND THINK OF ALL THE GREAT WRITERS AND ARTISTS

WHO

TAUGHT ME TO APPRECIATE ART AND BEAUTY AND THAT IS ENOUGH FOR ME...

THAT WOULD BE MY SCHEDULE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE AND THAT IS IN CASE

COVID-19 DOESN'T TAKE ME AWAY BEFORE THAT BECAUSE YOU SEE LIFE IS SO

FRAGILE, SO UN-PREDICTABLE, IT CAN VANISH IN A FRACTION OF A SECOND...


LIKE ALBERT CAMUS SAYS, "WE ARE NEVER IMMUNE.  WE CAN NEVER GET RID OF

THE VIRUS.  VIRUS BECOMES DORMANT FOR SOME TIME, IT CAN BE YEARS OR

DECADES AND THEN IT WAKE UP AGAIN.  VIRUS IS IN OUR BEDROOMS,  IN OUR

TRUNKS,  IN OUR CLOTHES,  IN OUR BOOKS, IN OUR PAPERS...PLAGUES IS INSIDE OF

US BECAUSE OUR HEARTS ARE HARDENED.  VIRUS HAS TO BE KILLED WITH

DECENCY."

(CAMUS FROM HIS BOOK, THE PLAGUE.)


YOU SEE WE WERE NOT BORN TO DO SOMETHING CONSTRUCTIVE EVERY MINUTE

OF OUR LIVES AND BY THE WAY WHAT IS CONSTRUCTIVE ANY WAY?

ART AND IT'S APPRECIATION IS VERY CONSTRUCTIVE, AT LEAST FOR ME...

AND I AM MISSING GOING TO A MUSEUM, MISSING GOING TO A PARK, SIT DOWN

UNDER A LEAFY TREE, SMELLING THE FRAGRANT BLOOMING BLOSSOMS AND

READ A GEAT BOOK AND THEN GO FOR A WALK...WALK AND WALK AND WALK

AND THINK AND THINK...

WALKING FROM CENTRAL PARK ALL THE WAY TO THE EAST VILLAGE IS HIGHLY

CONSTRUCTIVE AND DELIGHTFULL...

EVERY ONE CAN HAVE THEIR DAILY SCHEDULES AND GOD BLESS THEM.

I AM JUST AN OLD FASHIONED GOAT WHOM THE GOVERNMENT CAN'T STAND...

BUT I AM HERE, I WILL GO WHEN THE TIME COMES....TILL THEN I WANT TO BREATH

THE COOL, FRESH, BREEZE ON A PARK BENCH WITH BOUDELAIRE, ONE OF MY VERY

FAVORITE POET WHO LOVED WALKING AS WELL.  HE WALKED THE STREETS OF

PARIS ALL DAY AND OBSERVED THE PLIGHT OF THE POOR IN PARIS.  HE HAD

DECENCY IN HIS HEART.