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"I LIKE NOTHING."

GREAT

"YOU HAVE ACHIEVED IT."

"IGNORE YOURSELF
"DON'T BE SO LIMITED IN YOUR THOUGHTS."
"OPEN UP YOUR HORIZONS"
"GO BEYOND."............BS

"IF PARIS WAS NEXT DOOR
I WILL GO THERE RIGHT NOW.
BUT ONLY NJ IS NEXT DOOR...........B

"IF MARAKESH WAS NEXT DOOR
I WILL GO THERE RIGHT NOW
"BUT ONLY WESCHESTER IS NEXT DOOR." _________BS

"LIMITED HORIZONS."

"LIFE IS BORING WITHOUT YOU."

"ARTIFIC AND CALCULATIONS,
MOST OF THEM DO THAT, WRITERS
AND ARTISTS WHO MAKE MONEY."______?

"PEOPLE.
__________

FORGET PEOPLE
ALL PEOPLE?
SOME PEOPLE
WHICH PEOPLE?
THEM PEOPLE
WHICH PEOPLE?
YOU KNOW WHICH PEOPLE

WHICH PEOPLE?
THEM PEOPLE
WHICH PEOPLE?
YOU KNOW WHICH PEOPLE

PEOPLE?
YES, PEOPLE
WHICH PEOPLE?
YOU KNOW WHICH PEOPLE
ALL PEOPLE?

OK,
FORHET ALL PEOPLE.

"IDEAS.
________

NEVER TELL ANY ONE ABOUT YOUR IDEAS
THEY WILL TAKE IT AND PUT IT ON THE COMPUTER
AND SELL IT FAST

COPYRIGHT BEFORE THEY HAVE THE CHANCE TO STEAL IT
COPYRIGHT DOESN'T HELP
EVERY ONE STEALS UNLESS YOU DO FIND OUT

AND EVEN THEN YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT
UNLESS YOU TAKE THEM TO COURT AND WIN...
AND HOW MANY PEOPLE CAN TAKE ANYONE TO COURT?

"AN INSPIRED BEING."
"A SURREALIST"

"HE PRIDES HIMSELF ON THAT
FOR WHICH HE IS LEAST RESPONSIBLE."

"YOU CAN CHAT AWAY AS MUCH AS YOU WANT
AS MUCH AS YOU CAN
AND I WILL WRITE IT ALL DOWN
HOW ABOUT THAT?"______________BS

"THERE ,THE POET LABORS"
"HERE THE POET LABORS"
POET LABORS HERE AND THERE."_______?

"THERE ARE PALYWRIGHTS WHO TEACH
GOES ABROAD FOR CONFERENCES
ENGLAND
SOUTH KOREA
JAPAN
BRAZIL
AUSTRALIA....

TAKEN OUT FOR DINNERS
RECEPTIONS
PARTIES
MORE DINNERS AND MORE DINNERS...

I FEEL FAMISHED
FAMISHED RIGHT NOW
EAT-------
WHAT?
A SANDWITCH
A SANDWITCH?
YES, A SANDWITCH_____

I AM NOT THAT KIND OF A PLAYWRIGHT
WHAT?
I DON'T TEACH
I DON'T GO ABROAD FOR COFERENCES

YOU CAN STILL EAT A SANDWITCH
REALLY?
YES, REALLY
FROM WHAT MONEY?
FROM PLAYWRITING
YOU ARE KIDDING ME_____-

ALL PLAYWRIGHTS ARE HAVING DINNER
THEY ARE ALL AT THE CONFERENCES
THEY ARE BEING FED
AND YOU?
WHAT?
YOU, YES YOU?
WHAT ABOUT ME?

WHY CAN'T YOU EAT A SANDWITCH?
WHY?
YES, WHY? EVEN IF YOU ARE NOT AT A CONFERENCE?
I THOUGHT YOU WETE SMATER THAN THAT
I AM SMART, I AM AT A CONFERENCE, I AM HAVING LAVISH DINNERS
BUT YOU CAN HAVE AHAM AND CHEESE SANDWITCH AT HOME...
DOM'T YOU HAVE ANY WHITR BREAD AT HOME?
TAKE TWO SLICES OF THE SOGGY WHITE BREAD
PUT A SLICE OF AMERICAN CHEDDER CHEESE ON BOTH
PUT A LITTLE BIT OF HAM FOR TASTE
AND PUT IT ON A FRYING PAN
TURN THE LITTLE HEAT ON..

TURN THE SLICES UPSIDE DOWN
THE SANDWITCH IS READY
NOW EAT IT........
YOU DO WHAT YOU CAN
BE PRACTICAL
EAT YOUR HAM AND CHEESE SANDWITCH
AND STOP COMPLAINING
I HAVE TO GET GOING
THE ACADEMY IS PICKING ME UP
WE ARE GOING TO FOUR SEASONS FOR DINNER
ENJOY YOUR HAM AND CHEESE SANDWITCH...
GOOD NIGHT FOR NOW...........

A PIECE OF ADVICE
BEFORE I GO TO FOUR SEASONS FOR MY DINNER

WRITE WHAT THE ACADMY LIKES
WRITE WHAT THE CRITICS LIKE
WRITE WHAT THE MONEY PEOPLE LIKE
SOME JOKES, SOME POLITICALLY CORRECT TOPICS

FORGET ABOUT A FEEL FOR HUMANITY
FOR POOR PEOPLE
FOR HOMELESS
TALK ABOUT THE RICH AND COMFORTABLE
MAKE THE RICH FABLOUS
MAKE THE RICH ENJOYABLE
MAKE THE RICH HUMEROUS
KISS ASS
KISS ASS
KISS ASS
AND YOU WILL BE How are you?VING DINNER AT FOUR SEASONS AS WELL

OTHERWISE THE HAM AND CHEESE SANDWITCH
WILL BE RESERVED FOR YOU FOR DINNER FOREVER AND...........EVER.
BY NOW............


SOMETHING IS WRONG
---------------------------------

"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?"
"I DON'T KNOW....."
SOMETHING IS TERRIBLY WRONG WITH YOU"

"HOW DO YOU KNOW?"
"I KNOW"
"HOW?"
"YOU WASTE A LOT OF TIME WITH PEOPLE"
"I DO?"
"YES, WHAT A DISGRACE...
"YOU WASTE A LOT OF TIME ON USELESS PEOPLE."

"WHAT'S WROG WITH YOU?"
"DON'T KNOW..."
YES, SOMETHING IS TERRIBLY WRONG WITH YOU."
_______________________________

IMPORTANT PEOPLE, IN A FASCINATING DEMOCRACY.
____________________________________________________

"ALL THOSE IMPORTANT PEOPLE
DOING IMPORTANT THINGS
TALKING TO EACH OTHER
TALKING TO OTHER IMPORTANT PEOPLE
SITTING NEXT TO ME...
ARE DEPRESSING ME"
THEY ARE SAYING THINGS LIKE ...

"OH1 THERE IS MORE DEMOCRACY HERE
THAN ANY OTHER PART OF THE WORLD."

"OH! FOR SURE...(The other says)
"REALLY INTERSETING DEBATE
LAST NIGHT ABOUT COUNCIL ON FOREIGN INTERESTS..."
T"THEY ARE DEMOCRATIC TOO."
"BUT OF COURSE, ALL OF US FROM RICH COUNTRIES ARE DEMOCRATIC"
"BUT OF COURSE, WE HAVE THE BEST DEMOCRACY IN THE WORLD."
"BUT OF COURSE, IT'S IN OUR CONSTITUTION."
"GREAT, I WS BORN IN FRANCE BUT HEY, THE BEST DEMOCRACY IS HERE."
"BUT OF COURSE."
"FASCINATING."

I LEFT THE CAFE
TONS OF HOMELESS RIGHT OUT SIDE THE CAFE
RIGHT OUTSIDE THE BEST DEMOCRACY IN THE WHOLE WORLD...
MAYBE THE HOMELESS SHOULD ASK A QUESTION OR TWO FROM THE
COUNCIL ON DOMESTIC AFFAIRSABOUT EQUALITY AND DEMOCRACY...
MAYBE?
BUT THATS NOT IN THE CONSTITUTION...
THERE WERE NO HOMELESS WHEN THE CONSTITUTION WAS WRITTEN
THERE WERE ONLY SLAVES........
FASCINATING..........INSIGHT INTO  MULTICULTURISM"
"EVERYTHING IS SO WHITE.....
AT LEAST IN THE MONEY MAKING SECTOR....
THAT WAS WRITTEN IN THE CONSTITUTION AS WELL........"
"FASCINATING EXPERIENCES TO GO TO THE FANCY CAFE'S
WHERE THE RICH FOR WHOM THE CONSTITUTION WAS WRITTEN GO........"
"FASCINATING PEOPLE
FASCINATING PLACES
FASCINATING CONVERSATIONS
SO LUCKY TO BE HERE.............
AMONGST THE MOST FASCINATING DEMOCRACY.
________________________________________________


"MAN HAS INCURABLE ISOLATION...
THAT'S THE EXPRESSION OF HIS ESTRANGEMENT FROM
TRANSCENDENT UNITY.".............?

"THEY HAVE DISINTERESTED ACTIVITY
PREMEDITATED AND NOT SPONTANNEOUS"............?

"MY JOB AS AN ARTIST IS NOT TO SHOW THE BALANCED PICTURE
BUT TO POINT OUT AT THE IMBALANCE IN SOCIETY
SO SOMETHING CAN BE DONE BY SOMEONE/WHOTHE DISRUPTION OF REALITY.EVER
RULES THAT SOCIETY.  MY FUNCTION AS AN ARTIST IS
ALSO NOT TO FIND SOLUTIONS FOR THE SOCIAL PROBLEMS
AND INJUSTICES BUT TO RAISE QUESTIONS ABOUT THOSE PROBLEMS."........?

"SURREALISTIC DIRECTIONS
IT'S EVOCATION OF THE MYSTERY OF THE UNCONSCIOUS,
THE DISRUPTION OF REALITY."

"ART IS THE INTERIOR LANDSCAPE OF A MAN
WHO SET OUT A LONG TIME AGO FOR THE ULTIMATE POLE OF HIS BEING."

"SURREALISTS DEAL WITH THE INTERIOR WORLD AND IT'S MYSTERY."....?

"IF WHAT THE POET REPORTS FROM THE DEPTH OF HIS BEING HAS FORM,
HE REPRODUCES FORM.".........?

"YOU CAN EXPRESS DREAMS WITH NORMAL LANGUAGE."  ?

"INVEST WITH UNEXPECTED IMPORT."....?

"LET THE ACCUMULATION OF ARTIFICIAL CULTURE GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD,"  ?

"HE WILL BE ABLE TO BE FLOODED BY THE TORRENTS OF HIS INTERIOR LIFE."  ?

"USE INTENTION AS A MAGINIFYING GLASS."

" SHE IS A LAMB IN TIGER'S CLOTHES,
OR SHE IS MENTALLY ILL...
THE FIRST THING DOESN'T SEEM FEASIBLE.
SHE MUST BE MENTALLY ILL.
SHE,AFTER FEW WEEKS INITIAL FURY...CALMS DOWN
TILL A NEW FURY TAKES IT'S PLACE.
STAY AWAY FROM THESE PEOPLE.".......BS

"ALL DAY SITTING,
BAD FOOD,
IRREGULAR SLEEPING HOURS,
LACK OF EXCERCISE,
NOT ENOUGH MOVEMENTS,
ANGER AT YOUR SELF,
REGRET OF WASTE AND WASTING ENERGY AND TIME,
IS THAT YOU?"........BS

"FROM THE CONVERGENCE OF MYSELF
AND FROM THE DISPERSION OF MYSELF,
THERE LIES THE WHOLE OF IT.".....Baudelaire

"ART SHOULD EXPLORE."...?

"WHITE
PROTESTENT
EDUCATED
PART OF ACADEMY
A PERFECTLY ACCEPTED ARTIST."   ?

"I HATE MYSELF OFTEN,
AND SOME PEOPLE AS WELL,
I HATE THE FACT THAT I WASTED
SO MUCH TIME ON THEM."   BS

'REPRESSED INSTINCTS,
FEAR
THE APPEAL OF UNUSAL HAZARDS
TASTE FOR LUXURY,
EXPRESSION OF THESE REPRESSED INSTINCTS
WILL PERHAPS RESCUE THE POET FROM
HIS INCURABLE DISQUIET."....?

"I HAVE THAT INCURABLE DISQUIET OF THE POET."....BS

"IT'S LIFE AND SPIRIT ITSELF,
MY WORK, MY WRITING, MY THINKING."...BS

"IT'S A WAY OF FEELING
AND OF EXPERIENCING
A WAY OF USING SIGHT
AND DOUBLE SIGHT,
A METHOD OF KNOWLEDGE."....?

"I AM NOT GOING TO ALLOW PEOPLE TO DISRESPECT ME,
INSULT ME,  USE THEIR UN-PREDICTABLE MOODS
AND TONGUE TO ABUSE ME.
I HAVE DECIDED TO BE AWAY FROM THEM
BECAUSE I CAN'T BE IN THAT AWFUL ATMOSPHERE
WHICH HAS BEEN AND STILL IS EXTREMELY NEGATIVE
FOR ME AND WHICH DISGRACES ME IN MY OWN EYES.".........BS

"DON'T COMBAT YOUR DESIRES AND INSTINCTS
BUT GIVE THEM FREE RUN.".....?

"POET". EXCEPTIONAL SENSITIVITY
               UNIQUE PRIVILEGE OF UNDERSTANDING
               TRUE OBJECTIVITY."

" A GENUINE ARTIST DOES NOT EXPRESS
A PARTICULAR AND INDIVIDUAL EMOTION
BUT PENETRATES TO THE DEEP ROOTS OF HUMAN NATURE."...?

"EVERY DAY'S NEW DEVELOPMENTS SHOCKS.
UNPREDICTIBILTY...
THINGS ONE THOUGHT WILL NEVER HAPPEN
KEEPS HAPPENING

WHO KNOWS WHAT CAN HAPPEN NEXT?
IT'S TOTALLY SCARY...
UNEXPECTED NEW THINGS CAN HAPPEN...
UNEXPECTED BAD THINGS CAN HAPPEN
UNEXPECTED GOOD THINGS CAN HAPPEN TOO....
BUT RIGHT NOW ONLY BAD AND BAD AND BAD
UNIMAGINABLY BAD AND AWFUL THINGS ARE HAPPENING,
IT'S CORONA TIME...IT'S COVID -19 TIME
IT'S A VERY SAD TIME...BS :  ( Not part of the old notebook)  APRIL 2020

"DON'T START THE SAME OLD BAD HABBITS
DON'T SHOW UP
AND WHY SHOULD YOU?
DO THEY SHOW UP?
LIKE YOU DO
DON'T
DON'T GO THERE
LET THEM COME TO YOU...
AND IF THEY DON'T
F**K THEM."...BS

"I SAW THAT YOU CALLED
I HAVE BEEN THINKING OF YOU
I THINK OF YOU EVERY DAY
THIS MORNING I WOKE UP
AND I THOUGHT OF YOU...
AND I SAID TO MY SELF
"I SHOULD CALL"
AND I SAW THAT YOU CALLED...
YOU CALLED BY MISTAKE...
BUT I MISS YOU...
I ASK FOR YOU...
HOPE YOU ARE WELL
CALL ME IF YOU HAVE A MINUTE OR SO....
SEE YOU SOON......BS.....(To a friend who died of Corona Virus)  april 2020

"THAT WAS AN UNEXPECTED MESSAGE
YOUR CALL...
EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS UN-EXPECTED
IT IS AMAZING HOW UNEXPECTED EVERYTHING IS...
IT IS SCARY
BUT I AM SO GLAD THAT YOU CALLED
PLEASE CALL AGAIN
I WILL WAIT
CALL ANY TIME OF THE DAY OR NIGHT
I AM AWAKE MOST OF THE NIGHT
INFACT, I AM AWAKE ALL NIGHT
CALL ANY TIME WHEN YOU HAVE A MINUTE...
I WILL WAIT FOR YOUR CALL
IT WILL BE SO NICE TO HEAR YOUR VOICE AGAIN
ONE MORE TIME I WANT TO HEAR YOUR VOICE
YOU HAVE A GREAT VOICE
DEEP AND AFFECTIONATE
A MUSICAL VOICE
A LOVELY VOICE
A RESONANT VOICE
I WILL WAIT FOR YOUR CALL TONIGHT
EVERY NIGHT, I WILL WAIT FOR YOUR CALL
BUT PLEASE CALL TONIGHT
I WON'T SLEEP TILL YOU CALL"......BS:  (To a friend after she died of corona virus in March 2020)

A PIECE OF ART
----------------------

A: WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?
B: HOW THE HELL WOULD I KNOW?
     I HAVE HEARD THAT THEY CALL IT ART
A: ART?
B:  YES, ART
A:  ART?  MY ASS...
B: YOUR ASS IS A PIECE OF ART TOO.".....BS

"DIPS
PEAKS
INERUPTIONS
ALL HAVE VALUE
BECAUSE THEY EXPRESS THE UNKNOWN
IT'S THE QUEST OF THE UNKNOWN
PRECIOUS CHARACTERS OF REVELATIONS.".....?

"I HAD A BAD DAY
OK, TO BE FAIR TO THE DAY
I HAD A FEW BAD HOURS
FROM 4PM TILL 6PM
AND THEN FROM 6PM
TILL 8PM
AND THEN FROM 8PM TILL 10PM
AND THEN FROM 10PM TILL 12PM
AND THEN FROM 12AM TILL 2AM
AND THEN FROM 2AM TILL 4AM
AND THEN FROM 4AM TILL 6AM....
NOW I HAVE TO LET IT GO.
I CAN'T DWELL ON IT
I HAVE TO LET IT GO
I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO BEAR INJURY
I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO BEAR INSULT
FROM THE BAD DAY
FROM A BAD NIGHT
FROM A BAD FRIEND
I HAVE TO LET IT GO.".....BS

"THE MOST FORCEFUL IMAGES
ARE ALSO THE MOST ARBITARY,
THE MOST CONTRADICTORY,
AND THE MOST DIFFICULT TO EXPRESS.".........?

"SHE IS GROSS
SHE LOOKS LIKE CHICKEN DUMPLING."

"TWO UGLY LOOKING MEN
TALKING ABOUT SOME WOMEN IN A CAFE
AND TALKING RATHER LOUDLY"

"SHE IS REALLY ANNOYING
SHE IS UGLY AND ANNOYING"

TWO MEN ARE STILL TALKING ABOUT SOME WOMEN
IN A CAFE AND THEY ARE RATHER LOUD"

"OH! THOSE WOMEN ARE UGLY
NOTHING HAS CHANGED
THEY ARE STILL UGLY."

THESE TWO MEN ARE RATHER UGLY THEMSELVES
THEY ARE LOUD AND HAVE HORRIBLE VOICES AND UNPLEASANT
LAUGHTER."  ........(Overheard conversations in  cafe). ...BS

"A: I AM A POET.  I HAVE ACUTE SENSITIVITY.
B:   I HAVE IT TOO.  SENSITIVITY,  I MEAN
A: I HAVE MUCH MORE SENSITIVITY THAN YOU HAVE.
      YOU HAVE IT TOO AS A HUMAN BEING
     BUT YOU ARE NOT AN ARTIST/WRITER/POET
     YOUR SENSITIVITY IS NOT REAL.
      YOUR SENSITIVITY IS A CONVENIENCE....
      MY SENSITIVITY IS OF SUFFERING...
     SUFFERING FOR OTHERS...
MY SENSITIVITY IS A POET'S SENSITIVITY.
YOUR'S IS A CACULATION."......BS

"HE MEANS WELL
BUT DOESN'T KNOW
HOW TO EXPRESS IT."

"SHE IS MENTALLY DISTURBED
NO MATTER HOW SUCCESSFUL SHE IS
SHE HAS EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS BIG TIME
SHE HAS BLOCKED HIS EXPRESSION."....?

"SMASHED SOMETHING WHICH YOU DON'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO SMASH."...?

"THE MIND IS EXCITED BY THIS CONFUSION
AND FINDS IN IT A GREAT WEALTH."   ?

"IN YOUR OWN CONFUSION, THERE IS GREAT WEALTH AND INVENTION."...?

"IMAGES ARE THE SYMBOLS OF REPRESSED DESIRES."

"SURREAL REVEALS ORIGINAL NATURE OF MAN."...?

"THE ARTIST IS CLAIRVOYANT."..?

"ART AND PSYCHOANALYSIS INTERESTS THE SURREALIST."...?

"A PITIABLE LAMB IN TIGER'S UNIFORM...ALL THAT SHOUTING IS HOLLOW."...?

"EVERY DAY PRE-OCCUPATIONS FREES-UNCONSCIOUS ACTIVITY."...?