OLD NOTEBOOKS CONTINUES

OLD NOTEBOOKS CONTINUES

"COMEDY NIGHT LIVE"

MY PLAY OPENS MAY 2ND TILL MAY 19TH

(NO MENTION OF THE YEAR IN THE NOTEBOOK)

I WILL SIT DOWN AND PUT THE WHOLE SHOW ON THE BLOG AND THEN

PRINT IT OUT AND SIT ALONE IN THE REHEARSAL ROOM AND FIGURE THINGS OUT.


AND THEN ASK THE ACTORS TO BOMBARD ME AND SET THE DATES OF THE

REHEARSALS WITH LOTS OF CONFLICTS AND HEADACHES.


""ORDINARY FAILURE OF A LIFE,"

DEALING WITH THIS PROCESS, THE BEGINNING....

SAME EXACT FEELINGS KEEP COMING BACK ALWAYS.


CHAPTER ONE:  "IMPOSSIBLE BEGINNING"


CHAPTER TWO:  "IT'S A SHITTY LIFE"


CHAPTER THREE:  "YOU KNOW THE REST."
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THE SCENES TO BE DEALT WITH:

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 "NEWS HOUR"

"IMITATING THOMAS MITCHELL"

"IMMITATING BRANDO"

"HIGH LINE,  UNHAPPY AND HAPPY PEOPLE.

THE SCENES OF, "ABUSED WOMEN MONOLOGUES


MONOLOGUE:
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ABUSED WOMAN
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"IT  STRETCHES OVER MY WHOLE LIFE

I'TS CONSTANT

NEVER ENDING

NEVER FADING

NEVER GOING AWAY

 FEAR OF BEING LATE

 FEAR OF MISSING AN IMPORTANT CHORE

FEAR OF MISSING THE TRAIN

FEAR OF MISSING THE PLAN

FEAR OF MISSING IMPORTANT APPOINTMENTS

THE FEAR OF BEING HELPLESS

THE FEAR OF FAILING

THE FEAR OF DISAPPOINTMENTS

COMPLETELY NAKED , CAN'T FIND THE CLOTHES...."

THE NIGHTMARE OF ABUSED WOMAN

(NOT MUCH OF COMEDY HERE)

"HER JUDGMENT'S WERE PROMPT, SEVER,RELENTLESS."  ABOUT ANDRE GIDE'S WIFE

"MAYBE TONIGHT MY HAPPINESS WILL SHOW UP."???

"SHE DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYTHING OR ANYONE BUT HERSELF."  PA

"YOU NEED TO DO EXACTLY THE SAME LIKE PA."

"YOU DON'T HAVE TO EXPLAIN ANYTHING TO ANY BODY."

"TO HELL WITH ANY ONE.  WHAT YOU WANT COMES FIRST."???
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TIME COMEDIAN AND THE ABUSED WOMAN

A SCENE ON THE PHONE BETWEEN THE THERAPIST WHO IS ALSO A PART TIME

COMEDIAN.

TO BE GOOD COMICS.

THERAPIST ON THE PHONE:

YOU SOUND PESSIMISTIC

YOU ARE SUFFERING FROM ALIENATION DISORDER

CAN YOU ACT?

I SAID, CAN YOU ACT?

I HAVE A COMEDY  CALLED, "COMEDY NIGHT LIVE" AND I AM LOOKING

FOR DAMAGED PEOPLE...

THEY TURN OUT TO BE GOOD COMICS.

WHEN WILL THE COMEDY SHOW BE ON?

OH! WELL...WHENEVER I WILL HAVE SOME FUNNY COMEDIANS WITHIN

MY REACH.

MY ASSISTANTS?

THEY ARE NOT EADY YET

THEY ARE STILL IN TRAINING

YES, I AM TRAINING THEM.

IT'S BEEN A HELL OF A STRUGGLE

IT'S BEEN YEARS

THEY ARE STILL STUDENTS

STUDENTS WHO ARE BAD STAND UP COMEDIANS

NOT READY YET.

STAND UP COMEDY IS EXTREMELY HARD BECAUSE  FIRST

YOU HAVE TO STAND UP AND MOST OF THE DISABLED

AND TROUBLED AND DAMAGED PEOPLE CAN'T STAND UP....

THEY ARE ALL GOOD AT COMEDY BUT THEY NEED TO GET UP

AND STAND UP TO DELIVER...THEIR JOKES

ALL THE TOPMOST COMEDIANS LIKE JOHNY CARSON, LETTERMAN,

JIMMY FALON, KIMMEL ,ETC, EVEN IF WE SEE THEM SITTING A LOT,

THEY ALWAYS STAND FIRST TO DELIVER THEIR MONOLOGUE AND THEN THEY SIT.

THEIR STANDING UP IS CALLED THE, "MONOLOGUE "

AND WHEN THEY SIT  DOWN WITH THEIR CELEBRITY GUESTS, IT'S CALLED,

"DIALOGUE," WHICH IS HARDLY FUNNY BECAUSE NOW BOTH PARTIES ARE

SITTING DOWN.

THAT'S THE REASON i KEEP MY ASSISTANTS, BRANDO AND MITCHELL STANDING.

THEY ARE IN "STAND UP COMEDY

TRAINING PROGRAM."

WHEN YOU STAND UP,  MASSES WILL STAND UP WITH YOU AND CHEER,

TILL THEY STAMPEDE CROWDS TO DEATH.

WHEN PRESIDENT MAKES A SPEECH, HE STAND UP.

ALL PRESIDENTS ARE FIRST RATE COMEDIANS.

THEY JOKE ABOUT PEACE PROCESS IN WAR ZONES STANDING UP.

ONLY TIME THEY ARE NOT FUNNY WHEN THEY SIGN DOCUMENTS DECLARING WAR,

AT THAT TIME THEY ARE ALL SITTING AT A DESK SIGNING...

IF YOU ARE SHORT LIKE ME YOU REALLY HAVE TO STAND UP OTHERWISE

YOU WILL JUST DISAPPEAR AND YOUR COMEDY AS WELL....

THAT'S WY IT'S CALLED, "STAND UP COMEDY."

SO IF YOU LEAVE YOUR ABUSIVE HUSBAND AND WORK FOR MY COMEDY TEAM

YOU WILL HAVE TO STAND UP AND IT WILL BE GOOD FOR YOUR KNEES WHICH

YOUR HUSBAND DAMAGED LAST TIME I SPOKE TO YOU.

"OH1 IT WAS NOT YOUR KNEES LAST TIME?

OH! THAT WAS LAST WEEK...

WHAT DID HE BREAK THIS TIME?

YOUR ELBOWS...

WOW, HE DOES LIKE TO BREAK YOUR BONES

GET RID OF HIM AND COME TO ME.

IT WILL BE GOOD FOR YOU AND YOUR BROKEN BONES TO STAND UP

HEAL AND DO COMEDY WITH MY TROOP...

OK, NOW, I HAVE TO CALL MY NEXT PATIENT...

DON'T LET HIM BREAK YOUR SPINE

THEN YOU WILL BE TOTALLY UNABLE TO STAND UP...I ONLY NEED STAND

UP COMEDIANS.... SHOOT THE SUN OF A BITCH AND COME TO ME...

BY NOW...
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(ADD THE NEXT SCENE WITH K AND B
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MONOLOGUE OF THE THERAPIST ON THE PHONE CONTINUES
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WHY DO YOU NEED THIS HUSBAND OF YOUR'S?

THIS ABUSER--WIFE BEATER?

OH! HE GETS YOUR PRESCRIPTIONS FILLED AT THE FARMACY...

BUT IF YOU LEAVE HIM YOU WON'T NEED ALL THOSE MEDICINES WHICH

YOUR DOCTOR PRESCRIBES AFTER HE BREAKS YOUR BONES....

hE IS THE DISEASE .  GET RID OF THE DISEASE.

DON'T DEVELOP THIS INTO MENTAL ILLNESS LIKE ALL MY OTHER PATIENTS

MY PATIENTS ARE ALL MENTALLY ILL.

THEY FOR SURE NEED SOME COMIC RELIEF.

THOUGH I AM A DOCTOR WHO TREATS MENTAL ILLNESS, IF I ATE BETTER

I WOULD HAVE FOUND A SOLUTION FOR OTHER WOMEN'S MENTAL

HEALTH PROBLEMS.  bUT i EAT BAD FOOD.  THEY SELL BAD FOOD THATS WHY I EAT

BAD FOOD.

AT THE ORGANIC HEALTH FOOD STORE THEY SELL ROTTEN CHICKEN...

WHEN YOU BRING IT HOME AND EVEN IF YOU THROW IT OUT INSTANTLY

THE ROTTEN SMELL LASTS IN THE APT FOR MONTHS.

BUT I AM IN A DILEMA.  I AM A DOCTOR AND PART TIME UNEMPLOYED COMEDIAN

SO I DON'T HAVE TIME TO BUY, CLEAN, COOK AND THEN EAT.

IT'S A PROBLEM ESPECIALLY FOR A DOCTOR.

DOCTORS DON' COOK

THEY EAT OUT

THEY MAKE LOTS OF MONEY.

I NEVER GET A CHECK FROM ANY OF MY PATIENTS.

THEY USUALLY DIE BEFORE THEY PAY ME.

AND THE ONES WHO SURVIVE, THEY FORGET TO PAY ME BECAUSE THEY ARE

MENTAL...THE DON'T REMEBER A DAMN THING.

SO WHAT'S THE SOLUTION?

NONE.

NO SOLUTION AT ALL

I HAVE NEVER FOUND A SOLUTION IN MY LIFE ABOUT ANY THING

NO SOLUTION WHAT SO EVER..

A DOCTOR WITHOUT ANY SOLUTIONS

ONLY THE PROBLEMS

I SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE DOCTOR WHO PROMISES PROBLEMS

GET PAID FOR CREATING PROBLEMS IN YOUR ALLREDAY VERY PROBLOMETIC LIFE.

I CAN'T EVEN SOLVE MY OWN EATING PROBLEM...

HOW AM I GOING TO BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH THE HIGH POWERED PRODUCERS

FOR MY UP COMING COMEDY SHOW WHEN I GET ALL THEE DERANGED WOMEN

WHO ARE MY PATIENTS RIGHT NOW TO LEAVE THEIR ASS HOLE HUSBANDS AND

BECOME PART OF MY COMEDY TROOPERS.

ON EMPTY STOMACH ALL THE FUNNY IDEAS DRY UP.

HAVEN'T YOU NOTICED THAT FAMOUS COMEDIANS EAT VERY WELL.

THEY ARE SO FAT AND SO HIGHLY PAID

HERE I AM STUCK WITH BEATEN UP MARRIED WOMEN WITH BROKEN BONES.

UNAMBITIOUS AND UNTALENTED ASSISTANATS, COMATOSED PATIENTS

AND NOTHING TO EAT.
THE PHONE WITH HER PATIENTS
FADE

NEXT SCENE:

CONTINUATION OF THE THERAPIST'S MONOLOGUE ON THE PHONE WITH HER
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PATIENTS
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LISTEN DARLING,

THERE IS NGLISH SENTENCE?

O ORDER IN LIFE,

NO HAPPINESS,

NO LOVE.

JUST CHAOS.

GET USED TO IT

OR GET OUT.

WHAT IS THAT SENTENCE?

"SHIT OR GET OFF THE POT."

LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING

I MIGHT BE YOUR PSYCHIATRIST/DOCTOR

BUT MY LIFE IS WORST THAN YOU

I LISTEN TO YOUR COMPLAINTS ALL DAY LONG AND  YOU DON'T LISTEN

TO MY SOLUTION...

YOU DON'T SEND ME A CHECK

AND I HAVE NO FOOD

"A DOCTOR WHO DIED OF STARVATION AND POVERTY BUT WITH

A SOCIAL CONSCIOUS...

I NEED ROASTED GOOSE

THAT'S WHAT I NEED TO EAT...

I HAVE G00D TASTE.

I SHOULD WRITE A BOOK INSTEAD OF TRYING TO HELP YOU ALL LOST CASES.THHE

MAKE SOME MONEY BEFORE THE LIFE IS OVER...

BOOK SHOULD BE CALLED, "I AM MY OWN BIOGRAPHY."

ACTUALLY I SHOULD WRITE THAT BOOK.

IT WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA.

SOME ONE ASKED INDIAN LEADER GHANDI ONCE..

"WHAT DO YOU THINK OF WESTERN CIVILIZATION"?

AND HE SAID,

"THAT WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA"

YES, THAT WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA, THE BOOK...

I HAVEN'T SUCCEEDED IN MY<"COMEDY NIGHT LIVE>" PRODUCTION COMPANY

NEITHER HAVE I HEALED ANY OF MY PATIENTS...BUT THAT MIGHT NOT BE ALL MY

FAULT.  MY PATIENTS ARE SO STUBBORN

THEY WOULD RATHER HAVE BROKEN BONES THAN A DIVORCE

AND MY ASSISTANTS HAVE NO TALENT FOR COMEDY...

AND THATS THAT....

(TALKING TO HER PATIENTS) ON THE PHONE AGAIN...
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YES, YES, YES.  DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY...

OK, YOU ARE RIGHT.  WHY SHOULD YOU NOT TAKE THINGS PERSONALLY?

THEY ARE PERSONEL.  I UNDERSTAND

PEOPLE USED TO SAY THE SAME THING TO ME

"DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY."

I USED TO BELIEVE THEM BECAUSE THEY WERE ALL SO FANCY, IN FANCY

CLOTHES SHOWING OFF THEIR SUCCESS...

BUT YES, IT'S PERSONAL, EVERYTHING IS PERSONAL AND YOU SHOULD TAKE IT

PERSONALLY.

I AM LIKE YOU TOO.

LOSER, LOSER, LOSER

WORKING FOR WOMEN WHO HAVE NO JOBS

THEY ARE DEPENDENT ON THEIR LOUSY HUSBANDS

WHO BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF THEM

AS WELL BREAK THEIR BONES

AND HUSBANDS DO NOT WANT THEM TREATED BY ME OR ANY OTHER

DOCTOR...

SO WHY DO I DO IT?

BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO DO THINGS FOR, "UNDERDOG"

WHY?

SHE ASKS ME WHY?

PLEASE...

BECAUSE I AM ONE OF THEM, THE "UNDERDOG."

GOT IT?

OK.

I AM NOT SUCCEEDING ...

SO I HAVE DECIDED TO GIVE UP MY MEDICAL PRACTICE

AND BECOME A COMEDIAN AND HAVE A SHOW CALLED,

"COMEDY NIGHT LIVE."YOU HAVE NOT BEEN SUCCESSFUL IN YOUR

LIFE AS WELL, SO WHY DON'T YOU KICK YOUR HUSBANDS IN THE BALLS

AND COME JOIN MY COMEDY ROUTINE.

YOU HAVE A RIGHT TO YOUR OWN LIFE.

DON'T GIVE HIM PERMISSION TO BUY YOUR EXISTENCE FOR NOTHING.


 I KNO W AT LEAST ONE THING SO CLEARLY

I WILL BE VERY, VERYY SUCCESSFUL AS A COMEDIAN...

NOW I HAVE TO CALL ANOTHER OF MY PATIENT.  GOOD NIGHT...

DO NOT LET HIM BREAK YOUR BACK.  THE SHOW REQUIRES STANDING UP...

AND BY THE WAY ACTUALLY I HAVE BEEN VERY SUCCESSFUL IN ANOTHER WAY.

I HAVE TWO ASSISTATNTS.

MALE ASSISTANTS

WHITE MALE ASSISTANTS

WHITE MALE AMERICAN ASSISTANTS

AND I AM A WOMAN FROM THE THIRD WORLD.

THERE IS NO SUCCESS BIGGER THAN TAHT..
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FRAGMENTATION
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"MY WORK IS ALL FRAGMENTED.

FRAGMENTS TRYING DESPERATLY TO PUT SOME ORDER TO IT

BUT THE BROKEN DOWN SENSITIVITY AND SENSIBILITY IS

THE ONLY CREATIVITY IT ADMIRES."  BS???


SELF DIDGUST
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"NO MATTER WHAT I DO---

SELF DISGUST STAYS.

ACTUALLY IT GETS SOLIDIFIES.

EVERY DAY GETS DEEPER AND DEEPER UNDER MY SKIN.

IT HAS GOTTEN DEEPER THAN ANY OTHER LOVE."  BS


SOMETIMES.
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"SOME TIMES ANGRY...

SOMETIMES IRONIC...

SOMETIMES DETACHED...

AUSTER...

BE MORE DETACHED."    Annonymous


"HER WORK READS LIKE A JOURNAL".  ?

"YOU WANT TO WREST MEANING FROM LIFE...

YOUR LIFE PARTICULARLY

BUT HEY FORGET IT."  BS?

" THERE IS NO PATTERN,

ESPECIALLY IN YOUR LIFE.

IT'S ALL CAHOS...

RESIGN TO CHAOS...

WHY NOT?"    BS


"LISTEN
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GET RID OF PEOPLE

DON'T EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ANY ONE

BECOME INDEPENDENT

DON'T TALK TOO MUCH...

DON'T TALK ABOUT ANY ONE

JUST DO YOUR WORK...

HOW MANY TIMES YOU NEED TO KNOW THIS?

TELL ME, HOW MANY TIMES?

DO NOT MAKE ME MAD...."BS


"I AM MY OWN BIOGRAPHY"
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"WRITE THIS BOOK

BECOME EXTREMELY BOLD

DO NOT LET ANY ONE GET AWAY WITH HUMILIATING YOU

REMEBER THAT ALWAYS

AND HOW MANY TIMES YOU NEED TO KNOW ALL THIS?

TELL ME, HOW MANY TIMES?

YOU MAKE ME SO MAD WITH YOUR CONTINOUS BAD BEHAVIOR."   BS

"I TAKE THINGS PERSONALLY

NO MATTER WHAT ANY ONE SAYS

WHY SHOULD I NOT TAKE THINGS PERSONALLY?

THEY ARE PERSONAL AFTER ALL

EVERYTHING IS PERSONAL."    BS

"INCREDIBLE AMOUNT OF FAMILIAL TENSIONS."

THEY, ESPECIALLY TWO OF THEM TURNED OUT TO BE SO DISAPPOINTING."


"PSYCHOLOGY OF RELATIONSHIPS."
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"SIBLING TENSIONS, MATERNAL AND PATERNAL RELATIONSHIPS,

FRIENDSHIPS, LOSS, DEATH, LOVE, BETRAYAL, JEALOUSY,

PHISIOLOGY OF RELATIONSHIPS, PSYCHOLOGY OF RELATIONSHIPS."
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"SHE FELT SILENCED.

SHE LACKED FREEDOM."        Louis Gluck

"MALE DOMINANCE IS FOUND EVERY WHERE."  LG

"THE MALE BLOCK ON FEMALE SPEECH."    LG

"I How are you?TE THEM AS I HATE SEX,

THE MEN'S MOUTH/ SEALING MY MOUTH,

THE MAN'S PARALYZING BODY..."    LG

"CRITIQUE OF SOCIETY OF THE ASSAULTS

IT MAKES ON THE INDIVIDUL, PARTICULARLY ON WOMEN."  LG

"  SHE HAD AN AWFUL LIFE AND A HORRIBLEDEATH.

   THAT TRAGIC MOMENT IN LIFE WHEN SHE MET HIM

RUINED HER LIFE."  ABOUT E....BS

"THRUST AND ACHE.."   ?

"IN A WORLD IN WHICH DAUGHTERS AND WIVES

ARE EXPECTED TO BE PASSIVE, A WOMAN

WHO HAS POWER, OR CRAVES IT GOES AGAINST NATURE

IS ESTRANGED."  LG

" THREE COMPULSIONS FOR PASSIVITY, FOR BEING PASSED OVER,

IS THAT THEY ARE BORN TO A VOCATION TO BEAR WITNESS

TO THE GREAT MYSTERIES."   LG

"HER WILL SUBJECTED TO OTHERS HAS LEFT HER RUINED."  LG

"TOO NAKED

TOO DIRECT."  ?

"AWFUL BUT CHEERFUL ATTITUDE

TO LIVE EVERY DAY."  ?

"TRY TO REJECT, ESCAPE, RESTRAINED THE TRAITS.

CONSTRAINTS OF DEPRESSION, SADNESS,DESPAIR, A SENSE OF FAILURE."  ?

"MY OUTLOOK IS PESSIMISTIC."   Bishop

"TO MAKE LIFE ENDURABLE WE SHOULD BE GAY AND GIDDY."  ?

"TAKE PLEASURES IN THE SMALL ACT OF LIVING."  ?

"SHE IS ANONYMOUS.  SHE STARTS AGIN THE NEW LIFE

SHE REMAINS ANONYMOUS."   ?

"AN ORDINARY PERSON AGAINST THE EXTERNAL

WORLD IS DESTROYED."   ?

"MEN ARE HORRIBLE.

HORRIBLY AGGRESSIVE TO WOMEN.

IN MANY WAYS THEY ARE ALL EXTREMELY AGGRESSIVE."  LG

"WE ARE AFRAID OF MEN.

MAYBE THEIR PHYSIQUE?

MAYBE THEIR STRENGTH?

MAYBE THEIR SENSE OF ENTITLEMENT?

THAT SENSE IS ALSO AN ACT OF AGGRESSION.

IT'S ALWAYS THE MEN WHO ENTERS THE WOMEN

AND ENTERS WITH FORCE

MAYBE WOMEN LIKE IT

BECAUSE BASICALLY WOMAN IS A VICTIM."    LG