THESE AWFUL DREAMS

THESE AWFUL DREAMS

Every thing had been stolen
No idea who the thief was
Got tired of the whole scenario
Wanted to catch the thief

I put the most expensive stuff..
Jewelery etc, (In my real life I have no diamonds)
 In the dream I had tons of extremely pricey ornaments
Pearl neklaces
Diamond bracelets
Rings loadd with rubies
And many other things

I got so tired of discovering every morning
that the things have been disappearing
Some one seems to know everything about my safe and secret places
Not so secret any more....

 Since I wake up a lot from these horrifying dreams
When some one is chasing me
Or trying to kill me
Or I am stark naked
And can't find any clothes
Or being trapped, (The usual dreams motif)

I thought when I am awake in the middle of these horrifying
cenarios, I will catch the thief
Because he/she or trans will be taking things out
Of my secret drawers I would take my pistol out and stand right behind him/her/trans
and shoot the son  of a gun or the daughter or trance withe my
pistol, (Since they didn't pass the gun control law)
I am sure I would have been able to have my gun handy to shoot and kill
The thief of the night....

So I put all my valuables in a plastic bag, (imagine that)
 All things with diamonds and in plastic
And put them right outside the secret place and tried to go back to sleep
Luckily or I guess un-luckily I slept for a while
And when I woke up, (Instead of catching the mighty thief
I realized to my horror that all the jewels in the plastic bag were gone

Rushed out of the dooor in a frantic manner...
There was some one else with me in my frantic state of affairs
But who was the person?  I have no recollection
I am usually so alone in the busy NY with millions of people that
I would never expect any one living with me or visiting me
Except the thief or thieves....
I do have thieves in my life
People have stolen my time
I let them
Its not their fault
I let them steal my time

While people were busy working and making money
I was calling them
Visiting them
Trying to tell them what I was doing, what I was writing
Then they would go home and steal my Ideas and my actual scripts
Change the names of the characters and put it in pdf files
THEY KNOW HOW TO PUT SCRIPTS ON PDF FILES
I AM THE ONLY IDIOT AND A USELESS PERSON
LIVING IN THIS DIGITAL AGE....

I LET PEOPLE STEAL MY TIME
Like I was letting the thief steal my jewels....
The empty plastic bag was sitting on top of the garbage....
How stupid and naive can you be to trust a thief...
My mouth was open with horror looking at the empty plastic bag
It was of silver cover without the silver and gold and diamonds in it....
The person with me was also aghast
And started to blame me....

Every one blames me for everything
In this situation of course it was my fault but doesn't matter
Every one blames me for everything which happens in the big wide world...

All my fault
My stupidity, me not knowing, my lack of ability and interest in cyber space
all my scripts, (Hard copies)  who has hard copies these days
Everything is on pdf files and published
Published, every damn words the mediocre influentiel, politically correct
Ass kissers scribbled is PUBLISHED

They are published writers.
They are so Important
Of course they are Important
They are published
They must be good.
They have the right nams
Right religion
Right gender orientation

You are living in the great democracy of the world
You have to be in the team and play the game
Say, whatever they want you to say
Write whatever they want you to write
Kiss ass
I said, "KIss ass"
"No.  "DON'T KISS YOUR ASS"
"FIRST OF ALL YOU CAN'T KISS IT AND SECONDLY
HOW IMPORTANT IS YOUR ASS?"

"KISS IMPORTANT ASS" and you will be
published and the hard copies will be shredded and thrown away
or be archived and bought by an Important University here
So they will be out of your apt....

Right now the only thing which is out of your apt is your diamonds
You silly, stupid, naive, Idiotic,  mideval imbecile....

Instead of throwing the fucking unpublished
dusty scripts out...
You threw your diamonds out....
How retarded....

"I didn't throw my diamonds out, they were stolen"
"Stolen by you?"
"Me?"
"Yes, you"

"You are the thief.  Your stupidity, your lack of respect for your property
your time, your dignity,  your selflessness,  your village behavior, you
ethnic cunt.....

'Why do you fucking live here if you can't live like one of them?"
"Lock everything up, lock your possessions, lock your time and sit there wide awake day
and night with a gun and shoot all the mother fuckers who try to steal from you....
but the problem is that its you who steals from yourself...

Yes, you, you stole your diamonds, your talent, your time, yes that precious time
which never comes back, which is your life force, you put your valuable talent
out in a garbage bag and threw it away with your TIME...YOUR TIME HONEY

YOU WASTED YOUR TIME,
YOU WASTED YOUR ABILITY, YOUR TALENT, YOUR ART
ON USELESS PEOPLE, THIEVES OF THE DAY,
YES THEY WERE THIEVES OF YOUR DAYS AND
YOU HANDED EVERYTHING OF VALUE TO THEM FREE OF CHARGE....
YOU GAVE IT TO THEM...
YOU NEGLECTED YOUR TALENT, YOUR VALUABLE TIME.....
ON USELESS CHORES, ON USELESS, THE MOST USELESS AND SELFISH AND NON TALENTED PEOPLE....YOU GAVE AWAY YOUR TIME LIKE YOUR JEWELS
TO THIEVES WILLINGLY......
NOW YOU ARE CRYING....
BUT YOU ARE CRYING OVER SPILLED MILK....
NOTHING YOU GAVE AWAY WILL NEVER EVER COME BACK...
NEVER.....

YOU STOLE FROM YOURSELF...
YOU ARE THE THIEF OF THE NIGHT
YOU ARE THE THIEF OF THE DAY
YOUR VALUABLE DAYS
NOW GONE.....
YOU WERE THE THIEF
THATS WHY YOU COULDN'T CATCH THE THIEF......
THATS WHY...
THATS WHY.....
THATS WHY....

Then I woke up with a jolt....
No jewels were stolen
I didn't have any
Just my time was stolen...
Just my time....
I put my time in a plastic bag to be stolen
And I discovered the empty plastic bag on the heap f garbage in the streets

MAY TIME HAD GONE...........................