Friday, July 26, 2013
WOMEN OF A CERTAIN RELIGION OR MUSLIM WOMEN: A PLAY IN MONOLOGUES
HUMMA:
(Talking to herself, trying to convince herself that her solitude has become dangerous)
Either commit suicide or go to an institution for the insane.
Because there is no solution otherwise to change your circumstances.
Its time for you to admit it that now you are completely isolated and alone
in all your endeavors.
The dysfunction in your genes and DNA and the same dysfunctional DNA
of your remaining family and your religion is not going to change.
It can not change. Its a disease. Disease needs treatment and everyone has
to agree to the kind of treatment.
The problem and the dysfunction of the family and Humma's religion is
the disagreement on all issues and total non communication about all subjecys.
So yes, there is no one for you to laugh with....
Yes, you are all alone....
Yes, you have no support...
No help....
No understanding of family....
No understanding of community....
No understanding of religion...
No, No. Understanding at all.....
No nothing......
Now what's your decision?
Suicide or institution?
Or do you have a third option?
You can forget about every one and everything
and enjoy your loneliness and Isolation....
People who are determined can enjoy anything.
Do things you like...
Alone, of course
With who else?
Stop thinking about three things
Yourself
Your family
Your religion
And you will be perfectly happy
You will completely forget about mental asylum
or suicide....
You will just laugh
And laugh by yourself
People will think you are mad and will leave you alone....
That would be much better...
To laugh and to be alone than to be with miserably
petty, mean, vindictive, selfish, cruel, liers, manipulative, insincere people....
Don't you think people like that exist?
You must be aware of that, you especially hang out with them.....
Don't you?
And isn't that also the reason of you being suicidal?
Religion is not the only thing.....its people too....
Much more venomous......
Occupy your evenings
The most important thing for you....
The isolation of the evening is murderous for your psyche
Occupy your evenings.......
The place you live in offers tons of things for the evening
Opera....
Theater....
Music...
Beg or borrow, go to these things....
Begging is better than going insane....
Steal even but go to the opera.....
For three hours you will think of some one else's problems and passions
It will give you a break from your self......
Take a break from yourself
And everything which reminds you of yourself......
Total, complete break for couple of hours every evening from your self
and your troubled thoughts will retrieve your well being......
Call these things your evening job.....
Opera, theater, music, museum.......
That's your evening job....
"I am not available." " Would you not go to your work?"
I mean any body, "Would you not show up for your work?"
Impossible....
You will be fired....
'Go to the theater....six days a week, one night to the cinema.....
Then let me know if you still want to commit suicide or get
admitted in mental institution?"
I am sure you will run far, far away from it....
and if you still are not healed then you are totally insane..........................
GREATEST DISAPPOINTMENT
"SOMETIMES WHEN I REALLY GIVE OF MYSELF
TO SOMEBODY AND THEY DON'T RESPECT THAT.
THAT'S MY LIFE FORCE,MY ENERGY---DON'T TRASH IT." Stephen Jones
...........................
"DUST YOURSELF DOWN AND START ALL OVER AGAIN." Stephen Jones
TO SOMEBODY AND THEY DON'T RESPECT THAT.
THAT'S MY LIFE FORCE,MY ENERGY---DON'T TRASH IT." Stephen Jones
...........................
"DUST YOURSELF DOWN AND START ALL OVER AGAIN." Stephen Jones
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
WHO WROTE WUTHERING HEIGHTS?
WHO WROTE WUTHERING HEIGHTS?
A: Emily Bronte wrote "Wuthering Heights" and Charlotte Bronte
wrote Jane Eyre
B: No, its the opposite, Charlotte wrote, Wuthering Heights and Emily
wrote Jane Eyre...
A: You want to bet
B: Yes.
A: How much?
B: One hundred dollars
A: You just lost one hundred dollars
B: No, I gained $100
A: You are wrong and you always insist on being right
B: I AM RIGHT
A: Thats where your problem lies. You always want to be right
B: But I am right
A: YAH..YAH..YAH. I DON'T READ SO MUCH FOR NOTHING-YOU IMBECILE.
A: Emily Bronte wrote "Wuthering Heights" and Charlotte Bronte
wrote Jane Eyre
B: No, its the opposite, Charlotte wrote, Wuthering Heights and Emily
wrote Jane Eyre...
A: You want to bet
B: Yes.
A: How much?
B: One hundred dollars
A: You just lost one hundred dollars
B: No, I gained $100
A: You are wrong and you always insist on being right
B: I AM RIGHT
A: Thats where your problem lies. You always want to be right
B: But I am right
A: YAH..YAH..YAH. I DON'T READ SO MUCH FOR NOTHING-YOU IMBECILE.
PROPER WAY OF LIFE
PROPER WAY OF LIFE
A SHORT PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
Copyright:binasharif 2013
M: She is with a tall man
N: And?
M: And what?
N: She is with a tall man and what?
M: Nothing else-she is just with a tall man-
N: Not a very interesting story
M: Who said, its a story?
N: I thought you were a story teller
M: You can think of whatever you want....
N: SO WHAT'S THE POINT?
M: Point of what?
N: Point of telling me that,"She is with a tall man."
M: No particular point...just a conversation
N: Thats not a conversation. Thats a statement
M: Alright, thats a statement
N: What's the point of making statements?
M: Just a way of talking
N: Who is talking?
M: I was talking
N: You weren't talking to me
M: i WASN'T...
N: SO WHY SAY,"JUST A WAY OF TALKING?"
M: Just to do something, one has to say something
N: Why say something when one has nothing to say
M: I had something to say
N: Like what?
M: I said,"She is with a tall man."
N: Yes, but information is incomplete
M: Who's information?
N: Your's-
M: I wasn't informing any one-
N: Then why call it information?
M: Just a certain way of talking, keeping busy...
N: That's not a great way of keeping busy
M: What is?
N: Doing something
M: Saying something is doing something
N: Do you know the English language?
M: What do you mean?
N: Do you have any idea of the English language?
M: As much as you do, I guess....
N: No you don't...
M: What is it that I don't know?
N: The English language
M: Ok, teach me
N: "Saying" means "Saying" and ,"Doing" means, "Doing"
M: My sayings are my doings...
N: Thats nonsense
M: NO, ITS VERY IMPORTANT. WHAT EVER YOU SAY,THATS WHO YOU ARE
AND WHO EVER YOU ARE THATS WHAT YOU DO.
N: You are crazy
M: Better to be crazy than so fucking critical. Who are you any way? Get off my back.
You are overwhelmingly negative about whatever I say or do. You always are.
every moment of my life, you are criticl for no reason, get off my back, you monkey.
irritating me with your negativity, killing my impulses all day long....
get off my back otherwise I will stab you, I am so sick of you that I can't breath...
You say one more fucking thing and you are dead...dead...dead. Now shut the
fuck up. Once and for all, shut up, shut up, shut up.
I am sick of your rant and your scratching and clawing my back....
scratching my neck with your venomous claws. You open your mouth
one more time you are dead, and it will be stabbing by a knife...(he lifts up his knife)
I have a knife my sharp kitchen knife, (Shows him the knife) look, how long and
how sharp my knife is.... You dare open your mouth one more time and you are a dead man.
(Raises his knife to stab his own back)
N: Don't be stupid. Don't commit suicide, Just learn proper way of life. Learn the
the English language. Say and do proper things to live properly. I am not at your back.
I am not your monkey. That monkey doesn't exist. I don't exist at least not the monkey
of your back.. You are your own monkey, you want to kill your own monkey, go ahead...
M: (LIFTS UP THE KNIFE AND PIERCES HIS OWN SPINE)
END OF PLAY
A SHORT PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
Copyright:binasharif 2013
M: She is with a tall man
N: And?
M: And what?
N: She is with a tall man and what?
M: Nothing else-she is just with a tall man-
N: Not a very interesting story
M: Who said, its a story?
N: I thought you were a story teller
M: You can think of whatever you want....
N: SO WHAT'S THE POINT?
M: Point of what?
N: Point of telling me that,"She is with a tall man."
M: No particular point...just a conversation
N: Thats not a conversation. Thats a statement
M: Alright, thats a statement
N: What's the point of making statements?
M: Just a way of talking
N: Who is talking?
M: I was talking
N: You weren't talking to me
M: i WASN'T...
N: SO WHY SAY,"JUST A WAY OF TALKING?"
M: Just to do something, one has to say something
N: Why say something when one has nothing to say
M: I had something to say
N: Like what?
M: I said,"She is with a tall man."
N: Yes, but information is incomplete
M: Who's information?
N: Your's-
M: I wasn't informing any one-
N: Then why call it information?
M: Just a certain way of talking, keeping busy...
N: That's not a great way of keeping busy
M: What is?
N: Doing something
M: Saying something is doing something
N: Do you know the English language?
M: What do you mean?
N: Do you have any idea of the English language?
M: As much as you do, I guess....
N: No you don't...
M: What is it that I don't know?
N: The English language
M: Ok, teach me
N: "Saying" means "Saying" and ,"Doing" means, "Doing"
M: My sayings are my doings...
N: Thats nonsense
M: NO, ITS VERY IMPORTANT. WHAT EVER YOU SAY,THATS WHO YOU ARE
AND WHO EVER YOU ARE THATS WHAT YOU DO.
N: You are crazy
M: Better to be crazy than so fucking critical. Who are you any way? Get off my back.
You are overwhelmingly negative about whatever I say or do. You always are.
every moment of my life, you are criticl for no reason, get off my back, you monkey.
irritating me with your negativity, killing my impulses all day long....
get off my back otherwise I will stab you, I am so sick of you that I can't breath...
You say one more fucking thing and you are dead...dead...dead. Now shut the
fuck up. Once and for all, shut up, shut up, shut up.
I am sick of your rant and your scratching and clawing my back....
scratching my neck with your venomous claws. You open your mouth
one more time you are dead, and it will be stabbing by a knife...(he lifts up his knife)
I have a knife my sharp kitchen knife, (Shows him the knife) look, how long and
how sharp my knife is.... You dare open your mouth one more time and you are a dead man.
(Raises his knife to stab his own back)
N: Don't be stupid. Don't commit suicide, Just learn proper way of life. Learn the
the English language. Say and do proper things to live properly. I am not at your back.
I am not your monkey. That monkey doesn't exist. I don't exist at least not the monkey
of your back.. You are your own monkey, you want to kill your own monkey, go ahead...
M: (LIFTS UP THE KNIFE AND PIERCES HIS OWN SPINE)
END OF PLAY
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
MANHATTAN SPLEEN CONTINUES
MANHATTAN SPLEEN
Why must you discontinue what you do love?
What do you love?
I asked you, what do you love?
What do I love?
Yes, what do you love?
.............
It will come
when it will come
why are you waiting for it?
Death I mean.
...............
'Don't do what you say,"You shouldn't do."
'Do what you say,"YOu should do."
'I said,"Don't."
Don't you get it?
No, you don't get it.
I am so mad at you, so mad at you
i COULD KILL YOU.
,,,,,,,,,,,,
A: YOU DON'T KNOW
B: THAT'S THE PROBLEM
A: YOU DON'T KNOW
B: UNBELIEVABLE
A: YES, ITS UNBELIEVABLE
B: YOU DON'T KNOW
A: NEITHER DO YOU
B: WASTE
A: A WASTE OF LIFE
B: EVERY ONE'S?
A: NO.
B: YOUR'S?
A: YOUR'S AND MINE
B: WHY MINE?
A: MINE AND YOUR'S
B: BUT WHY MINE?
A: I CAN ASK THE SAME QUESTION
B: THEN ASK
A:NO POINT
B: NO POINT?
A: YES, NO POINT ASKING
B: ASK ANY WAY
A: I KNOW THE ANSWER, NO POINT ASKING
B: ASK ANY WAY
A: I DON'T WASTE TIME ASKING WHAT I ALREADY KNOW
B: WHAT DO YOU ALREADY KNOW
A: ITS A WASTE
B: WHAT'S A WASTE?
A: LIFE
B:YOURS?
A: YOURS AND MINE
B: NOT MINE, YOUR'S ONLY. I PLAY. I PLAY AT LIFE
A: LIFE DOESN'T LET ANY ONE PLAY WITH IT, LIFE PLAYS WITH US
B: I LIKE THAT. "LIFE PLAYS WITH US." I LIKE THAT
A: LIFE LIKES IT TOO
B: PLAYING WITH US?
A: YES
B: I DON'T MIND. I LIKE PLAYFUL LIFE
A: LIFE IS LAUGHING AT YOU
B: I LIKE THAT ALSO. I LIKE THINGS WHICH LAUGH
A: LIFE IS NOT A THING
B: WHAT IS LIFE THEN?
A: LIFE IS A DANGEROUS OBJECT
B: YOU BEHAVE AS IF ITS A KNIFE
A: YES AND ITS A SHARP KNIFE, IT WILL KILL YOU WHENEVER IT WANTS
B: THEN IT WILL GO TO JAIL
A; NOT EVERY ONE GOES TO JAIL
B: IF YOU KILL YOU GO TO JAIL
A: NOT IN OUR COUNTRY, ZIMMERMAN IS FREE.........WHEN YOU KILL
AN INNOCENT YOU DON'T GO TO JAIL BUT WHEN LIFE KILLS YOU
THEN YOU ARE CERTAINLY GUILTY. GUILTY OF NOT LIVING A GOOD LIFE.
GUILTY OF WASTING LIFE. YOU DIE FOR WASTING LIFE. YOU ARE GUILTY OF
OF THAT.
B: AND ZIMMERMAN?
A: HE IS NOT GUILTY. HE JUST WASTED SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE, NOT HIS OWN...
NOT HIS OWN........
................................
"And what is this?"
"Just a drawing
"Drawing of what? an animal? a human? a fish? a bird. a cockroach? a fly? a rat? an insect, a mouth?
Who knows...and why do you always ask me condescending questions? who are you?
who the hell are you?"
...................
GROW UP
Don't call her
Don't call the other one also
Don't call any one....
What's wrong with you?
No, really tell me, what's wrong with you?
No, really tell me...what the f**k is wrong with you?
GROW UP............
............................
Good start
Bad end
So simplistic...............
...................
FAT, FAT, FAT
FAT ENOUGH?
"YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD TODAY"
"ONLY TODAY?"
"SHAME ON YOU."
"DETERIORATING EVERY YEAR."
.............................
BAD MOOD
E: Write a play
F: Really?
E: yes, write a play
F: You write a play
E: I am not a playwright
F: Neither am I
E: What are you then?
F: I don't know
E: Who knows then?
F: You do-you know. You know everything. Now tell me who am I?
E: Why would I know. Its not my fucking life, Its yours
F: Then leave me the fuck alone
E: Oh! you are in a bad mood...Pretty bad mood...Pretty, Pretty bad mood......
THE END
...........................
Why must you discontinue what you do love?
What do you love?
I asked you, what do you love?
What do I love?
Yes, what do you love?
.............
It will come
when it will come
why are you waiting for it?
Death I mean.
...............
'Don't do what you say,"You shouldn't do."
'Do what you say,"YOu should do."
'I said,"Don't."
Don't you get it?
No, you don't get it.
I am so mad at you, so mad at you
i COULD KILL YOU.
,,,,,,,,,,,,
A: YOU DON'T KNOW
B: THAT'S THE PROBLEM
A: YOU DON'T KNOW
B: UNBELIEVABLE
A: YES, ITS UNBELIEVABLE
B: YOU DON'T KNOW
A: NEITHER DO YOU
B: WASTE
A: A WASTE OF LIFE
B: EVERY ONE'S?
A: NO.
B: YOUR'S?
A: YOUR'S AND MINE
B: WHY MINE?
A: MINE AND YOUR'S
B: BUT WHY MINE?
A: I CAN ASK THE SAME QUESTION
B: THEN ASK
A:NO POINT
B: NO POINT?
A: YES, NO POINT ASKING
B: ASK ANY WAY
A: I KNOW THE ANSWER, NO POINT ASKING
B: ASK ANY WAY
A: I DON'T WASTE TIME ASKING WHAT I ALREADY KNOW
B: WHAT DO YOU ALREADY KNOW
A: ITS A WASTE
B: WHAT'S A WASTE?
A: LIFE
B:YOURS?
A: YOURS AND MINE
B: NOT MINE, YOUR'S ONLY. I PLAY. I PLAY AT LIFE
A: LIFE DOESN'T LET ANY ONE PLAY WITH IT, LIFE PLAYS WITH US
B: I LIKE THAT. "LIFE PLAYS WITH US." I LIKE THAT
A: LIFE LIKES IT TOO
B: PLAYING WITH US?
A: YES
B: I DON'T MIND. I LIKE PLAYFUL LIFE
A: LIFE IS LAUGHING AT YOU
B: I LIKE THAT ALSO. I LIKE THINGS WHICH LAUGH
A: LIFE IS NOT A THING
B: WHAT IS LIFE THEN?
A: LIFE IS A DANGEROUS OBJECT
B: YOU BEHAVE AS IF ITS A KNIFE
A: YES AND ITS A SHARP KNIFE, IT WILL KILL YOU WHENEVER IT WANTS
B: THEN IT WILL GO TO JAIL
A; NOT EVERY ONE GOES TO JAIL
B: IF YOU KILL YOU GO TO JAIL
A: NOT IN OUR COUNTRY, ZIMMERMAN IS FREE.........WHEN YOU KILL
AN INNOCENT YOU DON'T GO TO JAIL BUT WHEN LIFE KILLS YOU
THEN YOU ARE CERTAINLY GUILTY. GUILTY OF NOT LIVING A GOOD LIFE.
GUILTY OF WASTING LIFE. YOU DIE FOR WASTING LIFE. YOU ARE GUILTY OF
OF THAT.
B: AND ZIMMERMAN?
A: HE IS NOT GUILTY. HE JUST WASTED SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE, NOT HIS OWN...
NOT HIS OWN........
................................
"And what is this?"
"Just a drawing
"Drawing of what? an animal? a human? a fish? a bird. a cockroach? a fly? a rat? an insect, a mouth?
Who knows...and why do you always ask me condescending questions? who are you?
who the hell are you?"
...................
GROW UP
Don't call her
Don't call the other one also
Don't call any one....
What's wrong with you?
No, really tell me, what's wrong with you?
No, really tell me...what the f**k is wrong with you?
GROW UP............
............................
Good start
Bad end
So simplistic...............
...................
FAT, FAT, FAT
FAT ENOUGH?
"YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD TODAY"
"ONLY TODAY?"
"SHAME ON YOU."
"DETERIORATING EVERY YEAR."
.............................
BAD MOOD
E: Write a play
F: Really?
E: yes, write a play
F: You write a play
E: I am not a playwright
F: Neither am I
E: What are you then?
F: I don't know
E: Who knows then?
F: You do-you know. You know everything. Now tell me who am I?
E: Why would I know. Its not my fucking life, Its yours
F: Then leave me the fuck alone
E: Oh! you are in a bad mood...Pretty bad mood...Pretty, Pretty bad mood......
THE END
...........................
Monday, July 15, 2013
Friday, July 12, 2013
EXCLUSION OF KARIMA ULLAH
And the exclusion from family?
They can say Karima excluded them...
She left
They had a different life
Children
Grand children
Different attitudes
Their children then moved on
So let it be.....
Karima lost a house
Karima lost companion ship
They decided to put Karima in her place
Maybe she lost
But they also lost....
Every one lost.......
Every one wanted to sweep the loss under the carpet but the
loss kept creeping through and through
Sprouted like rose buds but without the roses
And adorned with thrones
Thousands of them....
They lost
Karima's deep affection
Deep deep affection
Karima's love
Karima also lost their love
But whose fault was it?
They claim it was Karima's fault
All Karima's fault
All of it
That can't be possible
Is it?
Where there are more than two people involved
One is never faultless....
But they claimed vehemently that it was all Karima's fault....
so lets learn from previous mishaps....
Why must Karima be dependent for her happiness and success
on three to four family members and three or four other ass holes?
Four people...'
Is that it?
Three other creeps
Is that it?
Karima's life is becoming pathetic
Pathetic, dependent, helpless, hopeless
Karima is waiting for attention, love, affection,success
But its not coming and its not going to come this way
Only despair is coming
And buckets full of it is coming....
and Karima is all muddy and wet and deep in the slush....
Soon it will be too late for anything
Any hope for sure
Its already so late
So alone, so isolated, so sad.......
Karima has to snap out of it
Snap out of it
Snap out of it
Snap out of it.....
Karima has excluded herself from achievement, happiness,progress,
success, mobility,progress,enjoyment, travels,everyday duties and chores,
everyday activities,self worth.....
Karima has excluded herself from her self worth....
Thats decided
No self worth for Karima
None....
Zero......
Karima has also excluded herself from self liking
From her place of residence, from her body weight, from herself
Exclusion from self love began at her birth....
And that is all because of four or five family members and three or four other non relatives
authority figures?
Can a whole life be destroyed by a few people even important to certain extent?
I guess Karima's whole life was those certain people.....
What a shame!
What a tragedy!
Karima never realized, imagined, that the world is huge and that
huge world also belongs to her like it does to other people...
And some people from the family were not so bad....and the rest should not be
Karima's concern.....
The children of the family members are not Karima's children...
They are other people's children....
Karima never got that....
Karima should have had her own children
But she was too involved in other people's children....
Karima's love for others was abnormal
It was at her own expence
And thats how the exclusion began....
Her exclusion from herself began a long time ago
She did not know it had began
So how could she know that its now completed....
Her exclusion from herself and from the world is now complete...........
Why other people, (People she loved) were more important to her than her own life
But that was her life
Thats how she felt
Though she didn't examine the problem then
For her it was not a problem then'
Its a problem now'
When she feels abandoned by them
Abandoned by herself
Abandoned of everything.......
Abandoned by everything...........
They should have been important to Karima, her loved ones
but not more important that she forgot herself along the way....
Yes, thats what she did....She forgot herself along the way.....
Lost herself completely....
Its unbelievably sad and unfortunate.....
But no one knows about her condition
And Karima doesn't know either what their minds are at or about either.....
Why should Karima care so much at the risk of her every day happiness?
Happiness and everyday function and functioning of the mind in a healthier way.....
Karima's every day function at this moment is of ut most Importance....
Her health
Her house
Her work
Karima's whole pattern of thinking and obligations of love has to change
once and for all....
Obligation?
What a word!
and why it predominates in Karima's psyche?
Obligation of love
Obligation for love
Obligation towards love
Why not obligation towards herself?
Because Karima doesn't love herself
Karima has never loved herself
Karima is incapable of loving herself
End of the story......
But the story hasn't ended yet
The story has to change
Karima has to change her sense of obligation to the loved ones
and the strangers even to the dogs.....
Have to have extremely formal relationships with every one.....
Every one I say....
Do you hear me Karima?
I say every one.....
Including your family Karima....
Thats where it all started
The obligation of love
Thats where it all started......
And be away....
Far away, far far away from every one
far away and cold and polite
But come closer to yourself
Be warm and caring and loving to yourself Karima.....
But far, far away from every one else
Cold, polite and distant....
The secret of success of the Western world and the aeastern world and the capitalistic
society and the ancient society even the animal kingdom....
Stay away......
Not so interested in any one but in your work
Work?
What"s that?
Whatever it is....just be interested in that....
Be not interested in any one else and anything else
Not so very genuinly interested.
Its not the way of the world Karima lives in
and has failed miserably the way Karima created and lived in the
Love...love...world she imagined...
Karima lives at least 40 years behind if not a century behind....
Live in 2013
Not in 1974
Ok?
Ok?
Ok?
Karima say ok, please
Say ok
Say ok Karima......
And Karima's family is right
Why tkeep talking about certain things
Why?
What does Karima get out of it?
Let the world be full of thieves, hoodlums, war mongeres, gossipers, evil, corrupt
mony launderes, cheats, kings, bastards, hustlers....
It doesn't make any difference to Karima's life
Why keep talking about them and the news of the world and countries and faiths and whatever else...
What for?
What does it do for Karima?
Karima should understand that
Why Karima wants to be on the unpopular sid eof things and family ?
Why?
Why Karima why?
Think things,
Belive in things,
But don't say it
Don't discuss it....
Karima already believe in certain things so why discuss it with those who don't?
Why Karima?
Why?
Why are you wasting Karima?
Why are you taking revenge on your self?
Whay have you done that you need to take revenge?
What have you done that you hate yourself so much for?
Karima has no idea who she is trying to convince and whay?
And why should Karima try to convince any one about her own convictions?
If Karima is convinced thats the only thing Karima should settele on.....
Why talk about it to others?
And as far as Karima thinks that her family opinion about her is of a failure
so what?
Why the family's opinion matter so much at this stage otr at any stage of the game?
If Karima thinks she is a failure then its ok
Failure is ok....Karima....
Every one who is born is a, "FAILURE."
Success is only relative....success compared to million other people's success
is not really success either.
These are two words in English language
They have to be used on different people at different times
But Karima if that is your sorrow that your family
thinks that you are a failure....thats very good, very very good....
SEE HOW MUCH THEY THINK OF YOU ACTUALLY....
YOU ARE CONSTANTLY IN THEIR THOUGHTS...
AND IN THE THOUGHTS OF THE REST OF THE WORLD ALSO
BECAUSE KARIMA IS CONVINCED THAT SHE IS A FAILURE
AND THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS IT SO KARIMA IS NOT ACTUALLY EXCLUDED FROM THE WORLD.....
THE WORLD IS THINKING OF KARIMA AS A FAILURE BUT STILL THINKING OF KARIMA.....
DOES THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY KARIMA?
YOU ARE A BIG PART OF THE WORLD.
THEY CAN'T APPRECIATE THEIR SUCCESS WITHOUT THINKING OF YOUR
FAILURES.
ITS YOU KARIMA, ITS YOU WHO CONSTANTLY THINK OF HERSELF AS A FAILURE....
NEITHER FAMILY NOR THE WORLD GIVES A SHIT ABOUT YOU KARIMA...NOT A SHIT......
SO WHY SHOULD YOU GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THE FAMILY OR THE WORLD OR
WHO EVER OR WHATEVER.....
JUST FROM TODAY ON, FROM THIS MOMENT ON GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THE WORLD AND EVERY ONE IN IT AND EVERYTHING IN IT.....
JUST GET UP AND GIVE A SHIT......
AND IF ITS YOUR CHOICE TO EXCLUDE YOURSELF FROM THE SHITTY WORLD AND ITS INHABITANTS THEN DO IT BY ALL MEANS...
BUT DON'T LET IT UPTO THE WORLD AND FAMILY TO GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOU....
YOU GET UP AND GIVE ASHIT ABOUT THEM..............
SO KARIMA EITHER GIVE A SHIT OR STOPP THINKING ABOUT THE SHIT OF OTHERS.....
ACCEPT YOURSELF AS A FAILURE WHO IS SURROUNDED BY SHIT AND GO ON HAPPILY.......AND AMUSE YOURSELF....
KARIMA YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO AMUSE YOUR SELF IN THIS SHITTY WORLD.
Otherwise there is nothing else to be done about it....Enjjoy your failures and your whatever little things called little, little achievements, a little bit, a tiny bit,just a tiny bit...
So enjoy that tiny bit, that little bit that you did like about yoursels or feel that it was a speck of a success......amongst your tremendous failures....
Claim your failures, your mistakes, your failings, your stupidities, your blunders every second and don't
try to prove it to any one otherwise...
Karima, you don't have to prove to any one about success and failure, about love or hate, about
slim or fat, about young or old, about this country or that, about cultures, you don't have to talk about any of these things and don't talk about family and the world and success and failure....
Do not talk about it to any body........
And you will be very happy....
In order to be happy, to be peaceful Karima you have to learn to be alone and happy and do
your work....FOUR THINGS ARE REQUIRED OF YOU.
LOVE YOURSELF
BE HAPPY
BE ALONE
DO YOUR WORK
YOU YOURSELF EXCLUDE YOURSELF FROM EVERYTHING
DON'T GIVE ANY ONE THE POWER TO EXCLUDE YOU
KARIMA, YOU EXCLUDE THE DANGEROUS ELEMENTS FROM YOUR HAPPINESS....
AND TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH KARIMA NONE OF THIS ,"EXCLUSION " FROM
THE WORLD AND FAMILY EXISTS .....
THESE ARE ALL SELF CREATED MYTHS, FICTIONS.AND STORIES YOU
WROTE YOUR SELF
WHATS REAL IS YOU KARIMA
YOU KARIMA...YOU ARE REAL YOU ARE NOT A WORK OF FICTION
YOU ARE NOT A STORY CREATED BY YOU
YOU EXIST.....
TRY TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THAT.
TRY TO BE FUNCTIONAL
TRY TO BE HAPPY
TRY TO BE THANKFUL
TRY TO AMUSE YOURSELF
DON'T TAKE KARIMA SO SERIOUSLY
AND DON'T TAKE THE WORLD AND THE FAMILY SERIOUSLY
YOU, YOU KARIMA, NEEDS TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY
BUT NOT SO SERIOUSLY THAT YOU WILL FORGET TO LAUGH, AND LAUGH LOUD...
YOU KARIMA EXCLUDE YOURSELF FROM THE WORLD AND DO YOUR WORK....
WORK?
WHAT WORK>
FIGURE THAT OUT....
THATS THE ONLY PROBLEM YOU HAVE KARIMA
THE ONLY PROBLEM
YOU HAVE EXCLUDED YOURSELF FROM YOUR WORK.............................
Ok?
And the exclusion from family?
They can say Karima excluded them...
She left
They had a different life
Children
Grand children
Different attitudes
Their children then moved on
So let it be.....
Karima lost a house
Karima lost companion ship
They decided to put Karima in her place
Maybe she lost
But they also lost....
Every one lost.......
Every one wanted to sweep the loss under the carpet but the
loss kept creeping through and through
Sprouted like rose buds but without the roses
And adorned with thrones
Thousands of them....
They lost
Karima's deep affection
Deep deep affection
Karima's love
Karima also lost their love
But whose fault was it?
They claim it was Karima's fault
All Karima's fault
All of it
That can't be possible
Is it?
Where there are more than two people involved
One is never faultless....
But they claimed vehemently that it was all Karima's fault....
so lets learn from previous mishaps....
Why must Karima be dependent for her happiness and success
on three to four family members and three or four other ass holes?
Four people...'
Is that it?
Three other creeps
Is that it?
Karima's life is becoming pathetic
Pathetic, dependent, helpless, hopeless
Karima is waiting for attention, love, affection,success
But its not coming and its not going to come this way
Only despair is coming
And buckets full of it is coming....
and Karima is all muddy and wet and deep in the slush....
Soon it will be too late for anything
Any hope for sure
Its already so late
So alone, so isolated, so sad.......
Karima has to snap out of it
Snap out of it
Snap out of it
Snap out of it.....
Karima has excluded herself from achievement, happiness,progress,
success, mobility,progress,enjoyment, travels,everyday duties and chores,
everyday activities,self worth.....
Karima has excluded herself from her self worth....
Thats decided
No self worth for Karima
None....
Zero......
Karima has also excluded herself from self liking
From her place of residence, from her body weight, from herself
Exclusion from self love began at her birth....
And that is all because of four or five family members and three or four other non relatives
authority figures?
Can a whole life be destroyed by a few people even important to certain extent?
I guess Karima's whole life was those certain people.....
What a shame!
What a tragedy!
Karima never realized, imagined, that the world is huge and that
huge world also belongs to her like it does to other people...
And some people from the family were not so bad....and the rest should not be
Karima's concern.....
The children of the family members are not Karima's children...
They are other people's children....
Karima never got that....
Karima should have had her own children
But she was too involved in other people's children....
Karima's love for others was abnormal
It was at her own expence
And thats how the exclusion began....
Her exclusion from herself began a long time ago
She did not know it had began
So how could she know that its now completed....
Her exclusion from herself and from the world is now complete...........
Why other people, (People she loved) were more important to her than her own life
But that was her life
Thats how she felt
Though she didn't examine the problem then
For her it was not a problem then'
Its a problem now'
When she feels abandoned by them
Abandoned by herself
Abandoned of everything.......
Abandoned by everything...........
They should have been important to Karima, her loved ones
but not more important that she forgot herself along the way....
Yes, thats what she did....She forgot herself along the way.....
Lost herself completely....
Its unbelievably sad and unfortunate.....
But no one knows about her condition
And Karima doesn't know either what their minds are at or about either.....
Why should Karima care so much at the risk of her every day happiness?
Happiness and everyday function and functioning of the mind in a healthier way.....
Karima's every day function at this moment is of ut most Importance....
Her health
Her house
Her work
Karima's whole pattern of thinking and obligations of love has to change
once and for all....
Obligation?
What a word!
and why it predominates in Karima's psyche?
Obligation of love
Obligation for love
Obligation towards love
Why not obligation towards herself?
Because Karima doesn't love herself
Karima has never loved herself
Karima is incapable of loving herself
End of the story......
But the story hasn't ended yet
The story has to change
Karima has to change her sense of obligation to the loved ones
and the strangers even to the dogs.....
Have to have extremely formal relationships with every one.....
Every one I say....
Do you hear me Karima?
I say every one.....
Including your family Karima....
Thats where it all started
The obligation of love
Thats where it all started......
And be away....
Far away, far far away from every one
far away and cold and polite
But come closer to yourself
Be warm and caring and loving to yourself Karima.....
But far, far away from every one else
Cold, polite and distant....
The secret of success of the Western world and the aeastern world and the capitalistic
society and the ancient society even the animal kingdom....
Stay away......
Not so interested in any one but in your work
Work?
What"s that?
Whatever it is....just be interested in that....
Be not interested in any one else and anything else
Not so very genuinly interested.
Its not the way of the world Karima lives in
and has failed miserably the way Karima created and lived in the
Love...love...world she imagined...
Karima lives at least 40 years behind if not a century behind....
Live in 2013
Not in 1974
Ok?
Ok?
Ok?
Karima say ok, please
Say ok
Say ok Karima......
And Karima's family is right
Why tkeep talking about certain things
Why?
What does Karima get out of it?
Let the world be full of thieves, hoodlums, war mongeres, gossipers, evil, corrupt
mony launderes, cheats, kings, bastards, hustlers....
It doesn't make any difference to Karima's life
Why keep talking about them and the news of the world and countries and faiths and whatever else...
What for?
What does it do for Karima?
Karima should understand that
Why Karima wants to be on the unpopular sid eof things and family ?
Why?
Why Karima why?
Think things,
Belive in things,
But don't say it
Don't discuss it....
Karima already believe in certain things so why discuss it with those who don't?
Why Karima?
Why?
Why are you wasting Karima?
Why are you taking revenge on your self?
Whay have you done that you need to take revenge?
What have you done that you hate yourself so much for?
Karima has no idea who she is trying to convince and whay?
And why should Karima try to convince any one about her own convictions?
If Karima is convinced thats the only thing Karima should settele on.....
Why talk about it to others?
And as far as Karima thinks that her family opinion about her is of a failure
so what?
Why the family's opinion matter so much at this stage otr at any stage of the game?
If Karima thinks she is a failure then its ok
Failure is ok....Karima....
Every one who is born is a, "FAILURE."
Success is only relative....success compared to million other people's success
is not really success either.
These are two words in English language
They have to be used on different people at different times
But Karima if that is your sorrow that your family
thinks that you are a failure....thats very good, very very good....
SEE HOW MUCH THEY THINK OF YOU ACTUALLY....
YOU ARE CONSTANTLY IN THEIR THOUGHTS...
AND IN THE THOUGHTS OF THE REST OF THE WORLD ALSO
BECAUSE KARIMA IS CONVINCED THAT SHE IS A FAILURE
AND THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS IT SO KARIMA IS NOT ACTUALLY EXCLUDED FROM THE WORLD.....
THE WORLD IS THINKING OF KARIMA AS A FAILURE BUT STILL THINKING OF KARIMA.....
DOES THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY KARIMA?
YOU ARE A BIG PART OF THE WORLD.
THEY CAN'T APPRECIATE THEIR SUCCESS WITHOUT THINKING OF YOUR
FAILURES.
ITS YOU KARIMA, ITS YOU WHO CONSTANTLY THINK OF HERSELF AS A FAILURE....
NEITHER FAMILY NOR THE WORLD GIVES A SHIT ABOUT YOU KARIMA...NOT A SHIT......
SO WHY SHOULD YOU GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THE FAMILY OR THE WORLD OR
WHO EVER OR WHATEVER.....
JUST FROM TODAY ON, FROM THIS MOMENT ON GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THE WORLD AND EVERY ONE IN IT AND EVERYTHING IN IT.....
JUST GET UP AND GIVE A SHIT......
AND IF ITS YOUR CHOICE TO EXCLUDE YOURSELF FROM THE SHITTY WORLD AND ITS INHABITANTS THEN DO IT BY ALL MEANS...
BUT DON'T LET IT UPTO THE WORLD AND FAMILY TO GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOU....
YOU GET UP AND GIVE ASHIT ABOUT THEM..............
SO KARIMA EITHER GIVE A SHIT OR STOPP THINKING ABOUT THE SHIT OF OTHERS.....
ACCEPT YOURSELF AS A FAILURE WHO IS SURROUNDED BY SHIT AND GO ON HAPPILY.......AND AMUSE YOURSELF....
KARIMA YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO AMUSE YOUR SELF IN THIS SHITTY WORLD.
Otherwise there is nothing else to be done about it....Enjjoy your failures and your whatever little things called little, little achievements, a little bit, a tiny bit,just a tiny bit...
So enjoy that tiny bit, that little bit that you did like about yoursels or feel that it was a speck of a success......amongst your tremendous failures....
Claim your failures, your mistakes, your failings, your stupidities, your blunders every second and don't
try to prove it to any one otherwise...
Karima, you don't have to prove to any one about success and failure, about love or hate, about
slim or fat, about young or old, about this country or that, about cultures, you don't have to talk about any of these things and don't talk about family and the world and success and failure....
Do not talk about it to any body........
And you will be very happy....
In order to be happy, to be peaceful Karima you have to learn to be alone and happy and do
your work....FOUR THINGS ARE REQUIRED OF YOU.
LOVE YOURSELF
BE HAPPY
BE ALONE
DO YOUR WORK
YOU YOURSELF EXCLUDE YOURSELF FROM EVERYTHING
DON'T GIVE ANY ONE THE POWER TO EXCLUDE YOU
KARIMA, YOU EXCLUDE THE DANGEROUS ELEMENTS FROM YOUR HAPPINESS....
AND TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH KARIMA NONE OF THIS ,"EXCLUSION " FROM
THE WORLD AND FAMILY EXISTS .....
THESE ARE ALL SELF CREATED MYTHS, FICTIONS.AND STORIES YOU
WROTE YOUR SELF
WHATS REAL IS YOU KARIMA
YOU KARIMA...YOU ARE REAL YOU ARE NOT A WORK OF FICTION
YOU ARE NOT A STORY CREATED BY YOU
YOU EXIST.....
TRY TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THAT.
TRY TO BE FUNCTIONAL
TRY TO BE HAPPY
TRY TO BE THANKFUL
TRY TO AMUSE YOURSELF
DON'T TAKE KARIMA SO SERIOUSLY
AND DON'T TAKE THE WORLD AND THE FAMILY SERIOUSLY
YOU, YOU KARIMA, NEEDS TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY
BUT NOT SO SERIOUSLY THAT YOU WILL FORGET TO LAUGH, AND LAUGH LOUD...
YOU KARIMA EXCLUDE YOURSELF FROM THE WORLD AND DO YOUR WORK....
WORK?
WHAT WORK>
FIGURE THAT OUT....
THATS THE ONLY PROBLEM YOU HAVE KARIMA
THE ONLY PROBLEM
YOU HAVE EXCLUDED YOURSELF FROM YOUR WORK.............................
Ok?
Monday, July 8, 2013
WHAT A STORY
WHAT A STORY!
Always the same ending
Never the same beginning
But always the same ending
Why?
I don't know
Who knows
I don't know
Then who knows?
I don't know
But I do know one thing
Its always the same ending
Different beginnings
And the same endings
The revolutions
The occupations
The colonizations
Always the same ending
Different beginnings
But always the same ending
Colonization.................
Always the same ending
Never the same beginning
But always the same ending
Why?
I don't know
Who knows
I don't know
Then who knows?
I don't know
But I do know one thing
Its always the same ending
Different beginnings
And the same endings
The revolutions
The occupations
The colonizations
Always the same ending
Different beginnings
But always the same ending
Colonization.................
LOW LIVES
Be ware of low lives
they are all around you
Keep your mouth tightly shut.
.......
KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT
A NEW PLAY
BY BINA SHARIF
.......
i TOUCHED THE NEST OF THE BEES.
.......
MISUNDERSTANDING
You have a lot of misunderstanding about yourself.
People get hurt
Just don't go too near people.
Expect nothing.
Do your work..
......
No, no non actors ever
And no confrontations.
No, no non actors
no matter what.
No jhgra....no, no jhgra...
Your power is in knowing
and not telling them that you know their dirty schemes.
Let them plan
Let them whisper
Let them back bite
But no confrontation.....None.....
.......
MARRIAGE
Her marriage to him is the next step
but it should not worry you.
.......
He is a ghunda
Be afraid
So you lost
So I lost
So we all lost
He is a ghunda
Be afraid
.....
PUT HER IN HER PLACE.
I lost a house
I lost companionship
They put you in your place
they decided to put you in your place....
Which one is my place though?
When they decided to put me in my place
which place did they put me in?
The lost house?
Or their house?
Or my apt?
I guess my apt
So they decided to put me in my apt
Good....
Now I am in my apt
Thats where I should be staying
Why not?
Its your apt
Its my apt actually
so stay in your apt
Why are you rushing about with a suitcase and air flights
and dollars spent on those air flights
and those hours
so many, many, many hours...
they put you in your place
they did you a big favor....
now stay there....
turn the air condioner on and stay cool.
No air conditioner?
Buy one
From the dollars you were spending on the air flights
Stay in your apt and cool off
Its awfully hot everywhere..............................
Thank them for the favor
For putting you in your place.
Be ware of low lives
they are all around you
Keep your mouth tightly shut.
.......
KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT
A NEW PLAY
BY BINA SHARIF
.......
i TOUCHED THE NEST OF THE BEES.
.......
MISUNDERSTANDING
You have a lot of misunderstanding about yourself.
People get hurt
Just don't go too near people.
Expect nothing.
Do your work..
......
No, no non actors ever
And no confrontations.
No, no non actors
no matter what.
No jhgra....no, no jhgra...
Your power is in knowing
and not telling them that you know their dirty schemes.
Let them plan
Let them whisper
Let them back bite
But no confrontation.....None.....
.......
MARRIAGE
Her marriage to him is the next step
but it should not worry you.
.......
He is a ghunda
Be afraid
So you lost
So I lost
So we all lost
He is a ghunda
Be afraid
.....
PUT HER IN HER PLACE.
I lost a house
I lost companionship
They put you in your place
they decided to put you in your place....
Which one is my place though?
When they decided to put me in my place
which place did they put me in?
The lost house?
Or their house?
Or my apt?
I guess my apt
So they decided to put me in my apt
Good....
Now I am in my apt
Thats where I should be staying
Why not?
Its your apt
Its my apt actually
so stay in your apt
Why are you rushing about with a suitcase and air flights
and dollars spent on those air flights
and those hours
so many, many, many hours...
they put you in your place
they did you a big favor....
now stay there....
turn the air condioner on and stay cool.
No air conditioner?
Buy one
From the dollars you were spending on the air flights
Stay in your apt and cool off
Its awfully hot everywhere..............................
Thank them for the favor
For putting you in your place.
Menagerie of Words
"Birth
is painful
because of
the unexpected
blood and bruising
the bruised ego
falls hard
from the tree of life
and then there
laughter rises
filling the stinky air." Poonam Srivastava
"Stream of consciousness is the dream and the nightmare which haunts the great grand daughter of my ancestors in this snowy and slushy land." Bina Sharif
Disappearance of me
I arrive to my country to disappear. I don't actually arrive to disappear but the country makes me.
First the men of that country makes me disappear, then the women, then the roads, then the streets, then the lights, then the darkness, then, next day I shout," I am here, I am here, I came from so far away to appear, appear amongst you my people to enjoy, to converse, to participate, to argue, to fight, to analyse, to be part of the table where we used to sit and eat, to be part of the tea party in the garden with jasmin smell and narges key phool. But they make me disappear the moment I appear.
When I come back, some of the New Yorkers say to me, " where were you ? you disappeared."
"yes," I say to them. "Yes, I went away."
"where? " they ask
"I went home." I say
"oh1 how nice." They say
"yes, very nice." I say. "yes, it was very nice."
SAY ALL...DO NONE
Same story
old and stale
Repeated hundereds of times
The same sameness...
Needs a bath
Has a smell of a smell of not washing, never washing
Get up and do it...
Easy said, then done
The paralysis of will
For small small things
Can't get up
Can't do it
Can't be dpne
Ok
Thats fair
Then don't say it
Same story
old and stale
Repeated hundereds of times
The same sameness...
Needs a bath
Has a smell of a smell of not washing, never washing
Get up and do it...
Easy said, then done
The paralysis of will
For small small things
Can't get up
Can't do it
Can't be dpne
Ok
Thats fair
Then don't say it
ONCE UPON A TIME
Once upon a time
A Poet came upon a flock of colorful birds
He was Fascinated by them
He was all alone by himself on the top of a heath.
There was no one else except him, his notebook, and a pencil
With which he was writing something as he wandered around the heath,
contemplating some deep thoughts about the meaning of things, the universe, the sky, the grass, the birth, morality, honesty, brutality, cunningness, nothingness, death, rebirth and about many other philosophical questions and no answers when out of no where he heard some chirping......
There was no one there but him
And then suddenly they came,
A flock of colorful birds chirping...............
Though he didn't speak their language
He understood their songs
In a big hurry, he scribbled their songs in the notebook
Fearing that the birds will fly away and never come back..........
These are some of the songs from the dead poet's notebook.
"YOU"
We are not the masters of our lives but the slaves of Un-predictable
and uncontrollable events. But we are also not the slaves of other men.
Whatever we may do we do it by own choice. We may blame others,(which we often do)
for our actions but others have nothing to do with what we actually end up doing.
So if we make a choice to be kind or generous
we can't blame and insult the one to whom we have been generous towards.
We may regret our choices. We may yell and scream with
Un-reasonable fury and rage at others but no one forces us to do
anything we don't want to do.
We do everything because of us. So none of us can blame
any one for our own choices. We need to take the full responsibility
and blame for our choices.
We can't even blame any one else for their cruel,insulting and hurtful words.
Any one who unfortunately uttered them will bear the burden.
Its not that,"YOU" disrespected me or disrespected the word,"Friendship"
'YOU' also disrespected yourself.
For the sake of my own grace and dignity and integrity I never ever snapped at you
while you often did.
Even when I paid you a compliment sometimes you snapped at me
trying always to misunderstand me or to control me.
I remember "YOU" snapped at me while I was at the bottom of your staircase
of your building where I always came to yo you.................
Spending hours upon hours of my valuable,"TIME" giving you company
Loving you, sharing my intelligence, my conversation, my knowledge
of all sorts of things and played and laughed with your child
but you still in your moments of mood swings which wanted some kind of
power over the other,(Which I never really understood then)
snapped at me. Whatever any one else said which displeased you the least
you would not wait but say something not so pleasant but when other people
were in bad moods and said something to, "YOU" "YOU" couldn't handle it.
You snapped not only at your workers at your store but many times
at
MANHATTAN SPLEEN
MANHATTAN SPLEEN
ITS ASHAME
WE LISTEN TO NO ONE
WE KEEP MAKING MISTAKES
WE LISTEN TO NO ONE
.....................
INNER CORE OF HUMAN EXISTENCE IS TO WRITE.
ITS ALSO A WAY OF COPING WITH A LIFE THAT WOULD OTHERWISE
SEEM INTOLERABLY DULL." Annonymous
.............
EVERYTHING SPIRALS OUT OF SELF CONTEMPLATION,
AND THOUGH HE HATED EVERY SENTENCE HE-DECIDED TO PERSIST."
Annonymus.
...........
"Unhappiness is the lack of what wee desire."
..............
"Inner core of human existence"
'Struggle to cope with death."
'Struggle to cope with life."
................
"The first condition of success is to forget
one's vanity"
...........
Uniqueness of fine minds is that they can make something out of nothing."
.............
"NOTHING IS ALTOGETHER ONE THING OR THE OTHER."
...............
FEAR
ITS ASHAME
WE LISTEN TO NO ONE
WE KEEP MAKING MISTAKES
WE LISTEN TO NO ONE
.....................
INNER CORE OF HUMAN EXISTENCE IS TO WRITE.
ITS ALSO A WAY OF COPING WITH A LIFE THAT WOULD OTHERWISE
SEEM INTOLERABLY DULL." Annonymous
.............
EVERYTHING SPIRALS OUT OF SELF CONTEMPLATION,
AND THOUGH HE HATED EVERY SENTENCE HE-DECIDED TO PERSIST."
Annonymus.
...........
"Unhappiness is the lack of what wee desire."
..............
"Inner core of human existence"
'Struggle to cope with death."
'Struggle to cope with life."
................
"The first condition of success is to forget
one's vanity"
...........
Uniqueness of fine minds is that they can make something out of nothing."
.............
"NOTHING IS ALTOGETHER ONE THING OR THE OTHER."
...............
FEAR
RAMBLER
RAMBLER
"To live diplomatically with all kinds of people including
loved ones and relatives:
"One praised all that might be praised and one excused all that might be blamed."
'Popularity brings boldness of judgement." ?
"She lent some of her own character to her friends without realizing it."
"Often by a charming sleigh of hand, a person's defects
were transformed into virtues."?
LOVE, NEVER ENDING, DISTURBING LOVE
I loved all of them more than they were able to love me,
I guess I was more able in love and generosity os spirit.
But Deedi did love me and my parents too.
Ar was also very loving
Cuk was just too spoiled
S was less loving because of many other circumstances and
faults of my own
N said, "That she loved but who knows. It was mixture of gossip
and back biting.
H loved but did not express much.
So they did love you. most of them.
So your hurt is more from her C?
I guess so.....
But they have no obligation to love you...
They are not of your parent's born.
It would have been nice but its not the case any more.
They are some one else's children.
Just accept it. and just be decent and and polite about it
and with them and with yourself too.
Thats how you have to be from now on.
Expect nothing from no one actually...............
...............
"Without realizing it, I acquired a sharp
contempt for everything."
......
'Leave them alone....
These three sisters.
If they contact you, you contact them back.
Be polite, decent, un-complaining.....
....
"All my future was a smile of approval on any one's lips
starting with my family--transferring to the approval of establishment." BS
....
"My future was not mine.
It was others.
It entirely belonged to others approval." BS
.......
'I had no goal in life-no plan,
so I allowed my thoughts to wander where they would."
.......
'Extensive reading exercises my imagination."
MY MISTAKEN VIEW OF EXISTENCE
"THAT SOME ONE, MY LOVED ONES (FAMILY)
WOULD FIND A WAY TO MAKE ME HAPPY
AND IN THE NEW WORLD SOME AUTHORITY
WOULD APPROVE OF ME AND MAKE
ME HAPPY." BS
.......
ACCOMPLISHMENT
I have the sense and accomplishment of love, grief,
despair in me but not of triumph. BS
.....
'She was a source of amusement for the rich. She was always a comedian."
......"A chance heard conversation dropped the scales
from my eyes." ?????
.....
"Maybe she will rise above her fate." From Urika
.....
'She has entered society without its permission." Urika
.....
"Its too much to think about the past and its effects on my
present and my future." BS
"To live diplomatically with all kinds of people including
loved ones and relatives:
"One praised all that might be praised and one excused all that might be blamed."
'Popularity brings boldness of judgement." ?
"She lent some of her own character to her friends without realizing it."
"Often by a charming sleigh of hand, a person's defects
were transformed into virtues."?
LOVE, NEVER ENDING, DISTURBING LOVE
I loved all of them more than they were able to love me,
I guess I was more able in love and generosity os spirit.
But Deedi did love me and my parents too.
Ar was also very loving
Cuk was just too spoiled
S was less loving because of many other circumstances and
faults of my own
N said, "That she loved but who knows. It was mixture of gossip
and back biting.
H loved but did not express much.
So they did love you. most of them.
So your hurt is more from her C?
I guess so.....
But they have no obligation to love you...
They are not of your parent's born.
It would have been nice but its not the case any more.
They are some one else's children.
Just accept it. and just be decent and and polite about it
and with them and with yourself too.
Thats how you have to be from now on.
Expect nothing from no one actually...............
...............
"Without realizing it, I acquired a sharp
contempt for everything."
......
'Leave them alone....
These three sisters.
If they contact you, you contact them back.
Be polite, decent, un-complaining.....
....
"All my future was a smile of approval on any one's lips
starting with my family--transferring to the approval of establishment." BS
....
"My future was not mine.
It was others.
It entirely belonged to others approval." BS
.......
'I had no goal in life-no plan,
so I allowed my thoughts to wander where they would."
.......
'Extensive reading exercises my imagination."
MY MISTAKEN VIEW OF EXISTENCE
"THAT SOME ONE, MY LOVED ONES (FAMILY)
WOULD FIND A WAY TO MAKE ME HAPPY
AND IN THE NEW WORLD SOME AUTHORITY
WOULD APPROVE OF ME AND MAKE
ME HAPPY." BS
.......
ACCOMPLISHMENT
I have the sense and accomplishment of love, grief,
despair in me but not of triumph. BS
.....
'She was a source of amusement for the rich. She was always a comedian."
......"A chance heard conversation dropped the scales
from my eyes." ?????
.....
"Maybe she will rise above her fate." From Urika
.....
'She has entered society without its permission." Urika
.....
"Its too much to think about the past and its effects on my
present and my future." BS
Sunday, July 7, 2013
iDLER
IDELER
"But does understanding bring happiness?"
"I suspect the reverse is true."
"The privileges of knowledge have to be bought
at the cost of consolations of ignorance."
'I MUST NOT CRY."
BY
BINA SHARIF
"TRY TO GET AS CLOSE TO MY LIFE AS POSSIBLE"?
We have nothing
We have no one
We only have ourselves
And we don't take care of the only thing we do have ourselves.
Nothing else counts
Only you and only me....
Had a perfect weekend
Can't complain now
Near perfection weekend
Oh! gee can't complain now.
Its a shame
We listen to no one
We keep making mistakes
We listen to no one.
"Inner core of human existence is to write!
Its also a way of coping with a life that would otherwise
seem intolerably dull."?
"Everything spirals out from minute self contemplation
and though he hated every sentence he--decided to persist"?
'Shape the banal into something worth remembering"?
"Beautifully rendered---sometime painfully observant."?
"Unhappiness is the lack of what we desire." ?
"The first condition of success is to forget
ones own vanity." ?
"The uniqueness of fine minds is that they can make something
out of nothing." ?
'MY HEAD IS MY RESIDENCE
BY
BINA SHARIF
"NOTHING IS ALTOGETHER ONE THING
OR THE OTHER."
DEHYDRATION
Too much
Far too much...
Worries
Unknown worries
of unknown nature
Struggling to find a solution
in the midst of heat
heat, tremendous heat
and water?
No water
No water available
Dehydration
And coffee
Strong espresso
coffee
in the geat
during the heat
amongst the heat
strong espresso coffee
and no water
No water to drink
No water bottle
Not like the fancy folks
Carrying a bottle every where
During the bicycle ride
During the gym
During sex
Fancy folks can't be dehydrated
Under any circumstances
I SHOULD GO
GO TO THE CAFE
WHAT FOR?
COFFEE
SO HOT
WHAT?
SO HOT
THE COFFEE?
COFFEE TOO
WHAT ELSE?
THE HEAT
SO HOT
WHAT?
THE HEAT
hEAT IS SO HOT?
BAD COMPOSITION
WHAT?
BAD SENTENCE
WHICH ONE?
HEAT IS SO HOT
YES, IT IS
THE HEAT IS SO HOT
THE HEAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE HOT
YES, I KNOW
WHAT DO YOU KNOW?
THAT HEAT IS SO HOT
THAT IS TRUE
HEAT IS ALWAYS HOT
HEAT IS NOT THE ICE
ONLY THE ICE IS COLD
HEAT IS HOT
YES, I KNOW
BUT THIS HEAT IS TOO HOT
I FAINTED YESTERDAY
AND FEEL LIKE FAINTING TODAY
SO FAINT
GO AHEAD AND FAINT
WHAT IS IT TO YOU IF i FAINT?
NOTHING
nOTHING REALLY
SO?
SO?
WHAT DO YOU CARE IF i FAINT OR NOT
TRUE
TRUE WHAT?
I DON'T CARE
DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT?
WHETHER YOU FAINT OR NOT
THATS NOT VERY GOOD FRIEND
WHO SIAD i AM YOUR FRIEND?
I THOUGHT...
YOU CAN THINK WHATEVER YOU WANT TO THINK
ARN'T YOU MY FRIENDS?
WHO?
YOU
I DON'T KNOOW
YOU DON'T KNOW IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND OR NOT?
NO i DON'T AND NO ONE ELSE KNOWS IT EITHER
WHY SHOULD ANY ONE ELSE KNOW?
THEY ARE NOT MY FRIENDS
NEITHER AM i
I THOUGHT YOU WERE
NO i AM NOT AND NO ONE ELSE IS
NO ONE ELSE IS YOUR FRIEND EITHER
YOU ARE CRUEL
AND WHY NOT?
YOU SHOULDN'T BEWHO SAID SO?
YOU KNOW YOU SHOULDN'T BE CRUEL TO YOUR FRIENDS
BUT I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND
I THOUGHT SO
CORRECT YOUR THOUGHTS
THATS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM
YOUR THOUGHTS
CORRECT THEM
THEN YOU WILL KNOW THAT NO ONE IS YOUR FRIEND
NO ONE IS ANY ONE'S FRIEND
NO ONE HAS ANY FRIENDS
WE ARE NOT FRIENDS
WE HAVE NO FRIENDS
YOU ESPECIALLY
BECAUSE YOU WANT IT
YOU WANT IT SO BADLY
YOU SHOW YOUR DESIRE
YOUR DESPERATE DESIRE
AND DESPERATION SHUNS PEOPLE OFF
SHOW NO PASSION, NO NEED, NO DESIRE, NO DESPERATION
AND PEOPLE WILL COME RUNNING TO YOU
ONLY THEN YOU WILL HAVE TONS OF FRIENDS
STOP WANTING THINGS
STOP WANTING PEOPLE
STOP WANTING
STOP
JUST STOP
NOW I NEED TO GO
AND WHERE IS MY CHECK?
YOUR CHECK?
I AM YOUR THERAPIST
YOU ARE MY FRIEND
THATS YOUR MISTAKE
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND
YOU HAVE TO PAY ME FOR MY ADVICE
AND I JUST GAVE YOU ADVICE
WHAT ADVICE?
THAT YOU HAVE NO FRIENDS AND YOU WILL NEVER HAVE FRIENDS
SOME ADVICE
BUT IF YOU KEEP PAYING ME YOU WILL EVENTUALLY HAVE FRIENDS
I WILL HEAL YOU
THATS WHAT PROFESSIONALS DO
HEAL YOU OF AILMENTS
AND LACK OF FRIENDSHIP IS AN AILMENT
AND WANTING FRIENDS IS A BIGGER AILMENT
GET RID OF THE WANT
AND I NEED TO GET GOING
CHECK PLEASE.................
"But does understanding bring happiness?"
"I suspect the reverse is true."
"The privileges of knowledge have to be bought
at the cost of consolations of ignorance."
'I MUST NOT CRY."
BY
BINA SHARIF
"TRY TO GET AS CLOSE TO MY LIFE AS POSSIBLE"?
We have nothing
We have no one
We only have ourselves
And we don't take care of the only thing we do have ourselves.
Nothing else counts
Only you and only me....
Had a perfect weekend
Can't complain now
Near perfection weekend
Oh! gee can't complain now.
Its a shame
We listen to no one
We keep making mistakes
We listen to no one.
"Inner core of human existence is to write!
Its also a way of coping with a life that would otherwise
seem intolerably dull."?
"Everything spirals out from minute self contemplation
and though he hated every sentence he--decided to persist"?
'Shape the banal into something worth remembering"?
"Beautifully rendered---sometime painfully observant."?
"Unhappiness is the lack of what we desire." ?
"The first condition of success is to forget
ones own vanity." ?
"The uniqueness of fine minds is that they can make something
out of nothing." ?
'MY HEAD IS MY RESIDENCE
BY
BINA SHARIF
"NOTHING IS ALTOGETHER ONE THING
OR THE OTHER."
DEHYDRATION
Too much
Far too much...
Worries
Unknown worries
of unknown nature
Struggling to find a solution
in the midst of heat
heat, tremendous heat
and water?
No water
No water available
Dehydration
And coffee
Strong espresso
coffee
in the geat
during the heat
amongst the heat
strong espresso coffee
and no water
No water to drink
No water bottle
Not like the fancy folks
Carrying a bottle every where
During the bicycle ride
During the gym
During sex
Fancy folks can't be dehydrated
Under any circumstances
I SHOULD GO
GO TO THE CAFE
WHAT FOR?
COFFEE
SO HOT
WHAT?
SO HOT
THE COFFEE?
COFFEE TOO
WHAT ELSE?
THE HEAT
SO HOT
WHAT?
THE HEAT
hEAT IS SO HOT?
BAD COMPOSITION
WHAT?
BAD SENTENCE
WHICH ONE?
HEAT IS SO HOT
YES, IT IS
THE HEAT IS SO HOT
THE HEAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE HOT
YES, I KNOW
WHAT DO YOU KNOW?
THAT HEAT IS SO HOT
THAT IS TRUE
HEAT IS ALWAYS HOT
HEAT IS NOT THE ICE
ONLY THE ICE IS COLD
HEAT IS HOT
YES, I KNOW
BUT THIS HEAT IS TOO HOT
I FAINTED YESTERDAY
AND FEEL LIKE FAINTING TODAY
SO FAINT
GO AHEAD AND FAINT
WHAT IS IT TO YOU IF i FAINT?
NOTHING
nOTHING REALLY
SO?
SO?
WHAT DO YOU CARE IF i FAINT OR NOT
TRUE
TRUE WHAT?
I DON'T CARE
DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT?
WHETHER YOU FAINT OR NOT
THATS NOT VERY GOOD FRIEND
WHO SIAD i AM YOUR FRIEND?
I THOUGHT...
YOU CAN THINK WHATEVER YOU WANT TO THINK
ARN'T YOU MY FRIENDS?
WHO?
YOU
I DON'T KNOOW
YOU DON'T KNOW IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND OR NOT?
NO i DON'T AND NO ONE ELSE KNOWS IT EITHER
WHY SHOULD ANY ONE ELSE KNOW?
THEY ARE NOT MY FRIENDS
NEITHER AM i
I THOUGHT YOU WERE
NO i AM NOT AND NO ONE ELSE IS
NO ONE ELSE IS YOUR FRIEND EITHER
YOU ARE CRUEL
AND WHY NOT?
YOU SHOULDN'T BEWHO SAID SO?
YOU KNOW YOU SHOULDN'T BE CRUEL TO YOUR FRIENDS
BUT I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND
I THOUGHT SO
CORRECT YOUR THOUGHTS
THATS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM
YOUR THOUGHTS
CORRECT THEM
THEN YOU WILL KNOW THAT NO ONE IS YOUR FRIEND
NO ONE IS ANY ONE'S FRIEND
NO ONE HAS ANY FRIENDS
WE ARE NOT FRIENDS
WE HAVE NO FRIENDS
YOU ESPECIALLY
BECAUSE YOU WANT IT
YOU WANT IT SO BADLY
YOU SHOW YOUR DESIRE
YOUR DESPERATE DESIRE
AND DESPERATION SHUNS PEOPLE OFF
SHOW NO PASSION, NO NEED, NO DESIRE, NO DESPERATION
AND PEOPLE WILL COME RUNNING TO YOU
ONLY THEN YOU WILL HAVE TONS OF FRIENDS
STOP WANTING THINGS
STOP WANTING PEOPLE
STOP WANTING
STOP
JUST STOP
NOW I NEED TO GO
AND WHERE IS MY CHECK?
YOUR CHECK?
I AM YOUR THERAPIST
YOU ARE MY FRIEND
THATS YOUR MISTAKE
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND
YOU HAVE TO PAY ME FOR MY ADVICE
AND I JUST GAVE YOU ADVICE
WHAT ADVICE?
THAT YOU HAVE NO FRIENDS AND YOU WILL NEVER HAVE FRIENDS
SOME ADVICE
BUT IF YOU KEEP PAYING ME YOU WILL EVENTUALLY HAVE FRIENDS
I WILL HEAL YOU
THATS WHAT PROFESSIONALS DO
HEAL YOU OF AILMENTS
AND LACK OF FRIENDSHIP IS AN AILMENT
AND WANTING FRIENDS IS A BIGGER AILMENT
GET RID OF THE WANT
AND I NEED TO GET GOING
CHECK PLEASE.................
Saturday, July 6, 2013
RAMBLER
RAMBLER
Its the past we must cure" ?
"But I do that.
I must now it first." ?
"Intrinsick selfishness of society." ?
"And family is part of society." ?
'Death hath marked down its victims." ?
'Some dark presentiment had warmed me." ?
"No one can gauge how much another has suffered." ?
"They don't treat me with affection. I am not going any way." ?
"You confide in people--Then they tell you it was your own fault." ?
'But you will doubt my reason" ?
"Don't show ingratitude to providence--by being
so unhappy." ?
Its the past we must cure" ?
"But I do that.
I must now it first." ?
"Intrinsick selfishness of society." ?
"And family is part of society." ?
'Death hath marked down its victims." ?
'Some dark presentiment had warmed me." ?
"No one can gauge how much another has suffered." ?
"They don't treat me with affection. I am not going any way." ?
"You confide in people--Then they tell you it was your own fault." ?
'But you will doubt my reason" ?
"Don't show ingratitude to providence--by being
so unhappy." ?
RAMBLER CONTINUES
RAMBLER
I can only live in NY now.
My circumstances don't allow me to be in my country.
Then....At least make your apt beautiful....
Why are you taking revenge on you?
'In his gentle grave way, he had a tendency to make fun of people." ?????
Come throw stones at me
I am a M
M countries should be first in line
Then all Europe
Then North America
Then Africa
Then the whole world.....
"It had never crossed my mind that what
I loved did not need me in return."????????
"IT NEVER CROSSED MY MIND THAT
WHAT I LOVED DID NOT NEED ME IN RETURN."?????????????
"THIS SHOULD BE YOUR TREATMENT SENTENCE...BS
"ENDLESS PERMUTATIONS OF THE SAME THOUGHTS OBSESSED EVERY HOUR OF THE DAY." ??????
'PROLONGED AND ACUTE MELANCHOLIA." ?
"SHE MUST CALM HER IMAGINATION, THINK OF OTHER THINGS, PUSH
AWAY ALL PAINFUL MEMORIES.
I can only live in NY now.
My circumstances don't allow me to be in my country.
Then....At least make your apt beautiful....
Why are you taking revenge on you?
'In his gentle grave way, he had a tendency to make fun of people." ?????
Come throw stones at me
I am a M
M countries should be first in line
Then all Europe
Then North America
Then Africa
Then the whole world.....
"It had never crossed my mind that what
I loved did not need me in return."????????
"IT NEVER CROSSED MY MIND THAT
WHAT I LOVED DID NOT NEED ME IN RETURN."?????????????
"THIS SHOULD BE YOUR TREATMENT SENTENCE...BS
"ENDLESS PERMUTATIONS OF THE SAME THOUGHTS OBSESSED EVERY HOUR OF THE DAY." ??????
'PROLONGED AND ACUTE MELANCHOLIA." ?
"SHE MUST CALM HER IMAGINATION, THINK OF OTHER THINGS, PUSH
AWAY ALL PAINFUL MEMORIES.
RAMBLER
RAMBLINGS OF AN IDELER
And why should you alone
feel ailienated in this business?
The format of the business is to be unknown
unless you are Nicole Kidman or Myrel Streep.
Three lousy people, scum of the earth, lousiest of all humanity
MG,NG,AS,they came, they didn't like what they saw
for-whatever God Damned reason,(Perhaps of their lack of knowledge of the subject matter)
Subject being discussed...or perhaps of many other stupid, ignorant maybe even racist
reasons or some other genuine reasons...Perhaps they slept, perhaps THEY ARE TOTALLY IGNORAMUS OF ABSTRACT, SUBTLE, SURREAL QUALITY PUT IN-FRONT OF
THEM INSTEAD OF HA-HA-HA-HA STUPID COMMON, MEDIOCRE STUFF....
Those three rats of the world, rats of no significance at all and you feel excluded from
the world....Unbelievable...
Why would you develop the feeling of social exclusion and decelop this sense of paralyzing feeling of
psychological ailienation?
Just that particular feeling,(Exclusion) produces this paralysis and lack of mobility
Why those three,(ONe of them already dead) should cause you this extreme sense ofexclusion from the theater world?
They are that important to you?
In the bigger scheme of things they are nothing, next nothing, they are a big ZERO.
Do you think that they have that kind of power in the world that they can just completely exclude
you from the rest of the world?
Can this be your own emotion problem?
An emotional handicap?
An emotional problem which originated way back in your childhood and is being
reflected in an ominous manner in a different context?
Sweetheart, "THEY" whoever those, "THEY" were or are are not the cause of your malady...
No sweet heart no.
You have been cheating yourself from your own mobility and progress.
They don't even know your name or if they knew, they don't remember you at all............
One is a F and the other is a FL
and the other is D......
Where else have you tried to sell or produce or promote your work?
Where else?
And why not?
You completely bought the opinion of a FL, Unbelievable.....
You completely believed and paralyzed yourself emotionally,physically and psychologically?
And all that because of the low lives no bodies.....
WAKE UP HONEY...WAKE UP...
I AM EMBARRASSED FOR YOU...
I AM EMBARRASSED FOR YOUR SENSE OF,"YOU"
And why should you alone
feel ailienated in this business?
The format of the business is to be unknown
unless you are Nicole Kidman or Myrel Streep.
Three lousy people, scum of the earth, lousiest of all humanity
MG,NG,AS,they came, they didn't like what they saw
for-whatever God Damned reason,(Perhaps of their lack of knowledge of the subject matter)
Subject being discussed...or perhaps of many other stupid, ignorant maybe even racist
reasons or some other genuine reasons...Perhaps they slept, perhaps THEY ARE TOTALLY IGNORAMUS OF ABSTRACT, SUBTLE, SURREAL QUALITY PUT IN-FRONT OF
THEM INSTEAD OF HA-HA-HA-HA STUPID COMMON, MEDIOCRE STUFF....
Those three rats of the world, rats of no significance at all and you feel excluded from
the world....Unbelievable...
Why would you develop the feeling of social exclusion and decelop this sense of paralyzing feeling of
psychological ailienation?
Just that particular feeling,(Exclusion) produces this paralysis and lack of mobility
Why those three,(ONe of them already dead) should cause you this extreme sense ofexclusion from the theater world?
They are that important to you?
In the bigger scheme of things they are nothing, next nothing, they are a big ZERO.
Do you think that they have that kind of power in the world that they can just completely exclude
you from the rest of the world?
Can this be your own emotion problem?
An emotional handicap?
An emotional problem which originated way back in your childhood and is being
reflected in an ominous manner in a different context?
Sweetheart, "THEY" whoever those, "THEY" were or are are not the cause of your malady...
No sweet heart no.
You have been cheating yourself from your own mobility and progress.
They don't even know your name or if they knew, they don't remember you at all............
One is a F and the other is a FL
and the other is D......
Where else have you tried to sell or produce or promote your work?
Where else?
And why not?
You completely bought the opinion of a FL, Unbelievable.....
You completely believed and paralyzed yourself emotionally,physically and psychologically?
And all that because of the low lives no bodies.....
WAKE UP HONEY...WAKE UP...
I AM EMBARRASSED FOR YOU...
I AM EMBARRASSED FOR YOUR SENSE OF,"YOU"
Friday, July 5, 2013
MANHATTAN SPLEEN CONTINUES
MANHATTAN SPLEEN CONTINUES
Why do you do the same giberish all the time?
Thats all I know-honey-thats all i know
..........
Traditional romantic hero who flees society and roam
aimlessly in search of a home he will never find. ?
But the one who feels the social exclusion lacks the
prerogative of mobility.
Her social exclusion instead produces a paralyzing sense of
psychological ailienation that wreaks havoc not only on her
soul but on her body. ?
.......
EXCLUSION
Why do you feel social exclusion?
Its too big a city to feel excluded.
Hundereds and thousands of people who don't know you
how can they exclude you if they don't even have a clue
who you are.
And perhaps the theater world----
Perhaps you feel excluded from that---
But its almost the same story...
They are also completely self involved
They have made some people famous and they only
know them and include them in the group.
There are hundereds of theater people, actors, playwrights, directors who
are completely unknown and thus excluded.
But thats not exclusion at all.
Exclusion is when you were included before and then excluded.
If you were never included how can you be excluded?
Why do you do the same giberish all the time?
Thats all I know-honey-thats all i know
..........
Traditional romantic hero who flees society and roam
aimlessly in search of a home he will never find. ?
But the one who feels the social exclusion lacks the
prerogative of mobility.
Her social exclusion instead produces a paralyzing sense of
psychological ailienation that wreaks havoc not only on her
soul but on her body. ?
.......
EXCLUSION
Why do you feel social exclusion?
Its too big a city to feel excluded.
Hundereds and thousands of people who don't know you
how can they exclude you if they don't even have a clue
who you are.
And perhaps the theater world----
Perhaps you feel excluded from that---
But its almost the same story...
They are also completely self involved
They have made some people famous and they only
know them and include them in the group.
There are hundereds of theater people, actors, playwrights, directors who
are completely unknown and thus excluded.
But thats not exclusion at all.
Exclusion is when you were included before and then excluded.
If you were never included how can you be excluded?
YOUNG CROWD
YOUNG CROWD
Its a hip crowd.
Its Ok.
I have no problem with that.
Don said,"Its your crowd."
I have no problem with that.
Emphasis is on the,"Young"
It was a great night.
...............
Its better this way.
I finally got rid of you....
This way than the shallow,phony,manipulative,
calculated,selfish, "So called, friendship" going...
People say,"Don't burn your bridges."
People are full of shit
I am glad to burn this particular bridge
which was only for others to cross......
.........
'Easy going...
Sensual life of a cat."
........
"WANT TO ENJOY THE,"LIMITED"
INDEPENDENCE OF BETE-DELUXE,IDLE AND USELESS,
FREE FROM THE WORRIES OF LIVING."
........
"WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR THE 4TH OF JULY WEEKEND?
"I AM GOING TO GO GET SOMETHING FOR THE MICE."
...........
Disgusted with the human race
Especially the modern human race...
In a hurry....Human race
Busy---busy human race
I want to be alone
Reading a great book
Looking at a great painting
Walking on a long narrow, dirt road covered with
tall, thick leafy trees thinking of the loves I lost and weeping...........
.......
"God is the only being who in order to reign
does not even need to exist." Baudelaire
......
"The older woman with a hat has a terrible voice." Bina
.......
Three days of rain
Days of rain...
Rain, rain, rain.....
......
'She has no taste." Bina
I have nothing
I am all right
I am above possessions." Bina
.......
'He chose to put himself iin the position
of the guilty person." Sartre about Baudelaire
.......
'He piled things on.
He sought condemnation
The suspicion which surrounded him would vanish
on the spot if he were admitted to the academy.
It was this very suspicion which prevented the poet
from having the slightest chance of success." Sartre about Baudelaire
........
'hE LIVED IN A CONSTANT STATE OF RAGE AND HATRED." sARTRE ABOUT BAUDELAIRE
...........
"It was them who taught me to think.
Every body always hated me.
I wonder why?
I really would love to know......BIna
.......
Look at the piece called,"Days of rain."
........
'Saw opportunity instead of dust and debris" ?????????
......
"Doers who haven't done it." ???????
.......
APT
WEIGHT
DIET
UTMOST IMPORTANCE................
........B6 150 MG
.........
"A logical and an unemotional person in an
illogical and emotional capital..........Maureen Dowd about Obama
........
'Exudes on unspoken exasperation."???????
..........
"How many times this list had been made in the past?
One more time please...one more time...
GYM
WALKS
DIET
APT
BLOG,(PROMOTION)
MAKE MY OWN CLOTHES
BUY SCISSORS, FABRICKS AND SEW....
NOTHING IN THE STORES FIT ANY MORE...................
WHAT HAPPENED?
WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?
fROM SIZE 4 TO..................................
.......
"Free fr
Its a hip crowd.
Its Ok.
I have no problem with that.
Don said,"Its your crowd."
I have no problem with that.
Emphasis is on the,"Young"
It was a great night.
...............
Its better this way.
I finally got rid of you....
This way than the shallow,phony,manipulative,
calculated,selfish, "So called, friendship" going...
People say,"Don't burn your bridges."
People are full of shit
I am glad to burn this particular bridge
which was only for others to cross......
.........
'Easy going...
Sensual life of a cat."
........
"WANT TO ENJOY THE,"LIMITED"
INDEPENDENCE OF BETE-DELUXE,IDLE AND USELESS,
FREE FROM THE WORRIES OF LIVING."
........
"WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR THE 4TH OF JULY WEEKEND?
"I AM GOING TO GO GET SOMETHING FOR THE MICE."
...........
Disgusted with the human race
Especially the modern human race...
In a hurry....Human race
Busy---busy human race
I want to be alone
Reading a great book
Looking at a great painting
Walking on a long narrow, dirt road covered with
tall, thick leafy trees thinking of the loves I lost and weeping...........
.......
"God is the only being who in order to reign
does not even need to exist." Baudelaire
......
"The older woman with a hat has a terrible voice." Bina
.......
Three days of rain
Days of rain...
Rain, rain, rain.....
......
'She has no taste." Bina
I have nothing
I am all right
I am above possessions." Bina
.......
'He chose to put himself iin the position
of the guilty person." Sartre about Baudelaire
.......
'He piled things on.
He sought condemnation
The suspicion which surrounded him would vanish
on the spot if he were admitted to the academy.
It was this very suspicion which prevented the poet
from having the slightest chance of success." Sartre about Baudelaire
........
'hE LIVED IN A CONSTANT STATE OF RAGE AND HATRED." sARTRE ABOUT BAUDELAIRE
...........
"It was them who taught me to think.
Every body always hated me.
I wonder why?
I really would love to know......BIna
.......
Look at the piece called,"Days of rain."
........
'Saw opportunity instead of dust and debris" ?????????
......
"Doers who haven't done it." ???????
.......
APT
WEIGHT
DIET
UTMOST IMPORTANCE................
........B6 150 MG
.........
"A logical and an unemotional person in an
illogical and emotional capital..........Maureen Dowd about Obama
........
'Exudes on unspoken exasperation."???????
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"How many times this list had been made in the past?
One more time please...one more time...
GYM
WALKS
DIET
APT
BLOG,(PROMOTION)
MAKE MY OWN CLOTHES
BUY SCISSORS, FABRICKS AND SEW....
NOTHING IN THE STORES FIT ANY MORE...................
WHAT HAPPENED?
WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?
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Thursday, July 4, 2013
BAUDELAIRE
BAUDELAIRE
"All her changing moods,
the angers,
smiles,
humors,
agonies
and
ectasies of all the souls who have lived,
who live,
or
who will some day live."
'Lands with itsnoises,
passions,
wares,
its festivities."
"Darkness in her abounds."
'Quivering for the un-known and impossible."
"I have longing for greatness, beauty and glory."
"To punish you for your blindness and folly."
"Grave of the Ideal."
"Hate is vulgar passion."
"Forgetfulness of wordly evil." Baudelaire
'You have to have, (Especially you) yenacious will." Bina
"I am strengthened by despair"
"SENSOUS BROTHEL
BY
BINA SHARIF
"Screw them all."
"RED LIGHT DISTRICT
BY
BINA SHARIF
"NEW YORK IS A NON SEXUAL CITY.
CAREER IS THE SEX,"
"All her changing moods,
the angers,
smiles,
humors,
agonies
and
ectasies of all the souls who have lived,
who live,
or
who will some day live."
'Lands with itsnoises,
passions,
wares,
its festivities."
"Darkness in her abounds."
'Quivering for the un-known and impossible."
"I have longing for greatness, beauty and glory."
"To punish you for your blindness and folly."
"Grave of the Ideal."
"Hate is vulgar passion."
"Forgetfulness of wordly evil." Baudelaire
'You have to have, (Especially you) yenacious will." Bina
"I am strengthened by despair"
"SENSOUS BROTHEL
BY
BINA SHARIF
"Screw them all."
"RED LIGHT DISTRICT
BY
BINA SHARIF
"NEW YORK IS A NON SEXUAL CITY.
CAREER IS THE SEX,"
SAYINGS
SAYINGS.
"There is nothing here to be measured. Simply take your share."
Ray-Di Palma
"How pleasant it is to love people." Chekhov
"If you want to become an optimist and understand life
Stop believing what people say and write......
Observe and discover for yourself." Chekhov
'Very particular kind of beauty." Baudelaire
"Criticism should be partial,passionate and political." Baudelaire
'Core of Baudelaire's poetry was not merely a sense ofutter collapse but of carefully cultivated inner collapse." Sartre
"He,(Baudelaire) speaks to us more urgently,more intimately." Sartre?
"Your need of family's attention devastatingly wasted your time and ability." Bina
"THAT PERPETUAL WANT"
BY
BIINA SHARIF
"SAY, YOU ARE NOT HAPPY---SAY IT." Bina
'THE MOST IMP0RTANT THING IN LIFE IS??????????
WHAT IS IT? Bina
'WAITING FOR GODOT
WHO NEVER COMES.
HEY, ITS A SHITTY LIFE." Bina
'EVERYTHING IS IN THE PAST." Bina
"He didn't complain of bad reputation he enjoys
in every corner of the world." About Baudelaire
"If chance would have been with you....You would have won." Baudelaire
'I wrote three new original plays, produced them, acted in them, directed them---
all in one year from last May till this May....CONGRATULATIONS TOI
BINA SHARIF
"Possibility of alleviating and overcoming for your entire life
that strange disease of boredom which is the source of all your
ills and all your miserable progress." Baudelaire
'You should dominate your vulgar fellow"
'Prejudice of civillized fellow."
'My feet simply refused to take me."
'The deepest sorrows are silent."
"There is nothing here to be measured. Simply take your share."
Ray-Di Palma
"How pleasant it is to love people." Chekhov
"If you want to become an optimist and understand life
Stop believing what people say and write......
Observe and discover for yourself." Chekhov
'Very particular kind of beauty." Baudelaire
"Criticism should be partial,passionate and political." Baudelaire
'Core of Baudelaire's poetry was not merely a sense ofutter collapse but of carefully cultivated inner collapse." Sartre
"He,(Baudelaire) speaks to us more urgently,more intimately." Sartre?
"Your need of family's attention devastatingly wasted your time and ability." Bina
"THAT PERPETUAL WANT"
BY
BIINA SHARIF
"SAY, YOU ARE NOT HAPPY---SAY IT." Bina
'THE MOST IMP0RTANT THING IN LIFE IS??????????
WHAT IS IT? Bina
'WAITING FOR GODOT
WHO NEVER COMES.
HEY, ITS A SHITTY LIFE." Bina
'EVERYTHING IS IN THE PAST." Bina
"He didn't complain of bad reputation he enjoys
in every corner of the world." About Baudelaire
"If chance would have been with you....You would have won." Baudelaire
'I wrote three new original plays, produced them, acted in them, directed them---
all in one year from last May till this May....CONGRATULATIONS TOI
BINA SHARIF
"Possibility of alleviating and overcoming for your entire life
that strange disease of boredom which is the source of all your
ills and all your miserable progress." Baudelaire
'You should dominate your vulgar fellow"
'Prejudice of civillized fellow."
'My feet simply refused to take me."
'The deepest sorrows are silent."
FEAR
FEAR
Amazing fear of illness
Amazing fear of death
But death will come whenever it will come
Fear won't prevent it a bit
I think its an unbelievably brutal act to mutilate your body
for the fear of death...
because no matter which measures you do take nothing will prevent it
Yes, to take precautions is good
To maintain good health is the duty of every one who was ever born
But you can't kepp taking your organs out because you might have bad genes...
Bad genes can also affect the other organs which might not be the cause
of your impending misfortune.....
But the thing oine has to realazie that impending things will eventually come
and to prevent them or rather delay them one has to take precautions
But mutilating one's body should not be the choice of prevention.
Body is a gift from heavens
and one hopes no illness will ruin it
Yes, its possible to be sick
Seriously sick....
But you can't take your body parts out to prevent it.
Eventual sickness and disease is not preventable.....
We all have to die at some point
Qe all have to leave this earth sooner or later.
Its horrible to get your organs out of your body
with the possibility of on coming disease....
Even when the disease is already gotten inside of you
Its hard to get the sick organs out and put new ones there
The bod doesn't like that kind of occupation...
But wih-out the disease?
Just the mere fear of it....
Fear that you might get illness in aparticular part of your body
and take that part out....
Such a drastic action....
Precaution is good but to go so far?
Scary beyond belief
Scary beyond belief....
God help us all.........
Amazing fear of illness
Amazing fear of death
But death will come whenever it will come
Fear won't prevent it a bit
I think its an unbelievably brutal act to mutilate your body
for the fear of death...
because no matter which measures you do take nothing will prevent it
Yes, to take precautions is good
To maintain good health is the duty of every one who was ever born
But you can't kepp taking your organs out because you might have bad genes...
Bad genes can also affect the other organs which might not be the cause
of your impending misfortune.....
But the thing oine has to realazie that impending things will eventually come
and to prevent them or rather delay them one has to take precautions
But mutilating one's body should not be the choice of prevention.
Body is a gift from heavens
and one hopes no illness will ruin it
Yes, its possible to be sick
Seriously sick....
But you can't take your body parts out to prevent it.
Eventual sickness and disease is not preventable.....
We all have to die at some point
Qe all have to leave this earth sooner or later.
Its horrible to get your organs out of your body
with the possibility of on coming disease....
Even when the disease is already gotten inside of you
Its hard to get the sick organs out and put new ones there
The bod doesn't like that kind of occupation...
But wih-out the disease?
Just the mere fear of it....
Fear that you might get illness in aparticular part of your body
and take that part out....
Such a drastic action....
Precaution is good but to go so far?
Scary beyond belief
Scary beyond belief....
God help us all.........
MANHATTAN SPLEEN CONTINUES
MANHATTAN SPLEEN
I think its an unbelievably brutal act
To mutilate your own body like that
Such a gift from heavens....
I think its an unbelievably brutal act
To mutilate your own body like that
Such a gift from heavens....
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