OH! THE AGGRESSION

It filters through so many pores

leaks and leaks till the sexy T shirts are full of stink

Horribly angry,  they are, the sold out crowd

For money they will do anything...

And manipulate the misery on the other

Whoever is there to take it and whatever way they take it

Attention must never be paid to these people

No matter how much they seek it

Ignore them

Never be provoked by them

Thats what they want

To provoke you

Never allow it again

Never....

You owe no explanation

Why must explanation of any kind must be given to them ?

Why ?

Do they pay your rent ?

Try to explain only to the one who pays your rent...

You...

Isn't that you who pays your rent ?

Yes thats you

And you are the only one who must expect the explanation of things big and small

Only you are answerable to you

No one else

Next time any one want to badger you for any reason

Smile and ignore,  ignore,  ignore

Only answer to your own questions

The moment you feel the provocation coming,  try politely to get away from the topic or get away from the place

Do not indulge Un-necessary elements into your life or into your  time....

What's the matter with you ?

Why do you shake with fear when people are aggressive to you ?

They are pieces of S**T

And you are trembling

What ?

Do they scare you ?

Yes,  there vulgarity is so awesome

Another reason never to explain anything to vulgarity

Vulgarity is there for a reason

And that is to be more and more and more vulgar and get you involved

Stay out of that moment

Be alert about that moment

Just refuse politely to be out of that moment when they want you to be answerable to their vulgarity...

There is a great sense of truth and honesty which frighten peopkle

And their sword to defend themselves is vulgarity

And you don't need that

Your truth is your weapon

Your honesty is your weapon

Your talent is your weapon

Let them have a check

Let them have it wrapped up with dishonesty,  Manipulation,  greed,  lack of decency

Let them have it wrapped up with vulgarity and aggression to scare people like you

Peole who are innocent of the crinme

Innocent and kind hearted

Its all a scheme

Scheme to get ahead

Ahead where ?

Wherever they are going...

Do you want to go there ?

Not the way they are going

So be yourself

But never ever let any one of those venom ridden big mouths throw you of the top of mountain

Stay there and ignore them

Do not indulge them

Thats below you

Just Ignore them....

Be aware that you have to ignore from now on and smile

Smile and do not be provoked

They will try

Oh,  gee they will

Oh! they will

And they will

And they will

Till you are provoked again

And thats their victory

They are trying to win over you

Its something about you which triggers their cord

and they want to win over you and win the battle

Yes,  there is a battle going on

And they want to win it

And they provoke you till you scream

And then they win

Let them win the battle

Its their own ugly battle of guilt and shame if they have any

They are all sold out for a check

They lie and say things the other want to hear

The other who is paying them the check...

So they are frightened that your honesty and truth might ruin the check coming to them

So they provoke you so you can look ugly...

Don't....

Let them win the battle if they want

But you have already won...

You are not in a battle

You never were

You never were in an ugly battle....

Don't scream....

You are not in a battle

They want you to scream and curse because they are battling with you without your permission

Don't let them

Smile and walk away from the ugly aggression....

SMILE AND DO NOT BE PROVOKED BY THE UGLINESS,  BY THE DISHONESTY,  BY THE LIES,  BY MANIPULATION,  BY THE GAMES,  BY THE DIRT OF THIS UGLY,  UGLKY WORLD AND ITS UGLY INHABITANT....

Smile,  your god gave you a different purpose

And you often forget that purpose....

Truth is that purpose and you never have to explain your truth to any one...

Smile and protect your truth with that smile....

Truth is never protected by the shout and who can shout the loudest...

Truth is protected by a smile and silence.......

AND IT RINGS AND RINGS

The phone rings and rings

And there is no  one on the other side

And it rings again...

Where is the joke ?

To tease some one or wake some one up or offend some one ?

Well all that is achieved

So why is it still ringing ?

They don't perhaps know that that the irritation they are trying to cause

has been caused...

Do peole have nothing to do with themselves ?

Or they can't control their fingers any more ?

Their fingers are always moving on their cell key boards

If thats the word....

They never take their eyes off it..

'i was just texting you."  One woman said to the other one with whom she was having a luke warm coffee in a fashionable bistro...

Why couldn't she tell her face to face whatever she was texting it to her ?

Afterall they are sitting opposite each other for heaven's sake...

I don't want to go out with any one any more

What's the purpose ?

No one has a conversation

No one has the skill so its a good excuse,  the cell phone

I mean,  can you imagine....

Now you are texting and calling the person on your cell...the person who is with you

having a goddamned coffee in a cafe....

God gave you a tongue...

Can you talk to your friend and look at her or him whoever you happened to be with...

Not me...thank you very much

I won't have a coffee with you

Well most of them are the same

I have coffee with no one...

No one needs no one any more

The cell,  the text,  the twitter,  the laptop,  the technology,  the progress,

Oh,  go away with your instruments

I don't fancy you.....

But stop calling me...

I am not home

And my cell is not with me in the cafe

Stop

Don't ring again....

I am not listening

I am not here

I am not reachable

Now stop....

Read a book

Haven't heard of a book ?

Ok,  call some one else then.

I said stop ringing........

I got rid of the cell

I have no phone now....

I don't need a phone

No one talks

They do emails

No thank you very much

I don't need your email

I need no connection with instruments

There are no human beings around

They are all robots with their robotic instruments....Honey,  you are not being missed....

Yes,  not being missed....

You are no longer an interesting,  breathing,  laughing,  passionate human.

Bye and bye again and bye again.

I hope all your machinery is functioning.

SAME AND THE SAME AGAIN SAME

Same ?

Of course

Can never change

Habits are set

Bad habits,  you mean ?

What"s good and what"s bad is in the eye of the beholder

Are you the beholder ?

I am the beholder of good and bad and bad and good and bad again

Bad mostly

That's up-to you to think,  judge,  kniw and bicker about

Who is bickering ?

Not me.......

I hate bickering

Look who is talking.......

What do you want ?

What a question ......

Yes,  what do you want ?

Whatever you want.....

I want nothing

Thats a lie

No,  Its not.  I want nothing

Every one wants something

I am not that every one

Who are you ?

The satisfied one

Oooooooooooooh!

Where do you come from ?  From the moon ?

Satisfaction is within...

Don't be so simpleistick, we live in the world of Material.

Economy is down

Even the ones who have a lot of material are going to jail

Who is going to jail ?  I want to go to jail too...is it a must to go to the gym in jail ?

I joined gym and have never been since then...

I need to be taken to the gym

In a stretcher ?

You are an awe-full  friend

I am not a friend...I am never a friend...I am no one's friend,  never call me a friend.

Gee...........

Yes,  gee.

We are in a bad mood this evening

This is not an evening,  its afternoon...

What happened to the morning

No mornings for me....I get up at noon time...

Thats why your arms don't look as good as Michell Obama's arms

As good ?

Gee........

Yes,  gee.  Nearly as good

Nearly as good ?

Do you know at what time Mitchell Obama gets up in the morning ?

I don't know...Why would I know ?

If you want arms like her you can't wake up at noon...

What time does she wake up ?

Call her...

She is not taking your call

Why not ?  They say,  she is people's princes....

No body said that...they said,  the white house is going to be open to the people...

So you can ask her what time she gets up when you are there...

Why would I be there ?

You are one of the people....

I am ?

Yes...

You should have been one of those women getting award in the white house yesterday...

Me,  getting an award ?

Yes,  women of distinction

Am I a woman of distinction ? 

Sure you are...You are going to the white house

When ?

When they open it to the people...

Its already open to the people...

Am I a people ?  or a woman of distinction ?

Both

I can't be both.  If I am a woman of distinction then I will get an award on ,  women's

international day and if I am a people then I will go to the white house on wednesday for dinner in a full length sleeveless black dress...so am I getting the woman award or going to dinner on wednesday ?

Thats a good question...Who got the AWARD?

One wore a Hijab

Thats not you

One wore a sari

Thats not you....

Your chance is finished,  the rest were in  a dress or pant suit...

You can go to the dinner on wednesday...

Am I the people ?

Yes

So where is the invitation ?

You don't need an invitation....go stand outside the gates...You are the people...

So get up and go....

Can I still get up at noon ?

Never,  people never get up at noon...they get up at 5 AM and either work out or go to work.......

Geeeeeeeeeeeee

Yes, gee.

Get up from sitting on your butt and do something different than same again and again samesamesamesamesame

Shame on you to be the same again and again same same

FREE THERAPY

Any one and every one can get advice for free
Any one but you
You are the one giving it
Why ?
Nothing better to do
With your time you mean ?
Yes, with my time
You are capable of giving advice and for free ?

Why not ? What else is there to do...
There is so much to do for me, I wish I had more time to do that so much I have to do every-day...
Nothing to do for me...nithing
Why Not ? I have so much to do
You have a life
And you ?
What a question ...
And you ?
What about me ?
Do you not have a life ?
What a question...

What do you do everyday ?
Free therapy
A person who doesn't have a life can give advice ?
Yes, for sure, thats the beauty of it...
Tell people what to do so they can never tell you what to do...
You need people to tell you what to do ?
Why not ?
Every one need advice
But not you
Why not me ?
You are the one giving it...
I can still get some...
From whom ?
Yes, thats a problem, they are all so busy...
They are not busy, they are pretending to be busy...
They are busy...they are not pretending
What are they busy with ?
Twittering...
What ?
Twittering, I said...
What is twittering ?
Its sending messages...
But thats called, Text messages...
No, this is something brand new....instant response, you twitter, they twitter back...
Who is ,"They ?
The one they are twittering to....
And they are all twittering back ?
Of course, thats the new busy...
So people are only using their fingers to talk now....
Yes, they use their fingers and they never look at you
So they twitter
Yes, they twitter...
Sounds like a nerve disease....
Yes, twitter, like nervous agitation in the fingers...like shiver...
No, not like shiver, thats from the cold, twitter is from being sexy, social, popular...
Oh, gee...maybe I should start twittering, I feel so un-sexy...
Yes, sure thing, twitter...
Who should I twitter to ?
Any one
Any one ? Who is any one...
Just any one...some one...in Australia
Australia ? Now I have to twitter with some one in Australia...so far
Thats the beauty if twittering...you can reach some one instantly some one so far away...
And ?
And they will twitter back...
Ok...
So you are going to twitter ?
Yes, I want some one from Australia...
and ?
And he will twitter back to me.....
Twitter, twitter, what a life! What a world!
Better than doing free therapy for others and still having so many of your own problems...
Twitter will take care of it...once you twitter you won't need therapy
All healthy instant progress and healing of all ailments
Twitter, twitter, twitter

AND THEN SHE SAID
AND THEN HE SAID

And then she said, "I am bored with you."

And then he said, "I am bored with you."

And then they stayed together for thirty years.

End of play

WHAT ?

What did you say ?
I said nothing
What ?
Nothing....

What ?
I said nothing. Now stop your what ? What ? What ?

You feel dizzy ?
How did you know ?

Because....
Because what ?

Stop saying what ?

Get up
And
Go
Go where ?
Somewhere...

Somewhere ? Where ?

Whats this ?
What ?

Can't deal with this word
What ?

Stop
Ok...
Stop, I said...
I stopped....

So obedient am I...
What ?

I am leaving
Going where ?

Out
Out where ?

Out on the side walk
Which side walk ?

The same side walk....

Ha, ha, ha, haha
She is going to the same side walk....same side walk...same side walk
Might as well not go any where...

I am going
Where ?
To the side walk

The same side walk ?
Yes, the same side walk.............

MUCH SAID, NONE DONE

Lost it yesterday
Saved it and then lost it
Yes, saved first
Lost later
Instantly
Simultaneously

Can't happen
It did, it happened
Yesterday
Only yesterday
Every one says its not true
Saved and lost at the same time

Maybe its inside somewhere
I don't know where
Its so tiring
Saving and loosing and then saving and then loosing again

Why are you saving ?
For the future
Whose future ?
I don't know
Don't borrow sentences from others
All your relatives say, "I don't know."
They don't want to be responsible for anything
Thats a relative

Now the hand hurts
One thing or the other
Some thing got into it
Scratched it or got into it
Now its red and glaring
"Infected" its called
And where to go ?
Which doctor ?
Which clinic ?
Which hospital ?
Cabrini is closed
The whole hospital is closed

The hand hurts
One thing or the other
Every day
If its not one thing then its the other...
Now the hand
Told you not to clean
Not to tidy up
Now the hand is hurt
But you have been bothering me to do things rather than talk about them
"Much talk and none done." You always say

Don't listen to you
And who is you by the way ?
The inner voice
You have an inner voice ?
Every one does

You don't have a voice in real life but you have an inner voice ?
Everyone does

I don't have an inner voice
But you have a voice
I do
You were born here
and ?

You don't clean
And ?
I do
Why ?
So you can pay me
You need pay to clean ?

I was cleaning
Whose house ?
MY own
And ?
The hand got hurt
Some thing got in there
Some splinter, some strapler
OOOO0000....You have straplers ?

Got in there, some rusted strappler
OOOOOOOOO
Now its red and glaring
And ?
Hurting ?
Hurting
Go to the clinic
Which Clinic ?
'I don't know."
Do some thing
Go to the hospital
Which hospital ?
"I don't know."
Do some thing...don't just talk, do something, much talk, none done

Come with me to the hospital
Why ?
Support
Support, what ? They are going to amputate your hand ?
Evil, evil evil, evil relatives
Much said, none done....

The hand written

The house is now almost full
With the hand written prose poems, monologues, thoughts,
All in the house

Like birds in the cages....
Dying to fly out...
Take a leap up-wards towards the sky
Instead of lying flat for so long
Worrying about...
What if ? What if ? wHAT IF ?
What if there is a fire in the house
And the birds will singe like the pieces of paper
And then turn into ashes...
"Dust to dust, ashes to ashes."

Whe said that ?
I don;t remeber...
But the point is being made by the birds...

Is there any one who can take my birds out of my house and take them on a flight ?

They need to travel a bit you know...
Go to Spain, to Qairo, to Beirut, to Istambul, to London and Paris and Florence...
There is a whole lot to see out-side this place

Who has rge key to the cage ?
Are you for the human rights of animals or birds ?
Any one who has the slightest concern for human rights should visit the cages...
Not many are concerned about the humans either
Who is going to free my birds ?

You, baby, you...Only you...
Sing to me, my beautiful bulbul, sing to me....

Would you sing to me Bulbul ?

No answer...
The Bulbul wants to go out into a beautiful garden...
And smell the smell of Jasmin first and breath a bit..
Get some sun on its feathers and warm up first...
Its been a long and a cold winter

But to day the sun is shining and its warming up...
Do you want to go out Bulbul ?

I will take you out today....

"Thats a lie." The Bulbul says,
'Thats a lie."
'You only take yourself out." Out for a coffee, out for a walk, to the theater, to a party."

I haven't gone to a party for so long.
:But you are going to a party tonight." The Bulbul says, "Take us with you tonight, we will sing at the party. After all we are the singing birds."

IN THE NAME OF SNOW

The snow is back
As if it never went away
The same warnings
The same freezing cold,syayic,grey days
And then it comes...
At night
The snow...

And then cripple things..
Little and big things...
Such as walking a few blocks
And going out for a coffee...

The fear of slipping
Slipping now on the ice
Fear of slipping was never apparent before
But it had been there always
Fear...
Fear...
Fear...
Slipping and failure
Is that the same ?

Had a bad dream last night
A long and a bad dream
Always the same dream though
Never being able to get to the final destination
Whether its an exam
Or a performance
Or to the airport
Some times the passport is missing
Some times the train has left the station
Some times can't find the clothes
Some times things are at different locations
A lot of stress in the dreams
Running around totally stressed out and anguished
Nothing ever accomplished
Nothing ever completed
In the dream I mean

In life some times
In the winter, most of the time
Little Things such as walking...
Grocery shopping
Carrying the laundry
Buying the milk from the bodega
Though there are no bodegas around
All BMW's

No one walking...
People take there cars to go shopping
Nothing stops the shopping
Neither the snow fall or the economy
All theaters are packed
All cafe's are packed
All cinema's packed

Whose economy is down ?
I guess the one who doesn't go to the cafe
Or the cinema
Or the theater
Their economy is always down
But they can walk around at least
When its nice and sunny

When was it nice and sunny ?
Its been a long winter
A long, long winter
And a lot of snow
Iwish I was from Buffalo
Then I would have been used to the snow and its aftermath
The slush and the sloth and the slippery side walks
Thats the most fearful thing for me
The slippery side walks...

Perhaps thas what my childhood and adulthood dreams were all about
More like nightmares
They are night mares
They were night mares
Which never left me alone all my life

Those night mares were the future warnings of the slippery side walks
Whether I slipp or not
The fear is there
And fear is always successful...
Un-fortunately....

Lets bundle up and try to defeat fear
And walk slowly and carefully...
Thats what the wise people say, "Be careful."
Walk carefully on the slippery side walks ...

Whats the purpose of living in the snowy zones ?
Whats the purpose of suffering year after year after....?
Why not go to the dessert ?
Which dessert ?
Dessert...
A sunny dessert
Where will I sleep ?

" So you suffer just for the sake of sleep ?"
Sleep is everything...Every=thing
What else is there except sleep, "That balm of nature."
'But you have night-mares."
Thats true...Night mares at night and slippery side walks during the day

"Thats how it is...In the name of snow one slips.