NAPKIN DIARY CONTINUES PART 111

 NAPKIN DIARY CONTINUES: PART 111

TEACHING MOMENT

I am not a teacher- so I am not going to teach you.

Teaching moment is for me.

It's a moment completely my own.

I own it

Thats a revealation that I also own something

Revealation or not...

I own this moment, the teaching moment...

For how long?

10 minutes?

20 minutes?

19 minutes by now

Ok, I own this moment for 18 minutes

And that tells me since the moment is so short

I must not teach any one else but myself.

And I am going to take advantage of my remaining 17 minutes.

And teach myself a thing or two which I was unable to do in my previous life.

In that life I was busy trying to teach you ...

And I completely failed...

Whatever I was trying to teach you, you already knew.

You were all well taught since your childhood...

People of the first world don't need to be taught

They knew everything since their birth.

I, on the other hand who thought that I knew a thing or two, didn't know anything.

I didn't know that I din't know anything.

That's what the third world people think when they come to the first world.

They falsely think that they know a lot and they can even teach much more

Advanced people of the first world whatever they know

But the first world people already know everything like I said before.

They need nothing more...

They are already stuffed with all kinds of knowledge.

They have knowledge and assets

The most important part of the knowledge is ASSETS.

On the other hand some one like you thinks that since you do have some knowledge

That must be your asset.

You are completely wrong and naive...

Because knowledge is knowledge and asset is asset...

As first world human beings, the motto is, "That assets are to be used to the fullest."

Without assets, knowledge is a waste.

Asset helps as a practical approach.

Asset is like having a friend as a publisher

Who will publish your mediocre book instantly without even reading one word..

Assets are all family connections...

Through wealth,  color of your skin,  affluence and your zip code...

You on the other hand can write a hundered books but without that particular asset,

'THE CONNECTION" Books will be thrown out on the dirty pavements of the garbage filled

City.

Actually when I was trying to present my hard earned knowledge to some of those expensively

dressed people they would declare, "Listen honey, we are full of knowledge and of a wealthy

kind of background,  please stop trying to teach us the third world backward knowledge."

"'Please don't bother us again trying to impress us...are you kidding? stop otherwise you will

have consequence of dire nature." "We are alreay learned scholars and thus do not need your teaching

 moment."

"Let's see...tell us, what is it that you want to teach us?

You don't even know why you left your 3rd world people behind

and came to live with the elegant Ist world and it's superior people? 

We are masters of everything,

And we know how to use our assets fully. 

You see first of all you have to have tools, called, assets

and then you have to know how to use them. 

 You don't seem like that you know at all how to

use your tools because you don't have them...hahahaha"

We use everything we have to the fullest,.

Our dish washers, dryers, hair dryers, microwave,

cuisineart, computers, digital cameras, cell phones, 

Scanners, our brains and even our other precious

Organs... what do you use? 

You who dare trying to quote words of wisdom from some poverty stricken

poets with good conscious? 

 We don't need quotes, we are practical people.  We use scientific

 instruments,  so could you please shut up and go away for ever...

Always around with a book...

Who are you trying to impress? 

We are not so easy to be impressed by any book of yours, of dead

ancients sufi poets...

What do you have? 

Nothing...right...nothing. You simply can't have a teaching moment with us. Period.

" Hey, I said period.  Period means period. Tell me, what do you have?"

'I have knowledge."

"You can shove that knowledge up....your...meager items"

I didn't say i have meger items, i said I have none.

'You have nothing and you are trying to teach us?

  What a laugh! What a pathetic laugh!

'I agree.  I agree with you fully. 

Thats why after twenty years of trying to have a poignant and poetic

teaching moment with you, I decided to give up that idea completely and forever and from now on

just have a teaching moment with myself, for myself exclusively because I have a lot to learn...

And I only have 5 minutes remaining to teach myself the wisdom from my ancestors and their

philosophers...

"FIVE MINUTES REMAING FOR WISDOM OF ANCIENT PHILOSOPHERS."

Now that can be another intersting title for a new performance piece...

I don't really need a new performance piece since I have so many already.

You don't know how many because thats not your style...

It's not silly and arrogant enough...

But still I should write the new performance art piece...

Performance art is good.  It is very good.

All one needs is a title and you got a whole performance piece already.

I have to actually write that new piece...FIVE MINUTES REMAINING...

It will have parts for all the obnoxious people who call themselves, "ACTORS"

Who, at least some of them instead of having acting skills are just ready to piss on the writer

Especially if the writer is from the 3rd world and is not a ,"kiss ass."

They are ready to piss on you at a moment's notice.

Actually no notice is necessary...Piss is just ready...without any notice.

"We can piss on you at any time.

 Before the curtain is up, during the show, after the ccurtain is down,

Or on the way out of the theater...

That behavior is towards the playwrights of so called inferior races....

Performance art is for the fancy people and the fancy people are the 1t, world people

In performance art, at least there is no piss of any kind involved...that's why my new piece, 

 would be a performance piece, a solo piece, no piss is possible

Unless it's your own... and the great thing about the piss is that you can't really piss on your self...

So for the new performance piece which is now called, 

"REMAINING THREE MINUTES OF

 PHILOSOPHIC WISDOME."  will have no one elese in it but you, yourself. 

YOU, AND ALWAYS

 YOU. 

WITHOUT THE PRESENCE OF AN OTHER PERSON OR A DOG OR A SNAKE."

JUST YOU BY YOURSELF ON THAT STAGE WITH TOTAL FREEDOM TO F***K IT UP IF YOU

 WANT AND JUST THE KNOWLEDGE, THE KNOWING THAT THERE IS  NO ONE IN YOUR

 VICINITY TO PISS ON YOU ON THAT MIGHTY STAGE THAT IS IF YOU ARE ON ANY STAGE

 AT ALL, BUT THE TEACHING MOMENT OF MY OWN ONLY FOR MYSELF HAS ALSO

 TAUGHT ME IN THE LAST TEN MINUTES OF WHICH ONLY 2 MINUTES REMAINING IS

 THAT NO ONE, NO ONE ON STAGE OR OFF STAGE CAN EVER PISS ON YOU,NO ONE.

 FROM THE WORLD OR THE NON EXISTENT 2ND WORLD OR THE 3 RD WORLD CAN

 EVER PISS ON YOU.

So the lesson of the day, my first lesson for myself out of the teaching moment is...

That for me every one,

 From the 1st world is out of my head,

 my heart,

 my brain, 

my presence.

 No need to be friendly or

 Sensitive or try to teach them some words of kindness,

 Respect, honor, morals, empathy...no, not one,

 Word of importance will part from my lips...

Just, "hi, nice weather." "HI, so much snow."

"HI, so cold."

"OH! so hot."

"Bye, love you."   And move on...

I like the word, "MOVE ON."

Just love it.

Repeat often, "Move on...move on...move on."

Now time to deal with the FIRST world people..only have exclusive...relationsip with the 3rd world.

Me, me, me, me only...

A PLAYWRIGHT HAS BECOME A PERFORMANCE ARTIST TO SAVE

 HER DIGNITY.

A SOLO PERFORMANCE ARTIST.

THE WORD, "SOLO" IS OF UTMOST IMPORTANCE.

WHO EVER NEEDS TO PISS ON SOMEONE CAN NOW PISS ON THEIR OWN MOTHER...

THE PLAYWRIGHT FROM THE 3RD WORLD IS NOT AVAILABLE...FOR YOUR PISS...

NOW IN MY REMAINING ONE MINUTE FOR MY TEACHING LESSON FOR MYSELF

I HAVE LEARNT TO ALWAYS CALL MYSELF, "THE 3RD WORLD SOLO PERFORMANCE

 ARTIST IN THE FIRST WORLD WHO HAS NO TIME REMAINING FOR BULL SHIT AND

 PISS."

I WROTE A PISSING MONOLOGUE ONCE...IT WAS TO KILL SOME BAD LEADER WITH

 PISS INSTEAD OF MISSILES.  IT WAS HILARIOUSLY EFFECTIVE.

A drag queen studded with jewels and glitter delivered it and it was a riot.  I should have taught myself

then and there to become a drag queen with glitter, a solo drag queen...faboulousy talented in her

 delivery and humor...see I should have taught myself then,,,i would have been so well known a

 celebrity...

But hey, I wss trying to fit in the 1st world...drag queen was from the 1st world...that's why her humor

 was so funny..

And I was also trying to teach the 1st world artists and others to be rspectful to others...

others, aliens, outsiders, but hey it's all in the past...

Now I have to respect my teaching moment for myself today and always...

Today was the first time I decided to have a moment for myself only to learn something valuable.

'TO THINE OWNSELF BE TRUE."  Shakespear

Must learn from Shekspeare and another master of theater...Peter Brook...

I WILL HAVE EMPTY SPACE FOR MY NEW PERFORMANCE PIECE WHICH I JUST

 COMPOSED...NO PROPS , JUST A CRPET ON THE FLOOR, FLOWERS, CANDLE, 

A CHAIR, IF THE PERFORMER IS GETTING ON...

AND IF THERE IS GOING TO BE ANY PISS, IT MUST BE OF THE SOLO PERFORMANCE

 ARTIST...

WHAT FREEDOM! I LKIE PERFORMANCE ART...ME AND ME ONLY...

I SHOULD START A NEW MOVEMENT." ME AND ME ONLY MOVEMENT MATTERS"

NOW ALL OF YOU, THE FIRST WORLD PEOPLE ARE FREE OF ME...

ARN'T YOU THRILLED? 

BUT YOU WERE ALWAYS THRILLED.

IT WAS ME WHO WAS NEVER FREE, NOR THRILLED.  NEVER FREE.

BUT NOW I HAVE TAUGHT MYSELF WITH ONLY ONE LESSON,

OF TODAY .  NOW I WILL BE FREE TOO.  NOW THE "TEACHING MOMENT WILL ONLY BE

 FOR ME. OWNED BY ME.  ME ALONE.

ONLY 50 SECONDS OF MY 10 MINUTES OF TEACHING MOMENT IS LEFT 

AND IN THE FUTURE, I WILL BE THE TEACHER AND I WILL BE THE STUDENT.

 

I WILL TEACH MYSELF,

COMPASSION

HUMANITY

KNOWLEDGE OF ALL KINDS

GENEROSITY

OBSERVANT OF FAITH

HUMEROUS

AND

UNIQUE 

ASTUTE AND KIND AND GIVING

HUMAN BEING

AND

A 

GREAT SOLO PERFORMANCE ARTIST

MY NAME IS BINA SHARIF

AND I AM FROM THE 3RD WORLD...

THERE IS ONLY ONE BINA SHARIF

WHO WILL LEARN ALL OF THE ABOVE

AND WILL LIVE WITH THOSE VALUES TILL I SHE DIE...