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"DELIVER A BLOW AT ALL OF THEM

WITH YOUR LAUGHTER."  Annonymous
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MY FAVORITE WRITERS

PINTER

BECKETT

GOGOL

DOSTOEYSKY

CHEKHOV

TENNESSEE

BAUDELAIR

BALZAC

MUSPASSANT

IONESCO

SHAESPEARE

PIRANDELLO

RIMBAUD

BERNARD SHAW

DIDION

JAMES BALDWIN

YEATS

OSCAR WILDE

JAMES JOYCE

KEATS

EDGAR ALLEN POE
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"LAUGHTER GOT REPLACED BY

NOSTALGIC SADNESS"  Anonymous

"THE SERVANT ARRIVES WHEN THE MASTER CALLS."  Anonymous
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KARIMA, A NEW YORKER
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IT WILL BE ALL OVER ON SUNDAY.

I HAVE FAILED IN DEALING WITH ALL KINDS OF PEOPLE.

I WANT TO STAY AWAY FROM PEOPLE RIGHT NOW

I DON'T WANT TO UNDERSTAND THEM

I TRIED,

I FAILED.

I DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH THEM IN ANY WHICH WAY RIGHT NOW

I FIND THEM VERY VERY DANGEROUS RIGHT NOW

IN THEIR SMILING SLY REMARKS

THEY THINK YOU ARE STUPID WHEN THEY MAKE THOSE SNARKY REMARKS

THEY ARE NOT GOOD FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH RIGHT NOW

I NEED TO PRESERVE MY PSYCHE

MY ENERGY

AND MY CREATIVITY.

THEY ARE FOR SURE CRUCIAL TO MY CREATIVITY

SOME OF THEM AT LEAST

I KNOW TWO OR THREE NICE PEOPLE

THAT'S ALL

AND THERE ARE MILLIONS

WHAT A SHAME

I TRIED

TO BE NICE, KIND, GIVING, COMPASSIONATE

I FAILED

MAYBE SOME OF MY OWN WEAKNESS

THEY ARE HATEFUL TOWARDS ME

THEY ARE REALLY DESTRUCTIVE TOWARDS ME

THEY MAKE A REMARK IN PASSING

AND IT DISTURBS ME FOR MONTHS

I MUST BE A REAL THIN SKINNED PERSON

NOT A NEW YORKER

NO, NOT IN THE LEAST

THIUGH THIS IS THE ONLY PLACE I HAVE LIVED FOR SO LONG

DIDN'T LEARN THE TOUGHNESS OF NEW YORKER

THAT'S A COMPLIMENT

I WISH I WAS TOUGH,

RESILIENT,

AGGRESSIVE,

AMBITIOUS,

A CUT THROAT PERSON.

WHAT'S THE POINT OF LIVING IN NY IF YOU DON'T HAVE THOSE

QUALITIES WHICH LEAD TOWARDS SUCCESS

SUCCESS AT ANY COST

"I WILL KILL MY MOTHER TO GET AHEAD IF SHE WAS IN MY WAY."

THEY SAY

I AM SURE THEY DON'T MEAN IT

NO ONE IS GOING TO KILL THEIR MOTHERS TO GET AHEAD

BUT THIS SAYING SAYS IT ALL.

IT'S THE TOUGH DETERMINATION TO MAKE IT.

WHY LIVE IN NY OTHERWISE?

BUT MOST OF THE PEOPLE I HAVE ENCOUNTERED

OVER THE YEARS ARE How are you?TEFUL,

MEAN,

UNTHANKFUL,

SHAMELESS,

HORRENDOUS IN THEIR RACISM

IN THEIR PREJUDICE

PROVOKTIVE,

MISERABLY SUPERIOR, (THEY THINK)

JUST MEAN BASTARDS

I HAVE DECIDED TO BE ALONE

ESPECIALLY AFTER SEPT 11

JUST BE ALONE

READ BOOKS

PAINT

BE ALONE

BE SAD

MISS HOME

CRY

REGRET

LAUGH

CRY AGAIN

BUT BE ALONE RIGHT NOW

DO NOT RUN INTO PEOPLE

ALL THEY How are you?VE TO SAY IS, " YOUR COUNTRY IS FULL OF TERRORISTS."

"WHICH COUNTRY"?

I ASK

"YOUR COUNTRY."

THEY SAY

"THIS IS MY COUNTRY, USA, NEW YORK."

I SAY

"NO, I MEAN YOUR REAL COUNTRY, THE COUNTRY YOU CAME FROM, THE COUNTRY

WHICH IS FULL OF EVEIL PEOPLE, TERRORISTS, TERRORIST RELIGION THEY

PRACTICE, THEY SAY ALLH-HO-AKBAR BEFORE THEY KILL."

I HAVE DECIDED NOT TO GO OUT.

I MUST NOT GO OUT

THEY STOPP ME AT EVERY STREET CORNER AND SAY THESE AWFUL THINGS.

I MUST NOT GO OUT AT ALL.

JUST EXERCISE AT HOME

TAKE CARE OF YOUR DIET

YOUR HEALTH

JUST BELIEVE THAT THERE IS A FAMINE OUTSIDE

AND YOU MUST NOT GO OUT AT ALL

DANGEROUS FOR YOUR WELL BEING....

TAKE WALKS IN UN-KNOWN NEIGHBORHOODS

WHERE NO ONE KNOWS YOU...

BE POLITE WITH EVERY ONE EVEN IF THEY SAY NASTY THINGS ABOUT YOU

BE POLITE

WALK AWAY

SAY, TANKS AND WALK AWAY...

DO NOT TAKE IT TO HEART

DO NOT WASTE YOUR TALENT

YOUR EMOTIONS

YOUR SENSITIVITY

YOUR KINDNESS OF THE HEART,

YOUR SOPHISTICATION

FOR NOTHING.

THOSE KIND OF PEOPLE MEANS NOTHING TO YOU

THEIR REMARKS MEANS NOTHING TO YOU.

BE ABOVE IT

LET IT GO

MEDITATE

PRAY.

NOTHING AND NONE OF THEM ARE WORTH YOUR TIME

SAVE IT FOR YOURSELF

READ POETRY

YOU HAVE GREAT BOOKS

YOU LOVE TO READ KARIMA

DON'T YOU

YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU LOVE TO READ

YOU TOLD ME, ALL THOSE WRITERS ARE YOUR BEST FRIENDS

YOU HAVE COMPANIONSHIP OF ALL THE DEAD WRITERS

AND THEY WERE THE REALL WRITERS

NO JOKE ABOUT IT

THEIR POEMS STAYS IN THE DEPTH OF YOUR SOUL

THAT SHOULD GIVE YOU STRENGTH.

THAT SHOULD GIVE YOU,

JOY,

PAIN,

SORROW,

AMUSEMENT,

LIFE'S REALITIES,

LIFE'S TRUTHS AND IT'S FALSEHOOD

BRAVERY,

COURAGE,

STRUGGLE

PERSEVERANCE

WILL POWER

HARD WORK,

CAUSE TO LIVE

INSPIRATION TO LIVE

LONGING TO LIVE

DEDICATION

DEDICATION FOR A CAUSE

WILL TO LIVE,

WILL TO ACHIEVE

APPRECIATION OF BEAUTY

APPRECIATION OF TIME,

APPRECIATION OF JOY

APPRECIATION OF LOVE,

APPRECIATION OF TIME,

APPRECIATION OF DEATH EVEN.....

SEE KARIMA, YOU HAVE TONS

OF FRIENDS, DEAD FRIENDS

THEY ARE WILLING TO TALK TO YOU,

LAUGH WITH YOU,

CRY WITH YOU,

AMUSE YOU,

MAKE YOU THINK,

MKE YOU AWARE OF THINGS YOU DID NOT KNOW,

MAKE YOU AWARE OF WHAT'S GOING TO COME...

SAVE YOUR STRENGTH FOR THEM

SO YOU CAN LEARN FROM THEM

SAVE YOUR CREATIVITY FOR THEM, YOUR KNOWLEDGE

YOUR PSYCHOLOGY,

YOUR SENSE OF ANALYSIS,

YOUR ABILITY TO LEARN

ABILITY TO ACQUIRE KNOWLEDGE FROM THEM...

GATHER STRENGTH TO LEARN FROM THEM

PRESERVE YOUR SENSES TO LEARN FROM THEM

TIME IS ALWAYS SHORT LIKE LIFE

USE YOUR TIME WISELY...

IT'S QUITE LATE ALREADY

AND GETTING LATER AND LATER

SAVE YOUR SELF SWEETHEART

SAVE YOUR SELF DEAR KARIMA

SAVE YOUR SELF...............