ILLUMINATIONS OF A MALADY

Now there is no need

no need for inclusion

The intention of inclusion is only

to full-fill a need

the need of the one who wants to include for the purpose

which will accommodate the need of the one who wants

to include.

Its not for company or social hour or for pleasure.

Its purely the need of the hour.

The hour when and where some work must be done.

The work which is most important concern and the motivation

of the hour.

When that hour is passed, the need is over.

Its not the warmth of companionship.

Its to kill two birds with the same stone

BIRTH OF A POEM

The poem comes out of your inside out

All blood and veins and guts...

How can one eliminate the beautiful from the ugly?

The sight is revolting, if not only disgusting and repulsive...

But than the depth of the thought is all.

Isn't it?

The pain of the moment...

The birth of the poem, when the guts soaking with blood

were turned inside out.

AFFECTION

You can't fake affection

You can't have business with affection

Affection makes you no money

Business does...........

Love is not about calculating how to use the other......

The other who is capable of love and you are not

Its like a clear glass.........

The clarity shows what's in it....

Affection shows.......

NEGATIVE

You have to do something positive out of the negative

You just can't eliminate the negative from your life

It will keep coming back

From all directions........

How many directions can you turn away from and still

reach your destination?

Keep going...

Keep embracing the negative

and turn it into an opportunity for yourself.

Its up to you to that for yourself.

All is up-to you except your death.

HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA

You have to take care of these people

and the remarks they make which offends your sensibility...

If you don't they will keep doing it and you will keep reducing

your worth and self esteem...........

No fucking thing is worth it, worth reducing your self esteem

No diamond or a myonaise soaked tuna sandwitch, they call,"lunch"

Don't ever give any one ever the chance.........

You hear?

Nasty people around you all your life

Take care of it now since you only became aware of it now...........

Now, it took you that long to know that people are nasty?

CAMUS

A person of sun

Water

Fierceness

Senses

Uncomfortable within his own skin

Constricting ideological precision was fitted on him.

"Neither be killers nor victims." Camus

"Nouveau rich pharisees of justice." Camus

ROUTINE

Have to change

Change life

Good life

Is it?

Bad life

Is it?

Have to change life

Not happy with it

Need to change routine

That's in case there is one

There is none.........

That's a major problem

Find a routine

Have one........

Only having coffee in a cafe

That's the routine

But after that

After what?

Having coffee in a cafe

After that?

Its all confusion after that

After having coffee in a cafe...

Its all confusion after that, frustration, unhappiness...

Actually that's the routine

Unhappiness and confusion after having coffee in a cafe....

Should be happy in that routine

Not many people have that

They all want that

To have coffee in a cafe

They work 9 to 5 all their lives just to have that

having a coffee in a cafe

And that's your unhappiness?

Be grateful for that unhappiness

Be happy in that blessed unhappiness