JUST THE SAME LIKE BEFORE.
JAHAL.
"STORY OF THE GOJRA GIRL."
"TRAGIC STORY OF VERY PROMISING PEOPLE.
Memory
Soliloquies
Have distorted echo sounds
Inaudible
Angst
Disappointments
Not happy
Middle age
Everyone is happy when young
They all made wrong choices
Like everyone else
Life issues
They are criticizing themselves and everyone else
For making the wrong choices
Lonely
Angry
Bitter
About life and about friends
Spreading rumors about each other
Everyone feels that they destroyed their lives
They think they took the wrnog road...
Neurotic instincts
Desperation
Regret
Unhappiness
lack of choices
"What choice do I have?"
They ask...
Recall of their youth which makes them more unhappy
They blame themselves
Blame each other more
Un-necessary rambling
What's the point of their story?
Disappointment
They believe that their present life is disappointing
Because they made wrong choices
Maybe they did?
But what's the solution?
None.
They have given up...
They are stuck
Stuck in their own past.
They can't undo their past
But they can still make some healthy choices
But their thinking is not healthy
Stuck in negativity
They can still get into the right road,
Make a right turn
But they can't
Water under the bridge...
Too late
But that's not true
It's never too late till it is
And that is death
Before that one has the freedom to make another choice
A new choice...
But that doesn't seem possible
They are unhappy
Confused
Have serious problems
Can't have a healthy relationship
Unresolved problems
Unresolved issues
Depression
Lots of blame
Lots of regret...
Very bitter
Bitter about the lack of their solid identity
Perhaps they expected a lot better?
Perhaps they expected a rose garden?
Life is not a bunch of roses
Even if it was, there are thorns attached to the roses
The thorns bite if you are not careful...
It's strange that all of them think
That they made the wrong choices
What's the right choice?
Does anyone know?
When one is making a choice,
One doesn't think
Or is aware that the choice is the wrong one,
Otherwise they won't make it.
No one is so self destructive.
It's always afterwards everyone thinks,
Especially in this case
That all their choices made innocently were wrong.
They are all so lost
They are bombarding themselves with blame...
How do they know?
That their lives were supposed to be different?
Perhaps this is how exactly
Their lives were supposed to be...
But that's not how they are behaving...
They are lost
Lost and unhappy
Living in the past
Living in the glory of youth,
passion, ambition, desire, hope...
Now totally lost
Unable to change
Unable to forgive themselves for past mistakes
Even if those were not mistakes at that time...
It's sad
Isn't it?
Sad story of the very promising people.
And that's the ,"Story of Gojra Girls."
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