NOTEBOOKS NUMBER 3 CONTINUES

NEW CAFE'S

NO ONE WANTS ANY ONE TO READ IN THE SO CALLED, "CAFE'S"
NOW THEY ARE DIMLY LIT AND THEY BECOME WINE BARS AT 4PM.THESE CAFE'S ARE IN THE NEW EXPENSIVE AND PRETENTIOUS EAST VILLAGE.
NO ONE COMPLAINS ABOUT IT OR THE THUNDEROUSLY LOUD MUSIC...
THEY ACTUALLY WELCOME THE DIMLY LIT, OUTRAGEOUSLY LOUD CAFE'S
BECAUSE NO ONE READS ANY MORE.
THEY HAVE THE LIGHT OF THEIR IPHONES...
WHAT ELSE CAN A MODERN HUMAN BEING NEEDS?
ANYWAY, READERS OF BOOKS ARE BEING CONSIDERED OLD, OLD FASHIONED
MEDIEVAL,BACKWARD HAGS.


CONFLICTING FEELINGS TOWARDS THE FAMILY
TOWARDS HER HEART...

"SELF DESTRUCTIVE ,OLDER STREET PERFORMER."  Charles Laughton in a film called,
St Martin's Lane

'C0QUETTISH CHARM
GRASPING AMBITION"

"HUNGER"
IF YOU ARE HUNGRY, YOU WILL EAT A BRICK."
YOU HAVE TO HAVE THAT KIND OF HUNGER TO SUCCEED
IN ANYTHING.

"HEARTLESSNESS
REMORSE"

THIS CAFE CALLED, NO WAY CAFE IS DARK, DARK, DARK
"DARKNESS THERE AND NOTHING MORE."

"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE."

"GOOD MORNING HEARTACHE...
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO KNEW ME WELL."  Billy Holiday

"LOVE ME OR LEAVE ME
I WILL BE ALONE." ?

"WHY NOT CAFE?
NO WAY CAFE ?
ANY WAY CAFE ?
WHY NOT CAFE?
WHAT IS THE NAME OF THIS DAMN CAFE ON CHRISTOPHER STREET ?

PROVOCATION WAS BOTH HIS MISSION AND A NECESSITY "  Crozco

"EVERYTHING SHOULD BE DONE AGAINST THE GRAIN, AGAINST THE CURRENT." Crozco

"CONFRONTATIONAL APPROACH."

BANQUET OF THE RICH.

"REJECTION AND INDIFFERENCE."  MINUTES OF A MEETING ?

WE ARE ALL WAITING TO  DIE.?

2-30 PM WEDNESDAY

TARRALUCHI, MEET ION, DIRECTOR, NORWAY PLAYS..

8 PM, BELASCO THEATER 111 W 44 ST

"O'CONNOR'S AWARENESS OF HER GIFTS GIVES HER A SPECIAL KIND OF INTEREST IN THEM." ?

"BE AWARE THAT YOU ARE A WRITER AND A GOOD ONE.  THAT WILL CREATE
MORE INTEREST IN WRITING. " ?

"LEAVE THE DULL CERTAINTIES OF HOME AND GO WANDERING."

"DESTINATION?  GREAT WILD WORLD OUT THERE..."
GO WANDERING." ?

"FLANEUR...A STROLLER SAUNTERING THROUGH ANONYMOUS CROWDS
IN A NOISY, GREEDY, UNSCRIPTED PANORAMA OF THE CITY."   Pete Hamil

"HE HAS NO EXACT DESTINATION" A POETIC STRAY EMBRACING CHANCE
AND ACCIDENT." ?

"POWERFUL OBSERVATIONS."

POWERS OF DEDUCTION
STRAIGHT TALK
STICK TO INVENTIVENESS
COURAGE AND SENSE OF HONOR

I LACKED ALL QUALITIES OF MODERN SUCCESS, THE BIGGEST ONE WAS, HUSTLE,
AGGRESSION,ASSERTIVENESS." BS

"WE ARE WHO WE WERE." Pete Hamil

"EXCLUSIVE
AVERAGE
TAME

"THINK OF DISCOVERY
OR SELF DISCOVERY
OR DANGER...BS

HOPPING AROUND TO SURPRISE ONLY MYSELF. BS

"SO IT HAPPENED...
WHAT YOU WANTED TO HAPPEN FOR SO LONG
HAPPEND."  BS

"NOT TO PLEASE A PAID AUDIENCE...
THEY ARE ADDRESSED TO THOSE NAMELESS FACES HE HAS SEEN IN THE CROWDED STREETS." ?

"A WANDERING WITNESS... FLANEUR..WAITING FOR THE LIGHT TO CHANGE.  Rosenblatt

"HOW LIKE MYSELF I AM."  Rosenblatt

LETTERS VS EMAILS

SLOWER
WHIRLING
GESTATION OF INTELLIGENCE AND REASONING FAR FROM THE INSTANT RESPONSES
DEMANDED BY EMAILS...
LETTERS HAD THE POWER TO GRANGIVEN TO NANDANI BY BILLT US A LARGER LIFE AND THEIR PHYSICAL
PRESENCE CARRIES HUMAN TRACES. " ?

MANUSCRIPTS
ARCHIVES
RARE BOOKS....LIBRARY OF EMORY

HARY RANSON CENTER  AT THE UNIVERSITY OF TEXAS AT AUSTIN.

"HUMAN COMMUNICATION IS LADEN WITH A GLOOM POTENT." ?

PRECAUTIONS FOR KEVIN AFTER SURGERY

ICE, ICE, WATER WITH LEMON, LOTS OF WATER WITH LEMON, REST.

NOTES ABOUT THE PLAY, "ENGLISH BREAKFAST TEA"

IF THERE IS A PLAYWRIGHT INVOLVED IN THE STORY THEN THE PROBLEM
OF THE TEA BAG IN RED VELVET GIVEN TO NANDANI BY BILL MAKES NO SENSE...?

IS IT STILL BILL RESPONSIBLE FOR THE POISON IN THE STORY?

WHAT IS THE MOST LIKELY ANSWER TO THE PROBLEM?

POSSIBILITY OF THE SUSPECTS ARE...

BILL ?
NANDANI ?
YOUNG PLAYWRIGHT ?
ENGLISH WOMAN CRITIC'S STEP CHILDREN ?
SOME ONE AT THE OPENING NIGHT PARTY OF THE PLAY ?

(Struggle of writing the play, ENGLISH BREAKFAST TEA BY BS.)

"I THINK, THEREFORE I AM."  Descartes

"ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY UNIQUE."  Margaret Mead

'EMPTINESS." ?

"WOEFUL RENCH VAGABONDS.
AGING BRITISH POETS." ?

"HOW HOLLOW EVEN OUR
MOST ELABORATE CONVERSATIONAL
RITUALS ARE.." ?

"SPIN ARCANE PHILOSOPHIC HEAD SCRATCHING INTO
REMARKABLY ACCESSIBLE HIGH COMEDY." ?

"PRODUCTIONS SELDOM GIVE FULL VALUE TO THE
DEEP MORTAL CHILL OF THESE PLAYS OF THE FRAUGHT
DANGERS IN PINTER'S UNIVERS OR THE ACHING PATHOS
WITHIN BECKETT'S.
THESE PRODUCTIONS MOSTLY STAY COMFORTABLY
AND TANTALIZINGLY ON THE SURFACE.
ONE SHOULD LEAVE THESE PLAYS WITH A SHIVER AND A SMILE.  BEN bRANTLY

"FUTILITY OF LIFE AND FUTILITY OF SPEECH." ?

"DON'T GIVE LECTURES TO HIM.  wORDS ARE FUTILKE." BS

"HE IS GROWN UP.
HE IS AN ADULT, SMART, EDUCATED.
HE KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING.
IT'S BETTER FOR YOU TO SHUT UP."  BS

"I AM THE BIGGEST DISAPPOINTMENT TO MYSELF.
WHEN I LOOK BACK...
I REALIZE THAT I NEVER HAD REAL ACTORS...
NEITHER IN,
HERE COMES THE CHANGE
COMEDY NIGHT LIVE
MISSING SCENES
MUSLIM DIALOGUE IN MIRRORS CRACKED
COLONY OF ARTISTS
HELP ME JUMP OVER THE SNOW
SEX INDUSTRY
ONE THOUSAND HOURS OF LOVE...
NONE OF THESE SHOWS I EVER HAD ONE DECENT ACTOR EXCEPT  KEVIN AND BRIAN....

"PINTER'S VERBAL FINESSE
DOING THEIR BEST TO ONE UP
EACH OTHER IN AUTHORITTATIVELY
DELIVERED NONSENSE."......Ben Brantly

""WE HAVE ALL BECOME AMBIGUOUS ADVERSARIES TO EACH OTHER." ..BS

"HELPLESSLY CEREBRAL...? ME ?

"TWO TRAMPS IN THE WASTELAND
OF SAMENESS AND RECONCILIATIONS...
PORTRAIT OF A MARRIAGE...
STRENGTHS AND WEAKNESSES OF STAYING TOGETHER..
EVILS AND VIRTUES OF CO-DEPENDENCE."  Ben Brantly

"A WAY OF MARKING TIME AND IGNORING ITS INEVITABLE TOLL."  Ben Brantly

"I FUCKED UP MY LIFE IN EVERY WHICH WAY."   BS

"CALL IS FORWARDED
CALL IS FORWARDED
CALL IS FORWARDED...
SUCH BULLSHIT

SHE IS SO CONFUSED...?

I Bina Sharif FUCKED UP MY LIFE
COMPLETELY,ABSOLUTELY, THROUGHLY.
I AM RESPONSIBLE F
OR THE FUCK UP...
NO ONE ELSE IS TO BE BLAMED
BUT THE MOST DIFFICULT PROBLEM TO HANDLE RIGHT NOW IS THAT
I AM STILL FUCKING UP THE REMAINING DAYS OF MY LIFE
AND BELIEVE IT OR NOT...
THATS REALLY BOTHERING ME..
BECAUSE NOW I AM TOTALLY 100% PERCENT AWARE THAT
I HAVE FUCKED UP MY LIFE AND I AM STILL FUCKING IT UP...
AND THATS WHAT IS SO IMMENSELY DISTURBING...
BEFORE, (Earlier in my life ) I  DIDN'T THE FUCK UP THE FUCK UPS KNOW, I WASN'T AWARE
THAT I WAS FUCKING UP MY LIFE SYOU HAVE NO RIGHT.   O IT DIDN'T BOTHER ME
BUT NOW I AM SO CONSCIOUS OF THE FUCK UPS AND I STILL
CAN'T STOP
BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO STOP AND THATS THE REAL
TRAGEDY WHICH PERHAPS WILL BE THE SOURCE OF ULTIMATE BREAKDOWN....
BUT THE MATTER OF FACT STATEMENT IS THAT (As sure as I am of my birth)
I AM SO CERTAIN (100% positive)
THAT I DID FUCK UP MY ENTIRE LIFE AND THAT'S MY CONFESSION.
MY LIFE IS FUCKED UP AND I DID IT.  I FUCKED IT ALL UP...SIGNED BY, Bina sharif
P.S. SINCE IT'S TOTALLY FUCKED UP, (my life I mean ) I SHOULD NOW RELAX
AND DON'T GIVE A FUCK BUT SINCE I AM STILL FUCKING IT UP, (my life i mean(
I CAN'T STOP HAVING BREAKDOWNS....Bina Sharif's confession

YOU DON'T AHVE A CHILD, YOU DON'T HAVE A DOG, YOU HAVE NO RIGHT....BS

ABOUT  TERRESSA MAY OF ENGLAND

DISPLAY OF GAUCHENESS

NO SMALL TALK
NO BIG TALK
NO IDEAS
NO CHARM
NO WARMTH
FAMOUS FOR MAKING EVERYONE--SHE MEETS PAINFULLY ILL---AT--EASE." ?

TOYNBEE'S
"A STUDY OF HISTORY."

12 VOLUMES
1934---1961

"THE FATE OF CIVILIZATION IS DETERMINED BY THEIR RESPONSE
TO THE CHALLENGES FACING THEM. CIVILIZATION DIE FROM SUICIDE
NOT MURDER."   Toynbee

"CIVILIZATION DECAY WHEN YOU LOSE YOUR MORAL FIBRE. "
CULTURAL ELITES TURNS PARASITES EXPLAINING CIVILIZATION."  Toynbee

"YOUR SUCCESS DEPENDS ON HOW YOU RESPOND TO A CHALLENGE."  Toynbee

GOETHE'S FAUST
DAUDET
SUMAS
VERNE
MAUPASSANT....READ THEM...BS

WED APRIL 17,  2PM
APRIL 24, WED, 2PM
MAY IST WED, 2PM .  SHOWS TO BE SEEN WITH EVA

MAY 12, AT THE SHED ,
MAY 26...KING LEAR...TO BE SEEN WITH KEVIN....

"I DITCHED MY iPHONE AND IT CHANGED MY LIFE...CHARLOTTE CHURCH

PASCAL NADON PRESS  ????

pascal@pascalnadon.com .   ????

"INTEMPRATE AND UNBRIDLED LIER....???

CONTEMPT????