KHDIJA AND ZULEKHA'S HOUSE DIVIDED

KHDIJA AND ZULEKHA'S HOUSE DIVIDED

"This story has finished"

"Are you sute?"

"Yes, I am."

"You have said that many times beore."

'Yes, I know and if for some reason the story is not finished, it has to."

"It really has to end.  The time has come for this particular story to end,

"It has to.  It has become very crazy, very disturbing, very very destructive."

"I guess so but you don't need more destruction in your life, do you?

Seriously speaking, do you need more destruction, more waste of time in your life?

Waste of yesterday

Waste of today

Waste of so many days

Waste of months and years

Waste of a life.

That should be thhe title of your new one woman play...

"YOUR WASTED LIFE"

Seriously speaking, how you wasted your time, your money,

Your strength, your energy, your emotions, your life on petty things, on people, on family,

Most of them were so different than you, most of them knowingly or un-knowingly

were preoccupied, happy with their own aims, their own problems, their own life.

Lets face it.  Maybe they never cared for you, maybe they did it in their own way,

maye they were un-able o communicate their concerns for you, maybe they didn't have much concern

for you.  I knw it hurts to knw that.  But it wouldn't hurt so uch if you took care of your own life.

Look hw she took care of herself singlehandedly.

She couldn't care less about the extended family, aunts and uncles and  nieces and nephews...

'To hell with all that"  She whispered to herself and went on with her life.

And you?

You had an emotional problem.

You wanted to be accepted, praised, cared for, loved by the family,loved by their children,

You see you were so occupied with them that you forgot to have your own children,

You forgot about a house, money, security, your own work.

Deep down in your heart you didn't think much of your own work like tgey did.

You didn't appreciate your own worth, your own talent, your own graetness.

If you didn't care about any of that, why would the others do it/

You had an emotional problem since your childhood.

You wanted to be accepted, included, to be lovd by them and why not?

Every child wants that.

Yes, every child but not to such extent.

They also learned to love themselves, you didn't.  You prer to love them more than you

And they didn't love you to that extreme.

Maybe that was a better approach to life but you were you...your needs were different than their

needs.

Perhaps you had guilt, guilt of some kind and they didn't...

What kind of guit?

I don't know...

AND WHY DON'T YOU KNOW?  ARN'T YOU FROM THE SAME HOUSEHOLD...

SIENCE...

SILENCE...

SILENCE...

NO ANSWER FROM ZULEKHA...

But thhe biggest mistake and the tragedy of your life is that you never accepted yourself.

Never accepted your work, your choices, your life style.

You seeked others approval

You never appreciated anything belonging to you and that included your life...

You excluded yourself from your own ife...

your profession, your happiness, you always expected approval from others especially your own

family...about your career choices, about your apartment, about your writing, about your

clothes, your shoes, your choices, your travels, you name it, you let them control all your decisions.

You excluded yourself from everything which was important for you, everything which was yours...

and thats how you were excluded....

YOU GAVE EVERY ONE A CHANCE TO EXCLUDE YOU...

How you know your own story or actually how you didn't knw your own story...un-till now.

TODAY AT 6PM ON JULY 12, THE MONTH OF YOUR OWN BIRTH BY SOME MIRACLE

YOU FOUND OUT THAT YOUR SEARCH FOR ACCEPTANCE WAS THE CAUSE OF

YOUR IMAGINARY OR NOT SO IMAGINARY EXCLUSION...

NOW YOU MUST END THAT STORY..........

TODAY AT THIS MOMENT IN LIFE IN THIS CITY WHERE YOU WANDERED

ALWAYS WITH THE FEELIG OF HURT AND EXCLUSION, A REALIZATION CAME TO

YOU.

WHILE YOU WERE SITTING ON A BENCH IN A LITTLE STREET HIDDEN BY ALL THE

HAPPY PEOPLE...YOU SUDDENLY REALIZED THAT THE STORY OF HURT, HURT BY

 FAMILY, BY PEOPLE, BY FRIENDS, BY AUTHORITY HAS COME TO AN END...

THIS EVENING A NEW STORY MUST BEGIN...

EXPECTATIONS OF ACCEPTANCE BY ALL OTHERS HAS FINALLY ENDED.

YOU WILL NEVER EVER CARE IF NO ONE, SAINT OR A DEVIL DOESN'T ACCEPT YOU.



YOU REALIZED THAT YOU HAVE BEEN HURT IN MANY, MANY WAYS...

BUT IT ENDED ON THAT BENCH IN THAT ANNONYMOUS LONELY STREET.

AND ON THAT VERY BENCH IN THAT VERY ISOLATED STREET A NEW STORY MUST

BEGIN.

EXPECTATION OF ACCEPTANCE BY ALL OTHERS  HAS FINALLY ENDED.

YOU WILL NEVER CARE FROM NOW ON IF A SINT OR A DEVIL DOESN'T LIKE YOU,

YOU WILL LAUGHH AT TE IDEA.

YOU WILL INCLUDE YOURSELF IN YOUR PAST SENSE ACCEPTNCE OF YOU BY YOU.

OF EXCLUSIO AND CHANGE IT INTO ACCEPTENCE OF YOU BY YOU.

THEN AND ONLY THEN IN YOUR LIFE THE FEELING OF EXCLUSION BY OTHERS

WILL GO AWAY AND BE REPLACED BY A GREAT SENSE F FEEL OF INCLUSION.

YOU AND YOUR LIFE IS FINALLY INCLUDED IN EVERYTHING, EVERY MOMENT,

EVERY OCCASION, EVERY RESULT AND EVERY ACTION BY YOU AND ONLY BY YOU.

ONLY THHEN YOU WILL BE HAPPY.

HAPPY AND SATISFIED AND PROUD.

BE PROUD.

WHOEVER YOU ARE, BE PROUD OF THAT.

YOU WILL LAUGH AT THE IDEA OF ACCETENCE OR NON-ACCEPTANCE BY

OTHERS..HOW SILLY, HOW ABSURD, HOW WASTEFUL.

AND TIS FOOLISH IDEA WOULD BE REPLACED BY A GREAT FEEL OF INCLUSION,

INCLUSION OF YOU AND YOUR LIFE BY YOU AND BY YOU ALONE...

YOU WILL INCLUDE YOURSELF, YOUR WISHES, YOUR DESIRES, YOUR PASSIONS,

YOUR NEEDS IN EVERY MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE

BE PROUD

BE PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE

BE PROUD....