EMOTIONAL CHEMISTRY

All lacking

Emotions?

Chemistry?

A question

Without a question mark

Chemistry?

A mixture of feelings

Disturbances

Memories

Childhoods

Experience of pain

Loss

Love

A season

A summer

A winter day

Cold

Freezing

Shivering

Slipping

Emotionally slipping

Maybe not of Ice

But of childhood

Together

Alone

Always alone

Sharing the loneliness

Sharing the on coming Loneliness

Sharing the days gone by

Sharing the fissure of Imagination

In which they both once lived

The reality that was

Once

Long time ago

The emotional chemistry

The sameness of something

The sameness in something

The genes of siblings

The genes in which your parents lived

When you were all together

When you shared the sameness of those genes

The habits

The long lost habits

The habits of love

The habit of a meal

Sharing that meal

Fighting over an egg

Fighting over a piece of lamb

The lamb and the eggs were expansive

The family was not rich

Far from it

The children wanted to be rich

One day they will be

They always thought

They always thought

That the life in the future will be better than the past

They have plenty of eggs

And lamb chops

They don't have the siblings

They don't have the memory of that shared chemistry

They used to tease each other

And

Then Laugh

They used to fight

And

Then laugh

They used to cry

And

Then laugh

They shared laughter

They had sense of humor

And

They shared it

They spoke to each other

Without speaking

They listened to each other

Without speaking

They understood each other

They understood their surroundings

They knew who they were

They had emotional chemistry binding them

Together like the glue

Like the bond of birth

Like the glue which never fully cleanly come off

The binding is still there

Though not visible at all

The shrieks of pain

Are there

Though not loud enough to be heard by the neighbors

But there are no neighbors

All are remote people

Operating on remote controls

With their machines

All in love with a machine

Push the button

Push another button

Now cry

Now laugh

Push another button

Now fight

Push another button

Now make love

Do people still make love?

Yes, they do ...

In the movies

They have slimmer bodies in the movies

More tanned

More muscles

Easy to take the clothes off

More emotional chemistry in the movies

They meet in a bar

Or in a plane

Then the next scene takes place in the hotel room

Nice hotel room

Expansive

Suite

The leading man's suite

The woman he just met

Is always blond

Always slim

Always in a designer's dress and coat

And heels

Perfect make up

Perfect perfume

One can smell it across the movie screen

They have chemistry

Perfect chemistry

Instant, perfect sexual chemistry

And emotional chemistry comes in the second scene

If the screen writer missed it in the first meeting

The other poor slobs in their poor shitty life

Are seeking that emotional chemistry

All their lives

The one they had in their poor home

Where the parents lived

Where there were laughters

And

Fight over food

And fight over books

And fight over hot water

And laughter all around

The teasing, the crying, the yelling, the bitching

Life all around

All things available which makes a thing called, "Emotional chemistry."

Now desperately looking for it

In a bar

In a cafe

In the restaurant

At the opera house

In a theater

At the cinema

In a museum

In the park near the dog run

In the summer time

In the snow

In sleet

In The slush on the streets

At the beach

In a cafe late.............................

Can't find it.............................

Gone forever.........................

Maybe it was never there.....................

That is impossible

Its existence can't be denied

It was there

Very much there

I am the proof

Still living

Still breathing

Still carrying on

On the strength of the vanished," Emotional chemistry of my home of the past."