"I HAVE SUDDENLY BECOME EQUALL TO MY LIFE." DURAS plus, DIALOGUE, A SHORT PLAY BY BS

 "I HAVE SUDDENLY BECOME EQUAL TO MY LIFE."  DURAS and a short play called "Dialogue by BS

 A DIALOUGH, A SHORT PLAY BY BINA SHARIF....Copyright:binasharif 2021

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A DIALOUGH:   SHORT PLAY

                                 BY

                           BINA SHARIF

copyright:binasharif 2021

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ZULEKHA:

WHAT SPECIAL MOMENT ARE YOU WAITING FOR TO DO WHAT YOU REALLY WANT?

INJSA:

WAITING TO OPEN THE DOOR

ZULEKHA:

JUST GO AHEAD AND OPEN IT,,,OPEN THE DOOR.

INJSA:

MAYBE TOMORROW...MAYBE TOMORROW?

ZULEKHA:

"HOW CAN YOU BE CHOSEN IF YOU CAN'T MAKE A CHOICE FOR YOURSELF?"  THAT'S

 WHAT MARGUERITE DURAS SAID

INJSA:

I WOULD FORCE MYSELF TO WANT SOMETHING,  HOWEVER HARD IT MIGHT BE"

 THAT'S WHAT MARGUERITE DURAS, SAID AS WELL.

ZULEKHA:

SO ARE YOU GOING TO OPEN THE DOOR?

INJSA:

TOMORROW...MAYBE TOMORROW?

ZULEKHA:

"AS IF SOME PAIN WAS DEADENED."  THAT'S WHAT DURAS SAID.

INJSA;

I NEED TO FIND THAT DEADENED PAIN FIRST BEFORE I OPEN THE DOOR.

PAIN IS THE LOCK,  A VERY HEAVY LOCK ON THE DOOR...

"ZULEKHA:

DO YOU SEE THE DOOR?

INJSA:

YES,  I SEE THE DOOR.  IT'S MY MEMORY.   WHY IS IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO OPEN?

ZULEKHA:

SINCE YOU RECOGNIZED THAT,  IT WOULD BE MUCH EASIER...

INJSA:

I DOUBT IT.  THE PAIN IS TREMENDOUS.  AFTER THE FIRST CRACK, I WILL CLOSE THE

 DOOR SHUT AGAIN...

ZULEKHA:

YOU WILL NEVER HEAL

INJSA:

I DON'T WANT TO.  IF I HEAL,  MY MEMORIES WILL DISAPPEAR.  THEY WILL VANISH.

WHAT WILL I HAVE THEN?

ZULEKHA:

YOU WILL HAVE YOURSELF

INJSA:

WHAT GOOD WILL THAT DO?  I WON'T KNOW WHO I WAS...

ZULEKHA;

YOU NEED TO KNOW WHO YOU ARE INSTEAD OF KNOWING WHO YOU WERE...

INJSA:

I CAN NEVER KNOW WHO I AM WITHOUT KNOWING WHO I WAS?

ZULEKHA;

ONCE YOU WILL UNLOCK THE DOOR,  YOU WILL FIND OUT..

INJSA:

FIND OUT ABOUT WHO I AM?  OR WHO I WAS BEFORE?

ZULEKHA:

YOU WILL FIND OUT EVERYTHING...

MAKE AN EFFORT.

THAT'S ALL YOU HAVE TO DO...

KEEP MOVING TOWARDS THE DOOR...

EVERYTHING ELSE WILL HAPPEN...

INJSA:

I AM SCARED, I AM SO SCARED...

ZULEKHA;

SCARED OF WHAT?

INJSA;

ABOUT FINDING WHAT LIES BEHIND THAT DOOR.

ZULEKHA:

YOU ALREADY KNOW

INJSA:

I DO?

ZULEKHA:

YES.

INJSA:

HOW COME?

ZULEKHA;

THAT'S WHAT YOU ARE AFRAID OF.

INJSA:

AFRAID OF WHAT?

ZULEKHA:

YOU KNOW THE SOURCE OF YOUR FEAR. YOU HAVE ALREADY TOLD ME...

INJSA:

TOLD YOU ABOUT WHAT?

ZULEKHA;

ABOUT YOUR FEAR. YOUR FEAR OF YOUR MEMORIES WHICH ARE LOCKED IN THAT

 ROOM BEHIND THAT HEAVY LOCKED DOOR...

INJSA:

I CAN'T GO THERE...I CAN'T OPEN THAT DOOR,  IT'S TOO HEAVY,  I AM TOO WEAK...

ZULEKHA;

STRENGTH WILL COME TO YOU ONCE YOU START TO MOVE...

INJSA:

AND THEN?

ZULEKHA:

THEN WHAT?

INJSA: 

YES,  EXACTLY. WHAT WILL HAPPEN ONCE I STARTED TO MOVE TOWARDS THE DOOR?

ZULEKHA:

YOUR WHOLE LIFE...YOUR WHOLE LIFE WILL OPEN UP LIKE AN OPEN BOOK...

INJSA:

I DON'T WANT TO EVER OPEN THAT BOOK.

ZULEKHA:

THE BOOK IS ALREADY OPENED. OPENED BY YOUR LIFE'S LONG PAIN WAITING TO BE

 DEALT WITH...

INJSA;

IN-CASE I DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH IT?

ZULEKHA:

THAT'S THE QUESTION AND YOU HAVE ALREADY ANSWERED IT...

INJSA:

I HAVE NO ANSWERS. THAT'S WHY I SEEKED YOUR HELP.

ZULEKHA;

I CAN'T HELP YOU.  IF IT WAS THAT EASY, I WOULD HAVE OPENED THE DOOR MYSELF

 LONG TIME AGO. EVERYTHING BEHIND THAT LOCKED DOOR BELONGS TO ME AS

 WELL BUT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU TO UN-LOCK IT...I SEEM STRONG, I SEEM

 MORE POSITIVE,  MORE HEALTHY BUT THAT'S JUST A FAKE COVER...I AM EXACTLY

 LIKE YOU...SEEKING, DESIRING, WANT TO BE PAIN FREE OF MY MEMORIES WHICH ARE

 YOURS AS WELL...I AM YOUR LONG, LOST SISTER...IT WAS ACTUALLY ME WHO LOCKED

 OUR MEMORIES BEHIND THAT LOCK AND WAS WAITING FOR YOU TO COME ALONG

 AND HELP ME FIND OUT WHAT'S BEHIND MY PAIN. 

INJSA:

OUR PAIN. THAT'S WHAT IS HIDDEN.

OUR COLLECTIVE PAIN IS HIDDEN BEHIND OUR LOCKED DOORS,  DOORS WHICH WILL

 OPEN TO OUR UN-HEALED WOUNDS AND THE WOUNDS WILL BLEED AGAIN AND

 AGAIN AND AGAIN...

ZULEKHA:

PERHAPS I WAS WRONG TO TELL YOU TO OPEN THAT DOOR...

MAYBE NEITHER YOU, NOR I,  SHOULD TRY...

LET'S LEAVE THE PAIN ALONE, THE WOUNDS ALONE, THE SIMMERING SORROW

 ALONE...

LET'S LIE DOWN TO FINALLY REST. I AM SO EXHAUSTED...SO EXHUSTED THAT I CAN

 FINALLY DIE...

INJSA:

CAN I LIE DOWN NEXT TO YOU?  CAN I? 

 I FOUND YOU AFTER SUCH A LONG TIME...

A LONG, LONG TIME...

LET'S LIE DOWNTOGETHER, 

LET'S SLEEP...

 SLEEP TOGETHER IN THE SAME BED...

LIKE WE USED TO DO WHEN WE WERE CHILDREN.

IT'S BEEN A LONG JOURNEY...

A VERY LONG JOURNEY...

LET'S REST..

LET'S REST FINALLY

SLEEP...

LET'S SLEEP....

(They lie down, hug each other tightly, a song they used to listen to when they were children come on, lights slowly fade to black)

BLACKOUT

END OF PLAY