DON'T

Let things the way they are...
Don't dig deep into them
No use...
No point...
Its been too long...
The distance has gathered speed...
Time has changed things

People have forgotten
what they ,"said"
Or didn't."say"

Every one's memory is not as remarkably disturbing as yours
To you everything is about remembrance...
For others everything is for forgetting...

Forget it
Not the most important thing
By emphasizing other's wrong
you emphasize your need...

Ever heard the word,"Needy?"
A bad word, a very bad word....

For get it...
Just forget it...
Distance has gathered dust and dirt over it
and has covered up the facts
The facts of real ,"Hurt"
Real,"humiliation"

Don't bring it back
No one remembers...
Except you
Because your sharp memory is the source
The source of trouble...
Not only for yourself but for others

They resent you for remembering...
Things long past...
Things long forgotten...

Remember other things
Good things
Remember lines...
That's a good one
Remember lines...
From plays...
Then you will be ready to act...

Thats it...
You found the answer
Remember lines from the famous plays
And quote them in front of famous people
They will be so impressed
They will think you are a genius with memory
and memory is everything in the theater...

Join theater...
With your skills, you will be very successful
You can remember

Isn't that what bothers you all day long?
All night long?
"Who said, "what?"
And "Why" did they <"say" whatever, "The" said...

So sad...so sad...
Waste of a talent...
Waste of an education..
"An educated woman with nothing to do."
Like Chekov said...
'An educated woman with nothing to do."

Well!well! that's going to be the title of your new one woman show...

"AN EDUCATED WOMAN WITH NOTHING TOO DO BUT REMEMBRANCE"
"OR AN EDUCATED WOMAN WITH NOTHING TO DO BUT REMEMBERING..."

That's even better...
A brand new one person play coming up for your entertainment...
Now you can put all your pain, regrets, humiliations, memories, unhappiness, joys,
past, present, the sleepless nights over stupid stuff and stupid meaningless people
into an art form..."Theater" its called...."Theater."

"You want to go to the theater tonight?"
'What's playing?"
" A lot of stuff, but this one sounds interesting"
"Which one?"
"THis one..."AN EDUCATED WOMAN WITH NOTHING TO DO BUT REMEMBERING..."
"That really does sound interesting."
'Lets go."
'Yes, lets go."
"How much?"
"Pretty cheap"
"CHeap?  With a title like this, it should be very pricey."
'I know but then we won't be able to see it...we are artists also with no money."
"OH1 well, we should also do a show called, "Artists with no money."
"Yes, we can do that but its a beaten phrase ,"Artists with no money"
"And its not really true any more, artists have millions of dollars up theirs"
'Yes, you are right...that won't sell..."
"An educated woman with nothing to do sounds better but remembering.
"Yes, because it sounds intellectual, education and memory goes together...
if you were not educated, the question of memory won't come into the picture."
"Yes, you are right, with title like,"An artist with no money" seems poor, pathetic,
failure...people don't like failures...they want to mingle with success."
Yes, you are perfectly correct.  "An educated woman with nothing to do but remembering"
sounds smart, educated, high society, and well, Chekhovian and Chekhov is so popular now in NY"
" I know...so when do we go?"
"We can go tonight"
Oh! not tonight"
"Well why not?"
"Tonights performance was cancelled."
"Why?"
"THe actor couldn't remember her lines."
"Jesus...wasn't the show about remembering?"
"yes, remembering, but not the lines, the memories, the memories, the real memories...
and no one forgets real memories..."
"People do forget memories, people need to forget sad memories, bad memories, because you can;t move on...you get stuck in a rut...day and night..like a broken record..of the same painful memories...
people need to forget."
"Yes, maybe thats why the actress forgot her lines...may be too painful...the memories"
'Then, she shouldn't have chosen this title"
'Maybe she shouldn't have...but now she is stuck...now she has to remember all her memories
to go on...to go on stage at least...."