DIARY OF A THOUGHT CONTINUES

So the cough stays

The cough is not going away

Not going away at all

Not going away ever

Nazar lug ghai haiy kisi ki

Yeh to purani bat haiy

You need to do something

Diseases are coming in droves

This one?

That one?

Maybe this one?

Maybe that one?

People wish all kinds of illnessess on others

Others they don't like

Others they are jealous of

Somehow the others who don't fit in their color or something

Why can't you put the bazar back on them?

Nazar is on them any way

I don't need to put it on them

They have no talent at all

All she does is show her boobs

Well thats a talent in itself

Boobs sell tickets

But she doesn't have great boobs

She thinks she does

Thats why she shows them

But they are sagging

She doesn't know that

She only knows that boobs sell

But not sagging boobs

She should go and get fixed

And he..

He is so ugly

So, so, so ugly

Ugly people shouldn't be on stage

Or there should be in the dark

But they light themselves very well

They don't know that they are ugly

How could that be possible?

They have to know

Ugliness shines brighter than all the stars

They know but they don't care

They just don't care

They are shameless

And they chase young girls like dogs

And all those young girls are harlots

They want a free meal

Free meal is very charming in the richest country of the World

"You can chase me you old fart but buy me dinner with vodka or whatever

Oh! how disgusting

They are disgusting

Drooling, drooling, really drooling over anything that can walk

'You disgust me."

"You disgust me"

"You disgust me"

You dog, your drooling and the young whore

Not even sexy

Not even smart

You have to be one or the other

Why is he drooling over her?

Because he is a dog

Dogs drool over anything

Oh! how disgusting

Since I hate dogs

How can I tolerate drooling dogs?

So many dogs

So many dogs in the park

And so many dogs on stage

And so many dogs backstage

Full of dogs

Who can't act

They are not there to act

They are there to drool over...whatever

They are dogs

Didn't you know that?

And the young ugly things are prostitutes

So they think they are at a brothel

And what do people do in brothels?

Well you know

I don't have to spell it out

Well their drooling caused me a fit of coughing

Disgusting fit of coughing

Coughing day and night after watching them in the brothel

All are Hue heifersAnd all the bitches are bunnies

bunnies who like a free meal

But why are they in theater?

Because thats where she shows her boobs

To get the dogs attracted

So she can go for a free meal after

She is going to be very fat soon

Her boobs will hang to her knees

And no free meals after that

The dog will chase some one else's boobs

But why all this is giving me fits of coughing?

Coughing going on all day and all night

Fits of coughing...

After watching the dog chasing the boobs

And the boobs chasing the dog for a free meal....

Fits of coughing after all that

Why?

Were you going to throw up while you were watching the dog and the boobs?

Yes, I was going to throw up but I controlled it

Why the hell did you control it?

You should have vomited right away after you watched the chase the first time

Sure you should have vomited to clear your throat

Since you resisted vomiting all that has stuck inside your throat giving you this horrible cough

Cough day and night

Night and day

You should have vomited

Now the vomit is stuck in your throat while the dog is still chasing and drooling

And the boobs are still stuffing herself with the free meal

And vomit is stuck in your throat

What a silly goose you are

You should have vomited on her boobs

You should have vomited on the dogs tail

Your throat would have been so clear

No cough at all

Next time a dog comes your way on stage under the light

Chasing a whore's boobs just get up, go on stage and vomit on them

Just vomit and take care of your health

You missed the chance

Doga nd the boobs are out of sight

And you can't vomit on them

And vomiting on them was the only treatment for your cough

Now God bless you and your cough

The cough is going to stay for a while

But at least you know what to do next time

Vomit on the whore's boobs and on the dog running after the boobs...

And there will be no cough at all

Not at all...

Now go to the doctor and spend a lot of money

While just the vomit would have taken care of it...

Why don't you learn for heaven's sake

Learn to vomit on dogs and whores and don't let it bother you....

Now keep coughing

Its your fault

You don't learn...

Do you?

Repeat the same shit over and over and over...

The moment you get your chance to take care of the abuse

Take an action

If you don't

Permanent cough will be the answer..

Go ahead cough now...

Go on....cough baby cough while the boobs eats her free meal

And the dog drools and drools and drools.....

DIARY OF A THOUGHT

Thoughts have been so scattered
But arnt' thoughts for scattering?

They go haywire when need to be composed
Like a human in rage...

How many times have I reminded you to be reserved and distanced?
"Cold" you mean?

Yes, thats what I mean
Not possible

How come?
Thoughts are too hot to be distanced

Heat is dangerous
For whom?

I don't know
You need to know

The heat is burning you
Burning you inside out

And its the heat of your own thoughts
You call it, "Passion"

But its stupidity, I say
If you want to remain,"Stupid"

Fine with me
But the burns will be left on your own soul

But my soul is parched already
And Can't be British

Its them who are always in control of their emotions and thoughts
And you?

I am Asian...
Look what they did to you....

Control and calm works
Rest is just screaming

No one is listening
People keep walking away...

People walk away from everything
Mostly from screaming people

I am not screaming
My thoughts are just too many

You can have a bundle of thoughts if they were tied up neatly
I don't have a rope to tie up my thoughts

And why would I do that?
I am not a free person on this planet, why should I prison my thoughts also?

Arn't you free?
Free?

Yes, free...
Who said so?

The constitution
You believe the constitution?

What else should I believe?
Believe nothing..

I have to live in this world, I have to believe something
Why do you have to believe something to live?

Isn't living believing?
Who said so?

Life should have a purpose
Don't you eat enough?

Yes, mostly gluten, dairy, sugar, soy, peanuts, corn,
Six deadly sins you perform by eating these things

But these things are in everything
Everything  touch and put it in my mouth

Is this your purpose in life to eat six deadly sins?
Let me know if there is another one...

Be reserve and distance and cold
Thats your purpose in life

Don't scream
Don't laugh too loudly
Don't become friends too quickly
Don't love any one
Don't go to the same cafe every day
Don't be with non actors
Don't talk to strangers
Don't love any one
Don't read the news papers
Don't believe the politicians
Wars are for good
Let people on this planet be slaughtered by war
Wars are liberating
They liberate the scum of the earth
Politicians are going to a party
Fund raising...
To have a new war
To built a new mansion for themselves
Private security
Lets kill a few thousand every six weeks
The World is too heavily populated
Lets clean it up
The poor people clean up the side walks
And the rich politicians clean up people from this earth...

See where you are going again?
Where am I going?

Your thoughts are out of control again
You are so un-like the British

They never let you know what they are thinking
Thats why they were so successful in making you their servant

In your own home
You need to be reserve, distanced and cold

And any time you talk war
Your thoughts have gone haywire

Thats the sign
Don't mention some words
Don't even think some words

Keep them under control
Words are dangerous

And they will never forgive you
Who?
"THEY"

So what should I do?
Keep quiet

And smile some times
But little smiles

No big ha;;ha;;ha;;ha
Just a little smile at the corner of your mouth

To keep the politicians happy
They will be happy for you

And then you can go to a hospital for free when you are dying
Keep quiet and then die

Thats the meaningful life
Thats the purpose of life

Keep quiet and make no vibes
And then?

Then what?
Then?

Die
Gee...

I came to this world to die?
What else?  Tell me what else?

And the British and the ones like them
Let them have wars and then have a party

Thats the purpose of their lives
And mine?

I told you so
What?

What?
Tell me again what's the purpose of my thoughts and my life?

To shut up and ...
And?

And then die,,,die,,die honey,,die,,,
You live in a democracy
You need to shut your mind and your God damned mouth
Now shut up

And no coughing please
Coughing is not allowed in a free country

Don't cough
No matter what

Choke to death if you can
But no cough

People who cough are poor
And you live in a rich democracy

Don't cough
That means you don't have health insurance

That means you are poor
That means you are a no body
That means that you have no purpose in life
That means that you can't speak
That means that you can't think
That means that you are one of the candidate for death by an Imperial war
That means that you and many others like you need to be eliminated
That means if you kept a check on your purpose in life and your thoughts
and smiled little smiles from the corners of your mouth to please them, to assure them
that you have no thoughts or if you have them they are under total control and you
are a reserve, distant and a cold person and not target for slaughter...

See thoughts are that important
Can't reveal your thoughts
The price you will pay is your life
But why not...
What is your life good for any way...
And since your life is no good
Neither is your thought
So why express your self with passion...
Passion?
What a dangerous word...
Look what happened to Oscar Wilde?