iDLER

IDELER

"But does understanding bring happiness?"
"I suspect the reverse is true."

"The privileges of knowledge have to be bought
at the cost of consolations of ignorance."

'I MUST NOT CRY."
BY
BINA SHARIF

"TRY TO GET AS CLOSE TO MY LIFE AS POSSIBLE"?

We have nothing
We have no one
We only have ourselves
And we don't take care of the only thing we do have ourselves.
Nothing else counts
Only you and only me....

Had a perfect weekend
Can't complain now
Near perfection weekend
Oh! gee can't complain now.

Its a shame
We listen to no one
We keep making mistakes
We listen to no one.

"Inner core of human existence is to write!
Its also a way of coping with a life that would otherwise
seem intolerably dull."?

"Everything spirals out from minute self contemplation
and though he hated every sentence he--decided to persist"?

'Shape the banal into something worth remembering"?

"Beautifully rendered---sometime painfully observant."?

"Unhappiness is the lack of what we desire." ?
"The first condition of success is to forget
ones own vanity." ?

"The uniqueness of fine minds is that they can make something
out of nothing." ?

'MY HEAD IS MY RESIDENCE
BY
BINA SHARIF

"NOTHING IS ALTOGETHER ONE THING
OR THE OTHER."
DEHYDRATION

Too much
Far too much...
Worries
Unknown worries
of unknown nature
Struggling to find a solution
in the midst of heat
heat, tremendous heat
and water?
No water
No water available
Dehydration
And coffee
Strong espresso
coffee
in the geat
during the heat
amongst the heat
strong espresso coffee
and no water
No water to drink
No water bottle
Not like the fancy folks
Carrying a bottle every where
During the bicycle ride
During the gym
During sex
Fancy folks can't be dehydrated
Under any circumstances

I SHOULD GO
GO TO THE CAFE
WHAT FOR?
COFFEE
SO HOT
WHAT?
SO HOT
THE COFFEE?
COFFEE TOO
WHAT ELSE?
THE HEAT
SO HOT
WHAT?
THE HEAT
hEAT IS SO HOT?
BAD COMPOSITION
WHAT?
BAD SENTENCE
WHICH ONE?
HEAT IS SO HOT
YES, IT IS
THE HEAT IS SO HOT
THE HEAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE HOT
YES, I KNOW
WHAT DO YOU KNOW?
THAT HEAT IS SO HOT
THAT IS TRUE
HEAT IS ALWAYS HOT
HEAT IS NOT THE ICE
ONLY THE ICE IS COLD
HEAT IS HOT
YES, I KNOW
BUT THIS HEAT IS TOO HOT
I FAINTED YESTERDAY
AND FEEL LIKE FAINTING TODAY
SO FAINT
GO AHEAD AND FAINT
WHAT IS IT TO YOU IF i FAINT?
NOTHING
nOTHING REALLY
SO?
SO?
WHAT DO YOU CARE IF i FAINT OR NOT
TRUE
TRUE WHAT?
I DON'T CARE
DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT?
WHETHER YOU FAINT OR NOT
THATS NOT VERY GOOD FRIEND
WHO SIAD i AM YOUR FRIEND?
I THOUGHT...
YOU CAN THINK WHATEVER YOU WANT TO THINK
ARN'T YOU MY FRIENDS?
WHO?
YOU
I DON'T KNOOW
YOU DON'T KNOW IF YOU ARE MY FRIEND OR NOT?
NO i DON'T AND NO ONE ELSE KNOWS IT EITHER
WHY SHOULD ANY ONE ELSE KNOW?
THEY ARE NOT MY FRIENDS
NEITHER AM i
I THOUGHT YOU WERE
NO i AM NOT AND NO ONE ELSE IS
NO ONE ELSE IS YOUR FRIEND EITHER
YOU ARE CRUEL
AND WHY NOT?
YOU SHOULDN'T BEWHO SAID SO?
YOU KNOW YOU SHOULDN'T BE CRUEL TO  YOUR FRIENDS
BUT I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND
I THOUGHT SO
CORRECT YOUR THOUGHTS
THATS YOUR BIGGEST PROBLEM
YOUR THOUGHTS
CORRECT THEM
THEN YOU WILL KNOW THAT NO ONE IS YOUR FRIEND
NO ONE IS ANY ONE'S FRIEND
NO ONE HAS ANY FRIENDS
WE ARE NOT FRIENDS
WE HAVE NO FRIENDS
YOU ESPECIALLY
BECAUSE YOU WANT IT
YOU WANT IT SO BADLY
YOU SHOW YOUR DESIRE
YOUR DESPERATE DESIRE
AND DESPERATION SHUNS PEOPLE OFF
SHOW NO PASSION, NO NEED, NO DESIRE, NO DESPERATION
AND PEOPLE WILL COME RUNNING TO YOU
ONLY THEN YOU WILL HAVE TONS OF FRIENDS
STOP WANTING THINGS
STOP WANTING PEOPLE
STOP WANTING
STOP
JUST STOP
NOW I NEED TO GO
AND WHERE IS MY CHECK?
YOUR CHECK?
I AM YOUR THERAPIST
YOU ARE MY FRIEND
THATS YOUR MISTAKE
I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND
YOU HAVE TO PAY ME FOR MY ADVICE
AND I JUST GAVE YOU ADVICE
WHAT ADVICE?
THAT YOU HAVE NO FRIENDS AND YOU WILL NEVER HAVE FRIENDS
SOME ADVICE
BUT IF YOU KEEP PAYING ME YOU WILL EVENTUALLY HAVE FRIENDS
I WILL HEAL YOU
THATS WHAT PROFESSIONALS DO
HEAL YOU OF AILMENTS
AND LACK OF FRIENDSHIP IS AN AILMENT
AND WANTING FRIENDS IS A BIGGER AILMENT
GET RID OF THE WANT
AND I NEED TO GET GOING
CHECK PLEASE.................