Sunday, October 15, 2023

IRREGULAR THOUGHTS OF A MIND, IRREGULAR

 IRREGULAR THOUGHTS OF A MIND IRREGULAR

Everything in her life was as important as the excrushiating pain, especially the physical pain.When it finally passes, she doesn't want to remember it and when the feeling comes back to her, she immediately wants to forget it.It would be wasteful to completely dwell in it. That would continue the pain for the rest of her life. Won't it? She should treat all painful memories of her life like that enormous ache one must not dwell in.

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When one writes, one is quiet. Isn't it?

When one writes, one is silently sitting down. Isn't it?

When one is writing, one is not running around desperatley to calm one's erratic thoughts. Isn't it?

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Listen to other's angst

Eyes and ears, the faculties given to you, use them.

Listen to other's angst.

Watch the oppressed, un-fortunate human beings and do something to ease their anguish.

Observe, watch, look.

Don't tell your story

It's been told a million times

Listen to the story of others

Other's who no one listen to.

Their story has never been written.

Write it down for them.

Never to be questioned

Only to be written

Write them on your own under your own privacy.

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Seeking for listners to hear his story.

No one around

No one is intersted

Hurried masses don't have a moment to hear his story

Every one who has a story should be a writer, not a talker

Be a writer

Write it all down

Don't seek audience

Don't seek sympathy

Don't expect sharing your thoughts with others

Sharing is understanding

No one has the time to really understand you and what you think

They insist on you being obediently paying attention to whatever they need to say to you

Write your thoughts down

Even if there is not a soul to read them

Put your thoughts on a piece of paper

Have a pen or a pencil and a cheapest posible note book to scribble any and all thoughts which are

 occupying your soul.

Cheapest note book allows honesty

Very expensive note book will hinder your truth.

Money is a hurdle to the truth.

Go to the 99 cent store and get a notebook and you will be so free

 and that freedom will refresh your

 scribble.

Then go back to the 99 cent store and buy another note book

I hope you always have 99 cents in your pocket.

You will be lucky if you do.

Sit silently alone in a private space and write about whatever comes to you.

Don't talk to anyone on your way to that secret private space

 reserved for your thoughts.

In-fact talk to no one, silence has much more soothing colors.

Be still and silent

Thougts need peace.

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I want to awaken my faculties

My eyes and my ears.

They have been comatosed for eternity.

Amaze your listless faculties 

and something amazing

 has to happen to do that.

Not the usual nonsensical riff raff

Find something amazing to amaze your ears, your eyes.

See a beggar on the street and feel for him

See an oppressed person and try really hard

 to free him from that oppression.

Let freedom breathe

Let dignity breathe

Let children play

Let children have no fear

Let children live

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Thank god after so much trauma, so much waste, 

so much loss of time, 

so much pain

The answer came to you.

Haven't you been looking for the answers for so long?

 What's the point of a long, 

lost search if some,

 kind of an answer doesn't pay any attention to you?

I hope you will stick to those answers 

sincerely and diligently.

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It's all absurd

Everything and everyone indulging in their intellectual pursuit 

without any sense of respect for the truth.

So sad, that this is no longer a place, 

 for the expression of truth...

It has to be laced with lies 

till it's face is completely hidden, 

obliterated, eliminated.

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"Last year I didn't know what to do with myself for happiness."

                                                                                     Chekhov

'Always condescending about my authorship." 

                                                                      Chekhov

'The stress of painful memories, write it down."

                                                                    Chekhov

"It was stupid, but it was good. It was fun. "

                                                               Chekhov

"No cheating clerk, 

no faithless wife

 has cheated as my fate has cheated."

                                                                                                                Chekhov