EXCLUSION OF KARIMA ULLAH

And the exclusion from family?
They can say Karima excluded them...

She left
They had a different life
Children
Grand children
Different attitudes

Their children then moved on
So let it be.....

Karima lost a house
Karima lost companion ship

They decided to put Karima in her place
Maybe she lost
But they also lost....
Every one lost.......

Every one wanted to sweep the loss under the carpet but the
loss kept creeping through and through
Sprouted like rose buds but without the roses
And adorned with thrones
Thousands of them....

They lost
Karima's deep affection
Deep deep affection
Karima's love
Karima also lost their love

But whose fault was it?

They claim it was Karima's fault
All Karima's fault
All of it

That can't be possible
Is it?
Where there are more than two people involved
One is never faultless....

But they claimed vehemently that it was all Karima's fault....
so lets learn from previous mishaps....

Why must Karima be dependent for her happiness and success
on three to four family members and three or four other ass holes?
Four people...'
Is that it?
Three other creeps
Is that it?
Karima's life is becoming pathetic
Pathetic, dependent, helpless, hopeless
Karima is waiting for attention, love, affection,success
But its not coming and its not going to come this way
Only despair is coming
And buckets full of it is coming....
and Karima is all muddy and wet and deep in the slush....

Soon it will be too late for anything
Any hope for sure
Its already so late
So alone, so isolated, so sad.......

Karima has to snap out of it
Snap out of it
Snap out of it
Snap out of it.....

Karima has excluded herself from achievement, happiness,progress,
success, mobility,progress,enjoyment, travels,everyday duties and chores,
everyday activities,self worth.....
Karima has excluded herself from her self worth....
Thats decided
No self worth for Karima
None....
Zero......

Karima has also excluded herself from self liking
From her place of residence, from her body weight, from herself
Exclusion from self love began at her birth....

And that is all because of four or five family members and three or four other non relatives
authority figures?
Can a whole life be destroyed by a few people even important to certain extent?

I guess Karima's whole life was those certain people.....
What a shame!
What a tragedy!

Karima never realized, imagined, that the world is huge and that
huge world also belongs to her like it does to other people...

And some people from the family were not so bad....and the rest should not be
Karima's concern.....

The children of the family members are not Karima's children...
They are other people's children....

Karima never got that....
Karima should have had her own children
But she was too involved in other people's children....
Karima's love for others was abnormal
It was at her own expence
And thats how the exclusion began....
Her exclusion from herself began a long time ago
She did not know it had began
So how could she know that its now completed....
Her exclusion from herself and from the world is now complete...........

Why other people, (People she loved) were more important to her than her own life
But that was her life
Thats how she felt
Though she didn't examine the problem then
For her it was not a problem then'
Its a problem now'
When she feels abandoned by them
Abandoned by herself
Abandoned of everything.......
Abandoned by everything...........

They should have been important to Karima, her loved ones
but not more important that she forgot  herself along the way....
Yes, thats what she did....She forgot herself along the way.....
Lost herself completely....

Its unbelievably sad and unfortunate.....
But no one knows about her condition
And Karima doesn't know either  what their minds are at or about either.....

Why should Karima care so much at the risk of her every day happiness?
Happiness and everyday function and functioning of the mind in a healthier way.....

Karima's every day function at this moment is of ut most Importance....
Her health
Her house
Her work

Karima's whole pattern of thinking and obligations of love has to change
once and for all....
Obligation?
What a word!
and why it predominates in Karima's psyche?
Obligation of love
Obligation for love
Obligation towards love
Why not obligation towards herself?
Because Karima doesn't love herself
Karima has never loved herself
Karima is incapable of loving herself
End of the story......

But the story hasn't ended yet
The story has to change
Karima has to change her sense of obligation to the loved ones
and the strangers even to the dogs.....

Have to have extremely formal relationships with every one.....
Every one I say....
Do you hear me Karima?
I say every one.....
Including your family Karima....
Thats where it all started
The obligation of love
Thats where it all started......

And be away....
Far away, far far away from every one
far away and cold and polite
But come closer to yourself
Be warm and caring and loving to yourself Karima.....
But far, far away from every one else
Cold, polite and distant....
The secret of success of the Western world and the aeastern world and the capitalistic
society and the ancient society even the animal kingdom....
Stay away......

Not so interested in any one but in your work
Work?
What"s that?
Whatever it is....just be interested in that....

Be not interested in any one else and anything else
Not so very genuinly interested.
Its not the way of the world Karima lives in
and has failed miserably the way Karima created and lived in the
Love...love...world she imagined...

Karima lives at least 40 years behind if not a century behind....
Live in 2013
Not in 1974
Ok?
Ok?
Ok?

Karima say ok, please
Say ok
Say ok Karima......

And Karima's family is right
Why tkeep talking about certain things
Why?
What does Karima get out of it?
Let the world be full of thieves, hoodlums, war mongeres, gossipers, evil, corrupt
mony launderes, cheats, kings, bastards, hustlers....
It doesn't make any difference to Karima's life
Why keep talking about them and the news of the world and countries and faiths and whatever else...
What for?
What does it do for Karima?
Karima should understand that
Why Karima wants to be on the unpopular sid eof things and family ?
Why?
Why Karima why?

Think things,
Belive in things,
But don't say it
Don't discuss it....
Karima already believe in certain things so why discuss it with those who don't?
Why Karima?
Why?
Why are you wasting Karima?
Why are you taking revenge on your self?
Whay have you done that you need to take revenge?
What have you done that you hate yourself so much for?

Karima has no idea who she is trying to convince and whay?
And why should Karima try to convince any one about her own convictions?
If Karima is convinced thats the only thing Karima should settele on.....
Why talk about it to others?
And as far as Karima thinks that her family opinion about her is of a failure
so what?
Why the family's opinion matter so much at this stage otr at any stage of the game?
If Karima thinks she is a failure then its ok
Failure is ok....Karima....
Every one who is born is a, "FAILURE."
Success is only relative....success compared to million other people's success
is not really success either.
These are two words in English language
They have to be used on different people at different times
But Karima if that is your sorrow that your family
thinks that you are a failure....thats very good, very very good....
SEE HOW MUCH THEY THINK OF YOU ACTUALLY....
YOU ARE CONSTANTLY IN THEIR THOUGHTS...
AND IN THE THOUGHTS OF THE REST OF THE WORLD ALSO
BECAUSE KARIMA IS CONVINCED THAT SHE IS A FAILURE
AND THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS IT SO KARIMA IS NOT ACTUALLY EXCLUDED FROM THE WORLD.....
THE WORLD IS THINKING OF KARIMA AS A FAILURE BUT STILL THINKING OF KARIMA.....

DOES THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY KARIMA?
YOU ARE A BIG PART OF THE WORLD.
THEY CAN'T APPRECIATE THEIR SUCCESS WITHOUT THINKING OF YOUR
FAILURES.

ITS YOU KARIMA, ITS YOU WHO CONSTANTLY THINK OF HERSELF AS A FAILURE....
NEITHER FAMILY NOR THE WORLD GIVES A SHIT ABOUT YOU KARIMA...NOT A SHIT......
SO WHY SHOULD YOU GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THE FAMILY OR THE WORLD OR
WHO EVER OR WHATEVER.....
JUST FROM TODAY ON, FROM THIS MOMENT ON GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THE WORLD AND EVERY ONE IN IT AND EVERYTHING IN IT.....
JUST GET UP AND GIVE A SHIT......
AND IF ITS YOUR CHOICE TO EXCLUDE YOURSELF FROM THE SHITTY WORLD AND ITS INHABITANTS THEN DO IT BY ALL MEANS...
BUT DON'T LET IT UPTO THE WORLD AND FAMILY TO GIVE A  SHIT ABOUT YOU....
YOU GET UP AND GIVE ASHIT ABOUT THEM..............
SO KARIMA EITHER GIVE A SHIT OR STOPP THINKING ABOUT THE SHIT OF OTHERS.....
ACCEPT YOURSELF AS A FAILURE WHO IS SURROUNDED BY SHIT AND GO ON HAPPILY.......AND AMUSE YOURSELF....
KARIMA YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO AMUSE YOUR SELF IN THIS SHITTY WORLD.

Otherwise there is nothing else to be done about it....Enjjoy your failures and your whatever little things called little, little achievements, a little bit, a tiny bit,just a tiny bit...
So enjoy that tiny bit, that little bit that you did like about yoursels or feel that it was a speck of a success......amongst your tremendous failures....
Claim your failures, your mistakes, your failings, your stupidities, your blunders every second and don't
try to prove it to any one otherwise...
Karima, you don't have to prove to any one about success and failure, about love or hate, about
slim or fat, about young or old, about this country or that, about cultures, you don't have to talk about any of these things and don't talk about family and the world and success and failure....
Do not talk about it to any body........
And you will be very happy....
In order to be happy, to be peaceful Karima you have to learn to be alone and happy and do
your work....FOUR THINGS ARE REQUIRED OF YOU.
LOVE YOURSELF
BE HAPPY
BE ALONE
DO YOUR WORK

YOU YOURSELF EXCLUDE YOURSELF FROM EVERYTHING
DON'T GIVE ANY ONE THE POWER TO EXCLUDE YOU
KARIMA, YOU EXCLUDE THE DANGEROUS ELEMENTS FROM YOUR HAPPINESS....

AND TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH KARIMA NONE OF THIS ,"EXCLUSION " FROM
THE WORLD AND FAMILY EXISTS .....
THESE ARE ALL SELF CREATED MYTHS, FICTIONS.AND STORIES YOU
WROTE YOUR SELF
WHATS REAL IS YOU KARIMA
YOU KARIMA...YOU ARE REAL YOU ARE NOT A WORK OF FICTION
YOU ARE NOT A STORY CREATED BY YOU
YOU EXIST.....

TRY TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THAT.
TRY TO BE FUNCTIONAL
TRY TO BE HAPPY
TRY TO BE THANKFUL
TRY TO AMUSE YOURSELF
DON'T TAKE KARIMA SO SERIOUSLY
AND DON'T TAKE THE WORLD AND THE FAMILY SERIOUSLY
YOU, YOU KARIMA, NEEDS TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY
BUT NOT SO SERIOUSLY THAT YOU WILL FORGET TO LAUGH, AND LAUGH LOUD...
YOU KARIMA EXCLUDE YOURSELF FROM THE WORLD AND DO YOUR WORK....

WORK?
WHAT WORK>
FIGURE THAT OUT....
THATS THE ONLY PROBLEM YOU HAVE KARIMA
THE ONLY PROBLEM
YOU HAVE EXCLUDED YOURSELF FROM YOUR WORK.............................
Ok?