I MISS YOU

I MISS YOU

EVERY DAY I SAY
I MISS YOU...
I WILL COME AND VISIT YOU
EVERY DAY I BREAK MY PROMISE

THEN I SAY AGAIN
"I MISS YOU"
'I WILL COME TO YOU"
EVERY DAY I BREAK MY PROMISE

I HAVE A PROBLEM
LACK OF DISCIPLINE
ACTUALLY
NO DISCIPLINE AT ALL...

THEN WHY DO I SAY
EVERY DAY
THAT I WILL VISIT YOU?
BECAUSE I WANT TO...

THEN WHY NOT DO WHAT
I SAY
I DON'T KNOW
I REALLY DON'T

JUST TO STRESS MYSELF
I GUESS
BUT NOT KEEPING MY WORD
GIVES ME MORE STRESS

STRESS WILL MAKE ME SICK
YES, I GOT SICK
HAVE BEEN SICK
FOR 12 DAYS

NO, NOT CORONAVIRUS
THANK GOD
IT'S THE SICKNESS
OF THE MIND

LACK OF
WILL POWER
YES, THATS IT
LACK, LACK, LACK...

LACK OF WILL POWER
LACK OF ASSERTIVE BEHAVIOR
NEED TO SUFFER
UN-NECESSARILY

I DO COME
TO YOUR NEIGHBORHOOD
I DO THINK OF
SEEING YOU

BUT THEN I GET
EXHAUSTED
FROM MY OWN MIND

AND GO BACK
AND DO SOMETHING ELSE
SOMETHING MEANINGLESS
JUST LIKE

THE MORNING
I SPEND IN YOUR AREA
AND NEVER KNOCKED
AT YOUR DOOR

THEN PROMISED MYSELF
I WILL DO IT TOMORROW
THE MOMENT I AM NEAR YOU
I WILL VISIT YOU...

THEN I DON'T DO IT
I WONDER WHAT'S
WRONG WITH ME?
WHAT EVER I WANT TO DO...

I DON'T DO
THAT IS NOT
ONLY SAD
BUT DISTURBING

VERY DISTURBING
EITHER I SHOULD STOP
WISHING TO SEE YOU
CHAT WITH YOU

EXPRESS MY THOUGHTS
WITH YOU
OR I SHOULD
DO WHAT I SAY

CALL ON YOU
IT SEEMS LIKE
AN EMERGENY
BUT STILL I FAIL

SOMETHING IS WRONG
I WONDER...
YES, DARLING
SOMETHING IS VERY WRONG

STOP IT
JUST STOP IT
YOU ARE SMARTER
THAN THAT

IS THIS A GAME
YOU ARE PLAYING?
WHO ARE YOU PLAYING
WITH?

WHO ARE YOU
PLAYING
AGAINST?
WHO?

AGAINST YOUR SELF
YOU ARE IN A BATTLE
AGAINST
YOURSELF

WHAT HAPPENED?
HOW DID YOU
LOSE CONTROL?
OR YOU NEVER HAD IT

CONTROL I MEAN
NEVER HAD CONTROL
PESSIMISTIC EMOTIONS
IS THE CAUSE

THEN STOPP WISHING
STOP THE YEARNING
CAN'T
WHY NOT?

YEARNING IS THE ONLY
POSITIVE THING I HAVE
WITHOUT YEARNING
I WILL DIE

FULFILL YOUR PROMISE
TO YOUR SELF
FOR SELF RESPECT
TO YOURSELF

YOU WILL LIVE
MUCH LONGER
HAPPIER
THAN EVER...

YES, I WANT
TO BE HAPPY
I WANT TO VISIT
YOU...

MAYBE?
TOMORROW
I WILL
MAYBE?

PROMISE?
NO...
PROMISES ARE NEVER KEPT
BY ME...

NOT REALLY TRUE
I DO KEEP MY PROMISES
ONLY WITH
YOU I HAVE

SOME CONFLICTS
OF SOME KIND
UNRESOLVED
BUT ATTACHED LIKE A KNOT...

TO MY GUT
GIVES ME JOLTS
OF DISRESPECT
I AM WEEK

BUT I AM STONG
AS WELL
SOME KIND OF FEAR
COMES IN THE WAY

BLOCKS MY DESIRE
EVERY DAY
I HAVE THE DESIRE
EVERY DAY...

I DON'T RUSH
TO FULFILL IT
PEOPLE DO
WHAT EVER THEY SAY

I HARDLY
KEEP UP
WITH MYSELF
IN CERTAIN WAYS

I STAND
IN MY WAY
I AM FARIAD
NO, NOT OF YOU

NO, NOT AT ALL
I AM VERY FOND OF YOU
I KNOW
IT WILL ...

BRING ME SOME
KIND OF PEACE
SOME KIND OF
HAPPINESS

MAYBE, I AM AFRAID
OF HAPPINESS
BUT I AM NOT...
I AM JUST

STANDING STILL
WISHING...WISHING
HOPING...HOPING
TO COME TO YOU

TOMORROW...
YES,
TOMORROW
TOMORROW...

TOMORROW
I WILL VISIT
YOU
TOMORROW

I PROMISE
IT'S GOOD FOR ME
TO VISIT YOU
TOMORROW

TOMORROW I WILL
I PROMISE...
TOMORROW
WILL BRING

 ME TO YOU
AND
FROM THEN ON...
I WILL VISIT YOU

EVERY DAY...
EVERY DAY...
EVERYDAY
WITHOUT FAIL...

BECAUSE
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU SWEETHEART...

SYBIL'S DESPAIR PART 5

SYBIL'S DESPAIR PART 5

A NEW PLAY
BY BINA SHARIF
AT THEATER FOR THE NEW CITY
SEPT 17 TILL OCT 4 2020
THURSDAY---SATURDAY 8PM
SUNDAY 3PM

CHARACTERS

SYBIL
THERAPIST NI 1
THERAPIST NO 2
THERAPIST NO 3

TIME PRESENT
PLACE: NYC

FIRST SCENE

ACTORS IN BLACK OUT WITH TORCH LIGHTS WANDERING AROUND AS IF LOOKING FOR SOMETHING
VIVALDI MUSIC IS PLAYING

THEY ROAM AROUND FOR A WHILE, THEN COME INTO THE CENTER IN A SEMI CIRCLE AND FLASH LIGHTS ON EACH OTHER'S FACES AND SEEING ALIENS
LOOK ALIKE SCREAM LOUD AND LONG WITH FEAR...
THEY LEAVE

SCENE ;2

PROLOGUE:    SYBIL CENTER STAGE, SPOT LIGHT

"DEAD PEOPLE, "WHEN I WAS ALIVE I WENT TO MANY MANY THERAPISTS BESIDE HAVING MANY OTHER MISHAPS BUT NOTHING REALLY WORKED.

SCENE: 3

SYBIL AND THERAPIST NO :1

SCENE : 4

  SYBIL'S DREAM:         SYBIL CENTER STAGE, SPOT LIGHT

SCENE: 5

HARVARD YARD:  SYBIL AND SAMMY

SCENE: 6

ANOTHER ACTOR'S DREAM

SCENE: 7

SYBIL AND THERAPIST NO : 2

SCENE;  7

ANOTHER DREAM BY ANOTHER ACTOR

SCENE: 8

ANOTHER HAPPY DAY:  SYBIL AND SAMMY

SCENE: 9

A SHORT DREAM BY ANOTHER ACTOR

SCENE: 10

SYBIL AND THERAPIST NO:3

END OF PLAY?

MORNINGS AND EVENINGS

MORNINGS AND EVENINGS

PROBLEMS

SELF CREATED
LACK OF WILL POWER
SELF DESTRUCTIVE INSTINCTS
DESPAIR
DEEP, DEEP DESPAIR OF AN UNKNOWN ORIGIN
WAKING UP WITH A HEAVY HEART
GOING TO BED WITH A HEAVY HEART
CAUSE?
UNKNOWN
UNKNOWN TO ME
BUT MY HEART SINKS
IN THE MORNING AND IN THE EVENING
CAUSE
UNKNOWN
UNKNOWN TO ME
FEAR
FEAR OF SOMETHING
THAT SOMETHING NOT KNOWN
NOT KNOWN TO ME
NEED TO GET OUT IN THE MORNING
RIGHT AWAY GET OUT
TO GET SOME FRESH AIR
TO WALK
TO THINK
TO NOT LET THAT SINKING HEART OVERPOWER ME
NEED TO GET OUT, TAKE A WALK IN THE EVENING
NOT TO LET THAT SINKING FEELING GET A HOLD OVER ME
BUT CAN'T SEEM TO DO IT
CAN'T GET OUT RIGHT AWAY IN THE MORNING
EVENING?
HAVEN'T TRIED YET
TRY
TRY TO GO FOR A WALK AROUND THE PARK
IN THE MORNING AND EVENING
FORCE YOURSELF
DO NOT SIT
DO NOT SIT TO LOOK AT THE NEWS ON THE COMPUTER
THE SAME NEWS YOU WATCHED LAST NIGHT WHILE SITTING ON THE SOFA
IT'S FROM THE SOFA TO THE CHAIR
FROM ONE ROOM TO ANOTHER
GET OUT OF THE APT
NOT GOOD TO BE SITTING
AND SITTING FOR SO LONG
ESPECIALLY WITH THAT SINKING FEELING
NO TEA IN THE MORNING
IF THAT CUP OF TEA IS MAKING YOU SIT AND LOOK AT THE NEWS
WHY ARE YOU SO INTERESTED IN AMERICAN NEWS?
WHAT DO THEY DO FOR YOU?
NOTHING
COME TO THINK OF IT
NOTHING
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING
THEN WHY DO YOU SO DILIGENTLY WATCH TV?
IN THE MORNING AND EVENING
I DON'T WATCH TV IN THE MORNING
I READ ABOUT THE AMERICAN NEWS ON THE COMPUTER
AND IN THE EVENING I WATCH ON TV
WHY?
WHO KNOWS
YOU NEED TO KNOWTO AVOID SOMETHING ELSE
TO AVOID SOMETHING MORE IMPORTANT THAN THAT
EXERCISE PERHAPS
EXERCISE WILL, HELP YOU MORE THAN THE NEWS
FOR SURE
THEN WHY DON'T YOU JUST GET OUT AND WALK IN THE MORNING?
WALK IN THE EVENING?
BECAUSE OF DESPAIR
DESPAIR WILL NEVER GO AWAY
YOU NEED TO GET UP, GET PUT AND LEAVE THE DESPAIR OUT IN THE STREET NEXT TO THE GARBAGE BAGS.
SIDE WALKS ARE FULL OF BLACK GARBAGE BAGS
THROW YOUR DESPAIR NEAR THE GARBAGE AND THE GARBAGE TRUCK
WILL PICK IT UP AND IT WILL BE GONE FOR EVER
NOT THAT EASY
NOT THAT EASY AT ALL
EASY SAID THAN DONE...
IT'S NOT SO HARD
ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS TO GET UP, WEAR YOUR SNEAKERS AND TAKE A WALK
NOT SO EASY
WHY NOT?
WHAT ABOUT THAT CUP OF TEA IN THE MORNING?
WHAT ABOUT IT?
I MAKE THE TEA AND THEN I HAVE TO SIT DOWN TO DRINK IT AND YOU KNOW WHRE I SIT DOWN>?
WHERE?
NEAR THE WINDOW IN THE KITCHEN WHERE MY LAPTAP IS
AND ?
I READ  ABOUT THE SAME NEWS WHICH I  AM ALREADY AM AWARE OF
BY WATCHING TV ON THE PREVIOUS NIGHT
WHY DO YOU DO THAT?
BECAUSE I HAVE THAT SINKING FEELING OF MY HEART OF THAT UNKNOWN
SCARY DESPAIR
WILL THE DESPAIR GO AWAY BY READING THE NEWS IN THE MORNING?
NEVER
WILL THE DESPAIR GO AWAY BY WATCHING THE NEWS AT NIGHT?
NEVER
THEN WHY DO YOU DO IT?
THAT'S THE PROBLEM
THAT'S A MILLION DOLLAR QUESTION
I DON'T HAVE AN ANSWER
YOU WANT TO BE INCLUDED IN AMERICAN PROCESS
WHAT DO YOU MEAN?
YOU ARE HERE, RIGHT?
YOU LIVE IN AMERICA, RIGHT?
YOU ALSO WANT TO BE INVOLVED IN AMERICAN PROCESS
I DON'T WANT TO RUN FOR ELECTION
NOT THAT KIND OF PROCESS
THEN HAT?
YOU WANT TO FEEL THAT YOU ARE PART OF WHAT HAPPENS IN THE COUNTRY YOU LIVE IN...
I DON'T KNOW ABOUT THAT...
YOU WANT TO BE PART OF THINGS CITIZEN'S ARE ALWAYS CONCERNED ABOUT
PERHAPS...
FOR SURE...
THEN WHY THE DESPAIR?
BECAUSE...
WHAT?
REMEMBER, YEARS AGO WHEN YOU CAME HERE AS A STUDENT
AND YOU ALWAYS WORE COLORFUL CLOTHES AND THEY STARTED TO CALL YPOU, "WOMAN OF COLOR?"
I REMEMBER...
YOU TOOK THAT AS A COMPLEMENT BECAUSE YOU THOUGHT IT'S BECAUSE OF YOUR COLORFUL CLOTHES THAT THEY HAVE GIVEN YOU THIS NICK NAME,
"WOMAN OF COLOR." BUT IT WAS NOT BECAUSE OF THAT...
IT WAS THE SIGNAL TO YOU THAT YOU WILL NEVER BE INCLUDED IN THE MAINSTREAM CHOICES AMERICA MAKES, OR IN ANY GROUP OR DEPARTMENT OF INTEREST...IT'S THE WHITE POWER TO CREATE THE NEWS, THE NEWS YOU WATCH,
THE NEWS FROM WHICH YOU ARE EXCLUDED, NEWS OF ALL KIND, POLITICS, ENTERTAINMENT, SOCIAL CLIMBING, EVERYTHING AND ALL THINGS...
THEY TOLD YOU THAT YOU WERE A WOMAN OF COLOR...
THAT MEANT THAT AMERICA HAS GIVEN THEMSELVES THE PERMISSION TO EXCLUDE YOU AND EXCLUDE YOU FROM EVERYTHING YOU MIGHT BE INTERESTED IN...PERIOD
AND YOU HAVE NEVER REALLY ABSORBED THAT MESSAGE WHICH WAS HINTED
AT YOU LONG TIME AGO WHEN YOU WERE A STUDENT...
SO UNDERSTAND IT NOW...
BE SO GRATEFUL NOT TO BE INCLUDED
AND TO BE INCLUDED IN ALL LIES, FAKE, DECEPTIVE INFORMATION, PREJUDICED
PROJECTS, FAVORITISM, AND ALL KINDS OF ,"ISMS"
BE SO VERY HAPPY TO BE EXCLUDED....
BE THRILLED TO BE EXCLUDED
ACCEPT IT
THE MOMENT YOU ACCEPT YOU ILL STOP WATCHING TV, STOP  READING ABOUT THE NEWS ON YOUR LAPTOP IN YOUR KITCHEN AND WON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WHAT IS HAPPENING ON TV............
AND ALL YOUR SINKING FEELINGS, YOUR UNKNOWN DESPAIR WILL JUST VANISH.
BE HAPPY TO BE EXCLUDED
BE PROUD TO BE EXCLUDED
BE GRATEFUL TO BE EXCLUDED
WHY DO YOU WANT TO BE A LUKE WARM PERSON?
WHY DO YOU WANT TO BE A WASHED OUT PERSON?
WHY DO YOU WANT TO BE A SHDOW OF WHITENESS?
YOU ARE A UNIQUE WOMAN
A STRONG WOMAN
A PROUD WOMAN
AN ORIGINAL WOMAN
A CREATIVE WOMAN
A COMPASSIONATE WOMAN
AN HONEST WOMAN
A TALENTED WOMAN
YOU CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE HOW TALENTED YOU ARE
DO YOU KNOW HOW TALENTED YOU ARAE?
DO YOU KNOW HOW BLESSED YOU ARE?
DO YOU KNOW THAT YOU HAVE A MAJOR SUPPORT SYSTEM BEHIND YOU?
DO YOU KNOW THAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN TAKEN CARE OF?
YES, YOU HAVE BEEN
BY THE ALMIGHTY GOD, THE GOOD LORD KEEPS A WATCH ON YOU
YOU ARE SUPPORTED BY THE BIGGEST POWER, YOUR ALMIGHTY GOD, YOUR FAITH, YOUR SENSE OF  JUSTICE, YOUR FEEL FOR HUMANITY, YOUR AFFECTION FOR THE ONES LEFT BEHIND, YOUR EMPATHY, YOUR LOVE OF BEAUTY, YOUR LOVE OF POETRY, YOUR APPRECIATION OF GRACE, FOR MERCY, FOR KINDNESS, FOR JUSTICE
TO TOP IT ALL OFF...
ISN'T IT GREAT TO BE EXCLUDED FROM THE INJUSTICE, FROM RACISM, FROM
PREJUDICE, FROM CRIMINALITY, FROM GREED, FROM HATRED?
AND ALL THE NEWS ON TV AND ON THE LAPTOP ARE ABOUT THAT...
SOME ENORMOUS POWER HAS KEPT YOU AWAY FROM THAT CRAP OF FALSEHOOD...

BE THRILLED
BE PROUD
ANNOUNCE YOUR EXCLUSION TO THE WHOLE WORLD AND GET UP
HAVE A CUP OF TEA, YOU ARE ALLOWED TO HAVE THAT CUP OF TEA IN THE MORNING WHICH YOU HAD ALL YOUR LIFE WHEN YOU WERE IN YOUR OWN BEAUTIFUL WORLD, YOUR HOME, YOUR HOME COUNTRY WHERE YOU WERE INCLUDED IN EVERY THING, EVERY LITTLE DETAIL WHICH EVERY CITIZEN SHOULD BE CONCERNED ABOUT...YOU HAD YOUR INCLUSION IN A DIFFERENT WORLD,
IN YOUR OWN WORLD...THIS IS NOT YOUR WORLD
YOU JUST HAPPEN TO BE HERE
YOU NEVER WANT TO BE INCLUDED EVEN IF THAI UNJUST WORLD WANT YOU TO BE...
YOU HAVE BEEN PROUDLY INCLUDED IN YOUR OWN WORLD, IN YOUR OWN
HOME COUNTRY...
HERE YOU MUST BE EXCLUDED...
IT'S BETTER FOR YOU TO BE EXCLUDED
YOU ARE TOO GOOD TO BE INCLUDED IN THIS MAKE BELIEVE TRUTH
LIVE WITH YOUR OWN TRUTH...
GO FOR A WALK IN THE MORNING, GO FOR A WALK IN THE EVENING
AND THINK ABOUT YOUR OWN TRUTH, THE TRUTH, THE REAL TRUTH, THE VALUES
WITH WHICH YOU WOULD LOVE TO LIVE WITH INCLUDED OR NOT...
BE PROUD, BE GRATEFUL, BE THANKFUL THAT YOU ARE NOT PART OF THAT GROUP
PART OF ANY GROUP...
YOU ARE YOUR OWN GROUP.
GOD GRANTED THAT POWER TO YOU...
YOU MUST HAPPILY ACCEPT YOUR EXCLUSION AND ONLY THEN YOUR DESPAIR WILL GO AWAY...IT WILL VANISH.  I PROMISE YOU.
TRY
TRY GOING FOR A WALK INSTEAD OF READING THE NYT IN THE MORNING
GO FOR A WALK INSTED OF WATCHING CNN...
AND YOUR SINKING HEART WILL STOP SINKING AND YOU WILL BE FREE OF THAT
DESPAIR OF NOT BEING INCLUDED.
"YOU SHOULD SHOUT WITH HAPPINESS WHEN YOU ARE WALKING
"I AM SO THRILLED NOT TO BE INCLUDED"
"I AM SO , SO, SO HAPPY TO BE EXCLUDED."
"THATS ALL I WANT.
'EXCLUSION"
"EXCLUSION"
EXCLUSION"

COMEDY NIGHT LIVE: PART OF NOEBOOKS OF BINA SHARIF

COMEDY NGHT LIVE: PART OF NOTEBOOKS OF BINA SHARIF

"LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, WELCOME TO COMEDY NIGHT LIVE.
A WONDERFULLY ORIGINAL SHOW FOR YOU TO WATCH.
GREAT ORIGINAL TALENT NEVER SEEN BEFORE IN NORTH AMERICA
BUT AFTER TONIGHT THEY WILL BE ALL OVER THE PLANET.

THATS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU ARE HILLARIOUSLY TALENTED AND BRILLIANTLY FUNNY.

I Dr. MANSOORA, A PART TIME, UNEMPLOYED COMEDIAN WHO WON'T BE
UN-EMPLOYED FOR LONG AFTER TONIGHT.

NOW FIRST I AM GOING TO DO A MONOLOGUE JUST LIKE DAVE LETTERMAN,
JAY LENO AND CONAN O'BRIAN AND THEN BTHE SPECIAL GUESTS WILL APPEAR
TO ENTERTAIN YOU.  SO WELCOME.  (PAUSE)  YOU CAN CLAP.  IT'S ALLOWED.

HAVE YOU EARD THAT ACTRESS DUNST COMPLAINING THAT KISSING BARD PITT
WAS DISGUSTING.

I MEAN COME ON...

HOW MANY OF YOU TELL ME HONESTLY WON'T KISS BRAD PITT IF YOU EVER HAD THAT CHANCE?

ANGELINA JOLIE IS NOT GOING TO GIVE ANY OF US THAT CHANCE BUT I AM SURE
ALL OF US WILL JUMP AT BRAD PITT LIKE CHAMPENZES  AND NEVER EAVE HIS LIPS ALONE

DUNST, PLEASE LEAVE BRAD PITT ALONE.  BRAD DOESN'T WANT YOU.
AND HAVE YOU EVER SEEN JOLIE'S LIPS?

JOLIE'S LIPS CAN SUCK THE WHOLE OF BRAD PITT IN HER THROAT AND ALL OF US
WILL BE LOOKING FOR HIM FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES JUST TO HAVE A LOOK AT HIS PRETTY MOUTH...

KIM KARDASHIAN SAID  THAT SHE WON'T WANT HER CHILDREN TO LOOK AT COLOR, (PEOPLE'S COLOR)

SO I GUESS HER BABIES WON'T BE ALLOWED TO LOOK AT THEIR DADY FOR SURE.
FORGET ABOUT PLAYING WITH HIM OR GOING TO THE PARK WITH HIM.

FORGET IT. THE KID, HE/SHE CAN'T LOOK AT DADY.  DADY HAS A DIFFERENT.

"MOMY, MOMY CAN I LOOK AT THAT MAN KNOWN AS MY FATHER?  MOMY, MOMY CAN I?

"HE LOOKS  DIFFERENT THAN YOU BUT CAN I MOMMY DEAREST? CAN I LOOK AT HIM?

SO HOW MANY OF YOU THINK THAT OUR PRESIDENT OBAMA IS WHITE?
AND HOW MANY OF YOU THINK THAT HE IS BLACK?

AND HOW MANY OF YOU THINK THAT HE IS HALF BLACK AND HALF WHITE?

AND HOW MANY OF YOU THINK WHICH HALF OF THE PRESIDENT IS WHITE AND WHICH HALF IS BLACK?

SO IF HIS RIGHT HALF IS WHITE HE IS A REPUBLICAN AND HE IS ON THE RIGHT SIDE
OF OUR GLORIOUS CONSERVATIVE PARTY?

AND HIS OTHER HALF, THE BLACK HALF IS ON THE LEFT SIDE, SO HE IS ON THE LEFT AND IS A DEMOCRAT.

SO HE IS ON THE LEFT SIDE OF THINGS IF HIS LEFT SIDE IS TE BLACK SIDE.

SO WHICH HALF OF OUR PRESIDENT BARAK IS THE STRONGER HALF?

WHITE HALF OR THE BLACK HALF?

DIFFICULT QUESTION AND NOT VERY FUNNY...RIGHT?

BUT GREAT COMEDY IS NOT VERY FUNNY BECAUSE IT'S COMPLEX
BUT UN-EMPLOYED Dr. MANSOORA WHO IS ALSO AN UN-EMPLOYED COMEDIAN IS GOING TO MAKE COMPLEXITY INTELLIGENT AND ALL INTELLIGENT THINGS ARE FUNNY

OK, LET'S CHANGE THE TOPIC FROM SERIOUS TO SILLY...
OUR COUNTRY LIKE SILLY

SO HOW MANY OF YOU KNOW THAT BRITANY SPEAR DOESN'T WEAR A BRA ANY MORE AND HOW YOUR EVERY DAY LIFE IS EFFECTED FOR BETTER OR WORSE BECAUSE OF HER CHOICE OF NOT WEARING THE BRA ANY MORE?

DO YOU THAT MELANIE GRIFFTH AAS AYOUNG GIRL HAD A LION AS A PET WHO SLEPT UNDER COVERS NEXT TO HER?  I THINK SHE LEARNED SOMETHING FROM THE LION, SHE GRABBED BANDARES.

THANK YOU, THANK YOU.  I WILL BE RIGHT BACK AFTER THE SHORT COMMERCIAL BREAK.  DON'T GO AWAY.

COMMERCIAL.

"HEDACHE, TERRIBLE HEADACHE...I DO ADVIL AND THEN NO HEADACHE."

(SMILES)
SPRAY THIS NEW COMMERCIAL BABY POO BRAND ON THE POOP OF YOUR TODDLER
ON THE DINNING TABLE AND THE POOP DISAPPEARS INSTANTLY AS IF IT NEVER EXISTED NEITHER DID YOUR TODDLER.  iT MAKES EVERYTHING DISAPPEAR INSTANTLY.

BACK FROM THE COMMERCIAL BREAK.  COMMERCIAL BREAK IS OVER
I DIDN'T WANT THE COMMERCIAL BREAK TO BE SO LONG, SO LONG, I CARE FOR MY CHERISHED AUDIENCE WHO CHERISH ME AND WANT ME BACK AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, AND NOW I AM BACK....AND EIGHT YEARS OF OUR HALF BLACK AND HALF WHITE PRESIDENT IS OVER AND NOW WE HAVE A VERY PURE WHITE PRESIDENT.  HE IUS PURE WHTE ON THE RIGHT SIDE AND PURE WHITE ON THE LEFT SIDE.  HE IS RIGHT ON BOTH SIDES. HE IS SO RIGHT AND SO WHITE THAT THERE IS NO ONE IN OUR HALF WHITE AND HALF BLACK AND HALF BROWN COUNTRY WHO IS SO PUREY WHITE VAND RIGHT ON BOTH BSIDES, HE IS WHITE ON THE RIGHT SIDE AND HE IS WHITE ON THE LEFT SIDE.

HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?  AFTER THE PROGRESS OF HALF WHITE AND HALF BLACK PRESIDENT HOW COME THIS COUNTRY WENT BACK TO THE RIGHT SIDE ON BOTH SIDES AND THE VERY WHITE AS WELL ON BOTH SIDES?

COULD THE PUBLIC NOT CHOSE A TOTALY BLACK PRESIDENT, BLACK ON THE RIGHT AND BLACK ON THE LEFT?  OR MAYBE BROWN ON THE LEFT AND WHITE ON THE RIGHT? OR YELLOW ON THE LEFT AND BROWN ON THE RIGHT?

DID THE UBLIC FORGET THAT THERE . ARE BROWN PEOPLE AND YELLOW PEOPLE AND BLACK PEOPLE HERE IN TIS GREAT REPUBLIC?

NOW WE HAVE TO DEAL WITH TOTALY PURE WHITE PRESIDENT ALL OVER AGAIN...

MAYBE PEOPLE SHOULD IMPEACH HIM...

OH! THEY DID.

THEY DID?
YES, THEY DID
AND?
AND WHAT?
WHAT HAPPENED AFTER THE IMPEACHMENT?
NOTHING
NOTHING?
YES, NOTHING, HE GOT IMPEACHED AND THEN..
THEN WHAT?
NOTHING

IS HE GONE?
NO
NO?
NO, HE IS HERE
HE IS HERE/
YES, HE IS HERE

SO WHAT'S THE POINT OF IMPEACHMENT?
THERE WAS A POINT
WHAT POINT?
POINT BLANK
WHAT?
THE POINT WAS JUST POINT BLANK

I DON'T GET IT AND WE ARE DOING COMEDY AND IF NO ONE GETS THE POINT OF
THE COMEDY WHICH IS A PUNCH LINE, NO ONE IS GOING TO LAUGH...

YES, NO ONE IS GOING TO LAUGH
WHY NOT?  WE ARE GOOD COMEDIANS
BUT WE DON'T HAVE GOOD MATERIAL, TOTALLY PURE WHITE PRESIDENT
IN THE DAY AND AGE OF WORLD TEEMING WITH COIRED PEOPLE OF ALL COLORS
PURELY WHITE LEADER RIGHT ON BOTH SIDES IS BAD MATERIAL

SO WHY IS HE STILL HER?
HE IS IMPEACHED
I DON'T UNDERSTAND, I AM A FOREIGNER
OH! DON'T SAY THAT, PURE WHITE PRESIDENT IS GOING TO THROW YOU OUT

OUT OF THIS COMEDY CLUB?
YES, FROM THE CLUB A WELL AS FROM THIS COUNTRY....
WHY?
SHE ASKED WHY?
YES, WHY?

YOUR COMMERCIAL BREAK IS COMIMG...
OH! THE COMMERCIAL BREAK...

DON'T GO AWAY, I WILL BE RIGHT BACK.  WE STILL HAVE TO FIGURE OUT WHY IS HE STILL HERE AFTER THE IMPEACHMENT?


COLR THAN MOMMY

NOTEBOOKS CONTINUE: KARIMA'S DESPAIR

NOTEBOOKS CONTINUE: KARIMA'S DESPAIR

HATE PROJECT

THEY VARE ALL TEXTING
I LEARNED NOTHING
I HATE TECHNOLOGY
I HATE MYSELF AS WELL

I HATE MYSELF
AND THE CELL PHONE
AND THE TEXTING
AND THE UPLOAD

AND DOWNLOAD
EMAIL, GMAIL, YAHOO
EARTHLINK, INTERNET
GOOGLE SEARCH, SEARCH ENGINE

FACEBOOK, TWITTER, INSTAGRAM
I HATEB OTHER PEOPLE'S FACES
THEIR NOSES, THEIR EYES, THEIR MOUTHS
THE WAY THEY WALK

THE WAY THEY TALK
THE WAY THEY STARE AT ME
THE WAY THEY HAVE A CONDESCENDING LOOK
LOOK OF SUPERIORITY

I HATE ALL FAKE PEOPLE
FAKE CONVERSATIONS
FAKE PARAISE, FAKE CONCERNS
THEIR LACK OF MANNERS

THEIR ENORMOUS COMPLIMENTS
WHICH THEY KEEP PAYING TO THEMSELVES
LACK OF POLITENESS, SOPHISTICATION
THEIR LACK OF KNOWLEDGE

THEIR LACK OF LEARNING
I HATE WHATEVER THEY DO
I HATE WHATEVER THEY ARE CAPABLE F DOING
AND WHATEVER THEY ARE NOT CAPABLE OF DOING

WHICH IS A LOT
THEY ARE CAPABLE OF NOTHING
BUT DESTRUCTION OF THE HUMAN RACE
THEY VOTE FOR WAR

I HATE WAR
AND I HATE PEOPLE WHO VTE FOR WAR
I HATE ARMY
I HATE CORPORATIONS
I HATE POLITICIANS

I AM FULL OF HATE
SOME DAY WHEN THE WORLD ET BETTER
I WILL PURGE MY HATE
OUT OF MY BODY

LIKE A DUMP
LOSE, WET, GOOEY DUMP
AND ALL THE HATE WOULD LEAVE MY BODY
FOR EVER AND FOREVER

AND I WILL FEEL BETTER
I HAVEN'T FELT GOOD FOR A LONG TIME
HATE MADE ME FEEL AWFUL
BUT I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT

THE WORLD AND PEOPLE IN IT WAS FALLING APART
AND IT'S THEM WHO BEGAN FIRST
THEY BEGAN TO HATE ME
FOR NO RAESON

BUT FOR MY NAME
BUT FOR MY FACE
BUT FOR MY RELIGION
BUT FOR MY BIRTH

THERE WAS NOTHING THAT I COULD DO
TO PREVENT THEIR HATRED TOWARDS ME
SO I STARTED TO HATE THEM BACK
AND IT KEPT INCREASING

I BECAME AN EXPERT IN HATE
I STARTED TO HATE ALL DOINGS
ALL STRUGGLES
ALL LIES

ALL BULLSHIT
ALL BULLSHIT
IT'S ALL BULLSHIT
I HATE ALL BULLSHIT

THERE WAS SO MUCH TO HATE
I REALIZED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HATE PROJECT
SINCE THE WORLD DIDN'T INCLUDE ME IN THEIR PROJECTS
I DECIDED TO START MY OWN....

NOW I HAVE MY OWN HATE PROJECT
AND I AM SO SUCCESSFUL AT IT
I HATE ALL DAY LONG
I HATE ALL NIGHT LONG

BEFORE I WS NEVER BUSY
ALWAYS CALLING MY GIRL FRIENDS
"HI, YOU WANT TO GO FOR COFFEE?"
"OH! I  CAN"T.  I AM SO BUSY>"

I WILL CALL ANOTHER GIRL FRIEND
"WANT TO GO FOR A DRINK?"
"I CAN'T, SO BUSY."
THEY WERE ALL SO BUSY

"WHAT ARE THEY DOING ALL DAY?
THAT THEY ARE ALWAYS SO BUSY...
I SHOULD ALSO DO SOMETHING
SO I COULD BE SO, SO BUSY

"BUT WHAT SHOULD I DO?"
"I DO NOT HAVE THE SLIGHTEST IDEA
HOW TO BE BUSY
SINCE I DO NOT HAVE A JOB

NEVER HAD A JOB
EVERYTIME I WALKED IN
THEY WOULD JUST LOOK AT ME
AND MAKE FUCKING EXCUSES

"OH! WE HAVE NO VACANCY RIGHT NOW"
I WANTED TO TELL THEM
"YOU NEVER HAVE A FUCKING VACANCY FOR ME"
"I KNOW YOU ARE LYING

I KNOW YOU ARE ALWAYS LIEING
I KNOW YOU ARE FULL OF SHIT
FULL OF SHITTY RACISM
AND EXCUSES, ALL KINDS OF EXCUSES

SINCE I NEVER HAD A JOB
I THINK IT WAS MY ACCENT
OR MAYBE MY FACE
YES, IT WAS MY FACE

AND MY ACCENT
IT BWAS BOTH
I DIDN'T LOOK AMERICAN
AND IN AMERICA

YOU HAVE TO BE  AMERICAN
IN AMERICA
YOU HAVE TO BE BUSY
EVERY ONE WAS BUSY

BUT HOW SHOULD I BECOME BUSY?
I WONDERED
I WONDERED ALL THE TIME
WHY DON'T I EVER GET A JOB?

I WOULD SPEND MY WHOLE DAY
LOOKING FOR A JOB
AND AT NIGHT WONDERING
WHY DON'T i GET ONE?

SO ONE DAYIT HIT ME
THAT THEY ALL HATE ME
AND THAT WS A SHOCK
BECAUSE I DIDN'T HATE ANY ONE TILL THEN

WHY DO THEY HATE ME?
I AM SUCH A NICE PERSON
WHY DO THEY HATE ME?
I COULDN'T FIGURE IT OUT

BUT I WAS AS CERTAIN AS MY NAME
THAT THEY HAD SOME KIND OF DISLIKE
ENORMOUS DISLIKE
TOWARDS ME

WHY?
WHY?
WHY?
I WOULD ASK

AND THEN IT OCURED TO ME
THAT THIS IS A CULTURE OF HATE
THEYHAVE ENEMIES
AND THEY HATE THEM

BUT I AM NOT THE ENEMY
THEY THINK THAT YOU ARE
BUT WHY?
BECAUSE YOUARE NOT FROM HERE

BUT MANY PEOPLE ARE NOT FROM HERE
THEY HATE THEM ALL
WHY?
THEY LOOK DIFFERENT

OH! SO IF YOU LOOK DIFFERENT
YOU BECOME AN OBJECT OF HATE
I SEE, BUT ALL OF THEM
LOOK DIFFERENT TO ME

SO THEY CAN BECOME YOUR OBJECT OF HATE
GO AHEAD, HATE THEM
THEY LOOK DIFFERENT THAN YOU
THEY SOUND DIFFERENT TAHN YOU

PERFECT
PERFECT
EVERY ONE WHO LOOKS DIFFERENT
SOUNDS DIFFERENT

IS OF DIFFERENT COLOR HAS TO BE HATED
IN THE MODERN WORLD
YOU ARE IN THE MODERN WORLD
IT'S 21st CENTURY

THOUGH YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT
MODERN TECHNOLOGY
YOU ARE STILL IN THE MODERN WORLD
START A NEW PROJECT

EVERYONE IS INTO PROJECTS
PROJECTS . ARE MODERN
PROJECTS KEEP PEOPLE BUSY
WHEN YOU CALL YOUR GIRL FRIENDS

THEY ARE BUSY DOING PROJECTS
THATS WHY THEY DON'T GO OUT
WITH YOU FOR COFFEE
THEY HAVE A PROJECT

WHICH KEEPS THEM BUSY
HAVE APROJECT
ABOUT WHAT?
ABOUT HATE

WHAT CAN BE STRONGER
THAN HATE?
AND YOU KNOW SO MUCH
ABOUT IT ALL READY

"OH! DO I KNOW ABOUT HATEN
SO MUCH TO START MY OWN PROJECT?"
"OF COURSE YOU DO"
"YOU HAVE BEEN HATED ALL YOUR LIFE."

"THAT MAKES SENSE
I AM GOING TO START MY PROJECT
TODAY
RIGHT NOW

"DEBUT OF A HATE PROJECT"
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NOW ALL OF YOU CAN STAY BUSY
I WILL NEVER CALL YOU AGAIN FOR A COFFEE

I AM GOING TO BE VERY BUSY NOW
VERY, VERY BUSY NOW
YOU ONLY HATED ME
AND YOU WERE ALWAYS SO BUSY

I HAVE TOHATE THE WHOLE WORLD
AND EVERY ONE WHO IS IN IT
YOU CAN IMAGINE
HOW BUSY I AM GOING TO BE?

YOUR PHONE WILL NEVER RING AGAIN
AT LEAST NOT BY ME
YOU WON'THAVE THE SATISFACTION
TO TELL ME

"OH! I AM SO BUSY"
GUESS WHAT?
I AM BUSY NOW
I WILL BE BUSY

FOR EVER
I HAVE MY OWN PROJECT
AND IT'S CALLED
HATE PROJECT...

GOOD BY
OOD BY GIRL FRIEND
GOOD BY
GIRL FRIEND

I AM GOING TO BE JUST LIKE YOU
YOU AND YOU AND YOU
THE BUSY BODIES ...
WHO IS HATING  WHO NOW?

YOU CAN'T MATCH MY HATRED
IT'S HUGE
IT'S ACITY
IT'S A COUNTRY

IT'S A MOUNTAIN
IT'S A MARBLE PALACE
IT HAS FOUNTAINS SPROUTING HATE
FERTILIZING ALL

THE FLOWERS AND PLANTS
AND TREES
SO THEY CAN ALL HATE YOU
YES, THEY WILL

ALL HATE YOU
THEY ARE ALL PART OF MY PROJECT
MY HATE PROJECT
IT TOOK ME A LIFE TIME

AND NOW I HAVE MY OWN HATE PROJECT
DON'T EVER EVEN BY MISTAKE
TRY TO CONTACT ME
BECAUSE I AM CONSUMED WITH HATRED OFYOU.
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NOTEBOOKS OF BINA SHARIF

NOTEBOOKS OF BINA SHARIF

"DUST"

LOST IN HER SADNESS
REDUCED TO SMALLNESS
IN HIS PRESENCE."  ?

"AROUND HIM SHE MAKES
HERSELF SMALL."

"I AM HERE FOR ONE DAY
I CAN'T SOLVE ANY ONE'S PROBLEMS.
I CAN  NOT
AND I SHOULD NOT CHANGE ANY ONE'S LIFE."

"NEVER GET TOO ATTACHED
AVOID BEING NOTICED
DO NOT INETRFERE

"ANCHORED BY THE PROFOUND
DESPERATE LONILNESS." ?

"WE ALL WANT EVERYTHING TO BE OK
WE DON'T EVEN WISH SOMUCH FOR FANTASTIC
OR MARVELLOUS OR OUTSTANDING."?

"NOT THINKING OF ME
JUST SELLING HER GOODS
MAKING MONEY
HE IS THINKING OF MONEY
NOT THINKING OF ME."

"KNOWLEDGE IS THE ONLY THING
I TAKE WITH ME WHEN I GO.' ?

"I OBSERVE BETTER THAN OTHERS."

"WORN DOWN FROM TOO MUCH THOUGHT."

"REDUCING EVERYTHING THATS NOT US
INTO INCONSEQUENTIAL BLUR." ?

"I HAVE WANDERED FOR SO LONG
WITHOUT ANY SENSE OF PURPOSE." ?

"I ONLY HAVE A DAY TO GIVE
AND THAT DAY IS TOMORROW."

"SHE WAS AN ALCOHOLIC
HER MOTHER TOO...
SHE WENT FOR THERAPY
I DID TOO...

WE USED TO SIT AND ANALYZE
EACH OTHER...AS WELL AS MY
UNCLE, MY FATHER, MY BROTHER,
THEY WERE ALL ALCOHOLICS

AND I THINK MY GRANDFATHER AS WELL
AND MY GRAND MOTHER
SHE WAS ONE OF THESE SOCIETY WOMEN
IT WAS 1930

HER MOTHER NEVER DRANK
SHE WAS SO ANTI ALCOHOL
HER HUSBAND WAS ONE FOR A WHILE
FOR A SHORT WHILE WHICH BECAME A LONG WHILE

I HAD A FRIEND
WHO WAS AN ORGANIST
HE WAS NOT SUPPOSE TO DRINK
FOR SEVEN DAYS

HIS PARENTS WERE THERE
AND HE PLAYED THE ORGAN
AND WAS NOT DRINKING
HIS PARENTS WERE HIS WITNESSES ..."  ?

"I GUESS ITS OK TO BE DRY
AND TO BE HAPPY..."
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"KARIMA ULLAHA'S DESPERATE NEED TO BE LOVED"

KARIMA ULLAHA'S THERAPIST TOLD HER
TO SAY NO TO MOST OF THE THINGS WHICH
DO NOT BENEFIT HER AND ACTUALLY
DISRUPT HER CALM....

SHE HARDLY EVER EXPERIENCE CALM
BECAUSE MOST OF THE TIME SHE IS
OCCUPIED TRYING TO FIGURE OUT
HOW NOT TO PLEASE PEOPLE BANY MORE

IT'S NOT ONLY HER RELATIVES
TO WHOM SHE CAN'T SAY NO
BUT MOST OF THE PEOPLE
MOST OF THE TIME

PEOLE SHE COMES ACROSS SOCIALLY,
AT HER WORK, AT CAFE'S, AT THEATERS
FOR MANY YEARS SHE NEVER, OUT OF
HER FEAR OF REJECTION COULD SAY NO TO ANY ONE

SO SHE KEPT DOING THINGS FOR OTHERS
AT THE EXPENSE OF HER OWN TIME,
HER FINANCE, HER HEALTH, HER
ADVANCEMENT...

MORE SHE DID THINGS
MORE SHE FELT SOME KIND OF
UNCOMFORTABLE FEELING OF STRESS
AND ANXIETY

SHE WASN'T CONSCIOUS OF THE SOURCE OF STRESS
AND PEOPLE KEPT TAKING ADVANTAGE OF HER
BECAUSE SHE ALLOWED IT.
UNKNOWINGLY BUT STILL ALLOWED IT

ALLOWED PEOPLE TO SUBTLY ABUSE HER
AND NOT SO SUBTLY SOMETIME
THERE CAME A TIME WHEN PEOPLE
ORDINARY PEOPLE, SHE CAME ACROSS

OR EVEN HER LOVED ONES
STARTED TO ORDER HER AROUND
AND SHE ALWAYS HAD THE
ANXIETY OF OBEYING....

SHE WAS A GREAT PERSON
HIGHLY SENSITIVE,
HIGHLY INTELLIGENT
GIVING AND KIND

HUMOROUS, GENEROUS
CARING, SELFLESS
PATIENT, MAYBE TOO PATIENT
LOVING, MAYBE TOO LOVING

MANY PEOPLE WANTED HER TO BE AROUND
BECAUSE OF HER KNOWLEDGE
SHE WAS LIKE A WALKING, TALKING
DICTIONARY...

THEY LIKED HER COMPANY
SHE HAD HUMOR
SHE ENTERTAINED THEM
BUT THEY WERE NEVER AVAILABLE FOR HER

UNLESS IT WAS ABSOLUTELY CONVENIENT
FOR THEM.
ONLY WHEN IT WAS SUITABLE
FOR THEM TO SPARE SOME TIME FOR HER

BUT OTHERWISE
THEY BEHAVED
TO BE THE MOST IMPORTANT
ALWAYS BUSY PEOPLE

SINCE SHE HAD THIS MONSTROUS FEAR
OF ABANDONMENT
SHE DIDN'T KNOW IT
BUT SHE HAD IT

SHE WAS TERRIFIED
OF BEING ABANDONED
SO SHE WOULD ALWAYS
MAKE TIME FOR PEOPLE

AND FOR FAMILY
BUT THE FAMILY BEHAVED BUSY CONSTANTLY
AND ONCE IN A BLUE MOON
MAKE A FEW MOMENTS TO SPEND WITH HER

SUBCONSCIOUSLY, SHE WAS CONSTANTLY
DISTURBED ABOUT SOME GNAWING FEELING
TTHAT SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT IN HER LIFE
HER LIFE WAS PASSING BY

AND PASSING BY QUICKLY
AND PASSING HER BY
RESTLESSNESS OF HER SOUL
KEPT INCREASING TREMENDOUSLY

TILL SHE COLLAPSED
AND BECAME SERIOUSLY ILL
AND WAS TAKEN TO THE HOSPITAL
SHE HAD ALL THE ILLNESSES WHICH COME

WITH STRESS...
HER ACCUMULATED STRESS WAS SO MONUMENTAL
THAT IT MADE HER IMMOBILE
SHE COULDN'T MOVE

SHE COULDN'T MOVE AT ALL
TRAUMATIZED, SHOCKED
EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY
EXHAUSTED

SHE STAYED IN THE HOSPITAL FOR MONTHS
AND NOT MANY PEOPLE CAME TO VISIT GER
OR INQUIRED ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED T HER
OR ABOUT HER WHEREABOUTS...

AND WHY SUDDENLY SHE WASN'T
AROUND ANY MORE...
SINCE SHE WAS HIGHLY SENSITIVE
AND CURIOUS A PERSON

SHE WONDERED CONSTANTLY
WHILE SHE WAS RECOVERING
ABOUT PEOPLE
PEOPLE SHE KNEW AND CARED FOR

SHE WAS AMAZED THAT NO ONE WAS
CURIOUS ABOUT HER SUDDEN DISAPPEARANCE
SHE WONDERED IF PEOPLE THINK
OF ANY OTHER HUMAN BEING EVER

OR THEIR FACULTIES OF FEELING
AND COMPASSION HAVE FROZEN
INTO SLABS OF COLD ICE BLOCK
WHICH STAYS IN THE FREEZERS

OF HUMAN MIND AND HEART
WITHOUT EVER MELTING.
WHEN SHE CAME OUT OF THE HOSPITAL
HER RECOVERY WAS LONG AND HARD

SHE WAS MOSTLY ALONE
ISOLATED...
BUT SURPRISINGLY ENOUGH
WASN'T DESPERATE

NOR DID SHE EVER HAD THE DESIRE
TO SEE THOSE PEOPLE...
THE ONE'S SHE HAD BEEN OF
OFFENDING OR DISPLEASING

IN THE PAST.
"DESIRE" A LOVELY WORD
WHICH SHE USED AND FELT OFTEN
BECAME A STRANGER

SHE HAD NO DESIRE TO BE WITH ANY
OF THOSE SELF LOVING,
SELF INVOLVED STRANGERS"
WHOM SHE CALL"ED, "FRIENDS" ONCE

THERE WERE NO FEELINGS OF TERROR,
FEAR, EMPATHY, PASSION, CONCERN,
FONDNESS, WARMTH, LOVE, NEED

IN HER OF ANY OF THOSE
FOR WHOM SHE SPENT SO MUCH
OF HER PRECIOUS TIME WORRYING ABOUT
HER PRECIOUS TIME...

BEING ANXIOUS THAT IF SHE
SAID, "NO" TO THOSE
WHOM SHE THOUGHT WERE DEAR
TO HER...

IN SOME WAYS...
AND THUS SHE NEEDED THEM
FOR COMPANY PERHAPS
OR FOR FUN PERHAPS

OR FOR CONVERSATIONS
OR FOR SOCIAL LIFE
OR FOR FINANCIAL LIFE
ALL THOSE LESS SOLID

ALL THOSE FEELINGS DISAPPEARED
ALL CONCERNS, WORRIES, FEAR
LEFT HER...
AND SHE LEFT ALL THOSE FEELINGS BEHIND

SHE BECAME NUMB
OFF AND ON
AND FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME
JUST NUMB, NOTHING ELSE...

BUT THE BEST THING WHICH
EVER HAPPENED TO KARIMA ULLAH
WAS, THAT HER LIFE LONG
FEELING OF DESPAIR

ABANDONED HER
ABANDONED GER LIKE THEY ALL ABANDONED
HER IN THE PAST
HER DESPAIR, LIFE LONG DESPAIR

JUST ABANDONED HER FOR EVER AND EVER.
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ALL

KARIMA

KARIMA

THE TWO BEAUTIFULLY SAD POEMS I HAVE WRITTEN AT THE END OF 2019

'"THE ONLY DAY TO GIVE"
AND
"SADNESS"

THEY BOTH BELONG TO KARIMA.

SOME TIMES SAD THINGS ARE THE REAL THINGS

BECAUSE THEY ARE POEMS.

POEMS CAN BE HAPPY AS WELL

BUT I FOUND THESE TWO POEMS FOR KARIMA QUITE SAD

BUT TOUCHING AND SOULFL.