Friday, June 8, 2018

I SHOULD WRITE SOMETHING WHICH MAKES NO SENSE

I SHOULD WRITE SOMETHING WHICH MAKES NO SENSE.

I have been writing meaningful stuff for so long

Meaningful?  What's that?

Who cares for that?

Meaningful for whom?

 Meaningful?  All Bukwas, nonsense

Write something which makes no sense at all

It will be very well received

Well received?  By whom?

By the people who makes no sense

People like nonsensical stuff

Because thats more fun

"SENSE"  Is difficult to deal with

People want to like nonsense

People talk nonsense

Walk ninsense

"SENSE?"  No one thinks of making sense

Make no sense and thats how you should spend your days and nights


Tuesday, June 5, 2018

LOVE

LOVE

A fierce mutual protectivness I wanted towards the family and for the family.

Couldn't do it...

Not an armored animal at all...me...

Be one....

VENETIAN GLASS

VENETIAN GLASS

"Venetian glass doesn't appologise for its weakness.

It admits its delicacy.

It is confident enough to demand careful treatment.

Its not delicate becuse of a deficency or a mistake

Its fragile and easily harmed as the consequence

of its search for transparency and refinement."  ??

BORING, BANAL, REPETITIVE

BORING, BANAL, REPETITIVE

No beauty and interest in the things we do every day

Boring, Banal, Repetitive....

"Another person simply isn't very interested in what we think"

"So stop stressing that they are not interested in you?"

"Refusal to accept how things are leads to the capacity to infuriate and the

capacity to infuriate makes matters worse?"

"You should have serene indifference towards people not angry hatred.?"

Avocados and graps are good for you.  Maybe not the grapes, too sugary

" At times we should know how to close down our hopes and give ourselves

over to the contemplation of all that we will never be able to alter"  Botton

WALK BY THE RIVER

WALK BY THE RVER

River bores me

No, not the River actually

"Go to the river"

people say

"Which river?"

'East River--very close to you"

'Oh! The East River"

'Walking on the cement road along the railing..."

"The river is way below, way below....

Its not like Charles river in Cambridge where one can walk alongside the river...

on the grass, under the lush trees. alongside te river on thhe green grass and can touch te water with

your toes."

'Thats a walk, thats like going to the river for a walk.... a walk alongside the river."






THE WORD LEADS TO....(PROCESS OF WRITING, MY PROCESS ACTUALLY)

THE WORD LEADS TO....

A WORD,

An Image

Sensory feeling

Taste (Identity)

Smell (Individuality)

Gesture (Style)

Remark

Some one saying a sentence to you

Appreciative looks

Derogatry looks

Memory

Imagination

Influenec of other great writers

Sense of humor

content (Beginning, middke, end

Motivation

Impulse

Stream of consciusness

What kind if writing I would like to do?  (No idea)

Am I a surrealist?

Am I a realist?

Am I a naturalist?

Am I avantgarde?

I can do whatever I want (Writing especially)

There is no written law or rule

whatever comes out of me I put it out on the paper

I can look at it later

There will be stuff I will take out eventually

There will be stuff I will back in eventually

Take it out again

Put it back again

Something like that...

IMPULSE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT

Flight of Imagination must not be suppressed

Put everything down in an imperfect shape

Nothing will be ever perfect even if I have a finished project

Its my own choice to end it whenever...

When I think its done than its done...

So its done

That's what people call , Finished project.

My own ideas, my own imagination, my own understanding,

My motivation

My  own understanding of my motivation

My own esthetic is the most important thing

I MUST BE BOLD BECAUSE NO OINE WANTS ME TO BE

PEOPLE LOVE ME TO BE TIMID

THEY ALSO MISUNDERSTAND MY SOPHISTICATION AND POLITENESS

Courage to express whatever one wants to express is the real strength

My belief is that strength

Without my own belief, my own expression, my own story there is

no beginning of any creation of importance

I might not (I haven't, not many) win any award or become commercial sucess

but I am...Iam...I am

I am who I am...

I am not and I won't be any Tom, Dick or Harry

And if I want to write or perform for commerce I will have to

take a different route, the route of manipulation, the route of

calculation, formulas, kissing ass, going with the fashion of the day

Saying whatever they want to hear....selling out, these are all possibilities

of so called sucess...but it won't be organic but these days no one care for organic stuff, fame and

sucess is what matters...but your writting wont be the reall one. None of those things

come from the depths of your heart.

One must express in writing or in any other art form how one feels not how one

manipulate, not how one think about getting ahead...  It must be about how one feels,  how deep the

joy,

 the pain,

 the desperation,

 how deep the sorrow,

 loss and the chaos of the soul. is.....












WRITING AT LAFYETTE

WRITING AT LAFYETTE

Cotinuation of te play, ENGLISH BREAKFAST TEA

(Bill comes in: (Dana is surprised)

(Bill takes her out for a drink before going to the theater)

Dana orders a glass of red wine.  Bill goes to the bath room, takes a tea bag out (English breakfast tea)  dips in the glass of wine, take the tea bag out, dry it a bit, wrap it in a napkin, put it in his pocket
goes back to Dana and tells her that he is leaving for Upstate NY and can't go to the theater but will drop her there.

He drops her at the theater.
She goes to the party afterwards.
By about 8-30 Bill comes to Dana Austin's house
Dana's housemaid, Nandana is surprised to see him.
He gives Nandana a little package wrapped in red velvet
and tells Nandana that its a birthday gift for Dana
and he doesn't want to carry it with him upstate NY because he has the habit of losing things
and stressess upon the fact that Nandana won't tell Dana about the package
as well his visit to see Nandana.
He tells her to hide the package somewhere away from Dan's sight.
(TO BE CONTINUED)