CHEKHOVIAN DESPAIR

Shrinking aspirations
Missed connections
Bottomless hunger

Chekhovian despair

Clarity in Chekhov's ambiguity
Life comic and tragic at once

Illuminating fierceness
Futile attempts to communicate

HOLIDAY IN NEW YORK

Museums
Theater
Parks
Window shopping
Different neighborhoods

Keep busy
Be a cel
No accessibility  to any moron
Reserve
Polite
Distant
eat less
move more
Throw everything out...............

ANOTHER MISTAKE

Shouldn't have H in MS
Shouldn't have H in this one
Kept H for L
Or for P

Too late.......
But not a huge loss
You can be with your self for your own L
And your own P
Through your own B
Lack of it is very good for you
And asserting for your B for P is most important

Difficulty doing p like this is C
No one good is availableAnd who ever gets in is not experienced
Its next to impossible now to do this
Look for P
work as an A
M C T T
One woman shows or maximum two character plays with K

Most important for your social life and prestige is B
Develop all contacts and see important shows on your own
Do your blog regularly, diligently, obsessively........

NOTHING ELSE

Me and my A
Me and my H
Me and my W
Nothing else..............

PESSIMISM

Bitter
Satiric
Caricature
Deep seated pessimism

Disorder
Alienation
Hypocrisy
Deep seated pessimism

Fascination with the madness of crowds
Deep seated pessimism

Hell on earth
Masses of people
Deep seated pessimism

Need to get rid of
Ab c d e f g h i j k l m n o p
Too much time wasted
Need to make acquaintances with A and T people
Every one and everything is known nonsense.
Deep seated pessimism

Its the best of me that disappears
under the influence of aggression
and authority, unjust authority
I detest people
Deep seated pessimism

Cynicism
Scornful
Foul
Hateful
Loathing for false hood
deep seated pessimism

"Its the best of me that disappears."   Gide
"Music is the enemy of I solution."  Gass

'The story telling is rambling, episodic and digressive."

"Never worry about the band playing in the other room."  Quentin Crisp

"You are the band."   BS

Ardor
Passion
Deep seated pessimism

Stay away from trouble
Stay away from people
The main source of trouble.
Empty your brain from their wasteful presence.
Be alone with your work
Expect no M from any one
And take A from no one
Take injury from no one
Take insult from no one
Take assault from no one
Take orders from no one
Take anger from no one
Take aggression from no one
Take nothing from no one
Deep seated optimism

MISTAKE

Maybe it was a mistake but I did make it.

Only when there is a play going on

There is some stability of mind and time

and when the play is over....

The same boredom and emptiness comes back...

It seems like the emptiness sits on the roadside

for the play to be over and rushes fast towards me

on the last day to hug me and never leaves me

till a new venture happens...

But how many new ventures can happen in life?

Some how, somewhere, a mistake had been made

which has brought so much hollowness in my existence....

COMPLAINT PLAY

There is nothing but complaints

Complaints, complaints, complaints

Every day the same promises

Every day the same complaints

For years its been going on

How long its been going on?

For years its been going on

Same problems

Same solutions

Solutions?

Non solutions you mean?

Yes, thats what I mean...

Going backward

Forward march backward

Going forward/

Please...

Give us a break

We are procrastinators

Same BS

Same BS......

Shame on the promise

Shame on the un-fullfilment

Shame, Shame, Shame...

Nothing done

Nothing achieved

Nothing accomplished

Day after day

The same story

Day after day

The same story

Story continues

The story of shame continues

The story of nothing being done continues

The story of nothing ever being done

About those complaints

Nothing is ever being done

Only the complaints

Only the complaints

Only the complaints