"SO PUFFIN, WE ARE RATHER GLUM TODAY"

SO PUFFIN, WE ARE RATHER GLUM TO DAY CONTINUES

"ILLUSORY LOVE."

I on my own discovered,
Kafka
Laurence Durrell
Hardy
Dickens
Shakespeare
Shelly
Keats
Bertarnd Russel
D.H. Laurence
And I met Tennessee Williams
and I miss him...............
Now I am at the brink of hysteria knowing nothing at all....
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Get rid of H
Get rid of H
Get rid of all of them
Get rid please....
"For heaven's sake get rid of rubbish.
It smells
It has always smelled
But now it stinks.
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"People need to feel they belong."

A poem?
Perhaps-
Maybe?
Someday-
Perhaps the poem will be written?
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"We are rather glum today"
Missile strike on Syria
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"If you are ever worried about the proper way
to go about it, we will talk it all through Un till
you know exactly what's what"    Annonymous
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A PLACE SO TERRIBLE

Such a horrible place
Such a horrible life
How terrible the place I can't tell you
Can't describe it
You can't imagine it
You won't be able to imagine
Its amazing how awful terrible
There is no word to describe the place how
terrible it is.....
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GOING TO OR NOT GOING TO?

Is he going to?
Or is he not going to?
I think he is going to...
But when?
That I don't know

I think he is not going to
Maybe not

Maybe he is going to
But when?
That I don't know.........
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Second half of the bar
Top of the dresser
Under the vanity
Under the sink
Armoir
Uf---Uf---Uf---UfUFIFUFUFUFUFUFUF
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SAD

Its amazing how sad they have made me
Its amazing, how much hold they have on my emotions,
my well being, my happiness,my laughter,my sense of love,
my sense of joy,
my sense of anticipation of hyappiness,
amazing....

Can't seem to shake off the effect of sadness of that loss,
Loss of a sense of laughter,
The deep gut wrenching full laughter
S turned out to be a tough non feeling, non caring B

And the other one!
Another deep-deep=deep disappointment
F them...
You must learn to be happy on your own
Do the things which made you enjoy your life without any one
Please don't be a martyr...........
No victim hood is allowed
Why must you pay for other to enjoy your life?
Unbelievable and pathetic

They are not your relatives
They are not your blood
They are not your children
They can never be yours
What is yours thats the only possession you have
Enjoy your own possessions, your own talent, your own blessings
They are a very few but nevertheless  they are yours
Enjoy them
Don't be sad
Don't be sad
Don't be sad
People turn out to be cruel eventually
Because thats the human nature
Cruelty
Be sad if you want
on your own
By yourself
By your own reasons
But not because they make you sad
No, no one can control your emotions
But you
You and you
Only
You and you
Only
You and you only

Oh!F the whole thing already
Its been so long
So long
So long
So long
Enjoy life for yourself
Treat yourself
Yes, thats what you should do
I notice that you never treat your self
And why not?
And why not?
And why not?

Do for yourself what you wanted to do for them
Its unbelievable you only felt good if you could do something nice
for them and only then you could do something little nice thing for yourself through them?
Un believable and pathetic
You don't want to be ppathetic do you?
No you don't...
Not a very good word...
Isn't that interseting and disturbing that you only could feel good through them?
Through them, doing great things for them, making them loved and wanted
and what about you
Why can't you do things so you can feel wanted by you
So you can feel loved by you?
So sad
So sad
So sad
So sad

The inability to make yourself happy
To spend on yourself
To do things for yourself

Guilt is it?
Or you don't deserev anything good?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Ask that question a million time

Stop chasing rainbows
There never was a rainbow
They never cared
No one cared for you
Say it
Say it
Say it
Say it
Say it
Say it a million time
No one cared for you

Thats why you have to care for your self
ONly for yourself
You have to care only for yourself
They have others to take care of them
They have others to care for them
They have others ....
You have you
You need to take care of you.

There are no rainbows
Stop chasing the rainbows
There are no rainbows
You are the rainbow
Chase your self
YES, YOU ARE THE RAINBOW
CHASE YOURSELF
Spend money on you
Spend your love on you
Spend your energy on you
Spend your time on you
Spend your emotions on you

Travel with yourself
Enjoy yourself
Your company
is fantastic
Love your self
Love everything you do
Your work
Yes, your work
LOVE YOUR WORK
YOUR WORK DESERVE YOUR ATTENTION, YOUR CARE, YOUR TIME,
YOUR AFFECTION, YOUR TENDERNESS, YOUR BEAUTY, YOUR POETRY,
YOUR EXPERIENCE, YOUR KINDNESS, YOUR POETRY....
BE SAD IF YOU WANT WITHIN YOUR WORK
THATS ALLOWED
BE VERY SAD, FEEL ALL THE SADNESS, LONELINESS, LOSS, ABANDONMENT,
TRAGEDY, INJUSTICE, CRUELTY, DEATH, PAST, CHILDHOOD, REMORSE, REGRET
WITHIN YOUR WORK, DEEP INSIDE YOUR WORK....SEE NOW YOU HAVE THE PERMISSION OF THE WORK TO FEEL ALL EMOTIONS FULLY INCLUDING SADNESS,
TREMENDOUS SADNESS....................