Thursday, September 19, 2019
Tuesday, September 10, 2019
BINA SHARI'S NOTE BOOKS CONTINUE
BINA SHARIF'S NOTE BOOKS CONTINUES
SYBIL GOES TO A THERAPIST TO TAKE CARE OF HER DESPAIR.
ADVICE OF A THERAPIST:
THERAPIST:
LIFE IS NOT JUST AN ISOLATED EVENT
IT HAS ITS ELEMENTS
LIFE'S VICTORIES AND DEFEATS, AILMENTS,
HEALTH, SICKNESS,, ACHIEVEMENTS, HEARTACHES,
DEATH EVEN...
UNPREDICTABLY OF THE NEXT MOMENT...
ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN.
YOU CAN'T CONTROL YOUR LIFE FULLY
NOTHING CAN BE AVOIDED...
IT WILL HAPPEN IF ITS SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN
DOESN'T MEAN THAT ONE CAN'T BE OPTIMISTIC
OPTIMISTIC AT LEAST SOME TIME...
YES, POSITIVE THINKING IS GOOD
POSITIVE THINKING IS A PLUS FOR SURE...
BUT EVERY MOMENT IS NOT IN THE THINKING
ITS IN ITS ACTION...
MOMENT IS MOBILE
ITS NOT STILL
ITS NOT SITTING AND THINKING
ITS NOT AN INTELLECTUAL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THE
MEANINGLESS LIFE...
ITS ACTION BASED
AND ITS ACTION IS A SECRET.
SECRET FROM ALL OF US.
NO ONE KNOWS WHERE THE NEXT MOMENT WILL LEAD US...
WE, OF COURSE WANT IT TO LEAD US TO VICTORIES,
WEALTH, PERFECT HEALTH, FAME, ENTERTAINMENT, FORTUNE
BUT HOW CAN IT BE SO PERFECT, THE MOMENT i MEAN?
THIS WORLD'S
HOW CAN ONE PREDICT THAT ALMOST PERFECT MOMENT
WON'T LEAD US TO A HOSPITAL BECAUSE OF AN UN-FORTUNATE ACCIDENT?
SUDDEN ILLNESS, A CRASH, FAILURE, DISAPPOINTMENTS?
THE WHOLE LIFE CAN CHANGE IN THT FUTURISTIC MOMENT...
ONE NEVER WISHES FOR THAT MISFORTUNE...
ONE EXPECTS TO BE SAFE, HAPPY, SUCCESSFUL.
BUT WE ARE LINKED TO THE FATE OF THE UNIVERSE. LIKE CAMUS SAID...
ALBERT CAMUS, THE GREAT PHILOSOPHER AND WRITER SAID,
"KNOWING THAT THERE ARE NO VICTORIOUS CAUSES,
I HAVE A LIKING FOR LOST CAUSES.
THEY REQUIRE AN UN-CONTAMINATED SOUL EQUAL
TO ITS DEFEAT AND ITS TEMPORARY VICTORIES.
THIS WORLD'S CLASH OF CIVILIZATION HAS
SOMETHING AGONIZING ABOUT IT.
I HAVE MADE THAT ANGUISH MINE." Camus
SO ACCORDING TO CAMUS, WE ARE ALL LINKED TO THE WORLD
AND THE WORLD HAS MANY ILLS IN IT...
WARS, TORTURE, POVERTY, INJUSTICE, DISEASE
KILLINGS, BRUTALITY, CLASH OF CIVILIZATION AND THATS HOW
THE UN-PREDICTABILITY OF THE MOMENT IS LINKED TO ALL THE THINGS
HAPPENING IN THE WORLD.
WHEN ONE TRIPS ON AN UNEVEN FOOTPATH, THE OBSTACLES OF URBAN LIVING.
THAT TRIPPING IS LINKED TO THE FATE OF THE WORLD.
THE LEADER OF THE WORLD WHERE ONE TRIPPED HAS NOT FIXED THE FOOTPATH
FOOTPATH OF THE CITY AND THE COUNTRY HE RULES.
HE LEAVES IT UPTO YOU TO BE CAREFUL.
HOW CAREFUL ONE CAN BE WHEN THE PATHS WHERE YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO WALK
TO GO HOME SAFE IS FULL OF CRACKS, HOLES, ROUGH EDGES, ALL CAUSES OF
TRIPPING...UNEVEN EDGES WHICH ARE THERE BUT CAN'T BE SEEN...
UNTILL YOU HAVE TRIPPED. FALLEN, BROKEN SOME BONES, AND TAKEN TO
THE HOSPITAL...
YOUR FATE IS NOW LINKED TO THE UN-EVEN, ROTTEN, UNFIXED, NEGLECTED
SIDEWALK WHICH NEEDED URGENT REPAIRS BUT THE LEADER OF THE CITY
NEVER BOTHERED TO FIX IT....
DID YOU WANT TO FALL?
DID YOU WANT TO BREAK YOUR BONES?
WAS IT IN YOUR CONTROL TO FALL OR NOT TO FALL?
YES, OR NO?
DID YOU NOT KEEP YOUR EYES GLUED TO THE GROUND FOR EVERY UN-EVEN,
BROKEN SECTION OF THE FOOTPATH OR YOU KEPT LOOKING UP ALL ALONG?
ITS YOUR FAULT IF YOU DIDN'T COUNT ALL THE RAISED EDGES WHILE WALKING
ITS YOUR FAULT FOR LOOKING UP AT THE TREES AND NOT AT THE GROUND
WHILE WALKING...
BUT IF YOU NEVER LOOKED UP AND CONCENTRATED ON THE HOLES IN THE
FOOTPATH YOU MIGHT HAVE BEEN HIT BY THE MAN HOLDING HIS iPHONE
WHO NEVER LOOKED UP FROM HIS SCREEN....
HE SURE WILL BUMP INTO YOU AND POKE HIS ELBOW IN YOUR EYE
AND YOU WOULD HAVE TO BE TAKEN TO THE HOSPITAL WHERE THE DOCTOR
AFTER TAKING YOUR CO-PAY IN CASE YOU ARE INSURED WILL CLODLY DECLARE
THAT YOU HAVE LOST YOUR EYE...AND ITS YOUR FAULT BECAUSE YOU WERE
NOT CAREFUL...
BUT THE AMAZING THING IS THAT THE MAN GLUED TO THE SCREEN OF HIS iPHONE
UN-AWARE OF THER'S EXISTENCE IS ALSO PART OF THE FATE OF THE WORLD.
THE WORLD WHICH HAS RUTHLESS, GREEDY, SELFISH LEADERS, SELF ABSORBED
SELF LOVING PEOPLE WALKING AROUND OBLIVIOUS OF ANY CURTSEY, AND THE
BROKEN DOWN CIVILIZATION, HORROR OF RACISM, RELIGIOUS WARS,
BROKEN DOWN ROADS ON TOP OF THAT, THE ROADS WHICH ARE SUPPOSED TO TAKE
YOU SAFELY TO YOUR VERY UN-SAFE APTS.
HOW CAN ONE LIVE IN THE WORLD AND NOT BE CONNECTED TO IT?
SO YOUR ANGUISH,, YOUR DESPAIR, YOUR DEPRESSION, YOUR SORROW, YOUR
SADNESS, YOUR SENSE OF LOSS OF CONTROL OVER YOUR LIFE IS NOT YOUR FAULT
ITS ACTUALLY THE FAULT OF THE WORLD, THE WORLD WHICH HAS FAILED YOU
AT EVERY MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE.
SO YOUR ANGUISH, YOUR DISAPPOINTMENTS, YOUR DESPAIR CAN NOT BE TREATED
BECAUSE ITS NT YOURS ALONE...ITS THE DESPAIR OF THE WORLD, ITS THE DESPAIR
CAUSED BY THE EVIL WORLD AND YOU DON'T HAVE ENOUGH DOLLARS TO PAY ME
TO CURE THE CURE THE ILLNESS CAUSED BY THE CHAOS, ANGUISH AND DESPAIR
OF THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD.
AND FOR THAT KIND OF HUGE TREATMENT THE BILL WILL BE HUGE AS WELL.
SO WHEN YOU HAVE SOME ACESS TO A BILLION DOLLARS AND YOU ARE STILL
ALIE, COME BACK AND SEE ME SOMETIME...
THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD
SYBIL GOES TO A THERAPIST TO TAKE CARE OF HER DESPAIR.
ADVICE OF A THERAPIST:
THERAPIST:
LIFE IS NOT JUST AN ISOLATED EVENT
IT HAS ITS ELEMENTS
LIFE'S VICTORIES AND DEFEATS, AILMENTS,
HEALTH, SICKNESS,, ACHIEVEMENTS, HEARTACHES,
DEATH EVEN...
UNPREDICTABLY OF THE NEXT MOMENT...
ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN.
YOU CAN'T CONTROL YOUR LIFE FULLY
NOTHING CAN BE AVOIDED...
IT WILL HAPPEN IF ITS SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN
DOESN'T MEAN THAT ONE CAN'T BE OPTIMISTIC
OPTIMISTIC AT LEAST SOME TIME...
YES, POSITIVE THINKING IS GOOD
POSITIVE THINKING IS A PLUS FOR SURE...
BUT EVERY MOMENT IS NOT IN THE THINKING
ITS IN ITS ACTION...
MOMENT IS MOBILE
ITS NOT STILL
ITS NOT SITTING AND THINKING
ITS NOT AN INTELLECTUAL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THE
MEANINGLESS LIFE...
ITS ACTION BASED
AND ITS ACTION IS A SECRET.
SECRET FROM ALL OF US.
NO ONE KNOWS WHERE THE NEXT MOMENT WILL LEAD US...
WE, OF COURSE WANT IT TO LEAD US TO VICTORIES,
WEALTH, PERFECT HEALTH, FAME, ENTERTAINMENT, FORTUNE
BUT HOW CAN IT BE SO PERFECT, THE MOMENT i MEAN?
THIS WORLD'S
HOW CAN ONE PREDICT THAT ALMOST PERFECT MOMENT
WON'T LEAD US TO A HOSPITAL BECAUSE OF AN UN-FORTUNATE ACCIDENT?
SUDDEN ILLNESS, A CRASH, FAILURE, DISAPPOINTMENTS?
THE WHOLE LIFE CAN CHANGE IN THT FUTURISTIC MOMENT...
ONE NEVER WISHES FOR THAT MISFORTUNE...
ONE EXPECTS TO BE SAFE, HAPPY, SUCCESSFUL.
BUT WE ARE LINKED TO THE FATE OF THE UNIVERSE. LIKE CAMUS SAID...
ALBERT CAMUS, THE GREAT PHILOSOPHER AND WRITER SAID,
"KNOWING THAT THERE ARE NO VICTORIOUS CAUSES,
I HAVE A LIKING FOR LOST CAUSES.
THEY REQUIRE AN UN-CONTAMINATED SOUL EQUAL
TO ITS DEFEAT AND ITS TEMPORARY VICTORIES.
THIS WORLD'S CLASH OF CIVILIZATION HAS
SOMETHING AGONIZING ABOUT IT.
I HAVE MADE THAT ANGUISH MINE." Camus
SO ACCORDING TO CAMUS, WE ARE ALL LINKED TO THE WORLD
AND THE WORLD HAS MANY ILLS IN IT...
WARS, TORTURE, POVERTY, INJUSTICE, DISEASE
KILLINGS, BRUTALITY, CLASH OF CIVILIZATION AND THATS HOW
THE UN-PREDICTABILITY OF THE MOMENT IS LINKED TO ALL THE THINGS
HAPPENING IN THE WORLD.
WHEN ONE TRIPS ON AN UNEVEN FOOTPATH, THE OBSTACLES OF URBAN LIVING.
THAT TRIPPING IS LINKED TO THE FATE OF THE WORLD.
THE LEADER OF THE WORLD WHERE ONE TRIPPED HAS NOT FIXED THE FOOTPATH
FOOTPATH OF THE CITY AND THE COUNTRY HE RULES.
HE LEAVES IT UPTO YOU TO BE CAREFUL.
HOW CAREFUL ONE CAN BE WHEN THE PATHS WHERE YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO WALK
TO GO HOME SAFE IS FULL OF CRACKS, HOLES, ROUGH EDGES, ALL CAUSES OF
TRIPPING...UNEVEN EDGES WHICH ARE THERE BUT CAN'T BE SEEN...
UNTILL YOU HAVE TRIPPED. FALLEN, BROKEN SOME BONES, AND TAKEN TO
THE HOSPITAL...
YOUR FATE IS NOW LINKED TO THE UN-EVEN, ROTTEN, UNFIXED, NEGLECTED
SIDEWALK WHICH NEEDED URGENT REPAIRS BUT THE LEADER OF THE CITY
NEVER BOTHERED TO FIX IT....
DID YOU WANT TO FALL?
DID YOU WANT TO BREAK YOUR BONES?
WAS IT IN YOUR CONTROL TO FALL OR NOT TO FALL?
YES, OR NO?
DID YOU NOT KEEP YOUR EYES GLUED TO THE GROUND FOR EVERY UN-EVEN,
BROKEN SECTION OF THE FOOTPATH OR YOU KEPT LOOKING UP ALL ALONG?
ITS YOUR FAULT IF YOU DIDN'T COUNT ALL THE RAISED EDGES WHILE WALKING
ITS YOUR FAULT FOR LOOKING UP AT THE TREES AND NOT AT THE GROUND
WHILE WALKING...
BUT IF YOU NEVER LOOKED UP AND CONCENTRATED ON THE HOLES IN THE
FOOTPATH YOU MIGHT HAVE BEEN HIT BY THE MAN HOLDING HIS iPHONE
WHO NEVER LOOKED UP FROM HIS SCREEN....
HE SURE WILL BUMP INTO YOU AND POKE HIS ELBOW IN YOUR EYE
AND YOU WOULD HAVE TO BE TAKEN TO THE HOSPITAL WHERE THE DOCTOR
AFTER TAKING YOUR CO-PAY IN CASE YOU ARE INSURED WILL CLODLY DECLARE
THAT YOU HAVE LOST YOUR EYE...AND ITS YOUR FAULT BECAUSE YOU WERE
NOT CAREFUL...
BUT THE AMAZING THING IS THAT THE MAN GLUED TO THE SCREEN OF HIS iPHONE
UN-AWARE OF THER'S EXISTENCE IS ALSO PART OF THE FATE OF THE WORLD.
THE WORLD WHICH HAS RUTHLESS, GREEDY, SELFISH LEADERS, SELF ABSORBED
SELF LOVING PEOPLE WALKING AROUND OBLIVIOUS OF ANY CURTSEY, AND THE
BROKEN DOWN CIVILIZATION, HORROR OF RACISM, RELIGIOUS WARS,
BROKEN DOWN ROADS ON TOP OF THAT, THE ROADS WHICH ARE SUPPOSED TO TAKE
YOU SAFELY TO YOUR VERY UN-SAFE APTS.
HOW CAN ONE LIVE IN THE WORLD AND NOT BE CONNECTED TO IT?
SO YOUR ANGUISH,, YOUR DESPAIR, YOUR DEPRESSION, YOUR SORROW, YOUR
SADNESS, YOUR SENSE OF LOSS OF CONTROL OVER YOUR LIFE IS NOT YOUR FAULT
ITS ACTUALLY THE FAULT OF THE WORLD, THE WORLD WHICH HAS FAILED YOU
AT EVERY MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE.
SO YOUR ANGUISH, YOUR DISAPPOINTMENTS, YOUR DESPAIR CAN NOT BE TREATED
BECAUSE ITS NT YOURS ALONE...ITS THE DESPAIR OF THE WORLD, ITS THE DESPAIR
CAUSED BY THE EVIL WORLD AND YOU DON'T HAVE ENOUGH DOLLARS TO PAY ME
TO CURE THE CURE THE ILLNESS CAUSED BY THE CHAOS, ANGUISH AND DESPAIR
OF THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD.
AND FOR THAT KIND OF HUGE TREATMENT THE BILL WILL BE HUGE AS WELL.
SO WHEN YOU HAVE SOME ACESS TO A BILLION DOLLARS AND YOU ARE STILL
ALIE, COME BACK AND SEE ME SOMETIME...
THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD
Friday, September 6, 2019
BINA SHARIF'S NOTE BOOKS CONTINUES
BINA SHARIF'S NOTEBOOKS CONTINUES
"DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT
A
PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
3RD AND THE LAST PART OF DREAM TRILOGY PLAYS.
THE FIRST ONE WAS:
1 :PARANOIA OF A DREAM: PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC 2016
2: "DREAM WITHIN A DREAM" PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC 2018
3: "DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT" TO BE PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC IN DECEMBER 2019
EXERCISES AND EXPERIMENTS TO ERITE THE CURRENT PLAY,
"DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT"
"YOU HAVE BEEN TAKING INTEREST IN THE MOST INSIGNIFICANT OF THINGS." ?
"LONGING TO SEE NO MORE PICTURES OF THE HUMAN FORM TOILING IN PARIS
BETWEEN FOUR WALLS OR ROAMING THE STREETS IN SEARCH OF MONEY-HAS
TAKEN AN INCREASING TOLL ON HIM." Husysmans
"ONCE HE CUT HIMSELF OFF FROM CONTEMPORARY LIFE, HE HAD RESOLVED TO
ALLOW NOTHING TO ENTER HIS HERMITAGE WHICH MIGHT BREED REPUGNANCE
OR REGRET." Husymans from his novel, AGAINST NATURE.
"DIVORCED FROM MODERN TIMES AND MODERN SOCIETY." Husymans
"LASCIVIOUS DNCE, CRY OF LUST AND LECHERY." Husymans
"GUSTAVE MOREAU, THE ARTIS OF, "THE PICTURE OF SALOME."
"SHAKE UP YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM BY MEANS OF ERUDITE FANCIES." Husymans
"BASILICA BUILT IN BOTH MOSLEM AND THE BYZANTINE STYLE." Husymans
"ALL KINDS OF FAME ARE EPHERAL, ESPECIALLY ACTORS." Camus
"INDIFFERENCE IS PROFOUND VIOBILITY." Camus
"NOTHING INTERESTS A MAN THAN HIMSELF." Camus
"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?
HOW COME YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED IN YOURSELF?" BS
"MODERN SUCCESS IS ABOUT TAKING, NOT GIVING. " BS
PROLOGUE: DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT
NO ONE IS FREE.
NO ONE IS 100% FREE.
O MAN, NO WOMAN IS TOTALL FREE
THEY ARE ALONE BUT NOT FREE."
NO ONE IS GOING ANYWHERE...
THEY ARE ALL GOING HOME TO DO THE SAME MUNDANE CHORES.
"OH! JUST FORGET IT...THEY JUST PROMOTE THEIR GROUP."
"SO OK, THEY BECOME RICH AND FAMOUS AND THEN WHAT?"
THE FACE OF DEATH
"THEN WHAT?"
THAT'S THYOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE?E ONLY SOLID QUESTION."
THE BEST WAY TO BE IS NOT TO TALK MUCH AT ALL, NOT TO TALK
ABOUT SUCCESS, A STALE SUBJECT. NOT TO TALK ABOUT FAILURE EITHER...
EVERYONE HAS FAILED IN THE FACE OF DEATH....OH! YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE?
HOW WONDERFUL. I FORGOT, PARDON ME...I FORGOT FOR A WHILE HOW
INCREDIBLY SUCCESSFUL GOOD FOR YOU. YOU ARE...YOU SEEM REALLY STABLE
COMPARED TO THE OTHER ONE. GOOD FOR YOU. DEATH WON'T DARE APPROACH
YOU.
HE WILL WRITE A BOOKTO BE NOTHING."
HE WILL GIVE READINGS
HE WILL DELIVER SPEECHES
HE WILL BE INVITED BY THE ACADEMY
HE WILL MAKE MILLIONS
HE WILL HAVE FAME AND FORTUNE
AND THEN WAHT?
AND THEN WHAT?
"ALL HUMAN BEINGS TRAVEL THE DEAD--END---PATH." Camus
"IN THE MODERN WORLD, I APPLIED MYSELF WHOLE HEARTEDLY TO BE NOTHING." Camus
"NARROWER THE LIMIT YOU TO SUBMIT TO."S ALLOTTED HIM, THE MORE
NECESSARY HIS TALENT." Camus
'CAN'T GIVE UP.
CAN'T BE BEATEN DOWN BY THE OTHER...THE OTHER OTHER...
"A WRITER HAS SOME HOPE EVEN WHEN HE IS NOT APPRECIATED." Camus
"NOT FEWER THAN FOUR MADMEN.
ONE BY TRADE
ANOTHER BY INTENTION
AND THE LAST TWO BY SUFFERING." Camus
"IMMOBILITY ITSELF BECOMES SPECTACULAR." BS
"I NEED TO BE SILENT FOR A WHILE.
(Silence during the play)
"SILENCES MUST MAKE THEMSELVES HEARD." Camus
(Silence during the play)
"THAT ABSURD CONTRADICTION OF THE INDIVIDUAL WHO WANTS TO ACHIEVE
EVERYTHING AND LIVE EVERYTHING, THAT USELESS ATTEMPT, THAT INEFFECTUAL
PERSISTENCE." Camus
"CLASH OF CIVILIZATION HAS SOMETHING AGONIZING ABOUT IT...
I HAVE MADE THAT ANGUISH MINE." Camus
Silence
MY WRITING TEACHER TOLD ME TO READ CAMUS BESIDE MANY OTHER WRITERS
BUT FOR SURE CAMUS BECAUSE HE WILL HELP YOU TO LEARN, "NOT TO PERSIST TO
GET WHAT IS IN OTHER PEOPLE'S CONTROL..OTHER PEOPLE WHO WILL NEVER GIVE
IT TO YOU FOR WHATEVER REASON...PERSIST TO GET AND ACHIEVE WHAT'S IN
YOUR OWN CONTROL." Camus
Silence
CAN'T SUBMIT TO WHAT THE OTHER WANTS OF YOU...ANY OTHER...ALL OTHERS.
Silence
NO ONE WANTS YOU TO WRITE ANOTHER PLAY
BUT YOU MUST IGNORE ALL OTHERS...
AND WRITE YOUR PLAY
YOU ARE A PLAYWRIGHT
RIGHT?
RIGHT...
THEN WRITE THE PLAY...
I AM WRITING...
NO, YOU ARE ONLY TALKING ABOUT CAMUS...
THAT'S THE INSPIRATION...MY WRITING TEACHER TOLD ME TO READ HIM
BUT NOW YOU HAVE TO WRITE
WRITE WAHT?
YOUR PLAY
I AM DREAMING ABOUT WRITING ONE
YOUR DREAM IS LASTING TOO LONG
NOT LONG AT ALL...THE PLAY HAS TO BE AT LEAST 75 MINUTES LONG AND IT'S
15 MINUTES INTO THE PLAY...SO FAR..
BUT THERE IS NO PLAY YET...
LEAVE ME ALONE...YOU ARE ALWAYS BOTHERING ME...
THE TITLE OF THE PLAY IS, "DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT."
AND DREAMS ARE JUST DREAMS...IF NOTHING COMES OUT OF IT
I CAN ALWAYS SAY, "IT WAS JUST A DREAM."
AUDIENCE WON'T LIKE THAT...
THERE IS HARDLY ANY AUDIENCE AT MY PLAYS, HAT USED TO BE MYTHATS A PLUS, I DON'T HAVE
BTBT
TO WORRY ABOUT THE AUDIENCE ANY MORE...
PLAYS
YOU SEE IN THE OLDER DAYS I ALWAYS THOUGHT OF THE AUDIENCE...
EVERY TIME I WENT OUT TO SEE A PLAY WRITTEN BY LGBT PEOPLE I WAS ALWHE PLAYSAYS SO IMPRESSED BECAUSE THEY HAD FULL HOUSES, FULL, FULL HOUSES, THEIR FANS CAME TO SEE THEIR PLAYS AGAIN AND AGAIN AND I ALWAYS WANTED A FULL HOUSE...THAT WAS MY DREAM THEN BUT NO ONLY THREE OR FOUR PEOPLE AT THE MOST FROM LGBT GROUP CAME TO SEE MY PLAYS AND I BECAME SO DEPRESSED THAT I STOPPED WRITING THE PLAYS AND THEN MY WRITING TEACHER,
(BY THE WAY, I NEVER TOOK WRITING CLASSES BUT IN MY DESPERATION I IMAGINED A TEACHER AND SOUGHT HER ADVICE HOW TO GET A FULL HOUSE LIKE THE LGBT PLAYWRIGHTS AND SHE SAID, " FORGET ABOUT THEM. THEY ARE NOT COMING TO FILL YOUR HOUSE, YOU ARE NOT GAY...YOU HAVE TO BE GAY AND YOUR SUBJECT MATTER HAS TO BE GAY AS WELL FOR YOU TO FILL YOUR HOUSE...JUST FORGET ABOUT THE AUDIENCE OF ANY KIND AND WRITE YOUR PLAYS AND PERFORM THEM IN THE INTIMACY OF SILENCE...AND WHO WILL INSPIRE YOU ABOUT THAT WILL BE CAMUS....
AND I SAID, "OH! CAMUS, ALBERT CAMUS WHO WROTE THE BOOK, THE "STRANGER" AND SHE SAID, "YES, EXACTLY...AND I SAID, " I LOVE THAT BOOK, THE STRANGER
BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS FELT LIKE A STRANGER AFTER LIVING HERE FOR 38 SOME YEARS...AND SHE SAID, THATS YOUR TEACHER FROM NOW ON AND I BET YOU AFTER READING HIM YOU WILL HAVE A PLAY WRITTEN FOR SURE, AUDIENCE OR NO AUDIENCE...AND SINCE THEN I HAVE WRITTEN EVERYTHING HE EVER WROTE
AND HE IS SO IMMENSE THAT EVERY TIME I SIT DOWN TO WRITE MY PLAY AFTER READING HIM I FEEL, HOW DARE I MATCH MY WORDS WITH HIS...AND MY TEACHER
SAID, THATS EXACTLY WHAT HE IS TEACHING YOU, NEVER TO MATCH YOUR WORDS OR YOUR LIFE OR YOUR PASSIONS OR YOUR CREATIVITY TO ANY ONE BUT WHATEVER COMES OACTORY...UT OF YOU AFTER YOU HAVE BEEN INSPIRED BY THEM IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL, THE MOST CHERISHED, THE MOST HUMBLE AND YOUR OWN...THAT IS THE ONLY ACHIEVEMENT...FORGET ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE...
YOU KNOW SOMETHING..I HAVE BEEN NOTICING ABOUT YOU FOR A WHILE...
YOU ATTACH TOO MUCH IMPORTANCE TO OTHER PEOPLE...WHO ARE THESE OTHER
PEOPLE? WHAT HAPPENED IN YOUR CHILDHOOD? WAS YOUR PARENT'S COURTYARD ALWAYS FULL OF OTHER PEOPLE?
AS A MATTER OF FACT YES. THERE WERE ALWAYS MANY, MANY PEOPLE DOING MANY THINGS...OUR COURT YARD WAS FULL OF PEOPLE...SERVANTS, BEGGARS, POOR PEOPLE, SPICES, FRUITS, VEGETABLES, NUTS, COOKING, SUNSHINE, COOKING,
LAUGHTERS...I ALWAYS LOVED PEOPLE IN THE COURTYARD AND ALL THAT ACTIVITY AND NOW MY LIFE DEPENDS ON THE MERCY OF LGBTQ COMMUNITY...
IF YOU MENTION THE LGBTQ ONE MORE TIME, I WILL SLAP YOU...STOP IT...F CAMUS
THINK OF CAMUS, HUSYMANS, BOUDELAIRE, FLAUBERT, BALZAC, DUMAS,EDGAR ALLEN POE...YES, THINK OF EDGAR ALLEN POE...YOU KNOW HOW HARD HIS LIFE WAS?
HE STILL WROTE, HATHEY ARE AND SHOULD BE YOUR ONLYD NOT A DOLLAR IN HIS POCKET AND NO AUDIENEC AND HE WAS IN HIS OWN COUNTRY...AT LEAST YOU HAVE THE SATISFACTION OF BEING A
STRANGER HERE...HE WAS BRN HERE, DAMN IT...JUST THINK OF TE DEAD WRITERS...
THEY ARE AND THEY SHOULD BE YOUR ONLY INSPIRATION, YOUR ONLY AUDIENCE...
NOW WRITE YOUR DREAM PLAY...
IST MONOLOGUE OF THE DREAM PLAY
LIFE IS NOT JUST AN ISOLATED EVENT.
IT HAS ITS ELEMENTS,
ITS BODY PARTS,
ITS VICTORIES AND DEFEATS
AILMENTS,
HEALTH,
SICKNESS
THE NEXT MOMENT ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN
ACHIEVEMENTS
HEARTACHES
UN-PREDICTABLE EVENTS
DEATH...
NOW LETS SEE IF WE CAN DREAM OF WRITING THE DREAM PLAY?
'CAN'T SUBMIT TO WHAT THEY WANT
MANY OTHERS...
PLAYWRIGHT."
"DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT
A
PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
3RD AND THE LAST PART OF DREAM TRILOGY PLAYS.
THE FIRST ONE WAS:
1 :PARANOIA OF A DREAM: PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC 2016
2: "DREAM WITHIN A DREAM" PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC 2018
3: "DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT" TO BE PRODUCED BY TNC, NYC IN DECEMBER 2019
EXERCISES AND EXPERIMENTS TO ERITE THE CURRENT PLAY,
"DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT"
"YOU HAVE BEEN TAKING INTEREST IN THE MOST INSIGNIFICANT OF THINGS." ?
"LONGING TO SEE NO MORE PICTURES OF THE HUMAN FORM TOILING IN PARIS
BETWEEN FOUR WALLS OR ROAMING THE STREETS IN SEARCH OF MONEY-HAS
TAKEN AN INCREASING TOLL ON HIM." Husysmans
"ONCE HE CUT HIMSELF OFF FROM CONTEMPORARY LIFE, HE HAD RESOLVED TO
ALLOW NOTHING TO ENTER HIS HERMITAGE WHICH MIGHT BREED REPUGNANCE
OR REGRET." Husymans from his novel, AGAINST NATURE.
"DIVORCED FROM MODERN TIMES AND MODERN SOCIETY." Husymans
"LASCIVIOUS DNCE, CRY OF LUST AND LECHERY." Husymans
"GUSTAVE MOREAU, THE ARTIS OF, "THE PICTURE OF SALOME."
"SHAKE UP YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM BY MEANS OF ERUDITE FANCIES." Husymans
"BASILICA BUILT IN BOTH MOSLEM AND THE BYZANTINE STYLE." Husymans
"ALL KINDS OF FAME ARE EPHERAL, ESPECIALLY ACTORS." Camus
"INDIFFERENCE IS PROFOUND VIOBILITY." Camus
"NOTHING INTERESTS A MAN THAN HIMSELF." Camus
"WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?
HOW COME YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED IN YOURSELF?" BS
"MODERN SUCCESS IS ABOUT TAKING, NOT GIVING. " BS
PROLOGUE: DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT
NO ONE IS FREE.
NO ONE IS 100% FREE.
O MAN, NO WOMAN IS TOTALL FREE
THEY ARE ALONE BUT NOT FREE."
NO ONE IS GOING ANYWHERE...
THEY ARE ALL GOING HOME TO DO THE SAME MUNDANE CHORES.
"OH! JUST FORGET IT...THEY JUST PROMOTE THEIR GROUP."
"SO OK, THEY BECOME RICH AND FAMOUS AND THEN WHAT?"
THE FACE OF DEATH
"THEN WHAT?"
THAT'S THYOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE?E ONLY SOLID QUESTION."
THE BEST WAY TO BE IS NOT TO TALK MUCH AT ALL, NOT TO TALK
ABOUT SUCCESS, A STALE SUBJECT. NOT TO TALK ABOUT FAILURE EITHER...
EVERYONE HAS FAILED IN THE FACE OF DEATH....OH! YOU ARE NOT GOING TO DIE?
HOW WONDERFUL. I FORGOT, PARDON ME...I FORGOT FOR A WHILE HOW
INCREDIBLY SUCCESSFUL GOOD FOR YOU. YOU ARE...YOU SEEM REALLY STABLE
COMPARED TO THE OTHER ONE. GOOD FOR YOU. DEATH WON'T DARE APPROACH
YOU.
HE WILL WRITE A BOOKTO BE NOTHING."
HE WILL GIVE READINGS
HE WILL DELIVER SPEECHES
HE WILL BE INVITED BY THE ACADEMY
HE WILL MAKE MILLIONS
HE WILL HAVE FAME AND FORTUNE
AND THEN WAHT?
AND THEN WHAT?
"ALL HUMAN BEINGS TRAVEL THE DEAD--END---PATH." Camus
"IN THE MODERN WORLD, I APPLIED MYSELF WHOLE HEARTEDLY TO BE NOTHING." Camus
"NARROWER THE LIMIT YOU TO SUBMIT TO."S ALLOTTED HIM, THE MORE
NECESSARY HIS TALENT." Camus
'CAN'T GIVE UP.
CAN'T BE BEATEN DOWN BY THE OTHER...THE OTHER OTHER...
"A WRITER HAS SOME HOPE EVEN WHEN HE IS NOT APPRECIATED." Camus
"NOT FEWER THAN FOUR MADMEN.
ONE BY TRADE
ANOTHER BY INTENTION
AND THE LAST TWO BY SUFFERING." Camus
"IMMOBILITY ITSELF BECOMES SPECTACULAR." BS
"I NEED TO BE SILENT FOR A WHILE.
(Silence during the play)
"SILENCES MUST MAKE THEMSELVES HEARD." Camus
(Silence during the play)
"THAT ABSURD CONTRADICTION OF THE INDIVIDUAL WHO WANTS TO ACHIEVE
EVERYTHING AND LIVE EVERYTHING, THAT USELESS ATTEMPT, THAT INEFFECTUAL
PERSISTENCE." Camus
"CLASH OF CIVILIZATION HAS SOMETHING AGONIZING ABOUT IT...
I HAVE MADE THAT ANGUISH MINE." Camus
Silence
MY WRITING TEACHER TOLD ME TO READ CAMUS BESIDE MANY OTHER WRITERS
BUT FOR SURE CAMUS BECAUSE HE WILL HELP YOU TO LEARN, "NOT TO PERSIST TO
GET WHAT IS IN OTHER PEOPLE'S CONTROL..OTHER PEOPLE WHO WILL NEVER GIVE
IT TO YOU FOR WHATEVER REASON...PERSIST TO GET AND ACHIEVE WHAT'S IN
YOUR OWN CONTROL." Camus
Silence
CAN'T SUBMIT TO WHAT THE OTHER WANTS OF YOU...ANY OTHER...ALL OTHERS.
Silence
NO ONE WANTS YOU TO WRITE ANOTHER PLAY
BUT YOU MUST IGNORE ALL OTHERS...
AND WRITE YOUR PLAY
YOU ARE A PLAYWRIGHT
RIGHT?
RIGHT...
THEN WRITE THE PLAY...
I AM WRITING...
NO, YOU ARE ONLY TALKING ABOUT CAMUS...
THAT'S THE INSPIRATION...MY WRITING TEACHER TOLD ME TO READ HIM
BUT NOW YOU HAVE TO WRITE
WRITE WAHT?
YOUR PLAY
I AM DREAMING ABOUT WRITING ONE
YOUR DREAM IS LASTING TOO LONG
NOT LONG AT ALL...THE PLAY HAS TO BE AT LEAST 75 MINUTES LONG AND IT'S
15 MINUTES INTO THE PLAY...SO FAR..
BUT THERE IS NO PLAY YET...
LEAVE ME ALONE...YOU ARE ALWAYS BOTHERING ME...
THE TITLE OF THE PLAY IS, "DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT."
AND DREAMS ARE JUST DREAMS...IF NOTHING COMES OUT OF IT
I CAN ALWAYS SAY, "IT WAS JUST A DREAM."
AUDIENCE WON'T LIKE THAT...
THERE IS HARDLY ANY AUDIENCE AT MY PLAYS, HAT USED TO BE MYTHATS A PLUS, I DON'T HAVE
BTBT
TO WORRY ABOUT THE AUDIENCE ANY MORE...
PLAYS
YOU SEE IN THE OLDER DAYS I ALWAYS THOUGHT OF THE AUDIENCE...
EVERY TIME I WENT OUT TO SEE A PLAY WRITTEN BY LGBT PEOPLE I WAS ALWHE PLAYSAYS SO IMPRESSED BECAUSE THEY HAD FULL HOUSES, FULL, FULL HOUSES, THEIR FANS CAME TO SEE THEIR PLAYS AGAIN AND AGAIN AND I ALWAYS WANTED A FULL HOUSE...THAT WAS MY DREAM THEN BUT NO ONLY THREE OR FOUR PEOPLE AT THE MOST FROM LGBT GROUP CAME TO SEE MY PLAYS AND I BECAME SO DEPRESSED THAT I STOPPED WRITING THE PLAYS AND THEN MY WRITING TEACHER,
(BY THE WAY, I NEVER TOOK WRITING CLASSES BUT IN MY DESPERATION I IMAGINED A TEACHER AND SOUGHT HER ADVICE HOW TO GET A FULL HOUSE LIKE THE LGBT PLAYWRIGHTS AND SHE SAID, " FORGET ABOUT THEM. THEY ARE NOT COMING TO FILL YOUR HOUSE, YOU ARE NOT GAY...YOU HAVE TO BE GAY AND YOUR SUBJECT MATTER HAS TO BE GAY AS WELL FOR YOU TO FILL YOUR HOUSE...JUST FORGET ABOUT THE AUDIENCE OF ANY KIND AND WRITE YOUR PLAYS AND PERFORM THEM IN THE INTIMACY OF SILENCE...AND WHO WILL INSPIRE YOU ABOUT THAT WILL BE CAMUS....
AND I SAID, "OH! CAMUS, ALBERT CAMUS WHO WROTE THE BOOK, THE "STRANGER" AND SHE SAID, "YES, EXACTLY...AND I SAID, " I LOVE THAT BOOK, THE STRANGER
BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS FELT LIKE A STRANGER AFTER LIVING HERE FOR 38 SOME YEARS...AND SHE SAID, THATS YOUR TEACHER FROM NOW ON AND I BET YOU AFTER READING HIM YOU WILL HAVE A PLAY WRITTEN FOR SURE, AUDIENCE OR NO AUDIENCE...AND SINCE THEN I HAVE WRITTEN EVERYTHING HE EVER WROTE
AND HE IS SO IMMENSE THAT EVERY TIME I SIT DOWN TO WRITE MY PLAY AFTER READING HIM I FEEL, HOW DARE I MATCH MY WORDS WITH HIS...AND MY TEACHER
SAID, THATS EXACTLY WHAT HE IS TEACHING YOU, NEVER TO MATCH YOUR WORDS OR YOUR LIFE OR YOUR PASSIONS OR YOUR CREATIVITY TO ANY ONE BUT WHATEVER COMES OACTORY...UT OF YOU AFTER YOU HAVE BEEN INSPIRED BY THEM IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL, THE MOST CHERISHED, THE MOST HUMBLE AND YOUR OWN...THAT IS THE ONLY ACHIEVEMENT...FORGET ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE...
YOU KNOW SOMETHING..I HAVE BEEN NOTICING ABOUT YOU FOR A WHILE...
YOU ATTACH TOO MUCH IMPORTANCE TO OTHER PEOPLE...WHO ARE THESE OTHER
PEOPLE? WHAT HAPPENED IN YOUR CHILDHOOD? WAS YOUR PARENT'S COURTYARD ALWAYS FULL OF OTHER PEOPLE?
AS A MATTER OF FACT YES. THERE WERE ALWAYS MANY, MANY PEOPLE DOING MANY THINGS...OUR COURT YARD WAS FULL OF PEOPLE...SERVANTS, BEGGARS, POOR PEOPLE, SPICES, FRUITS, VEGETABLES, NUTS, COOKING, SUNSHINE, COOKING,
LAUGHTERS...I ALWAYS LOVED PEOPLE IN THE COURTYARD AND ALL THAT ACTIVITY AND NOW MY LIFE DEPENDS ON THE MERCY OF LGBTQ COMMUNITY...
IF YOU MENTION THE LGBTQ ONE MORE TIME, I WILL SLAP YOU...STOP IT...F CAMUS
THINK OF CAMUS, HUSYMANS, BOUDELAIRE, FLAUBERT, BALZAC, DUMAS,EDGAR ALLEN POE...YES, THINK OF EDGAR ALLEN POE...YOU KNOW HOW HARD HIS LIFE WAS?
HE STILL WROTE, HATHEY ARE AND SHOULD BE YOUR ONLYD NOT A DOLLAR IN HIS POCKET AND NO AUDIENEC AND HE WAS IN HIS OWN COUNTRY...AT LEAST YOU HAVE THE SATISFACTION OF BEING A
STRANGER HERE...HE WAS BRN HERE, DAMN IT...JUST THINK OF TE DEAD WRITERS...
THEY ARE AND THEY SHOULD BE YOUR ONLY INSPIRATION, YOUR ONLY AUDIENCE...
NOW WRITE YOUR DREAM PLAY...
IST MONOLOGUE OF THE DREAM PLAY
LIFE IS NOT JUST AN ISOLATED EVENT.
IT HAS ITS ELEMENTS,
ITS BODY PARTS,
ITS VICTORIES AND DEFEATS
AILMENTS,
HEALTH,
SICKNESS
THE NEXT MOMENT ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN
ACHIEVEMENTS
HEARTACHES
UN-PREDICTABLE EVENTS
DEATH...
NOW LETS SEE IF WE CAN DREAM OF WRITING THE DREAM PLAY?
'CAN'T SUBMIT TO WHAT THEY WANT
MANY OTHERS...
PLAYWRIGHT."
BINA SHARIF'S NOTE BOOKS CONTINUE
BINA SHARIF'S NOTEBOOKS CONTINUE
NOTE BOOK NO 5
DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT
A
NEW PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
LAST PART OF A DREAM TRILOGY PLAYS
copyright:binasharif 2015----2019
TO BE INCLUDED:
1: FUN PLAY
2" SYBIL'S DESPAIR
3: PREDICTION
4: LEAK: THE REAL LEAK'S COLOR IS RED
5: INVOICE
6: RESPONSE
7: THE SALE
8::DECLUTTER
9: 1-800 JUNK
10: CLUTTER STORAGE: $7 PER MONTH
11: GOOD RIDENS
12: TRAVEL: PORTUGAL, IRELAND, SPAIN, TURKEY, MOROCCO , CHINA
13: READINGS: CAFE'S, BOOK STORES, GALLERIES, TEA PARTIES, GARDENS, SALONS
NO MATER WHERE YOU GO FIND A PLACE TO READ AN EXCERPT FROM BINA
SHARIF'S WRITING...
PROMISE?
YES.
PROMISE.................
NOTE BOOK NO 5
DREAMS OF A PLAYWRIGHT
A
NEW PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
LAST PART OF A DREAM TRILOGY PLAYS
copyright:binasharif 2015----2019
TO BE INCLUDED:
1: FUN PLAY
2" SYBIL'S DESPAIR
3: PREDICTION
4: LEAK: THE REAL LEAK'S COLOR IS RED
5: INVOICE
6: RESPONSE
7: THE SALE
8::DECLUTTER
9: 1-800 JUNK
10: CLUTTER STORAGE: $7 PER MONTH
11: GOOD RIDENS
12: TRAVEL: PORTUGAL, IRELAND, SPAIN, TURKEY, MOROCCO , CHINA
13: READINGS: CAFE'S, BOOK STORES, GALLERIES, TEA PARTIES, GARDENS, SALONS
NO MATER WHERE YOU GO FIND A PLACE TO READ AN EXCERPT FROM BINA
SHARIF'S WRITING...
PROMISE?
YES.
PROMISE.................
Thursday, September 5, 2019
SYBIL CONTINUES
SYBIL:
THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME
THIS MORNING WHEN I WOKE UP, I REALIZED
THAT I WAS GOING THROUGH SOME KIND OF DESPAIR
ACTUALLY IT HAPPENS EVERY MORNING
THE DESPAIR, I MEAN
CONTINUES
EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE UP...
NOEL:
YES, I SAW IT. I SAW YOUR DESPAIR
SYBIL:
YOU SAW MY DESPAIR?
NOEL:
YES EXACTLY. I SAW IT IN YOUR HUGE BAG, YOUR HUGE PURSE YOU CALL IT.
FIRST OF ALL ITS NOT A PURSE. ITS A BAG, A HUGE BAG AND ITS FULL OF YOUR
DESPAIR. YOUR SO CALLED PURSE IS YOUR DESPAIR. I SAW YOU WERE CARRYING
IT AND I KNOW YOU WERE IN A BAD MOOD BECAUSE OF THE BAGGAGE YOU WERE
CARRYING AND YOU WERE GOING TO TAKE IT OUT ON ME EVENTUALLY...
SYBIL:
EVENTUALLY?
NOEL:
YES, EVENTUALLY
SYBIL;
NO, NOT EVENTUALLY NOEL, I AM GOING TO TAKE CARE OF IT RIGHT NOW...
RIGHT NOW MY DEAR, RIGHT NOW. I AM GOING TO TAKE CARE OF MY DESPAIR
RIGHT NOW ...EVERYTHING WHIH IS PART OF MY DESPAIR IS GOING TO BE TAKEN
CARE OF RIGHT NOW.
LIKE THAT FUCKING TEACHER WHO KICKED ME OUT OF HER CLASS ROOM
I AM GOING TO FUCKING KICK YOU OUT OF MY LIFE, SO WHY DON'T YOU GO FUCK
YOURSELF...
NOEL:
I AM LEAVING AND THIS TIME I AM LEAVING FOR GOOD
(Noel leaves)
SYBIL:
OH! FUCK...
(SHE GOES TOWARDS THE DOOR, TRIP AND FALL. ALL HER STUFF FROM THE HUGE BAG SCATTERS ON THE FLOOR...LOTS OF PAPERS...PLAIN PAPERS, PAPERS FULL OF WRITING , ALL SCATTERED ALL OVER...SHE IS NOW FULL OF DESPAIR AND STARTS TO SHOUT AT THE WRITTEN PAGES...)
SYBIL:
(SCREAMS ST HER WRITTEN PAGEES)
FUCK YOU TOO...FUCK YOU...FUCK YOU TOO...FUCK YOU...
(Starts to sob uncontrollably)
END OF PLAY
THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME
THIS MORNING WHEN I WOKE UP, I REALIZED
THAT I WAS GOING THROUGH SOME KIND OF DESPAIR
ACTUALLY IT HAPPENS EVERY MORNING
THE DESPAIR, I MEAN
CONTINUES
EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE UP...
NOEL:
YES, I SAW IT. I SAW YOUR DESPAIR
SYBIL:
YOU SAW MY DESPAIR?
NOEL:
YES EXACTLY. I SAW IT IN YOUR HUGE BAG, YOUR HUGE PURSE YOU CALL IT.
FIRST OF ALL ITS NOT A PURSE. ITS A BAG, A HUGE BAG AND ITS FULL OF YOUR
DESPAIR. YOUR SO CALLED PURSE IS YOUR DESPAIR. I SAW YOU WERE CARRYING
IT AND I KNOW YOU WERE IN A BAD MOOD BECAUSE OF THE BAGGAGE YOU WERE
CARRYING AND YOU WERE GOING TO TAKE IT OUT ON ME EVENTUALLY...
SYBIL:
EVENTUALLY?
NOEL:
YES, EVENTUALLY
SYBIL;
NO, NOT EVENTUALLY NOEL, I AM GOING TO TAKE CARE OF IT RIGHT NOW...
RIGHT NOW MY DEAR, RIGHT NOW. I AM GOING TO TAKE CARE OF MY DESPAIR
RIGHT NOW ...EVERYTHING WHIH IS PART OF MY DESPAIR IS GOING TO BE TAKEN
CARE OF RIGHT NOW.
LIKE THAT FUCKING TEACHER WHO KICKED ME OUT OF HER CLASS ROOM
I AM GOING TO FUCKING KICK YOU OUT OF MY LIFE, SO WHY DON'T YOU GO FUCK
YOURSELF...
NOEL:
I AM LEAVING AND THIS TIME I AM LEAVING FOR GOOD
(Noel leaves)
SYBIL:
OH! FUCK...
(SHE GOES TOWARDS THE DOOR, TRIP AND FALL. ALL HER STUFF FROM THE HUGE BAG SCATTERS ON THE FLOOR...LOTS OF PAPERS...PLAIN PAPERS, PAPERS FULL OF WRITING , ALL SCATTERED ALL OVER...SHE IS NOW FULL OF DESPAIR AND STARTS TO SHOUT AT THE WRITTEN PAGES...)
SYBIL:
(SCREAMS ST HER WRITTEN PAGEES)
FUCK YOU TOO...FUCK YOU...FUCK YOU TOO...FUCK YOU...
(Starts to sob uncontrollably)
END OF PLAY
WRITE A PLAY
WRITE A PLAY
PLAYWRITING IS ABOUT TWO CHARACTERS
WHATEVER YOU SEE-WHATEVER YOU HEAR WRITE ABOUT IT
YOU DON'T HAVE TO SUFER TO WRITE. IT'S A JOYFUL THING
WRITING IS PUTTING OUT OF YOUR BODY
ACTING IS PUTTING IT IN YOUR BODY
SOMETHING HUMAN ALWAYS GET A LAUGH
"SYBILS DESPAIR"
A SHORT PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
copyright:binasharif 2019
DYBIL IS GOING THROUGH LOTS OF DESPAIR ABOUT LOTS OF THINGS
HER EMOTIONS
HER WORK
HER HEALTH
HER WORK
HER DISSATISFACTION OVER LOTS OF THINGS...
SYBIL: A WRITER
I AM NOT A GROUP PERSON
THE GROUPS FOR ME IS TO SOCIALIZE
WRITING IS NOT SOCIALIZING
WRITING IS A SOLITARY EXPERIENCE
WRITING IS WORK
AND FOR THAT I HAVE TO BE ALONE...
I CAN'T WRITE WHEN SOME ONE TELLS ME, "OK, NOW BEGIN WRITING."
I FEEL FORCED
AND WHEN I FEEL FORCED
I CAN'T COME OUT WITH ANY KIND OF IMPULSE
ESPECIALLY A CREATIVE IMPULE
AND FOR ME ONLY THAT IMPULSE CARRIES ME THROUGH
WHEN I HAVE TO WRITE IN A WRITING WORKSHOP
I FEEL MY WRITING IS SUPERFICIAL
JUST WORDS ON THE PAPER WITHOUT MEANING, WITHOUT DEPTH
JUST WORDS TO FILL THE PAGE
TO PLEASE THE TEACHER....
IT'S NOT TE REAL EMOTION WHICH SUSTAINS ME...
AND IF I FIND MY OWN WRITING SHALLOW-EVERYONE ELSE SHALL FIND IT SO AS WELL
I NEED REAL PRIVACY TO WRITE
THAT'S WHY I AM NOT GOOD IN A CLASS ROOM
I HAVE NEVER TAKEN A WRITING CLASS
(TO THE TEACHER)
DO NOT TAKE IT PERSONALLY
TEACHER:
AND WHY NOT?
SYBIL:
ITS NOT ABOUT YOU, ITS ABOUT ME
TEACHER: (offended)
OF COURSE ITS ABOUT ME
SYBIL
NO, NO. ITS NOT ABOUT YOU
TEACHER:
YOU ARRE IMPLYING THAT I AM NO GOOD AS A TEACHER
SYBIL:
NO. I AM CLEARLY IMPLYING THAT I AM NO GOOD IN A CLASS ROOM. IN ANY CLAS ROOM, NOT ONLY YOUR CLASS ROOM...
TEACHER;
YOU ARE DISMISSED
SYBIL:
DISMISSED?
TEACHER:
YES, YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE IN MY CLASS
SYBIL:
ITS NOT YOUR CLASS ONLY...I WAS TALKING ABOUT ANY CLASS..I CAN'T WRITE
IN A CLASS ROOM...
TEACHER:
GET OUT...
SYBIL:
PLAYWRITING IS ABOUT TWO CHARACTERS
WHATEVER YOU SEE-WHATEVER YOU HEAR WRITE ABOUT IT
YOU DON'T HAVE TO SUFER TO WRITE. IT'S A JOYFUL THING
WRITING IS PUTTING OUT OF YOUR BODY
ACTING IS PUTTING IT IN YOUR BODY
SOMETHING HUMAN ALWAYS GET A LAUGH
"SYBILS DESPAIR"
A SHORT PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
copyright:binasharif 2019
DYBIL IS GOING THROUGH LOTS OF DESPAIR ABOUT LOTS OF THINGS
HER EMOTIONS
HER WORK
HER HEALTH
HER WORK
HER DISSATISFACTION OVER LOTS OF THINGS...
SYBIL: A WRITER
I AM NOT A GROUP PERSON
THE GROUPS FOR ME IS TO SOCIALIZE
WRITING IS NOT SOCIALIZING
WRITING IS A SOLITARY EXPERIENCE
WRITING IS WORK
AND FOR THAT I HAVE TO BE ALONE...
I CAN'T WRITE WHEN SOME ONE TELLS ME, "OK, NOW BEGIN WRITING."
I FEEL FORCED
AND WHEN I FEEL FORCED
I CAN'T COME OUT WITH ANY KIND OF IMPULSE
ESPECIALLY A CREATIVE IMPULE
AND FOR ME ONLY THAT IMPULSE CARRIES ME THROUGH
WHEN I HAVE TO WRITE IN A WRITING WORKSHOP
I FEEL MY WRITING IS SUPERFICIAL
JUST WORDS ON THE PAPER WITHOUT MEANING, WITHOUT DEPTH
JUST WORDS TO FILL THE PAGE
TO PLEASE THE TEACHER....
IT'S NOT TE REAL EMOTION WHICH SUSTAINS ME...
AND IF I FIND MY OWN WRITING SHALLOW-EVERYONE ELSE SHALL FIND IT SO AS WELL
I NEED REAL PRIVACY TO WRITE
THAT'S WHY I AM NOT GOOD IN A CLASS ROOM
I HAVE NEVER TAKEN A WRITING CLASS
(TO THE TEACHER)
DO NOT TAKE IT PERSONALLY
TEACHER:
AND WHY NOT?
SYBIL:
ITS NOT ABOUT YOU, ITS ABOUT ME
TEACHER: (offended)
OF COURSE ITS ABOUT ME
SYBIL
NO, NO. ITS NOT ABOUT YOU
TEACHER:
YOU ARRE IMPLYING THAT I AM NO GOOD AS A TEACHER
SYBIL:
NO. I AM CLEARLY IMPLYING THAT I AM NO GOOD IN A CLASS ROOM. IN ANY CLAS ROOM, NOT ONLY YOUR CLASS ROOM...
TEACHER;
YOU ARE DISMISSED
SYBIL:
DISMISSED?
TEACHER:
YES, YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE IN MY CLASS
SYBIL:
ITS NOT YOUR CLASS ONLY...I WAS TALKING ABOUT ANY CLASS..I CAN'T WRITE
IN A CLASS ROOM...
TEACHER:
GET OUT...
SYBIL:
SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING
"DEAD"
A
PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
copyright:binasharif 2019
THE WEATHER
THE ROADS
THE SUBWAY
THE CROWDS
THE NOISE
THE PEOPLE
THEIR DOGS
MONEY, TALK OF MONEY, OVERHEARING TALK OF MONEY
REAL ESTATE
LEAKS
NEIGHBORS
THEATER
BAD THEATER
BAD, BAD THEATER
PUBLICITY
RACISM
ISLAMOPHOBIA
HATRED OF MUSLIMS ALL OVER
WOMEN STRUGGLING
LAUNDRY
DISHES
COOKING
BUYING
FOOD
COFFEE
MEEYINGS
FRIENDS
WHO HAS FRIENDS?
FAKE NEWS, FAKE FRIENDS
INTERNET
EBAY
AMAZON
BOOK STORES
BAD BOKSTORES
BAD BOOKS
BAD BOOKS SELL
FAVORTISIM
POLOTICS
POLITICIANS
CORRUPTION
CHEATING
CHEATING LAWYERS
CRIME
INTENTIONAL CRIMES
LAWYERS DEFENDING THE CRIMINALS
LAWYERS NEED LOTS OF CRIME SO THEY CAN KEEP MAKING MONEY
LRADERS
CORRUPT LEADERS
PATRIOTISM
FIRST WORLD
THIRD WORLD
SECOND ORLD?
NO SECOND WORLD
JUST THE FIRST WORLD
JUST THE THIRD WORLD
YOU ARE FROM THE FIRST WORLD
OR THE THIRD WORLD
NO OTHER CHOICE
YOU HAVE O CHOICE
ARE YOU POOR?
IF IT'S A YES, THEN YOU HAVE NO POWER
POWERLESS
YES, YOU ARE POWERLESS
ABSOLUTELY POWERLESS
VICTIM
A HATEFUL WORD
EVERY ONE USES IT
EVERY ONE LIKES TO CALL YOU A VICTIM
IT GIVES THEM POWER
LOTS OF POWER
EVERY ONE WANTS POWER
EVERYONE WANTS TO CALL THE OTHER, "A VICTIM."
A HATEFUL WORD, "THE VICTIM"
POWERFUL LOVE THE WORD, "VICTIM"
THEY OFTEN CALL THE POOR, "VICTIMS"
POVERTY
MOST UNFORTUNATE DEFINITION OF UN-FORTUNATE MILLIONS
KEEP THEM POOR
MAKE YOUR SELF RICH AT THEIR EXPENSE
BE RICH
VERY RICH
VERY VERY RICH
LIKE EPSTEIN
COMMIT CRIMES
NEVER GET CHARGED
THEN DISAPPEAR
THAT IS SUCCESS
SUCCESS VERY ESSENTIAL HERE
HERE IN THE FIRST WORLD
NO MATTER HOW YOU GET IT
GET IT.
STEAL
CHEAT
KILL
STEAL
CHEAT
GET RICH
VERY RICH
VERY VERY RICH
LIKE EPSTEIN
GO TO JAIL
WHAT A JOKE
GET OUT OF JAIL FOR SIX DAYS
LET A LIMO COME PICK YOU UP FROM JAIL
FROM YOUR JAIL CELL TO YOUR MANSION
TO HAVE SEX
SEX VERY ESSENTIAL
HOW CAN YOU LIVE WITHOUT SEX?
ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU ARE VERY RICH
VERY VERY RICH
COMMIT CRIMES
INVITE POLITICIANS, DIPLOMATS, SEXY WOMEN, LEADERS OF THE WORLD
OTHER BILLIONS
HAVE BOATS
HAVE YACHTS
HAVE PRIVATE PLANS
MANSIONS
ART
COCAIN
DIAMONDS
GIRLS
SEX
SEX
SEX
SEX
AND CRIME
AND MONEY
BECAUSE OF THE CRIME
HAVE PARTIES
AT YOUR MANSIONS
HAVE CONNECTIONS
"OH! HE IS CONNECTED." "YOU CAN'T TOUCH HIM:
WHEN THE LAW SAYS, "OH! HE IS CONNECTED" "OH! SHE IS CONNECTED" YOU CAN'T TOUCH HIM" "YOU CAN'T TOUCH HER.'
THATS WHEN YOU MADE IT
THATS WHEN YOU HAVE REALLY MADE IT
THATS WHEN YOU ARE A SUCCESS
A REALL SUCCESS
A BIG SUCCESS
OTHERWISE
YOU ARE A VICTIM
A VICTIM
A VICTIM
THREE TIMES YOU RAE A VICTIM
HAVE YOU EVERR HEARD OF SOME ONE SAYING, "OH! I AM GOING TO A FANTASTIC PARTY...THE PART GIVER IS A VICTIM, REALLY POWERFUL VICTIM?
WHEN YOU ARE POOR
YOU ARE A VICTIM
BECAUSE YOU COMPLAIN OF POVERTY
POOR VICTIMS COMPLAIN OF POVERTY ALL THE TIME
WHO WANTS TO LISTEN TO THE COMPLAINTS OF A POOR VICTIM?
A VICTIM STAYS AS A VICTIM
OVERTY STRICKEN VITIM STAYS POOR, POWERLESS, CONTACTLESS VICTIM
ALL HIS/HER LIFE
AND THEN?
AND THEN?
ND THEN?
DIES
DEAD
DEAD
DEAD AS A DOOR NOB ...
DEAD
DEA
DEAD
THE VICTIM IS DEAD
STAYED A VICTIM ALL HIS LIFE
AND NOW/
AND NOW/
AND NOW?
IS DEAD........................
END OF PLAY
A
PLAY
BY
BINA SHARIF
copyright:binasharif 2019
THE WEATHER
THE ROADS
THE SUBWAY
THE CROWDS
THE NOISE
THE PEOPLE
THEIR DOGS
MONEY, TALK OF MONEY, OVERHEARING TALK OF MONEY
REAL ESTATE
LEAKS
NEIGHBORS
THEATER
BAD THEATER
BAD, BAD THEATER
PUBLICITY
RACISM
ISLAMOPHOBIA
HATRED OF MUSLIMS ALL OVER
WOMEN STRUGGLING
LAUNDRY
DISHES
COOKING
BUYING
FOOD
COFFEE
MEEYINGS
FRIENDS
WHO HAS FRIENDS?
FAKE NEWS, FAKE FRIENDS
INTERNET
EBAY
AMAZON
BOOK STORES
BAD BOKSTORES
BAD BOOKS
BAD BOOKS SELL
FAVORTISIM
POLOTICS
POLITICIANS
CORRUPTION
CHEATING
CHEATING LAWYERS
CRIME
INTENTIONAL CRIMES
LAWYERS DEFENDING THE CRIMINALS
LAWYERS NEED LOTS OF CRIME SO THEY CAN KEEP MAKING MONEY
LRADERS
CORRUPT LEADERS
PATRIOTISM
FIRST WORLD
THIRD WORLD
SECOND ORLD?
NO SECOND WORLD
JUST THE FIRST WORLD
JUST THE THIRD WORLD
YOU ARE FROM THE FIRST WORLD
OR THE THIRD WORLD
NO OTHER CHOICE
YOU HAVE O CHOICE
ARE YOU POOR?
IF IT'S A YES, THEN YOU HAVE NO POWER
POWERLESS
YES, YOU ARE POWERLESS
ABSOLUTELY POWERLESS
VICTIM
A HATEFUL WORD
EVERY ONE USES IT
EVERY ONE LIKES TO CALL YOU A VICTIM
IT GIVES THEM POWER
LOTS OF POWER
EVERY ONE WANTS POWER
EVERYONE WANTS TO CALL THE OTHER, "A VICTIM."
A HATEFUL WORD, "THE VICTIM"
POWERFUL LOVE THE WORD, "VICTIM"
THEY OFTEN CALL THE POOR, "VICTIMS"
POVERTY
MOST UNFORTUNATE DEFINITION OF UN-FORTUNATE MILLIONS
KEEP THEM POOR
MAKE YOUR SELF RICH AT THEIR EXPENSE
BE RICH
VERY RICH
VERY VERY RICH
LIKE EPSTEIN
COMMIT CRIMES
NEVER GET CHARGED
THEN DISAPPEAR
THAT IS SUCCESS
SUCCESS VERY ESSENTIAL HERE
HERE IN THE FIRST WORLD
NO MATTER HOW YOU GET IT
GET IT.
STEAL
CHEAT
KILL
STEAL
CHEAT
GET RICH
VERY RICH
VERY VERY RICH
LIKE EPSTEIN
GO TO JAIL
WHAT A JOKE
GET OUT OF JAIL FOR SIX DAYS
LET A LIMO COME PICK YOU UP FROM JAIL
FROM YOUR JAIL CELL TO YOUR MANSION
TO HAVE SEX
SEX VERY ESSENTIAL
HOW CAN YOU LIVE WITHOUT SEX?
ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU ARE VERY RICH
VERY VERY RICH
COMMIT CRIMES
INVITE POLITICIANS, DIPLOMATS, SEXY WOMEN, LEADERS OF THE WORLD
OTHER BILLIONS
HAVE BOATS
HAVE YACHTS
HAVE PRIVATE PLANS
MANSIONS
ART
COCAIN
DIAMONDS
GIRLS
SEX
SEX
SEX
SEX
AND CRIME
AND MONEY
BECAUSE OF THE CRIME
HAVE PARTIES
AT YOUR MANSIONS
HAVE CONNECTIONS
"OH! HE IS CONNECTED." "YOU CAN'T TOUCH HIM:
WHEN THE LAW SAYS, "OH! HE IS CONNECTED" "OH! SHE IS CONNECTED" YOU CAN'T TOUCH HIM" "YOU CAN'T TOUCH HER.'
THATS WHEN YOU MADE IT
THATS WHEN YOU HAVE REALLY MADE IT
THATS WHEN YOU ARE A SUCCESS
A REALL SUCCESS
A BIG SUCCESS
OTHERWISE
YOU ARE A VICTIM
A VICTIM
A VICTIM
THREE TIMES YOU RAE A VICTIM
HAVE YOU EVERR HEARD OF SOME ONE SAYING, "OH! I AM GOING TO A FANTASTIC PARTY...THE PART GIVER IS A VICTIM, REALLY POWERFUL VICTIM?
WHEN YOU ARE POOR
YOU ARE A VICTIM
BECAUSE YOU COMPLAIN OF POVERTY
POOR VICTIMS COMPLAIN OF POVERTY ALL THE TIME
WHO WANTS TO LISTEN TO THE COMPLAINTS OF A POOR VICTIM?
A VICTIM STAYS AS A VICTIM
OVERTY STRICKEN VITIM STAYS POOR, POWERLESS, CONTACTLESS VICTIM
ALL HIS/HER LIFE
AND THEN?
AND THEN?
ND THEN?
DIES
DEAD
DEAD
DEAD AS A DOOR NOB ...
DEAD
DEA
DEAD
THE VICTIM IS DEAD
STAYED A VICTIM ALL HIS LIFE
AND NOW/
AND NOW/
AND NOW?
IS DEAD........................
END OF PLAY
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