Saturday, June 29, 2019
Friday, June 28, 2019
DELIGHTFUL. NOTEBOOKS...
DELIGHTFUL
IT WAS A DELIGHTFUL SHOW
"FOREVER TANGO"
DANTE ALIGHIERIE'S DIVINE COMEDY...
DANTE'S IMAGINATION
PROFOUND UNDERSTANDING FOR LITERATURE...
"HELL"
"PURGOTORY"
"PARADISE"
I HAVE TO READ, DIVINE COMEDY ONCE AND FORALL...
I HAVE TO ALSO READ JOHN MILTON'S, "PARADISE LOST"
"OVID"
MAN'S BATTLE WITH THE TEMPTATION OF SATAN
"ART OF LOVE" DALI
SUBJECT MATTER'S STYLE
LOVE
SEDUCTION
INTRIGUE
CRIME
PUNISHMENT
ESCAPE
GUILTY
AND
NOT GUILTY
"ETCHINGS
LITHOGRAPHY
ENGRAVINGS
MONDAY...WORKSHOP
WEDNESDAY, WORKSHOP
TUESDAY, PHYSIOTHERAPY
WEDNESDAY..........
THURSDAY,............
FRIDAY, FRINGE
WEEKEND
BOOK FRINGE SHOWS, THE ONES KEVIN HASN'T BOOKED
DO THAT TODAY.
"SAMENESS OF THE SAME SAMENESS" BS
INTENSE AND SOMETIME VIOLENT STRUGGLE EITH MENTAL ILLNESS?
WHO SAID THAT?
DON'T KNOW...
STROMY EXISTENCE?
OBSCURE?
DISTORTE?
"WEALTH OF LITTLE DETAIL? "
"EMACIATED EXPRESSIONS?"
"PUNISHING HOURS OF WORK ? "
"TOO LITTLE TO EAT EFFECTS THE NERVOUS SYSTEM. ? "
"EXACERBATED, THE CRUSHING AND INCURABLE
MENTAL ILLNESS.? "
"THREATENING SANITY ?"
"IGNORED AND REJECTED
DOUBLE PUNISHMENT
WHILE GOING THROUGH THE SACRIFICE OF PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY ? "
REJECTION
THEY HAVE REJECTED YOU
THEY HAVE IGNORED YOU
WHY WOULD YOU PUNISH YOURSELF BECAUSE OF THAT?
A NORMAL PERSON WILL DOUBLY REWARD ONESELF
FOR OTHER PEOPLE'S BAD BEHAVIOR TOWARDS HIM
BUT A DISTURBED MENTAL SOUL WILL PUNISH HIMSELF
BECAUSE OTHERS PUNISHED HIM.
HE IS ANGY AT HIMSELF FOR BEING REJECTED
WHY MUST YOU ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE DOUBLY PUNISHED?
MEMORIES FROM OUR OWN PAST...
OMINOUS BLACK CROWS...
EMPTY YELLOW CHAIR...
"RELEASE FROM THE MISERY AND DEPRESSION INTO WHICH HE HAD STUMBLED. ? "
SHUNNED AND MOCKED ?
SUFFERING
GLOOM
UN-HAPPINESS ? "
SWERLING EXPLOSIONS
UN-NERVING COLORS...? "
"AGGRESSIVELY REJECTED." ?KUNJARS WERE ALWAYS THERE AND ARE STILL THERE. ? "
"WENT TO CONSIDERABLE TROUBLE TO EXPLAIN HIS THINKING." ?
"HE LONGED TO BE UNDERSTOOD AND APPRECIATED." ?
WHO IS THAT?
WHO?
THE ONE WHO LONGS TO BE UNDERSTOOD?
I GUESS IT'S ME
YOU?
YES
DO YOU FEEL YOU HAVE BEEN MISUBDERSTOOD?
DON'T YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY?
NO, WHY SHOULD I ?
ARN'T WE ALL MISUNDERSTOOD AND UNDERAPPRECIATED?
UNDER-APPRECIATED BY WHOM?
EVERYONE
WHO IS EVERYONE?
SOCIETY
SOCIETY?
YES, SOCIETY
SOCIETY IS SO BIG, SOCIETY IS THE WHOLE WORLD, YOU ARE WORRIED OF THE WHOLE WORLD?
NO, NOT THE WHOLE WORLD?
WHO THEN?
NOT EVERYONE, NOT THE WHOLE WORLD BUT SOME PEOPLE IN IT
WHICH PEOPLE?
YOUR LOVED ONE'S
YOUR LOVED ONE'S HAVE HURT YOU?
YOUR LOVED ONE'S HAVEN'T?
I DON'T HAVE ANY LOVED ONES...I DON'T FEEL HURT I DON'T FEEL MISUNDERSTOOD,
I DON'T FELL UNDER-APPRECIATED...I TOK CARE OF THAT...I HAVE NO LOVED ONE'S..
I LOVE NO ONE AND NO ONE LOVES ME. BUT I DON'T NEED ANY ONE'S LOVE...
"I AM TOO MUCH" THEY USED TO SAY. WHEN I HAD SOME PEOPLE I CARED FOR..
"YOU ARE TOO MUCH." THEY ALWAYS SAID
I MUST HAVE BEEN TOO MUCH SINCE THEY SAID IT SO OFTEN...
I NEVER KNEW WHAT THEY WANTED OUT OF ME...I GUESS THEY WANTED ME TO
OBEY THEM. OBEY THEM, CATER TO THEM BECAUSE I TOLD THEM THAT I LOVED
THEM. BY LOVING THEM I SEEMED WEAKER SO THEY LAUGHED AT ME AND
EXPECTED ME TO OBEY THEIR WHIMS...
AND SINCE I DIDN'T KNOW HOW THEY WANTED ME TO BEHAVE, I STOPPED VISITING
THEM AND STOPPED THE HUMILIATION AND I DECIDED WHEN I WILL KNOW THE
WAY HOW TO BEHAVE TO PLEASE THEM ONLY THEN I WILL VISIT THEM AND I
NEVER DID AND SINCE I STOPPED VISITING THEM I STOPPED FEELING UN-
APPRECIATED AS WELL.
I JUST STOPPED CARING. STOPPED LOVING...
THAT I WAS THE ONLY SOLUTION NOT TO BE MISUNDERSTOOD...STOPPED LOVING,
YES I STOPPED...
YES, I DID...
WHEN I WILL FIND A WAY OF BEHAVIOR APPROPRIATE FOR THEM I WILL GO VISIT
THEM....
IT WAS A DELIGHTFUL SHOW
"FOREVER TANGO"
DANTE ALIGHIERIE'S DIVINE COMEDY...
DANTE'S IMAGINATION
PROFOUND UNDERSTANDING FOR LITERATURE...
"HELL"
"PURGOTORY"
"PARADISE"
I HAVE TO READ, DIVINE COMEDY ONCE AND FORALL...
I HAVE TO ALSO READ JOHN MILTON'S, "PARADISE LOST"
"OVID"
MAN'S BATTLE WITH THE TEMPTATION OF SATAN
"ART OF LOVE" DALI
SUBJECT MATTER'S STYLE
LOVE
SEDUCTION
INTRIGUE
CRIME
PUNISHMENT
ESCAPE
GUILTY
AND
NOT GUILTY
"ETCHINGS
LITHOGRAPHY
ENGRAVINGS
MONDAY...WORKSHOP
WEDNESDAY, WORKSHOP
TUESDAY, PHYSIOTHERAPY
WEDNESDAY..........
THURSDAY,............
FRIDAY, FRINGE
WEEKEND
BOOK FRINGE SHOWS, THE ONES KEVIN HASN'T BOOKED
DO THAT TODAY.
"SAMENESS OF THE SAME SAMENESS" BS
INTENSE AND SOMETIME VIOLENT STRUGGLE EITH MENTAL ILLNESS?
WHO SAID THAT?
DON'T KNOW...
STROMY EXISTENCE?
OBSCURE?
DISTORTE?
"WEALTH OF LITTLE DETAIL? "
"EMACIATED EXPRESSIONS?"
"PUNISHING HOURS OF WORK ? "
"TOO LITTLE TO EAT EFFECTS THE NERVOUS SYSTEM. ? "
"EXACERBATED, THE CRUSHING AND INCURABLE
MENTAL ILLNESS.? "
"THREATENING SANITY ?"
"IGNORED AND REJECTED
DOUBLE PUNISHMENT
WHILE GOING THROUGH THE SACRIFICE OF PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY ? "
REJECTION
THEY HAVE REJECTED YOU
THEY HAVE IGNORED YOU
WHY WOULD YOU PUNISH YOURSELF BECAUSE OF THAT?
A NORMAL PERSON WILL DOUBLY REWARD ONESELF
FOR OTHER PEOPLE'S BAD BEHAVIOR TOWARDS HIM
BUT A DISTURBED MENTAL SOUL WILL PUNISH HIMSELF
BECAUSE OTHERS PUNISHED HIM.
HE IS ANGY AT HIMSELF FOR BEING REJECTED
WHY MUST YOU ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE DOUBLY PUNISHED?
MEMORIES FROM OUR OWN PAST...
OMINOUS BLACK CROWS...
EMPTY YELLOW CHAIR...
"RELEASE FROM THE MISERY AND DEPRESSION INTO WHICH HE HAD STUMBLED. ? "
SHUNNED AND MOCKED ?
SUFFERING
GLOOM
UN-HAPPINESS ? "
SWERLING EXPLOSIONS
UN-NERVING COLORS...? "
"AGGRESSIVELY REJECTED." ?KUNJARS WERE ALWAYS THERE AND ARE STILL THERE. ? "
"WENT TO CONSIDERABLE TROUBLE TO EXPLAIN HIS THINKING." ?
"HE LONGED TO BE UNDERSTOOD AND APPRECIATED." ?
WHO IS THAT?
WHO?
THE ONE WHO LONGS TO BE UNDERSTOOD?
I GUESS IT'S ME
YOU?
YES
DO YOU FEEL YOU HAVE BEEN MISUBDERSTOOD?
DON'T YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY?
NO, WHY SHOULD I ?
ARN'T WE ALL MISUNDERSTOOD AND UNDERAPPRECIATED?
UNDER-APPRECIATED BY WHOM?
EVERYONE
WHO IS EVERYONE?
SOCIETY
SOCIETY?
YES, SOCIETY
SOCIETY IS SO BIG, SOCIETY IS THE WHOLE WORLD, YOU ARE WORRIED OF THE WHOLE WORLD?
NO, NOT THE WHOLE WORLD?
WHO THEN?
NOT EVERYONE, NOT THE WHOLE WORLD BUT SOME PEOPLE IN IT
WHICH PEOPLE?
YOUR LOVED ONE'S
YOUR LOVED ONE'S HAVE HURT YOU?
YOUR LOVED ONE'S HAVEN'T?
I DON'T HAVE ANY LOVED ONES...I DON'T FEEL HURT I DON'T FEEL MISUNDERSTOOD,
I DON'T FELL UNDER-APPRECIATED...I TOK CARE OF THAT...I HAVE NO LOVED ONE'S..
I LOVE NO ONE AND NO ONE LOVES ME. BUT I DON'T NEED ANY ONE'S LOVE...
"I AM TOO MUCH" THEY USED TO SAY. WHEN I HAD SOME PEOPLE I CARED FOR..
"YOU ARE TOO MUCH." THEY ALWAYS SAID
I MUST HAVE BEEN TOO MUCH SINCE THEY SAID IT SO OFTEN...
I NEVER KNEW WHAT THEY WANTED OUT OF ME...I GUESS THEY WANTED ME TO
OBEY THEM. OBEY THEM, CATER TO THEM BECAUSE I TOLD THEM THAT I LOVED
THEM. BY LOVING THEM I SEEMED WEAKER SO THEY LAUGHED AT ME AND
EXPECTED ME TO OBEY THEIR WHIMS...
AND SINCE I DIDN'T KNOW HOW THEY WANTED ME TO BEHAVE, I STOPPED VISITING
THEM AND STOPPED THE HUMILIATION AND I DECIDED WHEN I WILL KNOW THE
WAY HOW TO BEHAVE TO PLEASE THEM ONLY THEN I WILL VISIT THEM AND I
NEVER DID AND SINCE I STOPPED VISITING THEM I STOPPED FEELING UN-
APPRECIATED AS WELL.
I JUST STOPPED CARING. STOPPED LOVING...
THAT I WAS THE ONLY SOLUTION NOT TO BE MISUNDERSTOOD...STOPPED LOVING,
YES I STOPPED...
YES, I DID...
WHEN I WILL FIND A WAY OF BEHAVIOR APPROPRIATE FOR THEM I WILL GO VISIT
THEM....
CAN THEY HANDLE? NOTEBOOKS CONTINUE...
CAN THEY HANDLE?
THEY CAN HANDLE VULGARITY
THEY CAN HANDLE CRIMINALITY
THEY CAN HANDLE SUPERFICIALITY
THEY CAN HANDLE FLUFF
CAN THEY HANDLE BEAUTY?
CAN THEY HANDLE CLASS?
CAN THEY HANDLE DIGNITY?
CAN THEY HANDLE HONESTY?
CAN THEY HANDLE DIVERSITY?
CAN THEY HANDLE MORALITY?
CAN THEY HANDLE VALUES?
CAN THEY HANDLE THE TRUTH?
CAN THEY?
CAN THEY?
CAN THEY?
NO. THEY CAN'T...
THEY CAN HANDLE VULGARITY
THEY CAN HANDLE CRIMINALITY
THEY CAN HANDLE SUPERFICIALITY
THEY CAN HANDLE FLUFF
CAN THEY HANDLE BEAUTY?
CAN THEY HANDLE CLASS?
CAN THEY HANDLE DIGNITY?
CAN THEY HANDLE HONESTY?
CAN THEY HANDLE DIVERSITY?
CAN THEY HANDLE MORALITY?
CAN THEY HANDLE VALUES?
CAN THEY HANDLE THE TRUTH?
CAN THEY?
CAN THEY?
CAN THEY?
NO. THEY CAN'T...
OH! THE NOTEBOOKS...SO MANY...SO,SO ,SO MANY
NOTEBOOKS
HOLLOW IDEALS
MANGLED MORTALS
OUR CIRCUMSTANCES MUST CHANGE
"MARAT WE ARE POOR
AND POOR STAY POOR"
ARE YOU IN AMERICA?
END TO THE HELPLESSNESS
END TO VICTIMHOOD
END TO THE FEELING OF FAILURE
END TO THE FEELING OF POVERTY
END TO THE FEELING OF BEING NO GOOD
END TO THE FEELING OF ROAD BLOCKS
END TO THGE FEELING OF NEVER CHANGING HABITS
END TO THE SAMENESS OF THE SAME PROBLEMS
END TO THE NEVER ENDING FEELING OF NO HOPE
END TO THE NEVER CHANGING
TO MAKE IT BETTER
END TO THE FEELING OF OPPRESSION
END OF THE FEELING OF BEING ALONE
ALONE, HELPLESS, NEVER LOVED
NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYTHING
NEVER SUCCESSFUL ENOUGH...
END OF THESE NEGATIVE ROAD BLOCKS
CREATED BY THE SELF AND OTHER ROAD BLOCKS
END OF THE FEELING THAT I AM A VERY BAD
IMMITATION OF SOMEBODY FAMOUS ARTIST'S DRAWING...
HOLLOW IDEALS
MANGLED MORTALS
OUR CIRCUMSTANCES MUST CHANGE
"MARAT WE ARE POOR
AND POOR STAY POOR"
ARE YOU IN AMERICA?
END TO THE HELPLESSNESS
END TO VICTIMHOOD
END TO THE FEELING OF FAILURE
END TO THE FEELING OF POVERTY
END TO THE FEELING OF BEING NO GOOD
END TO THE FEELING OF ROAD BLOCKS
END TO THGE FEELING OF NEVER CHANGING HABITS
END TO THE SAMENESS OF THE SAME PROBLEMS
END TO THE NEVER ENDING FEELING OF NO HOPE
END TO THE NEVER CHANGING
TO MAKE IT BETTER
END TO THE FEELING OF OPPRESSION
END OF THE FEELING OF BEING ALONE
ALONE, HELPLESS, NEVER LOVED
NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYTHING
NEVER SUCCESSFUL ENOUGH...
END OF THESE NEGATIVE ROAD BLOCKS
CREATED BY THE SELF AND OTHER ROAD BLOCKS
END OF THE FEELING THAT I AM A VERY BAD
IMMITATION OF SOMEBODY FAMOUS ARTIST'S DRAWING...
Wednesday, June 26, 2019
BINA'S NOTEBOOKS CONTINUES
BINA'S NOTEBOOKS
NO THEATER
NO HANGING OUT
NO COMPANY
NO DESIRE FOR COMPANY
NO FD, (Have no idea what i meant)
NO CD.. same
FORGET IT
NO PS, NO, MS, NO MM, NO DD, NONE (initials but have no idea which people)
JUST HI, HI, SAY, HI, HI, NICE WEATHER AND GET AWAY
GET RID OF EVERY ONE FAST..
JUST WORK
DO YOUR WORK
PUT YOUR HAND WRITTEN NOTEBOOKS ON YOUR BLOG
PUT THEM ON SINGING BIRDS, YOUR BEAUTIFUL BLOG
YOUR WORDS ARE SONGS BEING SUNG BY BIRDS
WHAT DO YOU CARE ABOUT CD, FD, BB, SS, MM, NC...WHOEVER THEY ARE
NONE OF THEM WERE YOUR FRIENDS
IT WAS 2013 WHEN THIS NOTE BOOK WAS WRITTEN
AND NOW YOU DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHO THEY WERE
FOR SURE THEY WERE NOT YOUR FRIENDS
THEY WERE JUST THERE TO DISTRACT YOU FROM YOUR WORK
THEY WERE AFRAID THAT YOU MIGHT GET AHEAD
BCAUSE YOU WERE ALWAYS SCRIBBLING IN YOUR NOTE BOOKS
THEY WERE WORRIED THAT YOU MIGHT BE WRITING A NOVEL
AND YOU WILL GET AHEAD OF THEM
THAT'S WHY THEY WERE DISTURBING YOU IN THE STREETS
AND YOU TOOK THEM SERIOUSLY
SND THAT WAS A MISTAKE
AND THAT BECAME YOUR PROBLEM
YOU TOOK THEM SERIOUSLY
THOUGH YOU MADE MANY NOTES IN YOUR NOTEBOOKS NOT TO TAKE THEM SERIOUSLY
I SEE THAT IN YOUR NOTE BOOKS
YOU REMINDED YOURSELF A LOT TO NOT LET THAM STOP YOU IN THE STREETS AND SAY CONDESCENDING THINGS TO YOU
BUT ALAS! YOU TOOK THEM SERIOUSLY INSTEAD OF TAKING YOUR NOTE BOOKS
SERIOUSLY AND NOW YOU SEE YOUR MISTAKE AND SO MUCH TIME HA PASSED
AND SO MANY WORDS TO PUT IT ON THE BLOG...
NOTEBOOKS
EVERY WEEK ON SUNDAY
DO LAUNDRY
MOP
VACCUM
KEEP THE PLACE TIDY
DON'T LET IT GO SO FAR OFF
DON'T LET IT GET OUT OF CONTROL
GETS TOO DIFFICULT EVENTUALLY
GETS IMPOSSIBLE ACTUALLY
AREAS TO LOOK AT AND GET RID OF STUFF AND TIDY IT UPT
UNDER THE SINK
UNDER THE VANITY, THE TOP OF THE BIG TABLE
BEDROOM BOOK SHELF
LONGROOM BOOKSELF
TOP OF THE DRESSER
TOP OF THE DRESSING TABLE ARMOIR
CORNER OF BEDROOM
WRITING TABLE
SCRIPTS ON THE WRITING TABLE, SCRIPTS UNDER THE WRITING TABLE
SCRIPTS UNDER THE TABLE IN THE LIVING ROOM ALSO CALLED THE LONG ROOM
SCRIPTS ON THE LONG TABLE
SCRIPTS UNDER THE LONG TABLE
CLOTHES, RACK WITH CLOTHES
DRAWINGS
OH!SO MUCH WORK
WAS IT DONE?
DON'T ASK
AND THAT WAS IN 2013
NOW IT'S 2019
WAS IT DONE/
PLEASE...
NOTEBOOKS
THROW THINGS OUT
THROW OUT LOTS OF THINGS
CLOTHES
BOOKS
YES, BOOKS
TOO MANY BOOKS
AND STOP BUYING BOOKS
FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE STOP BUYING BOOKS
BUT I LOVE BOOKS
IT SEEMS LIKE YOU LOVE LOTS OF THINGS,
BOOKS
DRAWINGS
WRITING
DRWAING
PERFORMING
PLAYS
SEEING PLAYS
DOING PLAYS
GOING TO THE GALLERIES
GOING OR WALKS
GOING FOR COFFEE
TALKING TO PEOPLE, (a big mistake)
HOW COULD YOU DO IT ALL?Notebook continues
noe bok continues...
UNDER THE BIG TABL
BATHROOM CLOSEt
throw things out
throw everything out
throw out books, clothes, furniture, dishes, paper
bedsheets
THROW EVERYTHRK
CAN'T DO IT....ING OUT
CAN'T DO IT
CAN'T DO IT WITHOUT HELP
NEED HELP
CAN'T DO IT ALONE
NO HELP HERE
NO SUPPORT
CAN'T DO IT.............
SO MUCH WO
NO THEATER
NO HANGING OUT
NO COMPANY
NO DESIRE FOR COMPANY
NO FD, (Have no idea what i meant)
NO CD.. same
FORGET IT
NO PS, NO, MS, NO MM, NO DD, NONE (initials but have no idea which people)
JUST HI, HI, SAY, HI, HI, NICE WEATHER AND GET AWAY
GET RID OF EVERY ONE FAST..
JUST WORK
DO YOUR WORK
PUT YOUR HAND WRITTEN NOTEBOOKS ON YOUR BLOG
PUT THEM ON SINGING BIRDS, YOUR BEAUTIFUL BLOG
YOUR WORDS ARE SONGS BEING SUNG BY BIRDS
WHAT DO YOU CARE ABOUT CD, FD, BB, SS, MM, NC...WHOEVER THEY ARE
NONE OF THEM WERE YOUR FRIENDS
IT WAS 2013 WHEN THIS NOTE BOOK WAS WRITTEN
AND NOW YOU DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHO THEY WERE
FOR SURE THEY WERE NOT YOUR FRIENDS
THEY WERE JUST THERE TO DISTRACT YOU FROM YOUR WORK
THEY WERE AFRAID THAT YOU MIGHT GET AHEAD
BCAUSE YOU WERE ALWAYS SCRIBBLING IN YOUR NOTE BOOKS
THEY WERE WORRIED THAT YOU MIGHT BE WRITING A NOVEL
AND YOU WILL GET AHEAD OF THEM
THAT'S WHY THEY WERE DISTURBING YOU IN THE STREETS
AND YOU TOOK THEM SERIOUSLY
SND THAT WAS A MISTAKE
AND THAT BECAME YOUR PROBLEM
YOU TOOK THEM SERIOUSLY
THOUGH YOU MADE MANY NOTES IN YOUR NOTEBOOKS NOT TO TAKE THEM SERIOUSLY
I SEE THAT IN YOUR NOTE BOOKS
YOU REMINDED YOURSELF A LOT TO NOT LET THAM STOP YOU IN THE STREETS AND SAY CONDESCENDING THINGS TO YOU
BUT ALAS! YOU TOOK THEM SERIOUSLY INSTEAD OF TAKING YOUR NOTE BOOKS
SERIOUSLY AND NOW YOU SEE YOUR MISTAKE AND SO MUCH TIME HA PASSED
AND SO MANY WORDS TO PUT IT ON THE BLOG...
NOTEBOOKS
EVERY WEEK ON SUNDAY
DO LAUNDRY
MOP
VACCUM
KEEP THE PLACE TIDY
DON'T LET IT GO SO FAR OFF
DON'T LET IT GET OUT OF CONTROL
GETS TOO DIFFICULT EVENTUALLY
GETS IMPOSSIBLE ACTUALLY
AREAS TO LOOK AT AND GET RID OF STUFF AND TIDY IT UPT
UNDER THE SINK
UNDER THE VANITY, THE TOP OF THE BIG TABLE
BEDROOM BOOK SHELF
LONGROOM BOOKSELF
TOP OF THE DRESSER
TOP OF THE DRESSING TABLE ARMOIR
CORNER OF BEDROOM
WRITING TABLE
SCRIPTS ON THE WRITING TABLE, SCRIPTS UNDER THE WRITING TABLE
SCRIPTS UNDER THE TABLE IN THE LIVING ROOM ALSO CALLED THE LONG ROOM
SCRIPTS ON THE LONG TABLE
SCRIPTS UNDER THE LONG TABLE
CLOTHES, RACK WITH CLOTHES
DRAWINGS
OH!SO MUCH WORK
WAS IT DONE?
DON'T ASK
AND THAT WAS IN 2013
NOW IT'S 2019
WAS IT DONE/
PLEASE...
NOTEBOOKS
THROW THINGS OUT
THROW OUT LOTS OF THINGS
CLOTHES
BOOKS
YES, BOOKS
TOO MANY BOOKS
AND STOP BUYING BOOKS
FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE STOP BUYING BOOKS
BUT I LOVE BOOKS
IT SEEMS LIKE YOU LOVE LOTS OF THINGS,
BOOKS
DRAWINGS
WRITING
DRWAING
PERFORMING
PLAYS
SEEING PLAYS
DOING PLAYS
GOING TO THE GALLERIES
GOING OR WALKS
GOING FOR COFFEE
TALKING TO PEOPLE, (a big mistake)
HOW COULD YOU DO IT ALL?Notebook continues
noe bok continues...
UNDER THE BIG TABL
BATHROOM CLOSEt
throw things out
throw everything out
throw out books, clothes, furniture, dishes, paper
bedsheets
THROW EVERYTHRK
CAN'T DO IT....ING OUT
CAN'T DO IT
CAN'T DO IT WITHOUT HELP
NEED HELP
CAN'T DO IT ALONE
NO HELP HERE
NO SUPPORT
CAN'T DO IT.............
SO MUCH WO
NOTEBOOKS OF BINA SHARIF, NO COUNTRY, NO POLITICS
NOTEBOOKS OF BINA SHARIF
NO COUNTRY...NO POLITICS CONTINUES
NEELAM
YOU CAN'T BE ASSOCIATED WITH ANY OF THOSE PEOPLE OR THEIR DEMANDS
YOU ARE ALONE..ALL ALONE BY YOURSELF...
RESPECT YOUR ALONENESS
YOU NEED TO RESPECT YOUR OWN DEMANDS
YOU NEED TO COMPLY TO YOUR OWN DEMANDS
YES. YOU CAN DEMAND FROM YOUR SELF
YES. YOU CAN DEMAND FROM YOUR SELF
YOU OWN YOURSELF
FEEL YOUR DEMANDS
FEEL YOUR COMMANDS
FEEL YOUR FEELINGS
POWERFUL IS THE FEELING THAT BELONGS TO YOU AND TO YOUR POWERFULLNESS
NAJMA:
YOU ARE YOUR OWN COUNTRY
YOU ARE YOUR OWN RELIGION
YOU ARE YOUR OWN MOTHER
YOU ARE YOUR OWN SISTER
YOU ARE YOUR OWN AUNT
YOU ARE YOUR OWN RELIGION
YOU ARE YOUR OWN POLITICS
GO AHEAD, OWN YOURSELF
OWN YOUR COMPLETE SELF
YOU ARE THE SKY
YOU ARE THE OCEANS
YOU ARE THE RIVERS
YOU ARE THE MOON
YOU ARE THE SUN
YOU ARE THE RAIN
YOU ARE THE THUNDER
YOU ARE THE DESERT
YOU ARE THE FIRE
YOU ARE THE WATER
YOU ARE THE MUD
YOU ARE THE STEEL
YOU ARE THE CEMENT
YOU ARE THE MOUNTAIN
GO ON THE TOP OF THE MOUNTAIN
AND SCREAM...
YES, I AM...
YES, IAM...
YES, IAM...
YES, I AM...
YES, I AM...
NO COUNTRY...NO POLITICS CONTINUES
NEELAM
YOU CAN'T BE ASSOCIATED WITH ANY OF THOSE PEOPLE OR THEIR DEMANDS
YOU ARE ALONE..ALL ALONE BY YOURSELF...
RESPECT YOUR ALONENESS
YOU NEED TO RESPECT YOUR OWN DEMANDS
YOU NEED TO COMPLY TO YOUR OWN DEMANDS
YES. YOU CAN DEMAND FROM YOUR SELF
YES. YOU CAN DEMAND FROM YOUR SELF
YOU OWN YOURSELF
FEEL YOUR DEMANDS
FEEL YOUR COMMANDS
FEEL YOUR FEELINGS
POWERFUL IS THE FEELING THAT BELONGS TO YOU AND TO YOUR POWERFULLNESS
NAJMA:
YOU ARE YOUR OWN COUNTRY
YOU ARE YOUR OWN RELIGION
YOU ARE YOUR OWN MOTHER
YOU ARE YOUR OWN SISTER
YOU ARE YOUR OWN AUNT
YOU ARE YOUR OWN RELIGION
YOU ARE YOUR OWN POLITICS
GO AHEAD, OWN YOURSELF
OWN YOUR COMPLETE SELF
YOU ARE THE SKY
YOU ARE THE OCEANS
YOU ARE THE RIVERS
YOU ARE THE MOON
YOU ARE THE SUN
YOU ARE THE RAIN
YOU ARE THE THUNDER
YOU ARE THE DESERT
YOU ARE THE FIRE
YOU ARE THE WATER
YOU ARE THE MUD
YOU ARE THE STEEL
YOU ARE THE CEMENT
YOU ARE THE MOUNTAIN
GO ON THE TOP OF THE MOUNTAIN
AND SCREAM...
YES, I AM...
YES, IAM...
YES, IAM...
YES, I AM...
YES, I AM...
notebook
NOTEBOOK
THE ALLERGIES AND DISEASES COME FROM FEELING HELPLESS
AND FEELING HELPLESS CREATES STRESS WHICH IS TOXIC
AND THAT TOXIC STRESS CAUSES AUTOIMMUNE DISEASES AND ALLERGIES.
GET OUT OF HELPLESSNESS
GET OUT OF IT
GET OUT OF IT TODAY
GET OUT OF IT RIGHT NOW
GET OUT OF IT THIS INSTANCE.
GET RID OF HELPLESSNESS
I DON'T KNOW HOW
BUT YOU MUST KNOW
YOU HAVE TO GET RID OF IT SOMEHOW
BB;
ME?
HOW WOULD I KNOW?
I AM NOT HELPLESS
I HAVE HELP
PEOPLE, IMPORTANT PEOPLE, VERY IMPORTANT PEOPLE HELP ME
SO HOW COULD i BE HELPLESS?
I SAID, "IMPORTANT PEOPLE LIKE CELEBRITIES, MOVIE STARS, PUBLISHERS
CRITICS, PRODUCERS, FUNDERS, FAMILY HELP ME
I AM NOT HELPLESS
YOU ARE
AND YOU HAVE TO FIGURE THIS SHIT OUT BY YOURSELF
A:BUT YOU ARE THE ONE WHO TOLD ME THAT I AM HELPLESS
BB: ARN'T YOU?
A: I DON'T KNOW
BB: THATS THE PROBLEM
A: WHAT'S THE PROBLEM?
BB: HELPLESS PEOPLE DON'T KNOW THAT THEY ARE HELPLESS
A: OK, SO I DON'T KNOW AND NOW YOU HAVE TOLD ME, SO NOW I KNOW
BUT SINCE I NEVER KNEW, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP MYSELF AND THE CRITIC, PRODUCER, FAMILY WHO HELPED YOU IS NOT PART OF MY LIFE...
BB: FAMILY IS NOT PART OF YOUR LIFE?
A: I MEAN, THEY ARE BUT THEY ARE FAR AWAY
BB: THEY CAN HELP YOU FROM FAR AWAY, FAR, FAR AWAY. DON'T THEY HAVE
WHAT'S APP?
A: WHAT?
BB:WHAT'S APP STUPID
A: WHAT IS WHAT'S APP?
BB: YOU ARE STUPID...
A: YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO CALL ME STUPID BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WHAT'S APP...
BB: THAT GIVES ME THE RIGHT TO CALL YOU STUPID.
ANY ONE WHO DOESN'T KNOW WHAT IS WHAT'S APP GIVES ME THE RIGHT TO LABEL THEM AS THE MOST STUPID PERSON ON THIS PLANET. BY THE WAY, DO YOU KNOW
INSTAGRAM? TWEET? TEXTING? DOWNLOAD, UPLOAD, CUT AND PASTE, COREECT
SPELLINGS, IPHONES IPADS,HARD DRIVES, SOFT DRIVES, VERY SOFT DRIVES, EARPHONES,EARPLUGS, LET'S CHAT...DO YOU KNOW ANY OF THESE THINGS?
A: WHAT?
BB: WHAT? WHAT?
A: YOU JUST CONFUSED ME WITH ALL THOSE MACHINES. I THOUGHT WE WERE HUMAN..
BB: EVEN THE DOGS KNOW ABOUT THE THINGS I JUST MENTIONED. MY DOGGY,
MARILYN DOES MOST OF THE WORK FOR ME ON THE COMPUTER. I DICTATE TO HER
AND SHE DOES IT. DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU HAVE LESS INTELLIGENCE THAT MY DOGGY MARILYN?
A: DIDN'T YOU JUST TELL ME A WHILE AGO THAT I AM HELPLESS?
BB: YES, I DID BUT I AM SHOCKED THAT YOU ARE MORE HELPLESS THAN MY DOGGY MARILYN...
A: YOUR DOGGY IS MODERN...
BB: AND YOU?
A: (NO ANSWER)
BB: AND YOU?
A:ME?
BB: YES, YOU...
A:I DON'T KNOW...
BB: IS THIS YOUR FAVORITE WORD..."I DODN'T KNOW" I DON'T KNOW"
A: I DON'T KNOW...
BB: STOP REPEATING THAT NEGATIVE WORD. YOU ARE NOT ONLY HELPLESS,
YOU ARE ALSO NEGATIVE...
A: I GUESS SO...
BB: OH! NO, IT'S NOT A GUESS, I AM CERTAIN THAT YOU ARE A VERY NEGATIVE PERSON...
BB: IT SEEMS LIKE YOU KNOW ME BETTER THAN I KNOW MYSELF
BB: THE PROBLEM IS THAT YOU DON'T KNOW YOURSELF AT ALL
A: HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT?
BB: KNOW WHAT?
A: HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT I DON'T KNOW MYSELF
BB: I CAN TELL, OH! MAN CAN I TELL...
A: HOW CAN YOU TELL?
BB: I CAN TELL ABOUT VILLAGE PEOPLE, THEY ARE ALL HELPLESS
A:WHICH VILLAGE PEOPLE?
BB: PEOPLE FROM THE VILLAGE
A: YOU MEAN ALL PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN THE EAST VILLAGE ARE HELPLESS
BB: YOU SEE, YOU KEEP PROVING TO MYSELF THAT YOU ARE STUPID...
I DON'T MEAN PEOPLE WHO LIVES IN THE EAST VILLAGE ARE STUPID
EAST VILLAGE PEOPLE ARE MULTI MILLIONAIRES AND MILLIONAIRS ARE NOT STUPID, OH! NO, NOT AT ALL, THEY ARE ALL GOING TO BE BILLIONAIRES NEXT MONTH
I MEANT THE PEOPLE WHO COME FROM ANCIENT VILLAGES WITH NO RUNNING WATER, NO ELECTRICITY, NO TOILETS, NO TECHNOLOGY ARE THE STUPID ONES
A: WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT I AM FROM THAT VILLAGE WITH NO TOILETS?
BB: I DON'T HAVE TO THINK, IT'S OBVIOUS
A: BY THE WAY, WHO ARE YOU? HOW DO I KNOW YOU? WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
BB: I AM A NEW YORKER, A SMART,TECHNOLOGICALLY ADVANCED NEW YORKER
AND I JUST MET YOU IN THE STREET AND BY THE WAY I LIVE IN THE EAST VILLAGE AND MY PARENTS BOUGHT ME MY MULTIMILLION DOLLARS CONDO WITH SEVEN TOILETS....
THE ALLERGIES AND DISEASES COME FROM FEELING HELPLESS
AND FEELING HELPLESS CREATES STRESS WHICH IS TOXIC
AND THAT TOXIC STRESS CAUSES AUTOIMMUNE DISEASES AND ALLERGIES.
GET OUT OF HELPLESSNESS
GET OUT OF IT
GET OUT OF IT TODAY
GET OUT OF IT RIGHT NOW
GET OUT OF IT THIS INSTANCE.
GET RID OF HELPLESSNESS
I DON'T KNOW HOW
BUT YOU MUST KNOW
YOU HAVE TO GET RID OF IT SOMEHOW
BB;
ME?
HOW WOULD I KNOW?
I AM NOT HELPLESS
I HAVE HELP
PEOPLE, IMPORTANT PEOPLE, VERY IMPORTANT PEOPLE HELP ME
SO HOW COULD i BE HELPLESS?
I SAID, "IMPORTANT PEOPLE LIKE CELEBRITIES, MOVIE STARS, PUBLISHERS
CRITICS, PRODUCERS, FUNDERS, FAMILY HELP ME
I AM NOT HELPLESS
YOU ARE
AND YOU HAVE TO FIGURE THIS SHIT OUT BY YOURSELF
A:BUT YOU ARE THE ONE WHO TOLD ME THAT I AM HELPLESS
BB: ARN'T YOU?
A: I DON'T KNOW
BB: THATS THE PROBLEM
A: WHAT'S THE PROBLEM?
BB: HELPLESS PEOPLE DON'T KNOW THAT THEY ARE HELPLESS
A: OK, SO I DON'T KNOW AND NOW YOU HAVE TOLD ME, SO NOW I KNOW
BUT SINCE I NEVER KNEW, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP MYSELF AND THE CRITIC, PRODUCER, FAMILY WHO HELPED YOU IS NOT PART OF MY LIFE...
BB: FAMILY IS NOT PART OF YOUR LIFE?
A: I MEAN, THEY ARE BUT THEY ARE FAR AWAY
BB: THEY CAN HELP YOU FROM FAR AWAY, FAR, FAR AWAY. DON'T THEY HAVE
WHAT'S APP?
A: WHAT?
BB:WHAT'S APP STUPID
A: WHAT IS WHAT'S APP?
BB: YOU ARE STUPID...
A: YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO CALL ME STUPID BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WHAT'S APP...
BB: THAT GIVES ME THE RIGHT TO CALL YOU STUPID.
ANY ONE WHO DOESN'T KNOW WHAT IS WHAT'S APP GIVES ME THE RIGHT TO LABEL THEM AS THE MOST STUPID PERSON ON THIS PLANET. BY THE WAY, DO YOU KNOW
INSTAGRAM? TWEET? TEXTING? DOWNLOAD, UPLOAD, CUT AND PASTE, COREECT
SPELLINGS, IPHONES IPADS,HARD DRIVES, SOFT DRIVES, VERY SOFT DRIVES, EARPHONES,EARPLUGS, LET'S CHAT...DO YOU KNOW ANY OF THESE THINGS?
A: WHAT?
BB: WHAT? WHAT?
A: YOU JUST CONFUSED ME WITH ALL THOSE MACHINES. I THOUGHT WE WERE HUMAN..
BB: EVEN THE DOGS KNOW ABOUT THE THINGS I JUST MENTIONED. MY DOGGY,
MARILYN DOES MOST OF THE WORK FOR ME ON THE COMPUTER. I DICTATE TO HER
AND SHE DOES IT. DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU HAVE LESS INTELLIGENCE THAT MY DOGGY MARILYN?
A: DIDN'T YOU JUST TELL ME A WHILE AGO THAT I AM HELPLESS?
BB: YES, I DID BUT I AM SHOCKED THAT YOU ARE MORE HELPLESS THAN MY DOGGY MARILYN...
A: YOUR DOGGY IS MODERN...
BB: AND YOU?
A: (NO ANSWER)
BB: AND YOU?
A:ME?
BB: YES, YOU...
A:I DON'T KNOW...
BB: IS THIS YOUR FAVORITE WORD..."I DODN'T KNOW" I DON'T KNOW"
A: I DON'T KNOW...
BB: STOP REPEATING THAT NEGATIVE WORD. YOU ARE NOT ONLY HELPLESS,
YOU ARE ALSO NEGATIVE...
A: I GUESS SO...
BB: OH! NO, IT'S NOT A GUESS, I AM CERTAIN THAT YOU ARE A VERY NEGATIVE PERSON...
BB: IT SEEMS LIKE YOU KNOW ME BETTER THAN I KNOW MYSELF
BB: THE PROBLEM IS THAT YOU DON'T KNOW YOURSELF AT ALL
A: HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT?
BB: KNOW WHAT?
A: HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT I DON'T KNOW MYSELF
BB: I CAN TELL, OH! MAN CAN I TELL...
A: HOW CAN YOU TELL?
BB: I CAN TELL ABOUT VILLAGE PEOPLE, THEY ARE ALL HELPLESS
A:WHICH VILLAGE PEOPLE?
BB: PEOPLE FROM THE VILLAGE
A: YOU MEAN ALL PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN THE EAST VILLAGE ARE HELPLESS
BB: YOU SEE, YOU KEEP PROVING TO MYSELF THAT YOU ARE STUPID...
I DON'T MEAN PEOPLE WHO LIVES IN THE EAST VILLAGE ARE STUPID
EAST VILLAGE PEOPLE ARE MULTI MILLIONAIRES AND MILLIONAIRS ARE NOT STUPID, OH! NO, NOT AT ALL, THEY ARE ALL GOING TO BE BILLIONAIRES NEXT MONTH
I MEANT THE PEOPLE WHO COME FROM ANCIENT VILLAGES WITH NO RUNNING WATER, NO ELECTRICITY, NO TOILETS, NO TECHNOLOGY ARE THE STUPID ONES
A: WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT I AM FROM THAT VILLAGE WITH NO TOILETS?
BB: I DON'T HAVE TO THINK, IT'S OBVIOUS
A: BY THE WAY, WHO ARE YOU? HOW DO I KNOW YOU? WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
BB: I AM A NEW YORKER, A SMART,TECHNOLOGICALLY ADVANCED NEW YORKER
AND I JUST MET YOU IN THE STREET AND BY THE WAY I LIVE IN THE EAST VILLAGE AND MY PARENTS BOUGHT ME MY MULTIMILLION DOLLARS CONDO WITH SEVEN TOILETS....
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