WELL DONE

"Its you who wanted it well done,"  She says

"Well!  "Well done but not burnt,"

'When you ask for well done, it gets darker"  She says

"It can get darker but doesn't get burnt,"

'Oh well!"  She says,"Its not burnt."

'The panini was burnt because they forgot to put
arugula in it,(arugula is part of the panini and they charge one dollar for it)
and then they took it back after my insistence on the subject of arugula, the dollar
and the burnt issue, they took it back to put some arugula in it and reheat it...
now its going to be completely burnt. If they had put arugula in it the first time for which they charge extra one dollar, they won't have to reheat it and it won't get so dark,(Burnt...burnt...burnt) and the
customer,(me) won't complain but they think that I am always complaining and I do because I want the panini well done with arugula in it because I love arugula and am willing to pay the extra dollar that
they charge for that  one leaf of arugula which they forget to put in there and burn my panini and still do not
want me to complain, but why should I not complain?  Why should I not get what I want?
Well, well thats another story... who gets what they want in this world and in this life?

Well, some do, they get the perfect panini with arugula in it and well done and not burnt at all.

But I mostly end up eating a bitter, dark, burnt panini without arugula in it because I have a bad reputation of being a complainer and some times I don't complain just to save my reputation
and say to myself that I won't go back to that place again and guess what?  I go back day after day and complain some time and some time not but the panini is never perfect...................

PUSH

The more you push me the
harder I am going to push back,

SLEEP, EAT, WALK, TALK.

What's the worry?
Relax
Take it easy
Regain your energy
Sleep, eat, walk, talk.

Go to the museums
To the theater
Shopping?
No,  No shopping
Maybe, buy some shalwar qameez
You know your own traditional clothes
To feel your identity again
Have a Pakistani life
Sleep, eat, walk, talk.

Go away
Go to Georgia
Come back
Go to Milano
Come back
Go to Denmark
Come back
Clean the apt
I mean clean the apt
I mean deep, deep, deep professional cleaning
Vapor steaming, cleaning, I mean cleaning
No sleeping, eating, talking, walking

Than worry about the winter
Snow, slush, sleet
Snow, slush, sleet
worry, worry, worry of slipping, slipping, always slipping
No sleeping, eating, walking, talking.
Just worry...........

Go to Florida
Jan, Feb, March
Come back
Than worry about the new worries..............
But I just have one question
May I ask  the question?
Ask...

Where is the money?
Money for the travels and professional deep vapor steam cleaning?
I don't have the money
Are you kidding me?
Money?
I AM AN ARTIST

So what about all those high travel plans?
Just talk
Just talk you know
You know people just talk
Talk, talk, talk, talk
All talk..........

So what are you going to do?

SLEEP, EAT, WALK, TALK

And the apt?

Who cares?

So it will stay filthy dirty?

Who cares?

I am an artist

AN ARTIST................

Oh!

I will just

SLEEP, EAT, WALK, TALK................

INERTIA

Negative attitude give rise to inertia
or inertia give rise to negative attitude,
Both are lethal.

PEOPLE

Isn't it amazing that only when
you denounce people then they receive you.

MASKS

When you have harsh exterior
People like you more than
when you are gentle with lots
of compassion.

POETRY

Good poetry makes me sad.
Good poetry should make me happy
I read a lot of good poetry
I am sad a lot,

AN ENCOUNTER WITH A PAST LOVE

It stirred nothing in me except a formality of politeness

CRITICISM

Don't please the critics, the public, the relatives, the teachers,
the husbands, the wives,the so called friends, the acquaintances, the well wishers,
the patrons, the publishers, the money lenders, the so called helpers, the editors,
the neighbors, the strangers, the animals, the dogs and the monkeys...
Do the work as nit comes out of you as raw, as pure, as honest, as sharp, as cynical, as critical, as
outrageous, as violent, as piercing as a bullet.

SUPPORT

In this country I lacked completely emotional and financial support.
Whatever I did I did without physical, financial, emotional support from any one
except perhaps one or two people who once in a while supported me emotionally
They couldn't support me financially.
In 32 years two people perhaps supported me emotionally
And none financially...In 32 years only two people once in a while....
Imagine that...
But thanks to those two people any way.

CONVERSATIONS

What will I do in this vast country, U.S.A. with so many
people inhabiting it and still so few of them conversing
or feeling anything with anyone about anything or anyone,

CREATIVE MOVEMENTS

There are no creative, liberal,political movements in NY
any more.  If there are I am not in touch.
Perhaps its my fault that there are no liberal/political movements any more in NY
It must be my fault since everything else is my fault.
My stove doesn't work, its my fault
My clock doesn't work, its my fault
My kitchen floor is broken, its my fault
My clothes are stuffed into dressers, its my fault
My apt is now a storage, its my fault
I am always depressed, its my fault
My knee hurts, its my fault
My foot gets swollen, its my fault
I am often sad, its my fault
I am lonely,its my fault
I am isolated, its my fault
I don't submit my work, its my fault
I don't wash my hair, its my fault
My vaccum cleaner is broken, its my fault
So the lack of liberal, creative, political movements in NYC must be my fault
It has to be
It has to be my fault

THE GUY

I hate this guy
I hate his voice
I hate whatever he is talking about even if I
don't understand a thing he is saying except the word,"Money."
I hope he shuts up soon but he won't because he  is talking
and his talk revolves around money and this kind of talk never ends
till they are satisfied with the amount of money they have made already
but these kind of people are never satisfied with no matter how much
money they have already made because they always want more and more
and more, "Money."
I hope he shuts up because I am reading a book about Khalil Gibran
who was heavily into peace and love and faith and belief and love of brothers,,,
I wonder if this man with his ugly voice has ever heard of Khalil Gibran?

BOOKSHELVES

The whole world has been built by slaves.
All countries have been built by slaves.
Everything has been built by the help of slaves and nothing but slaves.
You are talking of getting some bookshelves built...
Give me a break,,,
Slaves worked from dusk to dawn every day for centuries and you are surprised that some people have
the ability to get bookshelves built by someone,,,
Where is that some one?
Some people in the name of love are still working like slaves for some one building everything,,,
Perhaps no one loves you enough to built your bookshelves....
Love is the second name of slavery,,,
No love is around,,
Everything is broken
Everything needs fixing
No love is around to fix it.