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DON'T COMPLAIN TOO MUCH

DON'T TALK TOO MUC

DON'T PRAISE OTHERS TOO MUCH.

DON'T HAVE MONOTNOUS WEARINESS

USE DIRECT OBSERVATION

HAVE HORROR OF VULGARITY AND CONTEMPT

REMAIN SILENT ABOUT MANY THINGS

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"RATHER THAN BEMOANING WHAT IS LOST

WE SHOULD CHAMPION WHAT COULD BE GAINED," Hennah Essex

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MUPASSANT

"I ENTERED LITERARY LIFE AS A METEOR, AND I SHALL

LEAVE IT LIKE A THUNDER BOLT."

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"WITH THE FERTILITY OF A MASTER HAND PRODUCED

NOVELS, POETRY, SHORT STORIES, ROMANCES AND TRAVELS

WITHIN 10 YEARS ONLY TO SINK PERMANENTLY INTO THE

ABYSS OF MADNESS AND DEATH,"

THE VERY MOMENT THE SUCCESS CAME TO HIM. THE MALADY

THAT NEVER AFTERWARDS LEFT HIM CAME ALSO AND 

SEATED MOTIONLESS AT HIS SIDE, GAZED AT HIM WITH HIS

THREATENING COUNTENANCE,

TERRIBLE HEADACHES, INSOMNIA, NERVOUS ATTACKS, HIS SIGHT BECAME

EFFECTED.  SHUDDERING FITS OF FEAR, THE DREAD OF THAT HORRIBLE

SENSATION OF HALLUCINATIONS.

ANGUISH OF FEAR CAUSED NOT BY THE PRESENCE OF DANGER OR OF

 INEVITABLE DEATH, BUT BY CERTAIN ABNORMAL CONDITIONS, BY CERTAIN

MYSTERIOUS INFLUENCES IN PRESENCE OF VAGUE DANGERS.

"THE FEAR OF INCOMPREHENSIBLE TERROR AND MORBID DISTRESS.

OLD PORT OF ANTIBES BEYOND THE CAUSWAY OF CANNES, HIS YACHT

BE-AMI AWAITED. HE FELT HE WAS HOPELESSLY VANQUISHED LIKE

GERAD de NERVAL--HE ATTEMPTED SUICIDE. HE WASN'T SUCCESSFUL.

HIS MIND, "INDIFFERENT TO ALL UNHAPPINESS" HAD ENTERED INTO ETERNAL

DARKNESS"

BACK TO PARIS AND PLACED IN DR. MEURIOTS SANATORIUM WHERE AFTER

18 MONTHS OF MECHANICAL EXISTENCE THE "METEOR" QUIETLY PASSED AWAY.

HE HAD INDESTRUCTIBLE DISCIPLINE AND COLD LUCIDITY. 

H-EDOUARD MAYNIAL

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"THE ODOR OF INVASION."

EXHAUSTED, WORN OUT, INCAPABLE OF THOUGHT OR RESOLVE, FATIGUED

AT THE MERCY OF UNREASONING SAVAGE FORCE PERMEATING ODOR-ODOR

OF INVASION WHICH CHANGED THE TASTE OF FOOD PERMEATED DWELLING AND

 PLACES OF PUBLIC RESORT MADE ON IMAGINE ONES IN FAR--FAR DISTANT LANDS AMID DANGEROUS TRIBES

 

DIRECTION: SINGING BIRDS

 DIRECTION: STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS

OF SINGING BIRDS.

1: After house lights dim

2: Kevin goes and sit downstage right

3: Burda starts

4 :Bulbul dressed in beautiful Asian clothes and jewelery scarf on her head

enters carrying a lantern enters from upstage left, walks slowly and then sit down

downstage left. Burda continues.

5: Burda ends

6: Bulbul starts to sing, Aey Jazba aey Dil, ghar mein chaoon.

7: at the end of the song, light comes up on her and she talks

8: I AM A SINGING BIRD FROM THE EAST. MY NAME IS BULBUL

9: Lights fade on Bulbul

10: lights come up on Kevin

11: He talks. I AM A SINGING BIRD FROM THE WEST. MY NAME IS CARDINAL

12: He sings western song

13: At the end of the song, lights fade on Kevin

14:lights come up on Bulbul

15: Bulbul does a short monologue...

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THOMAS AQUINAS'S THEORY OF BEAUTY

THREE THINGS ARE NEEDED FOR BEAUTY

1: WHOLENESS

2: HARMONY

3: RADIANCE

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PETER'S DICTUM

"ALL ART CONSTANTLY ASPIRES TO THE CONDITION OF MUSIC."

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JAMES JOYCE'S SETTINGS-TOPICS-ISSUES-PREOCCUPATIONS WHICH DROVE HIM

ON TO HIS MATERIAL FOR HIS MASTERPIECE, ULYSSES

CITY

POLITICS

LITERARY POLITICS

AUTOBIOGRAPHICAL 

MUSIC

SOCIAL COMEDY

PUBLIC AND PRIVATE FACES

MARRIAGE BOND

TIES OF PRESENT AND PAST

REALISM AND SYMBOLISM

VERBAL FELICITY

VIVACIOUS AND LIVELY

LULLING AND INCANTATORY

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TAKE THE THREADS WITH THIS ONE STORY, "THE DEAD." IS MADE AND FOLLOW THEM.

"BAWDRY HAS LIBERATING QUALITY."

"PERCEPTION OF HUMAN CONDITION AS A STATE OF EXILE." JOYCE

JAMES JOYCE IS A MASTER BECAUSE OF THE RICH TEXTURE AND MASTERY OF HIS

 WORK

IT'S RELIGIOUS SENSE OF MASTERY AND UNITY OF LIFE, IT'S CONVICTION OF THE

VALIDITY OF MYTH IN INTERPRETING THAT MYSTERYAND IT'S PERCEPTION OF THE

HUMAN CONDITION AS A STATE OF EXILE.

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"IT'S SOMETHING FAILS US.

FIRST WE FEEL.

THEN WE FAIL."  JOYCE

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"DARE AND ENDURE

ENDURE AND DARE." BS

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"CONTACTS WITH THE ELEMENTS OR

PRIMITIVE FORCES CONSTRAINTS US

TO OVERCOME THE FEARS AND MEANNESS WHICH

ARE PART OF HUMAN NATURE."     Anonymous? ormaybe Ernest Junger?

exploration of his own dreams, life, intense poetic realization of hidden in ourselves,

basic experiences, 

"CHAOS AND NOTHINGNESS AND THE MEANS OF OVERCOMING IT

AND WITH VALUES TO SET AGAINST IT."  ?

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"CHAOS AND NOTHINGNESS CAN'T GO AWAY

BUT FOR SURE CAN BE POSTPONED FOR THE DAY

BY DOING SOMETHING YOU REALLY LOVE TO DO

THAT WOULD KEEP CHAOS AND LONELINESS

AWAY FOR AT LEAST ONE DAY ND THEN THE NEXT

DAY AND THE NEXT..."  BS

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"YOU MUST BE UN-NERVED BY EVERY OCCASION AND BY EVERYBODY-

OTHERWISE YOU WILL DESTROY YOURSELF AT EVERY MOMENT OF THE DAY

AND BY EVERYONE YOU ENCOUNTER. PREPARE YOURSELF IN ADVANCE TO

BE TOTALLY UN-NERVED BY EVERY ATROCITY."  BS

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"RUBBLE OF TE PAST."   ?

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"HAVE THAT SMILE ON ALWAYS FOR IRRITANT PEOPLE.

THAT SMILE ONE MUST RESERVE FOR ANYONE-WHO CAN BE A

SOURCE OF ANNOYANCE OF ONE KIND OR OTHER.

THAT SMILE, SCEPTICLE, TOLERANT, LANGUIDLY AMUSED."  ?

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EMPTINESS OF THE DAY

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EMPTINESS OF THE AFTERNOON

OF  THE EVENING

OF THE NIGHT...

HOW TO FILL IT/

TRY

TRY-TRY YOUR BEST TO DO SOMETHING

ANYTHING WHICH INTEREST YOU

ANYTHING  WHICH YOU LIKE

WHICH YOU LOVE

WHICH YOU WOULD THINK ABOUT

TALK ABOUT

LAUGH ABOUT

REMEMBER

REMEMBER THINGS YOU LOVE

REMEMBER THINGS YOU LOVED

REMEMBER THINGS YOU LOST

MEMORIES ARE THE SOURCE OF SORROW

REMEMBER ANY WAY

TRY TO MAKE THEM PlEASANT

LIKE, PLEASANT, PLEASURABLE COMPANIONS..BS

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'REVENANT: SOME MYSTERIOUS THING COMING FROM THE PAST

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"THE PAST BEATS INSIDE ME LIKE A SECOND HEART."  John Banville's book, the sea

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AGONISED INARTICULACY

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"THIS SAFAR

THIS JOURNEY

HAD TO BE MADE

A JOURNEY WHICH IS NOT A REAL JOURNEY

BUT IT IS OF IMPORTANCE OF SOME KIND.

WHY AM I HEADING THIS WAY?

IT WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE...

I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO ON

I WAS SUPPOSED TO FOLLOW THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION

BUT PERHAPS THE WRONG DIRECTION

OR A DIFFERENT DIRECTION WAS MEANT TO BE

PERHAPS THE WRONG DIRECTION WAS THE RIGHT ONE?

PERHAPS NO ONE REALLY KNOW THE ROAD WE END UP FOLLOWING

OR THE ROAD WE ARE ON UNKNOWINGLY IS THE RIGHT ROAD

OR THE WRONG ONE...

BUT I HAVE WALKED MILES NOWCAN'T GO BACK...

ALL THE ROAD IN THAT DIRECTION HAVE VANISHED

WHERE IS THAT I AM GOING TO GO?

BCKWARD?

FORWARD?

THE FORWARD ROADS ARE OCCUPIED

THE BACKWARD ROADS ARE DESTROYED

WHERE IS THAT I SHOULD GO?

wHERE IS THAT I WANT TO GO?"        BS

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"LIFE IS VERY CRUEL

OR ONE IS VERY CRUAL TOWARDS LIFE

WE ALL KNOW THAT IT'S ONLY ONE LIFE

AND RATHER A SHORT LIFE

AND WE STILL BEHAVE

AS IF IT'S OUR ENEMY

AND WE TREAT IT ABOMINABLY

IT IS NOT OUR LIFE WHICH IS CRUEL

IT'S OUR OWN CRUELTY WHICH SOAKS

IT INTO AN UNBLESSED AND A MISERABLE STATE.

BE A LOVER TO YOUR LIFE

NOT EVEN A GOOD FRIEND

BUT A SWEETHEART OF A LOVER.

REMEMBER THAT FROM NOW ON...

IT DOESN'T HELP

ALWAYS BEING A MOANER

IT DOESN'T HELP AT ALL

TRUST ME...

I HAVE BEEN A MOANER ALL MY LIFE

NOTHING BUT SELF MUTILATION...

MUTILATION OF THE SOUL

AND DESTRUCTION OF A GIFT

LIFE, MY LIFE, MINE AND ONLY MINE...

MAKE THE BEST OF YOURSELF AND OF THE WORLD

FROM NOW ON....   BS

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"NAGGED AT ME STRIDENTLY." ?

"SUMPTOUS."

"BYZENTINE COPPER AND GOLD

UNDER ENAMELLED BLUE."  ?

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FRAGRANCE OF LIFE

WHEN YOU ARE MISERABLE

PEOPLE GET MIRTH

AND ENORMOUS ENJOYMENT OUT OF IT

BE NOT MISERABLE

OR DON'T LET THEM KNOW

FRAGRANCE OF LIFE...?

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"YOU CAN'T MAKE THIS UP."

 "YOU CAN'T MAKE THIS UP"

FRAGMENT 6

 FRAGMENT 6

EVERYONE IS FOCUSSED ON THE NEXT THING

YOU ARE FREE TO DO THE SAME THING

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"NOBLY AND OBEDIENT TO YOUR OWN DAIMAN ( TO THE GOD THAT IS

WITHIN YOU".)                        Marcus Aurelius

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REVERE TO HOLD AND REGARD IN DEEP RESPECT.          Aurelius

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"CONVERT EVERY HINDERANCE TO AN AID."                      Aurelius

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"IMPROVE YOUR DISPOSITION." "IMPROVE ACTION."        Aurelius

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"POWWER IS INNATE-DEEPLY ROOTED-HUMAN ABILITY

THAT'S POWER. NOT MONEY, NOT STATUS, NOT REWARDS.

INNATE DEEPLY ROOTED ABILITY.

IF YOU ARE HUMAN YOU POSSESS POWER.

IF YOU ARE HUMAN YOU HAVE ABILITY

A LOT OF ABILITY...YOU HEAR?

STOP PUTTING YOURSELF DOWN.

ABILITY IS NOT WHAT OTHERS GRANT YOU

ABILITY YOU DO HAVE BECAUSE YOU ARE HUMAN.

AND IF YOU ARE NOT, OBVIOUSLY YOU HAVE NO ABILITY."   

  SO THE QUESTION IS ARE YOU HUMAN OR NOT? "   ???

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"IT'S IN DOING WHAT MAN'S NATURE REQUIRES."               Aurelius

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'CLOSING THE GAP BETWEEN WHERE YOU ARE NOW AND WHERE HAPPINESS LIES.

MAKE LIFE CHANGES THAT CREATES REAL ENVIORMENT OF HAPPINESS FOR

 YOURSELF.

AM I SEEKING HAPPINESS FROM EXTERNAL CIRCUMSTANCES?

AND SEEKING ATTENTION FROM OTHERS."

IN MY CASE DOING BOTH...

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A LOW LIFE, LOWER THAN MANY SHOWING OFF THAT SHE IS SOMEBODY IMPORTANT

WHILE SHE IS ONLY SELF ABSORBED AND SELF LOVING, SELFISH, RUDE, UNCOUTH,

UNSOPHISTICATED CONSIDERING HERSELF AN INTELLECTUAL ALWAYS GIVING

 LECTURES OF PSEUDO INTELLIGENCE AND WISDOM...WISDOM? THAT'S QUESTIONABLE

SO IS INTELLECT. OH! PEASE SHUT UP, SHUT UP. I CAME TO THIS CAFE TO READ MY

 BOOK, SHUT UP AND LET OTHERS CONCENTRATE ON WORDS OF VALUE.

GO HOME AND BE LOUD AS MUCH AS YOU WANT OR NEED TO FEEL SO IMPORTANT.

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DON'T FEEL HURT BY EXTERNAL THINGS.

HOW SHITTY CAN THEY BE!

SMELLY ROTTEN EXTERNAL THINGS CAN'T BE THE SOURCE OF YOUR SORROW.

SORROW IS A VERY PRECIOUS FEELING. YOU NEED TO GO THROUGH IT...

THAT WILL TAKE CARE OF THE HURT.

NOT THE MEANINGLESS, USELESS,UNCLEAN EXTERNAL THINGS.

YOU MUST NOT THINK SO LOW OF YOUR SELF TO BE HURT BY SARCASTIC REMARKS

 UTTERED WITH FAKE SMILES.

WITH YOUR TALENT AND YOUR EDUCATION IT WOULD BE A SHAME  AND AN INSULT

TO THE POIGNANT FEELING OF BEING HURT.

GET HURT, IF YOU HAVE TO BY A GREAT POEM WHICH REMINDS YOU OF YOUR

 TREMENDOUS LOSS AND NOT BY SOME LOUSY THING OR A NAST REMARK.

BE ABOVE ALL THAT. IT'S DROPS OF OIL SLIPPING ON WATER...

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"LIFE IS COMPOSED OF THREE THINGS.

BODY

BREATH

INTELLIGENCE.........AURELIUS

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"CONSIDER WHAT PAIN IS..."       ??

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